第 50 节
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旅游巴士 更新:2021-02-20 14:19 字数:9322
〃You know; my dearest boy;〃 she said to him; 〃that papa〃 (she always
called Theobald 〃papa〃 when talking to Ernest) 〃is so anxious you
should not go into the Church blindly; and without fully realising
the difficulties of a clergyman's position。 He has considered all
of them himself; and has been shown how small they are; when they
are faced boldly; but he wishes you; too; to feel them as strongly
and completely as possible before committing yourself to irrevocable
vows; so that you may never; never have to regret the step you will
have taken。〃
This was the first time Ernest had heard that there were any
difficulties; and he not unnaturally enquired in a vague way after
their nature。
〃That; my dear boy;〃 rejoined Christina; 〃is a question which I am
not fitted to enter upon either by nature or education。 I might
easily unsettle your mind without being able to settle it again。
Oh; no! Such questions are far better avoided by women; and; I
should have thought; by men; but papa wished me to speak to you upon
the subject; so that there might be no mistake hereafter; and I have
done so。 Now; therefore; you know all。〃
The conversation ended here; so far as this subject was concerned;
and Ernest thought he did know all。 His mother would not have told
him he knew allnot about a matter of that sortunless he actually
did know it; well; it did not come to very much; he supposed there
were some difficulties; but his father; who at any rate was an
excellent scholar and a learned man; was probably quite right here;
and he need not trouble himself more about them。 So little
impression did the conversation make on him; that it was not till
long afterwards that; happening to remember it; he saw what a piece
of sleight of hand had been practised upon him。 Theobald and
Christina; however; were satisfied that they had done their duty by
opening their son's eyes to the difficulties of assenting to all a
clergyman must assent to。 This was enough; it was a matter for
rejoicing that; though they had been put so fully and candidly
before him; he did not find them serious。 It was not in vain that
they had prayed for so many years to be made 〃TRULY honest and
conscientious。〃
〃And now; my dear;〃 resumed Christina; after having disposed of all
the difficulties that might stand in the way of Ernest's becoming a
clergyman; 〃there is another matter on which I should like to have a
talk with you。 It is about your sister Charlotte。 You know how
clever she is; and what a dear; kind sister she has been and always
will be to yourself and Joey。 I wish; my dearest Ernest; that I saw
more chance of her finding a suitable husband than I do at
Battersby; and I sometimes think you might do more than you do to
help her。〃
Ernest began to chafe at this; for he had heard it so often; but he
said nothing。
〃You know; my dear; a brother can do so much for his sister if he
lays himself out to do it。 A mother can do very littleindeed; it
is hardly a mother's place to seek out young men; it is a brother's
place to find a suitable partner for his sister; all that I can do
is to try to make Battersby as attractive as possible to any of your
friends whom you may invite。 And in that;〃 she added; with a little
toss of her head; 〃I do not think I have been deficient hitherto。〃
Ernest said he had already at different times asked several of his
friends。
〃Yes; my dear; but you must admit that they were none of them
exactly the kind of young man whom Charlotte could be expected to
take a fancy to。 Indeed; I must own to having been a little
disappointed that you should have yourself chosen any of these as
your intimate friends。〃
Ernest winced again。
〃You never brought down Figgins when you were at Roughborough; now I
should have thought Figgins would have been just the kind of boy
whom you might have asked to come and see us。〃
Figgins had been gone through times out of number already。 Ernest
had hardly known him; and Figgins; being nearly three years older
than Ernest; had left long before he did。 Besides he had not been a
nice boy; and had made himself unpleasant to Ernest in many ways。
〃Now;〃 continued his mother; 〃there's Towneley。 I have heard you
speak of Towneley as having rowed with you in a boat at Cambridge。
I wish; my dear; you would cultivate your acquaintance with
Towneley; and ask him to pay us a visit。 The name has an
aristocratic sound; and I think I have heard you say he is an eldest
son。〃
Ernest flushed at the sound of Towneley's name。
