第 22 节
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旅游巴士 更新:2021-02-20 14:19 字数:9322
Pontifexes would see no miracle in this matter of the water from the
Jordan。 The essence of a miracle lay not in the fact that means had
been dispensed with; but in the adoption of means to a great end
that had not been available without interference; and no one would
suppose that Dr Jones would have brought the water unless he had
been directed。 She would tell this to Theobald; and get him to see
it in the 。 。 。 and yet perhaps it would be better not。 The insight
of women upon matters of this sort was deeper and more unerring than
that of men。 It was a woman and not a man who had been filled most
completely with the whole fulness of the Deity。 But why had they
not treasured up the water after it was used? It ought never; never
to have been thrown away; but it had been。 Perhaps; however; this
was for the best toothey might have been tempted to set too much
store by it; and it might have become a source of spiritual danger
to themperhaps even of spiritual pride; the very sin of all others
which she most abhorred。 As for the channel through which the
Jordan had flowed to Battersby; that mattered not more than the
earth through which the river ran in Palestine itself。 Dr Jones was
certainly worldlyvery worldly; so; she regretted to feel; had been
her father…in…law; though in a less degree; spiritual; at heart;
doubtless; and becoming more and more spiritual continually as he
grew older; still he was tainted with the world; till a very few
hours; probably; before his death; whereas she and Theobald had
given up all for Christ's sake。 THEY were not worldly。 At least
Theobald was not。 She had been; but she was sure she had grown in
grace since she had left off eating things strangled and bloodthis
was as the washing in Jordan as against Abana and Pharpar; rivers of
Damascus。 Her boy should never touch a strangled fowl nor a black
puddingthat; at any rate; she could see to。 He should have a
coral from the neighbourhood of Joppathere were coral insects on
those coasts; so that the thing could easily be done with a little
energy; she would write to Dr Jones about it; etc。 And so on for
hours together day after day for years。 Truly; Mrs Theobald loved
her child according to her lights with an exceeding great fondness;
but the dreams she had dreamed in sleep were sober realities in
comparison with those she indulged in while awake。
When Ernest was in his second year; Theobald; as I have already
said; began to teach him to read。 He began to whip him two days
after he had begun to teach him。
〃It was painful;〃 as he said to Christina; but it was the only thing
to do and it was done。 The child was puny; white and sickly; so
they sent continually for the doctor who dosed him with calomel and
James's powder。 All was done in love; anxiety; timidity; stupidity;
and impatience。 They were stupid in little things; and he that is
stupid in little will be stupid also in much。
Presently old Mr Pontifex died; and then came the revelation of the
little alteration he had made in his will simultaneously with his
bequest to Ernest。 It was rather hard to bear; especially as there
was no way of conveying a bit of their minds to the testator now
that he could no longer hurt them。 As regards the boy himself
anyone must see that the bequest would be an unmitigated misfortune
to him。 To leave him a small independence was perhaps the greatest
injury which one could inflict upon a young man。 It would cripple
his energies; and deaden his desire for active employment。 Many a
youth was led into evil courses by the knowledge that on arriving at
majority he would come into a few thousands。 They might surely have
been trusted to have their boy's interests at heart; and must be
better judges of those interests than he; at twenty…one; could be
expected to be: besides if Jonadab; the son of Rechab's fatheror
perhaps it might be simpler under the circumstances to say Rechab at
onceif Rechab; then; had left handsome legacies to his
grandchildrenwhy Jonadab might not have found those children so
easy to deal with; etc。 〃My dear;〃 said Theobald; after having
discussed the matter with Christina for the twentieth time; 〃my
dear; the only thing to guide and console us under misfortunes of
this kind is to take refuge in practical work。 I will go and pay a
visit to Mrs Thompson。〃
On those days Mrs Thompson would be told that her sins were all
washed white; etc。; a little sooner and a little more peremptorily
than on others。
CHAPTER XXII
