第 16 节
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旅游巴士 更新:2021-02-20 14:19 字数:9321
things were changing least; tolerators; if not lovers; of all that
was familiar; haters of all that was unfamiliar; they would have
been equally horrified at hearing the Christian religion doubted;
and at seeing it practised。
〃What can there be in common between Theobald and his parishioners?〃
said Christina to me; in the course of the evening; when her husband
was for a few moments absent。 〃Of course one must not complain; but
I assure you it grieves me to see a man of Theobald's ability thrown
away upon such a place as this。 If we had only been at Gaysbury;
where there are the A's; the B's; the C's; and Lord D's place; as
you know; quite close; I should not then have felt that we were
living in such a desert; but I suppose it is for the best;〃 she
added more cheerfully; 〃and then of course the Bishop will come to
us whenever he is in the neighbourhood; and if we were at Gaysbury
he might have gone to Lord D's。〃
Perhaps I have now said enough to indicate the kind of place in
which Theobald's lines were cast; and the sort of woman he had
married。 As for his own habits; I see him trudging through muddy
lanes and over long sweeps of plover…haunted pastures to visit a
dying cottager's wife。 He takes her meat and wine from his own
table; and that not a little only but liberally。 According to his
lights also; he administers what he is pleased to call spiritual
consolation。
〃I am afraid I'm going to Hell; Sir;〃 says the sick woman with a
whine。 〃Oh; Sir; save me; save me; don't let me go there。 I
couldn't stand it; Sir; I should die with fear; the very thought of
it drives me into a cold sweat all over。〃
〃Mrs Thompson;〃 says Theobald gravely; 〃you must have faith in the
precious blood of your Redeemer; it is He alone who can save you。〃
〃But are you sure; Sir;〃 says she; looking wistfully at him; 〃that
He will forgive mefor I've not been a very good woman; indeed I
haven'tand if God would only say 'Yes' outright with His mouth
when I ask whether my sins are forgiven me〃
〃But they ARE forgiven you; Mrs Thompson;〃 says Theobald with some
sternness; for the same ground has been gone over a good many times
already; and he has borne the unhappy woman's misgivings now for a
full quarter of an hour。 Then he puts a stop to the conversation by
repeating prayers taken from the 〃Visitation of the Sick;〃 and
overawes the poor wretch from expressing further anxiety as to her
condition。
〃Can't you tell me; Sir;〃 she exclaims piteously; as she sees that
he is preparing to go away; 〃can't you tell me that there is no Day
of Judgement; and that there is no such place as Hell? I can do
without the Heaven; Sir; but I cannot do with the Hell。〃 Theobald
is much shocked。
〃Mrs Thompson;〃 he rejoins impressively; 〃let me implore you to
suffer no doubt concerning these two cornerstones of our religion to
cross your mind at a moment like the present。 If there is one thing
more certain than another it is that we shall all appear before the
Judgement Seat of Christ; and that the wicked will be consumed in a
lake of everlasting fire。 Doubt this; Mrs Thompson; and you are
lost。〃
The poor woman buries her fevered head in the coverlet in a paroxysm
of fear which at last finds relief in tears。
〃Mrs Thompson;〃 says Theobald; with his hand on the door; 〃compose
yourself; be calm; you must please to take my word for it that at
the Day of Judgement your sins will be all washed white in the blood
of the Lamb; Mrs Thompson。 Yea;〃 he exclaims frantically; 〃though
they be as scarlet; yet shall they be as white as wool;〃 and he
makes off as fast as he can from the fetid atmosphere of the cottage
to the pure air outside。 Oh; how thankful he is when the interview
is over!
