第 55 节
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旅游巴士 更新:2021-02-20 14:19 字数:9322
His rector was a moderate High Churchman of no very pronounced
viewsan elderly man who had had too many curates not to have long
since found out that the connection between rector and curate; like
that between employer and employed in every other walk of life; was
a mere matter of business。 He had now two curates; of whom Ernest
was the junior; the senior curate was named Pryer; and when this
gentleman made advances; as he presently did; Ernest in his forlorn
state was delighted to meet them。
Pryer was about twenty…eight years old。 He had been at Eton and at
Oxford。 He was tall; and passed generally for good…looking; I only
saw him once for about five minutes; and then thought him odious
both in manners and appearance。 Perhaps it was because he caught me
up in a way I did not like。 I had quoted Shakespeare for lack of
something better to fill up a sentenceand had said that one touch
of nature made the whole world kin。 〃Ah;〃 said Pryer; in a bold;
brazen way which displeased me; 〃but one touch of the unnatural
makes it more kindred still;〃 and he gave me a look as though he
thought me an old bore and did not care two straws whether I was
shocked or not。 Naturally enough; after this I did not like him。
This; however; is anticipating; for it was not till Ernest had been
three or four months in London that I happened to meet his fellow…
curate; and I must deal here rather with the effect he produced upon
my godson than upon myself。 Besides being what was generally
considered good…looking; he was faultless in his get…up; and
altogether the kind of man whom Ernest was sure to be afraid of and
yet be taken in by。 The style of his dress was very High Church;
and his acquaintances were exclusively of the extreme High Church
party; but he kept his views a good deal in the background in his
rector's presence; and that gentleman; though he looked askance on
some of Pryer's friends; had no such ground of complaint against him
as to make him sever the connection。 Pryer; too; was popular in the
pulpit; and; take him all round; it was probable that many worse
curates would be found for one better。 When Pryer called on my
hero; as soon as the two were alone together; he eyed him all over
with a quick penetrating glance and seemed not dissatisfied with the
resultfor I must say here that Ernest had improved in personal
appearance under the more genial treatment he had received at
Cambridge。 Pryer; in fact; approved of him sufficiently to treat
him civilly; and Ernest was immediately won by anyone who did this。
It was not long before he discovered that the High Church party; and
even Rome itself; had more to say for themselves than he had
thought。 This was his first snipe…like change of flight。
Pryer introduced him to several of his friends。 They were all of
them young clergymen; belonging as I have said to the highest of the
High Church school; but Ernest was surprised to find how much they
resembled other people when among themselves。 This was a shock to
him; it was ere long a still greater one to find that certain
thoughts which he had warred against as fatal to his soul; and which
he had imagined he should lose once for all on ordination; were
still as troublesome to him as they had been; he also saw plainly
enough that the young gentlemen who formed the circle of Pryer's
friends were in much the same unhappy predicament as himself。
This was deplorable。 The only way out of it that Ernest could see
was that he should get married at once。 But then he did not know
any one whom he wanted to marry。 He did not know any woman; in
fact; whom he would not rather die than marry。 It had been one of
Theobald's and Christina's main objects to keep him out of the way
of women; and they had so far succeeded that women had become to him
mysterious; inscrutable objects to be tolerated when it was
impossible to avoid them; but never to be sought out or encouraged。
As for any man loving; or even being at all fond of any woman; he
supposed it was so; but he believed the greater number of those who
professed such sentiments were liars。 Now; however; it was clear
that he had hoped against hope too long; and that the only thing to
do was to go and ask the first woman who would listen to him to come
and be married to him as soon as possible。
He broached this to Pryer; and was surprised to find that this
gentleman; though attentive to such members of his flock as were
young and good…looking; was strongly in favour of the celibacy of
the clergy; as indeed were the other demure young clerics to whom
Pryer had introduced Ernest。
CHAPTER LII
〃You know; my dear Pontifex;〃 said Pryer to him; some few weeks
after Ernest had become acquainted with him; when the two were
taking a constitutional one day in Kensington Gardens; 〃You know; my
dear Pontifex; it is all very well to quarrel with Rome; but Rome
has reduced the treatment of the human soul to a science; while our
own Church; though so much purer in many respects; has no organised
system either of diagnosis or pathologyI mean; of course;
spiritual diagnosis and spiritual pathology。 Our Church does not
prescribe remedies upon any settled system; and; what is still
worse; even when her physicians have according to their lights
ascertained the disease and pointed out the remedy; she has no
discipline which will ensure its being actually applied。 If our
patients do not choose to do as we tell them; we cannot make them。
Perhaps really under all the circumstances this is as well; for we
are spiritually mere horse doctors as compared with the Roman
priesthood; nor can we hope to make much headway against the sin and
misery that surround us; till we return in some respects to the
practice of our forefathers and of the greater part of Christendom。〃
Ernest asked in what respects it was that his friend desired a
return to the practice of our forefathers。
〃Why; my dear fellow; can you really be ignorant? It is just this;
either the priest is indeed a spiritual guide; as being able to show
people how they ought to live better than they can find out for
themselves; or he is nothing at allhe has no raison d'etre。 If
the priest is not as much a healer and director of men's souls as a
physician is of their bodies; what is he? The history of all ages
has shownand surely you must know this as well as I dothat as
men cannot cure the bodies of their patients if they have not been
properly trained in hospitals under skilled teachers; so neither can
souls be cured of their more hidden ailments without the help of men
who are skilled in soul…craftor in other words; of priests。 What
do one half of our formularies and rubrics mean if not this? How in
the name of all that is reasonable can we find out the exact nature
of a spiritual malady; unless we have had experience of other
similar cases? How can we get this without express training? At
present we have to begin all experiments for ourselves; without
profiting by the organised experience of our predecessors; inasmuch
as that experience is never organised and co…ordinated at all。 At
the outset; therefore; each one of us must ruin many souls which
could be saved by knowledge of a few elementary principles。〃
Ernest was very much impressed。
〃As for men curing themselves;〃 continued Pryer; 〃they can no more
cure their own souls than they can cure their own bodies; or manage
their own law affairs。 In these two last cases they see the folly
of meddling with their own cases clearly enough; and go to a
professional adviser as a matter of course; surely a man's soul is
at once a more difficult and intricate matter to treat; and at the
same time it is more important to him that it should be treated
rightly than that either his body or his money should be so。 What
are we to think of the practice of a Church which encourages people
to rely on unprofessional advice in matters affecting their eternal
welfare; when they would not think of jeopardising their worldly
affairs by such insane conduct?〃
Ernest could see no weak place in this。 These ideas had crossed his
own mind vaguely before now; but he had never laid hold of them or
set them in an orderly manner before himself。 Nor was he quick at
detecting false analogies and the misuse of metaphors; in fact he
was a mere child in the hands of his fellow curate。
〃And what;〃 resumed Pryer; 〃does all this point to? Firstly; to the
duty of confessionthe outcry against which is absurd as an outcry
would be against dissection as part of the training of medical
students。 Granted these young men must see and do a great deal we
do not ourselves like even to think of; but they should adopt some
other profession unless they are prepared for this; they may even
get inoculated with poison from a dead body and lose their lives;
but they must stand their chance。 So if we aspire to be priests in
deed as well as name; we must familiarise ourselves with the
minutest and most repulsive details of all kinds of sin; so that we
may recognise it in all its stages。 Some of us must doubtlessly
perish spiritually in such investigations。 We cannot help it; all
science must have its ma