第 10 节
作者:热带雨淋      更新:2021-02-20 05:18      字数:9321
  rusty…red iron cluking on pointless carts; high white wool…
  packs; grey horses; bay horses; black teams; sunlight sparkling
  on brass harness; gleaming from carriage panels; jingle; jingle;
  jingle! An intermixed and intertangled; ceaselessly changing jingle; too;of
  colour; flecks of colour champed; as it were; like bits in the horses'
  teeth; frothed and strewn about; and a surface always of dark…dressed people
  winding like the curves on fast…flowing water。 This is the vortex and
  whirlpool; the centre of human life today on the earth。  Now the tide rises
  and now it sinks; but the flow of these rivers always continues。 Here it
  seethes and whirls; not for an hour only; but for all present time; hour by
  hour; day by day; year by year。
  Here it rushes and pushes; the atoms triturate and grind; and;
  eagerly thrusting by; pursue their separate ends。 Here it
  appears in its unconcealed personality; indifferent to all else
  but itself; absorbed and rapt in eager self; devoid and stripped
  of conventional gloss and politeness; yielding only to get its own way;
  driving; pushing; carried on in a stress of feverish force like a bullet;
  dynamic force apart from reason or will; like the force that lifts the tides
  and sends the clouds onwards。 The friction of a thousand interests evolves a
  condition of electricity in which men are moved to and fro without
  considering their steps。  Yet the agitated pool of life is stonily
  indifferent; the thought is absent or preoccupied; for it is evident that
  the mass are unconscious of the scene in
  which they act。
  But it is more sternly real than the very stones; for all these
  men and women that pass through are driven on by the push of
  accumulated circumstances; they cannot stay; they must go;
  their necks are in the slave's ring; they are beaten like
  seaweed against the solid walls of fact。 In ancient times;
  Xerxes; the king of kings; looking down upon his myriads; wept to think that
  in a hundred years not one of them would be left。  Where will be these
  millions of to…day in a hundred years? But; further than that; let us ask;
  Where then will be the sum and outcome of their labour?  If they wither away
  like summer grass; will not at least a result be left which those of a
  hundred years hence may be the better for? No; not one jot! There will not
  be any sum or outcome or result of this ceaseless labour and movement; it
  vanishes in the moment that it is done; and in a hundred years nothing will
  be there; for nothing is there now。 There will be no more sum or result than
  accumulates from the motion of a revolving cowl on a housetop。  Nor do they
  receive any more sunshine during their lives; for they are unconscious of
  the sun。
  I used to come and stand near the apex of the promontory of pavement which
  juts out towards the pool of life; I still go there to ponder。  Burning in
  the sky; the sun shone on me as when I rested in the narrow valley carved in
  prehistoric time。
  Burning in the sky; I can never forget the sun。 The heat of summer is dry
  there as if the light carried an impalpable dust; dry; breathless heat that
  will not let the skin respire; but
  swathes up the dry fire in the blood。 But beyond the heat and light; I felt
  the presence of the sun as I felt it in the solitary valley; the presence of
  the resistless forces of the
  universe; the sun burned in the sky as I stood and pondered。  Is there any
  theory; philosophy; or creed; is there any system or
  culture; any formulated method able to meet and satisfy each separate item
  of this agitated pool of human life? By which they may be guided; by which
  hope; by which look forward? Not a mere illusion of the craven
  heartsomething real; as real as the solid walls of fact against which;
  like drifted sea…weed; they are dashed; something to give each separate
  personality sunshine and a flower in its own existence now; something to
  shape this million…handed labour to an end and outcome that will leave more
  sunshine and more flowers to those who must succeed? Something real now; and
  not in the spirit…land; in this hour now; as I stand and the sun burns。 Can
  any creed; philosophy; system; or culture endure the test and remain
  unmolten in this fierce focus ofhuman life?
  Consider; is there anything slowly painted on the once mystic and now
  commonplace papyri of ancient; ancient Egypt; held on the mummy's withered
  breast? In that elaborate ritual; in the procession of the symbols; in the
  winged circle; in the laborious sarcophagus? Nothing; absolutely nothing!