I used to stay at Battersby for a day or two sometimes; while my
godson and his brother and sister were children。 I hardly know why
I went; for Theobald and I grew more and more apart; but one gets
into grooves sometimes; and the supposed friendship between myself
and the Pontifexes continued to exist; though it was now little more
than rudimentary。 My godson pleased me more than either of the
other children; but he had not much of the buoyancy of childhood;
and was more like a puny; sallow little old man than I liked。 The
young people; however; were very ready to be friendly。
I remember Ernest and his brother hovered round me on the first day
of one of these visits with their hands full of fading flowers;
which they at length proffered me。 On this I did what I suppose was
expected: I inquired if there was a shop near where they could buy
sweeties。 They said there was; so I felt in my pockets; but only
succeeded in finding two pence halfpenny in small money。 This I
gave them; and the youngsters; aged four and three; toddled off
alone。 Ere long they returned; and Ernest said; 〃We can't get
sweeties for all this money〃 (I felt rebuked; but no rebuke was
intended); 〃we can get sweeties for this〃 (showing a penny); 〃and
for this〃 (showing another penny); 〃but we cannot get them for all
this;〃 and he added the halfpenny to the two pence。 I suppose they
had wanted a twopenny cake; or something like that。 I was amused;
and left them to solve the difficulty their own way; being anxious
to see what they would do。
Presently Ernest said; 〃May we give you back this〃 (showing the
halfpenny) 〃and not give you back this and this?〃 (showing the
pence)。 I assented; and they gave a sigh of relief and went on
their way rejoicing。 A few more presents of pence and small toys
completed the conquest; and they began to take me into their
confidence。
They told me a good deal which I am afraid I ought not to have
listened to。 They said that if grandpapa had lived longer he would
most likely have been made a Lord; and that then papa would have
been the Honourable and Reverend; but that grandpapa was now in
heaven singing beautiful hymns with grandmamma Allaby to Jesus
Christ; who was very fond of them; and that when Ernest was ill; his
mamma had told him he need not be afraid of dying for he would go
straight to heaven; if he would only be sorry for having done his
lessons so badly and vexed his dear papa; and if he would promise
never; never to vex him any more; and that when he got to heaven
grandpapa and grandmamma Allaby would meet him; and he would be
always with them; and they would be very good to him and teach him
to sing ever such beautiful hymns; more beautiful by far than those
which he was now so fond of; etc。; etc。; but he did not wish to die;
and was glad when he got better; for there were no kittens in
heaven; and he did not think there were cowslips to make cowslip tea
with。
Their mother was plainly disappointed in them。 〃My children are
none of them geniuses; Mr Overton;〃 she said to me at breakfast one
morning。 〃They have fair abilities; and; thanks to Theobald's
tuition; they are forward for their years; but they have nothing
like genius: genius is a thing apart from this; is it not?〃
Of course I said it was 〃a thing quite apart from this;〃 but if my
thoughts had been laid bare; they would have appeared as 〃Give me my
coffee immediately; ma'am; and don't talk nonsense。〃 I have no idea
what genius is; but so far as I can form any conception about it; I
should say it was a stupid word which cannot be too soon abandoned
to scientific and literary claqueurs。
I do not know exactly what Christina expected; but I should imagine
it was something like this: 〃My children ought to be all geniuses;
because they are mine and Theobald's; and it is naughty of them not
to be; but; of course; they cannot be so good and clever as Theobald
and I were; and if they show signs of being so it will be naughty of
them。 Happily; however; they are not this; and yet it is very
dreadful that they are not。 As for geniushoity…toity; indeed
why; a genius should turn intellectual summersaults as soon as it is
born; and none of my children have yet been able to get into the
newspapers。 I will not have children of mine give themselves airs
it is enough for them that Theobald and I should do so。〃
She did not know; poor woman; that the true greatness wears an
invisible cloak; under cover of which it goes in and out among men
without being suspected; if its cloak does not conceal it from
itself always; and from all others for many years; its greatness
will ere long shrink to very or