第 22 节
作者:旅游巴士      更新:2021-02-20 14:19      字数:9322
  Pontifexes would see no miracle in this matter of the water from the
  Jordan。  The essence of a miracle lay not in the fact that means had
  been dispensed with; but in the adoption of means to a great end
  that had not been available without interference; and no one would
  suppose that Dr Jones would have brought the water unless he had
  been directed。  She would tell this to Theobald; and get him to see
  it in the 。 。 。 and yet perhaps it would be better not。  The insight
  of women upon matters of this sort was deeper and more unerring than
  that of men。  It was a woman and not a man who had been filled most
  completely with the whole fulness of the Deity。  But why had they
  not treasured up the water after it was used?  It ought never; never
  to have been thrown away; but it had been。  Perhaps; however; this
  was for the best toothey might have been tempted to set too much
  store by it; and it might have become a source of spiritual danger
  to themperhaps even of spiritual pride; the very sin of all others
  which she most abhorred。  As for the channel through which the
  Jordan had flowed to Battersby; that mattered not more than the
  earth through which the river ran in Palestine itself。  Dr Jones was
  certainly worldlyvery worldly; so; she regretted to feel; had been
  her father…in…law; though in a less degree; spiritual; at heart;
  doubtless; and becoming more and more spiritual continually as he
  grew older; still he was tainted with the world; till a very few
  hours; probably; before his death; whereas she and Theobald had
  given up all for Christ's sake。  THEY were not worldly。  At least
  Theobald was not。  She had been; but she was sure she had grown in
  grace since she had left off eating things strangled and bloodthis
  was as the washing in Jordan as against Abana and Pharpar; rivers of
  Damascus。  Her boy should never touch a strangled fowl nor a black
  puddingthat; at any rate; she could see to。  He should have a
  coral from the neighbourhood of Joppathere were coral insects on
  those coasts; so that the thing could easily be done with a little
  energy; she would write to Dr Jones about it; etc。  And so on for
  hours together day after day for years。  Truly; Mrs Theobald loved
  her child according to her lights with an exceeding great fondness;
  but the dreams she had dreamed in sleep were sober realities in
  comparison with those she indulged in while awake。
  When Ernest was in his second year; Theobald; as I have already
  said; began to teach him to read。  He began to whip him two days
  after he had begun to teach him。
  〃It was painful;〃 as he said to Christina; but it was the only thing
  to do and it was done。  The child was puny; white and sickly; so
  they sent continually for the doctor who dosed him with calomel and
  James's powder。  All was done in love; anxiety; timidity; stupidity;
  and impatience。  They were stupid in little things; and he that is
  stupid in little will be stupid also in much。
  Presently old Mr Pontifex died; and then came the revelation of the
  little alteration he had made in his will simultaneously with his
  bequest to Ernest。  It was rather hard to bear; especially as there
  was no way of conveying a bit of their minds to the testator now
  that he could no longer hurt them。  As regards the boy himself
  anyone must see that the bequest would be an unmitigated misfortune
  to him。  To leave him a small independence was perhaps the greatest
  injury which one could inflict upon a young man。  It would cripple
  his energies; and deaden his desire for active employment。  Many a
  youth was led into evil courses by the knowledge that on arriving at
  majority he would come into a few thousands。  They might surely have
  been trusted to have their boy's interests at heart; and must be
  better judges of those interests than he; at twenty…one; could be
  expected to be:  besides if Jonadab; the son of Rechab's fatheror
  perhaps it might be simpler under the circumstances to say Rechab at
  onceif Rechab; then; had left handsome legacies to his
  grandchildrenwhy Jonadab might not have found those children so
  easy to deal with; etc。  〃My dear;〃 said Theobald; after having
  discussed the matter with Christina for the twentieth time; 〃my
  dear; the only thing to guide and console us under misfortunes of
  this kind is to take refuge in practical work。  I will go and pay a
  visit to Mrs Thompson。〃
  On those days Mrs Thompson would be told that her sins were all
  washed white; etc。; a little sooner and a little more peremptorily
  than on others。
  CHAPTER XXII
  I used to stay at Battersby for a day or two sometimes; while my
