第 7 节
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旅游巴士 更新:2021-02-20 14:18 字数:9322
on a moor in Scotland。 So the absence of a genial mental atmosphere
is not commonly recognised by children who have never known it。
Young people have a marvellous faculty of either dying or adapting
themselves to circumstances。 Even if they are unhappyvery
unhappyit is astonishing how easily they can be prevented from
finding it out; or at any rate from attributing it to any other
cause than their own sinfulness。
To parents who wish to lead a quiet life I would say: Tell your
children that they are very naughtymuch naughtier than most
children。 Point to the young people of some acquaintances as models
of perfection and impress your own children with a deep sense of
their own inferiority。 You carry so many more guns than they do
that they cannot fight you。 This is called moral influence; and it
will enable you to bounce them as much as you please。 They think
you know and they will not have yet caught you lying often enough to
suspect that you are not the unworldly and scrupulously truthful
person which you represent yourself to be; nor yet will they know
how great a coward you are; nor how soon you will run away; if they
fight you with persistency and judgement。 You keep the dice and
throw them both for your children and yourself。 Load them then; for
you can easily manage to stop your children from examining them。
Tell them how singularly indulgent you are; insist on the
incalculable benefit you conferred upon them; firstly in bringing
them into the world at all; but more particularly in bringing them
into it as your own children rather than anyone else's。 Say that
you have their highest interests at stake whenever you are out of
temper and wish to make yourself unpleasant by way of balm to your
soul。 Harp much upon these highest interests。 Feed them
spiritually upon such brimstone and treacle as the late Bishop of
Winchester's Sunday stories。 You hold all the trump cards; or if
you do not you can filch them; if you play them with anything like
judgement you will find yourselves heads of happy; united; God…
fearing families; even as did my old friend Mr Pontifex。 True; your
children will probably find out all about it some day; but not until
too late to be of much service to them or inconvenience to yourself。
Some satirists have complained of life inasmuch as all the pleasures
belong to the fore part of it and we must see them dwindle till we
are left; it may be; with the miseries of a decrepit old age。
To me it seems that youth is like spring; an overpraised season
delightful if it happen to be a favoured one; but in practice very
rarely favoured and more remarkable; as a general rule; for biting
east winds than genial breezes。 Autumn is the mellower season; and
what we lose in flowers we more than gain in fruits。 Fontenelle at
the age of ninety; being asked what was the happiest time of his
life; said he did not know that he had ever been much happier than
he then was; but that perhaps his best years had been those when he
was between fifty…five and seventy…five; and Dr Johnson placed the
pleasures of old age far higher than those of youth。 True; in old
age we live under the shadow of Death; which; like a sword of
Damocles; may descend at any moment; but we have so long found life
to be an affair of being rather frightened than hurt that we have
become like the people who live under Vesuvius; and chance it
without much misgiving。
CHAPTER VII
A few words may suffice for the greater number of the young people
to whom I have been alluding in the foregoing chapter。 Eliza and
Maria; the two elder girls; were neither exactly pretty nor exactly
plain; and were in all respects model young ladies; but Alethea was
exceedingly pretty and of a lively; affectionate disposition; which
was in sharp contrast with those of her brothers and sisters。 There
was a trace of her grandfather; not only in her face; but in her
love of fun; of which her father had none; though not without a
certain boisterous and rather coarse quasi…humour which passed for
wit with many。
John grew up to be a good…looking; gentlemanly fellow; with features
a trifle too regular and finely chiselled。 He dressed himself so
nicely; had such good address; and stuck so steadily to his books
that he became a favourite with his masters; he had; however; an
instinct for diplomacy; and was less popular with the boys。 His
father; in spite of the lectures he would at times read him; was in
a way proud of him as he grew older; he saw in him; moreover; one
who would probably develop into a good man of business; and in whose
hands the prospects of his house would not be likely to decline。
John knew how to humour his father; and was at a comparatively early
age admitted to as much of his confidence as it was in his nature to
bestow on anyone。
His brother Theobald was no match for him; knew it; and accepted his
fate。 He was not so good…looking as his brother; nor was his
address so good; as a child he had been violently passionate; now;
however; he was reserved and shy; and; I should say; indolent in
mind and body。 He was less tidy than John; less well able to assert
himself; and less skilful in humouring the caprices of his father。
I do not think he could have loved anyone heartily; but there was no
one in his family circle who did not repress; rather than invite his
affection; with the exception of his sister Alethea; and she was too
quick and lively for his somewhat morose temper。 He was always the
scapegoat; and I have sometimes thought he had two fathers to
contend againsthis father and his brother John; a third and fourth
also might almost be added in his sisters Eliza and Maria。 Perhaps
if he had felt his bondage very acutely he would not have put up
with it; but he was constitutionally timid; and the strong hand of
his father knitted him into the closest outward harmony with his
brother and sisters。
The boys were of use to their father in one respect。 I mean that he
played them off against each other。 He kept them but poorly
supplied with pocket money; and to Theobald would urge that the
claims of his elder brother were naturally paramount; while he
insisted to John upon the fact that he had a numerous family; and
would affirm solemnly that his expenses were so heavy that at his
death there would be very little to divide。 He did not care whether
they compared notes or no; provided they did not do so in his
presence。 Theobald did not complain even behind his father's back。
I knew him as intimately as anyone was likely to know him as a
child; at school; and again at Cambridge; but he very rarely
mentioned his father's name even while his father was alive; and
never once in my hearing afterwards。 At school he was not actively
disliked as his brother was; but he was too dull and deficient in
animal spirits to be popular。
Before he was well out of his frocks it was settled that he was to
be a clergyman。 It was seemly that Mr Pontifex; the well…known
publisher of religious books; should devote at least one of his sons
to the Church; this might tend to bring business; or at any rate to
keep it in the firm; besides; Mr Pontifex had more or less interest
with bishops and Church dignitaries and might hope that some
preferment would be offered to his son through his influence。 The
boy's future destiny was kept well before his eyes from his earliest
childhood and was treated as a matter which he had already virtually
settled by his acquiescence。 Nevertheless a certain show of freedom
was allowed him。 Mr Pontifex would say it was only right to give a
boy his option; and was much too equitable to grudge his son
whatever benefit he could derive from this。 He had the greatest
horror; he would exclaim; of driving any young man into a profession
which he did not like。 Far be it from him to put pressure upon a
son of his as regards any profession and much less when so sacred a
calling as the ministry was concerned。 He would talk in this way
when there were visitors in the house and when his son was in the
room。 He spoke so wisely and so well that his listening guests
considered him a paragon of right…mindedness。 He spoke; too; with
such emphasis and his rosy gills and bald head looked so benevolent
that it was difficult not to be carried away by his discourse。 I
believe two or three heads of families in the neighbourhood gave
their sons absolute liberty of choice in the matter of their
professionsand am not sure that they had not afterwards
considerable cause to regret having done so。 The visitors; seeing
Theobald look shy and wholly unmoved by the exhibition of so much
consideration for his wishes; would remark to themselves that the
boy seemed hardly likely to be equal to his father and would set him
down as an unenthusiastic youth; who ought to have more life in him
and be more sensible of his advantages than he appeared to be。
No one believed in the righteousness of the whole transaction more
firmly than the boy himself; a sense of being ill at ease kept him
silent; but it was too profound and too much without break for him
to become fully alive to it; and come to an understanding with
himself。 H