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旅游巴士 更新:2021-02-20 14:19 字数:9322
tearing them to pieces and flinging the bits over Ernest as soon as
she had had enough of them。
The worst of it was that she had so often proved to be right。 Boys
and young men are violent in their affections; but they are seldom
very constant; it is not till they get older that they really know
the kind of friend they want; in their earlier essays young men are
simply learning to judge character。 Ernest had been no exception to
the general rule。 His swans had one after the other proved to be
more or less geese even in his own estimation; and he was beginning
almost to think that his mother was a better judge of character than
he was; but I think it may be assumed with some certainty that if
Ernest had brought her a real young swan she would have declared it
to be the ugliest and worst goose of all that she had yet seen。
At first he had not suspected that his friends were wanted with a
view to Charlotte; it was understood that Charlotte and they might
perhaps take a fancy for one another; and that would be so very
nice; would it not? But he did not see that there was any
deliberate malice in the arrangement。 Now; however; that he had
awoke to what it all meant; he was less inclined to bring any friend
of his to Battersby。 It seemed to his silly young mind almost
dishonest to ask your friend to come and see you when all you really
meant was 〃Please; marry my sister。〃 It was like trying to obtain
money under false pretences。 If he had been fond of Charlotte it
might have been another matter; but he thought her one of the most
disagreeable young women in the whole circle of his acquaintance。
She was supposed to be very clever。 All young ladies are either
very pretty or very clever or very sweet; they may take their choice
as to which category they will go in for; but go in for one of the
three they must。 It was hopeless to try and pass Charlotte off as
either pretty or sweet。 So she became clever as the only remaining
alternative。 Ernest never knew what particular branch of study it
was in which she showed her talent; for she could neither play nor
sing nor draw; but so astute are women that his mother and Charlotte
really did persuade him into thinking that she; Charlotte; had
something more akin to true genius than any other member of the
family。 Not one; however; of all the friends whom Ernest had been
inveigled into trying to inveigle had shown the least sign of being
so far struck with Charlotte's commanding powers; as to wish to make
them his own; and this may have had something to do with the
rapidity and completeness with which Christina had dismissed them
one after another and had wanted a new one。
And now she wanted Towneley。 Ernest had seen this coming and had
tried to avoid it; for he knew how impossible it was for him to ask
Towneley; even if he had wished to do so。
Towneley belonged to one of the most exclusive sets in Cambridge;
and was perhaps the most popular man among the whole number of
undergraduates。 He was big and very handsomeas it seemed to
Ernest the handsomest man whom he ever had seen or ever could see;
for it was impossible to imagine a more lively and agreeable
countenance。 He was good at cricket and boating; very good…natured;
singularly free from conceit; not clever but very sensible; and;
lastly; his father and mother had been drowned by the overturning of
a boat when he was only two years old and had left him as their only
child and heir to one of the finest estates in the South of England。
Fortune every now and then does things handsomely by a man all
round; Towneley was one of those to whom she had taken a fancy; and
the universal verdict in this case was that she had chosen wisely。
Ernest had seen Towneley as every one else in the University
(except; of course; dons) had seen him; for he was a man of mark;
and being very susceptible he had liked Towneley even more than most
people did; but at the same time it never so much as entered his
head that he should come to know him。 He liked looking at him if he
got a chance; and was very much ashamed of himself for doing so; but
there the matter ended。
By a strange accident; however; during Ernest's last year; when the
names of the crews for the scratch fours were drawn he had found
himself coxswain of a crew; among whom was none other than his
especial hero Towneley; the three others were ordinary mortals; but
they could row fairly well; and the crew on the whole was rather a
good one。
Ernest was frightened out of his wits。 When; however; the two met;
he found Towneley no less remarkable for his entire want of anything
like 〃side;〃 and for his power of setting those whom he came across
at their ease; than he was for outward accomplishments; the only
difference he found between Towneley and other people was that he
was so very much easier to get on with。 Of course Ernest worshipped
him more and more。
The scratch fours being ended the connection between the two came to
an end; but Towneley never passed Ernest thenceforward without a nod
and a few good…natured words。 In an evil moment he had mentioned
Towneley's name at Battersby; and now what was the result? Here was
his mother plaguing him to ask Towneley to come down to Battersby
and marry Charlotte。 Why; if he had thought there was the remotest
chance of Towneley's marrying Charlotte he would have gone down on
his knees to him and told him what an odious young woman she was;
and implored him to save himself while there was yet time。
But Ernest had not prayed to be made 〃truly honest and
conscientious〃 for as many years as Christina had。 He tried to
conceal what he felt and thought as well as he could; and led the
conversation back to the difficulties which a clergyman might feel
to stand in the way of his being ordainednot because he had any
misgivings; but as a diversion。 His mother; however; thought she
had settled all that; and he got no more out of her。 Soon
afterwards he found the means of escaping; and was not slow to avail
himself of them。
CHAPTER XLIX
On his return to Cambridge in the May term of 1858; Ernest and a few
other friends who were also intended for orders came to the
conclusion that they must now take a more serious view of their
position。 They therefore attended chapel more regularly than
hitherto; and held evening meetings of a somewhat furtive character;
at which they would study the New Testament。 They even began to
commit the Epistles of St Paul to memory in the original Greek。
They got up Beveridge on the Thirty…nine Articles; and Pearson on
the Creed; in their hours of recreation they read More's 〃Mystery of
Godliness;〃 which Ernest thought was charming; and Taylor's 〃Holy
Living and Dying;〃 which also impressed him deeply; through what he
thought was the splendour of its language。 They handed themselves
over to the guidance of Dean Alford's notes on the Greek Testament;
which made Ernest better understand what was meant by
〃difficulties;〃 but also made him feel how shallow and impotent were
the conclusions arrived at by German neologians; with whose works;
being innocent of German; he was not otherwise acquainted。 Some of
the friends who joined him in these pursuits were Johnians; and the
meetings were often held within the walls of St John's。
I do not know how tidings of these furtive gatherings had reached
the Simeonites; but they must have come round to them in some way;
for they had not been continued many weeks before a circular was
sent to each of the young men who attended them; informing them that
the Rev。 Gideon Hawke; a well…known London Evangelical preacher;
whose sermons were then much talked of; was about to visit his young
friend Badcock of St John's; and would be glad to say a few words to
any who might wish to hear them; in Badcock's rooms on a certain
evening in May。
Badcock was one of the most notorious of all the Simeonites。 Not
only was he ugly; dirty; ill…dressed; bumptious; and in every way
objectionable; but he was deformed and waddled when he walked so
that he had won a nick…name which I can only reproduce by calling it
〃Here's my back; and there's my back;〃 because the lower parts of
his back emphasised themselves demonstratively as though about to
fly off in different directions like the two extreme notes in the
chord of the augmented sixth; with every step he took。 It may be
guessed; therefore; that the receipt of the circular had for a
moment an almost paralysing effect on those to whom it was
addressed; owing to the astonishment which it occasioned them。 It
certainly was a daring surprise; but like so many deformed people;
Badcock was forward and hard to check; he was a pushing fellow to
whom the present was just the opportunity he wanted for carrying war
into the enemy's quarters。
Ernest and his friends consulted。 Moved by the feeling that as they
were now preparing to be clergymen they ought not to stand so
stiffly on social dignity as heretofore; and also perhaps by the
desire to have a good private view of a preacher who was then much
upon the lips of men; they decided to accept the invitation。 When
the appointed time came they went with so