第 20 节
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热带雨淋 更新:2021-02-20 05:18 字数:4402
the word soul; or psyche; I mean that inner consciousness which aspires。 By
prayer I do not mean a request for anything preferred to a deity; I mean
intense soul…emotion; intense aspiration。 The word immortal is very
inconvenient; and yet there is no other to convey the idea of soul…life。
Even these definitions are deficient; and I must leave my book as a whole to
give its own meaning to its words。
Time has gone on; and still; after so much pondering; I feel
that I know nothing; that I have not yet begun; I have only just
commenced to realise the immensity of thought which lies outside the
knowledge of the senses。 Still; on the hills and by the seashore; I seek and
pray deeper than ever。
The sun burns southwards over the sea and before the wave runs
its shadow; constantly slipping on the advancing slope till it curls and
covers its dark image at the shore。 Over the rim of the horizon waves are
flowing as high and wide as those that break upon the beach。 These that come
to me and beat the trembling shore are like the thoughts that have been
known so long; like the ancient; iterated; and reiterated thoughts that have
broken on the strand of mind for thousands of years。 Beyond and over the
horizon I feel that there are other waves of ideas unknown to me; flowing as
the stream of ocean flows。 Knowledge of facts is limitless: they lie at my
feet innumerable like the countless pebbles; knowledge of thought so
circumscribed! Ever the same thoughts come that have been written down
centuries and centuries。
Let me launch forth and sail over the rim of the sea yonder;
and when another rim arises over that; and again and onwards
into an ever…widening ocean of idea and life。 For with all the
strength of the wave; and its succeeding wave; the depth and
race of the tide; the clear definition of the sky; with all the
subtle power of the great sea; there rises an equal desire。
Give me life strong and full as the brimming ocean; give me
thoughts wide as its plain; give me a soul beyond these。 Sweet
is the bitter sea by the shore where the faint blue pebbles are
lapped by the green…grey wave; where the wind…quivering foam is
loth to leave the lashed stone。 Sweet is the bitter sea; and
the clear green in which the gaze seeks the soul; looking through the glass
into itself。 The sea thinks for me as I listen and ponder; the sea thinks;
and every boom of the wave repeats my prayer。
Sometimes I stay on the wet sands as the tide rises; listening
to the rush of the lines of foam in layer upon layer; the wash
swells and circles about my feet; I have my hands in it; I lift
a little in my hollowed palm; I take the life of the sea to me。
My soul rising to the immensity utters its desire…prayer with all the
strength of the sea。 Or; again; the full stream of ocean beats upon the
shore; and the rich wind feeds the heart;
the sun burns brightly; the sense of soul…life burns in me like
a torch。
Leaving the shore I walk among the trees; a cloud passes; and
the sweet short rain comes mingled with sunbeams and flower…
scented air。 The finches sing among the fresh green leaves of the beeches。
Beautiful it is; in summer days; to see the wheat
wave; and the long grass foamflecked of flower yield and return to the
wind。 My soul of itself always desires; these are to it as fresh food。 I
have found in the hills another valley grooved in prehistoric times; where;
climbing to the top of the hollow; I can see the sea。 Down in the hollow I
look up; the sky stretches over; the sun burns as it seems but just above
the hill; and the wind sweeps onward。 As the sky extends beyond the valley;
so I know that there are ideas beyond the valley of my thought; I know that
there is something infinitely higher than deity。 The great sun burning in
the sky; the sea; the firm earth; all the stars of night are feebleall;
all the cosmos is feeble; it is not strong enough to utter my prayer…desire。
My soul cannot reach to its full desire of prayer。 I need no earth; or sea;
or sun to think my thought。 If my thought…partthe psychewere entirely
separated from the body; and from the earth; I should of myself desire the
same。 In itself my soul desires; my existence; my soul…existence is in
itself my prayer; and so long as it exists so long will it pray that I may
have the fullest soul…life。
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