What had really happened in respect of Ernest's friends was briefly
this。 His mother liked to get hold of the names of the boys and
especially of any who were at all intimate with her son; the more
she heard; the more she wanted to know; there was no gorging her to
satiety; she was like a ravenous young cuckoo being fed upon a grass
plot by a water wag…tail; she would swallow all that Ernest could
bring her; and yet be as hungry as before。 And she always went to
Ernest for her meals rather than to Joey; for Joey was either more
stupid or more impenetrableat any rate she could pump Ernest much
the better of the two。
From time to time an actual live boy had been thrown to her; either
by being caught and brought to Battersby; or by being asked to meet
her if at any time she came to Roughborough。 She had generally made
herself agreeable; or fairly agreeable; as long as the boy was
present; but as soon as she got Ernest to herself again she changed
her note。 Into whatever form she might throw her criticisms it came
always in the end to this; that his friend was no good; that Ernest
was not much better; and that he should have brought her someone
else; for this one would not do at all。
The more intimate the boy had been or was supposed to be with Ernest
the more he was declared to be naught; till in the end he had hit
upon the plan of saying; concerning any boy whom he particularly
liked; that he was not one of his especial chums; and that indeed he
hardly knew why he had asked him; but he found he only fell on
Scylla in trying to avoid Charybdis; for though the boy was declared
to be more successful it was Ernest who was naught for not thinking
more highly of him。
When she had once got hold of a name she never forgot it。 〃And how
is So…and…so?〃 she would exclaim; mentioning some former friend of
Ernest's with whom he had either now quarrelled; or who had long
since proved to be a mere comet and no fixed star at all。 How
Ernest wished he had never mentioned So…and…so's name; and vowed to
himself that he would never talk about his friends in future; but in
a few hours he would forget and would prattle away as imprudently as
ever; then his mother would pounce noiselessly on his remarks as a
barn…owl pounces upon a mouse; and would bring them up in a pellet
six months afterwards when they were no longer in harmony with their
surroundings。
Then there was Theobald。 If a boy or college friend had been
invited to Battersby; Theobald would lay himself out at first to be
agreeable。 He could do this well enough when he liked; and as
regards the outside world he generally did like。 His clerical
neighbours; and indeed all his neighbours; respected him yearly more
and more; and would have given Ernest sufficient cause to regret his
imprudence if he had dared to hint that he had anything; however
little; to complain of。 Theobald's mind worked in this way: 〃Now;
I know Ernest has told this boy what a disagreeable person I am; and
I will just show him that I am not disagreeable at all; but a good
old fellow; a jolly old boy; in fact a regular old brick; and that
it is Ernest who is in fault all through。〃
So he would behave very nicely to the boy at first; and the boy
would be delighted with him; and side with him against Ernest。 Of
course if Ernest had got the boy to come to Battersby he wanted him
to enjoy his visit; and was therefore pleased that Theobald should
behave so well; but at the same time he stood so much in need of
moral support that it was painful to him to see one of his own
familiar friends go over to the enemy's camp。 For no matter how
well we may know a thinghow clearly we may see a certain patch of
colour; for example; as red; it shakes us and knocks us about to
find another see it; or be more than half inclined to see it; as
green。
Theobald had generally begun to get a little impatient before the
end of the visit; but the impression formed during the earlier part
was the one which the visitor had carried away with him。 Theobald
never discussed any of the boys with Ernest。 It was Christina who
did this。 Theobald let them come; because Christina in a quiet;
persistent way insisted on it; when they did come he behaved; as I
have said; civilly; but he did not like it; whereas Christina did
like it very much; she would have had half Roughborough and half
Cambridge to come and stay at Battersby if she could have managed
it; and if it would not have cost so much money: she liked their
coming; so that she might make a new acquaintance; and she liked
tearing them to pieces and flinging the bits over Ernest as soon as
she had had enough of th