第 51 节
作者:旅游巴士      更新:2021-02-20 14:19      字数:9322
  tearing them to pieces and flinging the bits over Ernest as soon as
  she had had enough of them。
  The worst of it was that she had so often proved to be right。  Boys
  and young men are violent in their affections; but they are seldom
  very constant; it is not till they get older that they really know
  the kind of friend they want; in their earlier essays young men are
  simply learning to judge character。  Ernest had been no exception to
  the general rule。  His swans had one after the other proved to be
  more or less geese even in his own estimation; and he was beginning
  almost to think that his mother was a better judge of character than
  he was; but I think it may be assumed with some certainty that if
  Ernest had brought her a real young swan she would have declared it
  to be the ugliest and worst goose of all that she had yet seen。
  At first he had not suspected that his friends were wanted with a
  view to Charlotte; it was understood that Charlotte and they might
  perhaps take a fancy for one another; and that would be so very
  nice; would it not?  But he did not see that there was any
  deliberate malice in the arrangement。  Now; however; that he had
  awoke to what it all meant; he was less inclined to bring any friend
  of his to Battersby。  It seemed to his silly young mind almost
  dishonest to ask your friend to come and see you when all you really
  meant was 〃Please; marry my sister。〃  It was like trying to obtain
  money under false pretences。  If he had been fond of Charlotte it
  might have been another matter; but he thought her one of the most
  disagreeable young women in the whole circle of his acquaintance。
  She was supposed to be very clever。  All young ladies are either
  very pretty or very clever or very sweet; they may take their choice
  as to which category they will go in for; but go in for one of the
  three they must。  It was hopeless to try and pass Charlotte off as
  either pretty or sweet。  So she became clever as the only remaining
  alternative。  Ernest never knew what particular branch of study it
  was in which she showed her talent; for she could neither play nor
  sing nor draw; but so astute are women that his mother and Charlotte
  really did persuade him into thinking that she; Charlotte; had
  something more akin to true genius than any other member of the
  family。  Not one; however; of all the friends whom Ernest had been
  inveigled into trying to inveigle had shown the least sign of being
  so far struck with Charlotte's commanding powers; as to wish to make
  them his own; and this may have had something to do with the
  rapidity and completeness with which Christina had dismissed them
  one after another and had wanted a new one。
  And now she wanted Towneley。  Ernest had seen this coming and had
  tried to avoid it; for he knew how impossible it was for him to ask
  Towneley; even if he had wished to do so。
  Towneley belonged to one of the most exclusive sets in Cambridge;
  and was perhaps the most popular man among the whole number of
  undergraduates。  He was big and very handsomeas it seemed to
  Ernest the handsomest man whom he ever had seen or ever could see;
  for it was impossible to imagine a more lively and agreeable
  countenance。  He was good at cricket and boating; very good…natured;
  singularly free from conceit; not clever but very sensible; and;
  lastly; his father and mother had been drowned by the overturning of
  a boat when he was only two years old and had left him as their only
  child and heir to one of the finest estates in the South of England。
  Fortune every now and then does things handsomely by a man all
  round; Towneley was one of those to whom she had taken a fancy; and
  the universal verdict in this case was that she had chosen wisely。
  Ernest had seen Towneley as every one else in the University
  (except; of course; dons) had seen him; for he was a man of mark;
  and being very susceptible he had liked Towneley even more than most
  people did; but at the same time it never so much as entered his
  head that he should come to know him。  He liked looking at him if he
  got a chance; and was very much ashamed of himself for doing so; but
  there the matter ended。
  By a strange accident; however; during Ernest's last year; when the
  names of the crews for the scratch fours were drawn he had found
  himself coxswain of a crew; among whom was none other than his
  especial hero Towneley; the three others were ordinary mortals; but
  they could row fairly well; and the crew on the whole was rather a
  good one。
  Ernest was frightened out of his wits。  When; however; the two met;