He returns home; conscious that he has done his duty; and
administered the comforts of religion to a dying sinner。 His
admiring wife awaits him at the Rectory; and assures him that never
yet was clergyman so devoted to the welfare of his flock。 He
believes her; he has a natural tendency to believe everything that
is told him; and who should know the facts of the case better than
his wife? Poor fellow! He has done his best; but what does a
fish's best come to when the fish is out of water? He has left meat
and winethat he can do; he will call again and will leave more
meat and wine; day after day he trudges over the same plover…haunted
fields; and listens at the end of his walk to the same agony of
forebodings; which day after day he silences; but does not remove;
till at last a merciful weakness renders the sufferer careless of
her future; and Theobald is satisfied that her mind is now
peacefully at rest in Jesus。
CHAPTER XVI
He does not like this branch of his professionindeed he hates it
but will not admit it to himself。 The habit of not admitting things
to himself has become a confirmed one with him。 Nevertheless there
haunts him an ill defined sense that life would be pleasanter if
there were no sick sinners; or if they would at any rate face an
eternity of torture with more indifference。 He does not feel that
he is in his element。 The farmers look as if they were in their
element。 They are full…bodied; healthy and contented; but between
him and them there is a great gulf fixed。 A hard and drawn look
begins to settle about the corners of his mouth; so that even if he
were not in a black coat and white tie a child might know him for a
parson。
He knows that he is doing his duty。 Every day convinces him of this
more firmly; but then there is not much duty for him to do。 He is
sadly in want of occupation。 He has no taste for any of those field
sports which were not considered unbecoming for a clergyman forty
years ago。 He does not ride; nor shoot; nor fish; nor course; nor
play cricket。 Study; to do him justice; he had never really liked;
and what inducement was there for him to study at Battersby? He
reads neither old books nor new ones。 He does not interest himself
in art or science or politics; but he sets his back up with some
promptness if any of them show any development unfamiliar to
himself。 True; he writes his own sermons; but even his wife
considers that his forte lies rather in the example of his life
(which is one long act of self…devotion) than in his utterances from
the pulpit。 After breakfast he retires to his study; he cuts little
bits out of the Bible and gums them with exquisite neatness by the
side of other little bits; this he calls making a Harmony of the Old
and New Testaments。 Alongside the extracts he copies in the very
perfection of hand…writing extracts from Mede (the only man;
according to Theobald; who really understood the Book of
Revelation); Patrick; and other old divines。 He works steadily at
this for half an hour every morning during many years; and the
result is doubtless valuable。 After some years have gone by he
hears his children their lessons; and the daily oft…repeated screams
that issue from the study during the lesson hours tell their own
horrible story over the house。 He has also taken to collecting a
hortus siccus; and through the interest of his father was once
mentioned in the Saturday Magazine as having been the first to find
a plant; whose name I have forgotten; in the neighbourhood of
Battersby。 This number of the Saturday Magazine has been bound in
red morocco; and is kept upon the drawing…room table。 He potters
about his garden; if he hears a hen cackling he runs and tells
Christina; and straightway goes hunting for the egg。
When the two Miss Allabys came; as they sometimes did; to stay with
Christina; they said the life led by their sister and brother…in…law
was an idyll。 Happy indeed was Christina in her choice; for that
she had had a choice was a fiction which soon took root among them
and happy Theobald in his Christina。 Somehow or other Christina was
always a little shy of cards when her sisters were staying with her;
though at other times she enjoyed a game of cribbage or a rubber of
whist heartily enough; but her sisters knew they would never be
asked to Battersby again if they were to refer to that little
matter; and on the whole it was worth their while to be asked to
Battersby。 If Theobald's temper was rather irritable he did not
vent it upon them。
By nature reserved; if he could have found someone to cook his
dinner for him; he would rather have lived in a desert island than
not。 In his heart of hearts he held with Pope that 〃the greatest
nuisance to mankind is man〃 or words to that effectonly that
women; with the exception perhaps of Christina; were worse。 Yet for
all this when visitors called he put a better face on it than anyone
who was behind the scenes would have expected。
He was quick too at introducing the names of any literary
celebrities whom he had met at his father's house; and soon
established an all…round reputation which satisfied even Christina
herself。
Who so integer vitae scelerisque purus; it was asked; as Mr Pontifex
of Battersby? Who so fit to be consulted if any difficulty about
parish management should arise? Who such a happy mixture of the
sincere uninquiring Christian and of the man of the world? For