  godson and his brother and sister were children。  I hardly know why
  I went; for Theobald and I grew more and more apart; but one gets
  into grooves sometimes; and the supposed friendship between myself
  and the Pontifexes continued to exist; though it was now little more
  than rudimentary。  My godson pleased me more than either of the
  other children; but he had not much of the buoyancy of childhood;
  and was more like a puny; sallow little old man than I liked。  The
  young people; however; were very ready to be friendly。
  I remember Ernest and his brother hovered round me on the first day
  of one of these visits with their hands full of fading flowers;
  which they at length proffered me。  On this I did what I suppose was
  expected:  I inquired if there was a shop near where they could buy
  sweeties。  They said there was; so I felt in my pockets; but only
  succeeded in finding two pence halfpenny in small money。  This I
  gave them; and the youngsters; aged four and three; toddled off
  alone。  Ere long they returned; and Ernest said; 〃We can't get
  sweeties for all this money〃 (I felt rebuked; but no rebuke was
  intended); 〃we can get sweeties for this〃 (showing a penny); 〃and
  for this〃 (showing another penny); 〃but we cannot get them for all
  this;〃 and he added the halfpenny to the two pence。  I suppose they
  had wanted a twopenny cake; or something like that。  I was amused;
  and left them to solve the difficulty their own way; being anxious
  to see what they would do。
  Presently Ernest said; 〃May we give you back this〃 (showing the
  halfpenny) 〃and not give you back this and this?〃 (showing the
  pence)。  I assented; and they gave a sigh of relief and went on
  their way rejoicing。  A few more presents of pence and small toys
  completed the conquest; and they began to take me into their
  confidence。
  They told me a good deal which I am afraid I ought not to have
  listened to。  They said that if grandpapa had lived longer he would
  most likely have been made a Lord; and that then papa would have
  been the Honourable and Reverend; but that grandpapa was now in
  heaven singing beautiful hymns with grandmamma Allaby to Jesus
  Christ; who was very fond of them; and that when Ernest was ill; his
  mamma had told him he need not be afraid of dying for he would go
  straight to heaven; if he would only be sorry for having done his
  lessons so badly and vexed his dear papa; and if he would promise
  never; never to vex him any more; and that when he got to heaven
  grandpapa and grandmamma Allaby would meet him; and he would be
  always with them; and they would be very good to him and teach him
  to sing ever such beautiful hymns; more beautiful by far than those
  which he was now so fond of; etc。; etc。; but he did not wish to die;
  and was glad when he got better; for there were no kittens in
  heaven; and he did not think there were cowslips to make cowslip tea
  with。
  Their mother was plainly disappointed in them。  〃My children are
  none of them geniuses; Mr Overton;〃 she said to me at breakfast one
  morning。  〃They have fair abilities; and; thanks to Theobald's
  tuition; they are forward for their years; but they have nothing
  like genius:  genius is a thing apart from this; is it not?〃
  Of course I said it was 〃a thing quite apart from this;〃 but if my
  thoughts had been laid bare; they would have appeared as 〃Give me my
  coffee immediately; ma'am; and don't talk nonsense。〃  I have no idea
  what genius is; but so far as I can form any conception about it; I
  should say it was a stupid word which cannot be too soon abandoned
  to scientific and literary claqueurs。
  I do not know exactly what Christina expected; but I should imagine
  it was something like this:  〃My children ought to be all geniuses;
  because they are mine and Theobald's; and it is naughty of them not
  to be; but; of course; they cannot be so good and clever as Theobald
  and I were; and if they show signs of being so it will be naughty of
  them。  Happily; however; they are not this; and yet it is very
  dreadful that they are not。  As for geniushoity…toity; indeed
  why; a genius should turn intellectual summersaults as soon as it is
  born; and none of my children have yet been able to get into the
  newspapers。  I will not have children of mine give themselves airs
  it is enough for them that Theobald and I should do so。〃
  She did not know; poor woman; that the true greatness wears an
  invisible cloak; under cover of which it goes in and out among men
  without being suspected; if its cloak does not conceal it from
  itself always; and from all others for many years; its greatness
  will ere long shrink to very or