  he found Towneley no less remarkable for his entire want of anything
  like 〃side;〃 and for his power of setting those whom he came across
  at their ease; than he was for outward accomplishments; the only
  difference he found between Towneley and other people was that he
  was so very much easier to get on with。  Of course Ernest worshipped
  him more and more。
  The scratch fours being ended the connection between the two came to
  an end; but Towneley never passed Ernest thenceforward without a nod
  and a few good…natured words。  In an evil moment he had mentioned
  Towneley's name at Battersby; and now what was the result?  Here was
  his mother plaguing him to ask Towneley to come down to Battersby
  and marry Charlotte。  Why; if he had thought there was the remotest
  chance of Towneley's marrying Charlotte he would have gone down on
  his knees to him and told him what an odious young woman she was;
  and implored him to save himself while there was yet time。
  But Ernest had not prayed to be made 〃truly honest and
  conscientious〃 for as many years as Christina had。  He tried to
  conceal what he felt and thought as well as he could; and led the
  conversation back to the difficulties which a clergyman might feel
  to stand in the way of his being ordainednot because he had any
  misgivings; but as a diversion。  His mother; however; thought she
  had settled all that; and he got no more out of her。  Soon
  afterwards he found the means of escaping; and was not slow to avail
  himself of them。
  CHAPTER XLIX
  On his return to Cambridge in the May term of 1858; Ernest and a few
  other friends who were also intended for orders came to the
  conclusion that they must now take a more serious view of their
  position。  They therefore attended chapel more regularly than
  hitherto; and held evening meetings of a somewhat furtive character;
  at which they would study the New Testament。  They even began to
  commit the Epistles of St Paul to memory in the original Greek。
  They got up Beveridge on the Thirty…nine Articles; and Pearson on
  the Creed; in their hours of recreation they read More's 〃Mystery of
  Godliness;〃 which Ernest thought was charming; and Taylor's 〃Holy
  Living and Dying;〃 which also impressed him deeply; through what he
  thought was the splendour of its language。  They handed themselves
  over to the guidance of Dean Alford's notes on the Greek Testament;
  which made Ernest better understand what was meant by
  〃difficulties;〃 but also made him feel how shallow and impotent were
  the conclusions arrived at by German neologians; with whose works;
  being innocent of German; he was not otherwise acquainted。  Some of
  the friends who joined him in these pursuits were Johnians; and the
  meetings were often held within the walls of St John's。
  I do not know how tidings of these furtive gatherings had reached
  the Simeonites; but they must have come round to them in some way;
  for they had not been continued many weeks before a circular was
  sent to each of the young men who attended them; informing them that
  the Rev。 Gideon Hawke; a well…known London Evangelical preacher;
  whose sermons were then much talked of; was about to visit his young
  friend Badcock of St John's; and would be glad to say a few words to
  any who might wish to hear them; in Badcock's rooms on a certain
  evening in May。
  Badcock was one of the most notorious of all the Simeonites。  Not
  only was he ugly; dirty; ill…dressed; bumptious; and in every way
  objectionable; but he was deformed and waddled when he walked so
  that he had won a nick…name which I can only reproduce by calling it
  〃Here's my back; and there's my back;〃 because the lower parts of
  his back emphasised themselves demonstratively as though about to
  fly off in different directions like the two extreme notes in the
  chord of the augmented sixth; with every step he took。  It may be
  guessed; therefore; that the receipt of the circular had for a
  moment an almost paralysing effect on those to whom it was
  addressed; owing to the astonishment which it occasioned them。  It
  certainly was a daring surprise; but like so many deformed people;
  Badcock was forward and hard to check; he was a pushing fellow to
  whom the present was just the opportunity he wanted for carrying war
  into the enemy's quarters。
  Ernest and his friends consulted。  Moved by the feeling that as they
  were now preparing to be clergymen they ought not to stand so
  stiffly on social dignity as heretofore; and also perhaps by the
  desire to have a good private view of a preacher who was then much
  upon the lips of men; they decided to accept the invitation。  When
  the appointed time came they went with so