第 53 节
作者:旅游巴士      更新:2021-02-20 14:19      字数:9322
  pardoned; as a plain matter of business。  There is nothing low or
  unworthy in this; as some lately have pretended; for all nature
  shows us that there is nothing more acceptable to God than an
  enlightened view of our own self…interest; never let anyone delude
  you here; it is a simple question of fact; did certain things happen
  or did they not?  If they did happen; is it reasonable to suppose
  that you will make yourselves and others more happy by one course of
  conduct or by another?
  〃And now let me ask you what answer you have made to this question
  hitherto?  Whose friendship have you chosen?  If; knowing what you
  know; you have not yet begun to act according to the immensity of
  the knowledge that is in you; then he who builds his house and lays
  up his treasure on the edge of a crater of molten lava is a sane;
  sensible person in comparison with yourselves。  I say this as no
  figure of speech or bugbear with which to frighten you; but as an
  unvarnished unexaggerated statement which will be no more disputed
  by yourselves than by me。〃
  And now Mr Hawke; who up to this time had spoken with singular
  quietness; changed his manner to one of greater warmth and continued
  …
  〃Oh! my young friends turn; turn; turn; now while it is called to…
  daynow from this hour; from this instant; stay not even to gird up
  your loins; look not behind you for a second; but fly into the bosom
  of that Christ who is to be found of all who seek him; and from that
  fearful wrath of God which lieth in wait for those who know not the
  things belonging to their peace。  For the Son of Man cometh as a
  thief in the night; and there is not one of us can tell but what
  this day his soul may be required of him。  If there is even one here
  who has heeded me;〃and he let his eye fall for an instant upon
  almost all his hearers; but especially on the Ernest set〃I shall
  know that it was not for nothing that I felt the call of the Lord;
  and heard as I thought a voice by night that bade me come hither
  quickly; for there was a chosen vessel who had need of me。〃
  Here Mr Hawke ended rather abruptly; his earnest manner; striking
  countenance and excellent delivery had produced an effect greater
  than the actual words I have given can convey to the reader; the
  virtue lay in the man more than in what he said; as for the last few
  mysterious words about his having heard a voice by night; their
  effect was magical; there was not one who did not look down to the
  ground; nor who in his heart did not half believe that he was the
  chosen vessel on whose especial behalf God had sent Mr Hawke to
  Cambridge。  Even if this were not so; each one of them felt that he
  was now for the first time in the actual presence of one who had had
  a direct communication from the Almighty; and they were thus
  suddenly brought a hundredfold nearer to the New Testament miracles。
  They were amazed; not to say scared; and as though by tacit consent
  they gathered together; thanked Mr Hawke for his sermon; said good…
  night in a humble deferential manner to Badcock and the other
  Simeonites; and left the room together。  They had heard nothing but
  what they had been hearing all their lives; how was it; then; that
  they were so dumbfoundered by it?  I suppose partly because they had
  lately begun to think more seriously; and were in a fit state to be
  impressed; partly from the greater directness with which each felt
  himself addressed; through the sermon being delivered in a room; and
  partly to the logical consistency; freedom from exaggeration; and
  profound air of conviction with which Mr Hawke had spoken。  His
  simplicity and obvious earnestness had impressed them even before he
  had alluded to his special mission; but this clenched everything;
  and the words 〃Lord; is it I?〃 were upon the hearts of each as they
  walked pensively home through moonlit courts and cloisters。
  I do not know what passed among the Simeonites after the Ernest set
  had left them; but they would have been more than mortal if they had
  not been a good deal elated with the results of the evening。  Why;
  one of Ernest's friends was in the University eleven; and he had
  actually been in Badcock's rooms and had slunk off on saying good…
  night as meekly as any of them。  It was no small thing to have
  scored a success like this。
  CHAPTER L
  Ernest felt now that the turning point of his life had come。  He
  would give up all for Christeven his tobacco。
  So he gathered together his pipes and pouches; and locked them up in
  his portmanteau under his bed where they should be out of sight; and