  Before the
  fierce heat of the human furnace; the papyri smoulder away as paper
  smoulders under a lens in the sun。 Remember Nineveh and
  the cult of the fir…cone; the turbaned and bearded bulls of
  stone; the lion hunt; the painted chambers loaded with tile
  books; the lore of the arrow…headed writing。 What is in
  Assyria? There are sand; and failing rivers; and in Assyria's
  writings an utter nothing。 The aged caves of India; who shall
  tell when they were sculptured? Far back when the sun was
  burning; burning in the sky as now in untold precedent time。
  Is there any meaning in those ancient caves? The indistinguish…able noise
  not to be resolved; born of the human struggle; mocks in answer。
  In the strange characters of the Zend; in the Sanscrit; in the
  effortless creed of Confucius; in the Aztec coloured…string
  writings and rayed stones; in the uncertain marks left of the
  sunken Polynesian continent; hieroglyphs as useless as those of
  Memphis; nothing。 Nothing! They have been tried; and were found an illusion。
  Think then; to…day; now looking from this apex
  of the pavement promontory outwards from our own land to the utmost bounds
  of the farthest sail; is there any faith or culture at this hour which can
  stand in this fierce heat? From the various forms of Semitic; Aryan; or
  Turanian creed now existing; from the printing…press to the palm…leaf volume
  on to those who call on the jewel in the lotus; can aught be gathered which
  can face this; the Reality? The indistinguishable noise; non…resolvable;
  roars a loud contempt。
  Turn; then; to the calm reasoning of Aristotle; is there
  anything in that? Can the half…divine thought of Plato; rising
  in storeys of sequential ideas; following each other to the
  conclusion; endure here? No! All the philosophers in Diogenes
  Laertius fade away: the theories of medimval days; the organon
  of experiment; down to this hourthey are useless alike。 The
  science of this hour; drawn from the printing…press in an endless web of
  paper; is powerless here; the indistinguishable noise echoed from the
  smoke…shadowed walls despises the whole。 A thousand footsteps; a thousand
  hoofs; a thousand wheels roll over and utterly contemn them in complete
  annihilation。 Mere illusions of heart or mind; they are tested and thrust
  aside by the irresistible push of a million converging feet。
  Burning in the sky; the sun shines as it shone on me in the
  solitary valley; as it burned on when the earliest cave of India
  was carved。 Above the indistinguishable roar of the many feet I
  feel the presence of the sun; of the immense forces of the
  universe; and beyond these the sense of the eternal now; of the
  immortal。 Full well aware that all has failed; yet; side by
  side with the sadness of that knowledge; there lives on in me an
  unquenchable belief; thought burning like the sun; that there is yet
  something to be found; something real; something to give each separate
  personality sunshine and flowers in its own existence now。 Something to
  shape this million…handed labour to an end and outcome; leaving accumulated
  sunshine and flowers to those who shall succeed。 It must be dragged forth by
  might of thought from the immense forces of the universe。
  To prepare for such an effort; first the mind must be cleared of
  the conceit that; because we live to…day; we are wiser than the
  ages gone。 The mind must acknowledge its ignorance; all the
  learning and lore of so many eras must be erased from it as an
  encumbrance。 It is not from past or present knowledge; science
  or faith; that it is to be drawn。 Erase these altogether as they are erased
  under the fierce heat of the focus before me。 Begin wholly afresh。 Go
  straight to the sun; the immense forces of the universe; to the Entity
  unknown; go higher than a god; deeper than prayer; and open a new day。 That
  I might but have a fragment of Caesar's intellect to find a fragment of this
  desire!
  》From my home near London I made a pilgrimage almost daily to an
  aspen by a brook。 It was a mile and a quarter along the road;
  far enough for me to walk off the concentration of mind
  necessary for work。 The idea of the pilgrimage was to get away
  from the endless and nameless circumstances of everyday
  existence; which by degrees build a wall about the mind so that
  it travels in a constantly narrowing circle。 This tether of the
  faculties tends to make them accept present knowledge; and
  present things; as all that can be attained to。 This is all
  there is nothing moreis the iterated preaching of house…life。
  Remain; becontent; go round and round in one barren path; a
  little money; a little food and sleep; some ancient fables;
  old age and death。 Of all the inventions of casuistry