第 20 节
作者:热带雨淋      更新:2021-02-20 05:18      字数:4402
  the word soul; or psyche; I mean that inner consciousness which aspires。 By
  prayer I do not mean a request for anything preferred to a deity; I mean
  intense soul…emotion; intense aspiration。 The word immortal is very
  inconvenient; and yet there is no other to convey the idea of soul…life。
  Even these definitions are deficient; and I must leave my book as a whole to
  give its own meaning to its words。
  Time has gone on; and still; after so much pondering; I feel
  that I know nothing; that I have not yet begun; I have only just
  commenced to realise the immensity of thought which lies outside the
  knowledge of the senses。 Still; on the hills and by the seashore; I seek and
  pray deeper than ever。
  The sun burns southwards over the sea and before the wave runs
  its shadow; constantly slipping on the advancing slope till it curls and
  covers its dark image at the shore。 Over the rim of the horizon waves are
  flowing as high and wide as those that break upon the beach。 These that come
  to me and beat the trembling shore are like the thoughts that have been
  known so long; like the ancient; iterated; and reiterated thoughts that have
  broken on the strand of mind for thousands of years。 Beyond and over the
  horizon I feel that there are other waves of ideas unknown to me; flowing as
  the stream of ocean flows。 Knowledge of facts is limitless: they lie at my
  feet innumerable like the countless pebbles; knowledge of thought so
  circumscribed! Ever the same thoughts come that have been written down
  centuries and centuries。
  Let me launch forth and sail over the rim of the sea yonder;
  and when another rim arises over that; and again and onwards
  into an ever…widening ocean of idea and life。 For with all the
  strength of the wave; and its succeeding wave; the depth and
  race of the tide; the clear definition of the sky; with all the
  subtle power of the great sea; there rises an equal desire。
  Give me life strong and full as the brimming ocean; give me
  thoughts wide as its plain; give me a soul beyond these。 Sweet
  is the bitter sea by the shore where the faint blue pebbles are
  lapped by the green…grey wave; where the wind…quivering foam is
  loth to leave the lashed stone。 Sweet is the bitter sea; and
  the clear green in which the gaze seeks the soul; looking through the glass
  into itself。 The sea thinks for me as I listen and ponder; the sea thinks;
  and every boom of the wave repeats my prayer。
  Sometimes I stay on the wet sands as the tide rises; listening
  to the rush of the lines of foam in layer upon layer; the wash
  swells and circles about my feet; I have my hands in it; I lift
  a little in my hollowed palm; I take the life of the sea to me。
  My soul rising to the immensity utters its desire…prayer with all the
  strength of the sea。 Or; again; the full stream of ocean beats upon the
  shore; and the rich wind feeds the heart;
  the sun burns brightly; the sense of soul…life burns in me like
  a torch。
  Leaving the shore I walk among the trees; a cloud passes; and
  the sweet short rain comes mingled with sunbeams and flower…
  scented air。 The finches sing among the fresh green leaves of the beeches。
  Beautiful it is; in summer days; to see the wheat
  wave; and the long grass foamflecked of flower yield and return to the
  wind。  My soul of itself always desires; these are to it as fresh food。  I
  have found in the hills another valley grooved in prehistoric times; where;
  climbing to the top of the hollow; I can see the sea。 Down in the hollow I
  look up; the sky stretches over; the sun burns as it seems but just above
  the hill; and the wind sweeps onward。 As the sky extends beyond the valley;
  so I know that there are ideas beyond the valley of my thought; I know that
  there is something infinitely higher than deity。 The great sun burning in
  the sky; the sea; the firm earth; all the stars of night are feebleall;
  all the cosmos is feeble; it is not strong enough to utter my prayer…desire。
  My soul cannot reach to its full desire of prayer。 I need no earth; or sea;
  or sun to think my thought。 If my thought…partthe psychewere entirely
  separated from the body; and from the earth; I should of myself desire the
  same。 In itself my soul desires; my existence; my soul…existence is in
  itself my prayer; and so long as it exists so long will it pray that I may
  have the fullest soul…life。
  End