  as much out of mind as possible。  He did not burn them; because
  someone might come in who wanted to smoke; and though he might
  abridge his own liberty; yet; as smoking was not a sin; there was no
  reason why he should be hard on other people。
  After breakfast he left his rooms to call on a man named Dawson; who
  had been one of Mr Hawke's hearers on the preceding evening; and who
  was reading for ordination at the forthcoming Ember Weeks; now only
  four months distant。  This man had been always of a rather serious
  turn of minda little too much so for Ernest's taste; but times had
  changed; and Dawson's undoubted sincerity seemed to render him a
  fitting counsellor for Ernest at the present time。  As he was going
  through the first court of John's on his way to Dawson's rooms; he
  met Badcock; and greeted him with some deference。  His advance was
  received with one of those ecstatic gleams which shone occasionally
  upon the face of Badcock; and which; if Ernest had known more; would
  have reminded him of Robespierre。  As it was; he saw it and
  unconsciously recognised the unrest and self…seekingness of the man;
  but could not yet formulate them; he disliked Badcock more than
  ever; but as he was going to profit by the spiritual benefits which
  he had put in his way; he was bound to be civil to him; and civil he
  therefore was。
  Badcock told him that Mr Hawke had returned to town immediately his
  discourse was over; but that before doing so he had enquired
  particularly who Ernest and two or three others were。  I believe
  each one of Ernest's friends was given to understand that he had
  been more or less particularly enquired after。  Ernest's vanityfor
  he was his mother's sonwas tickled at this; the idea again
  presented itself to him that he might be the one for whose benefit
  Mr Hawke had been sent。  There was something; too; in Badcock's
  manner which conveyed the idea that he could say more if he chose;
  but had been enjoined to silence。
  On reaching Dawson's rooms; he found his friend in raptures over the
  discourse of the preceding evening。  Hardly less delighted was he
  with the effect it had produced on Ernest。  He had always known; he
  said; that Ernest would come round; he had been sure of it; but he
  had hardly expected the conversion to be so sudden。  Ernest said no
  more had he; but now that he saw his duty so clearly he would get
  ordained as soon as possible; and take a curacy; even though the
  doing so would make him have to go down from Cambridge earlier;
  which would be a great grief to him。  Dawson applauded this
  determination; and it was arranged that as Ernest was still more or
  less of a weak brother; Dawson should take him; so to speak; in
  spiritual tow for a while; and strengthen and confirm his faith。
  An offensive and defensive alliance therefore was struck up between
  this pair (who were in reality singularly ill assorted); and Ernest
  set to work to master the books on which the Bishop would examine
  him。  Others gradually joined them till they formed a small set or
  church (for these are the same things); and the effect of Mr Hawke's
  sermon instead of wearing off in a few days; as might have been
  expected; became more and more marked; so much so that it was
  necessary for Ernest's friends to hold him back rather than urge him
  on; for he seemed likely to developas indeed he did for a time
  into a religious enthusiast。
  In one matter only; did he openly backslide。  He had; as I said
  above; locked up his pipes and tobacco; so that he might not be
  tempted to use them。  All day long on the day after Mr Hawke's
  sermon he let them lie in his portmanteau bravely; but this was not
  very difficult; as he had for some time given up smoking till after
  hall。  After hall this day he did not smoke till chapel time; and
  then went to chapel in self…defence。  When he returned he determined
  to look at the matter from a common sense point of view。  On this he
  saw that; provided tobacco did not injure his healthand he really
  could not see that it didit stood much on the same footing as tea
  or coffee。
  Tobacco had nowhere been forbidden in the Bible; but then it had not
  yet been discovered; and had probably only escaped proscription for
  this reason。  We can conceive of St Paul or even our Lord Himself as
  drinking a cup of tea; but we cannot imagine either of them as
  smoking a cigarette or a churchwarden。  Ernest could not deny this;
  and admitted that Paul would almost certainly have condemned tobacco
  in good round terms if he had known of its existence。  Was it not
  then taking rather a mean advantage of the Apostle to stand on his
  not having actually forbidden it?  On the o