第 52 节
作者:指点迷津      更新:2021-02-20 05:05      字数:9322
  revolutionary manifesto; not a daily paper would have dared
  allude to it: there is no cowardice like Fleet Street cowardice!
  I must run off; I have much to do before I start; and it is
  getting on for three。 Good…bye; Lady Brandon; and everybody。〃
  He shook Jane's hand; dealt nods to the rest rapidly; making no
  distinction in favor of Agatha; and hurried away。 They stared
  after him for a moment and then Erskine ran out and went
  downstairs two steps at a time。 Nevertheless he had to run as far
  as the avenue before he overtook his man。
  〃Trefusis;〃 he said breathlessly; 〃you must not go by the four
  o'clock train。〃
  〃Why not?〃
  〃Miss Lindsay is going to town by it。〃
  〃So much the better; my dear boy; so much the better。 You are not
  jealous of me now; are you?〃
  〃Look here; Trefusis。 I don't know and I don't ask what there has
  been between you and Miss Lindsay; but your engagement has quite
  upset her; and she is running away to London in consequence。 If
  she hears that you are going by the same train she will wait
  until to…morrow; and I believe the delay would be very
  disagreeable。 Will you inflict that additional pain upon her?〃
  Trefusis; evidently concerned; looking doubtfully at Erskine; and
  pondered for a moment。 〃I think you are on a wrong scent about
  this;〃 he said。 〃My relations with Miss Lindsay were not of a
  sentimental kind。 Have you said anything to heron your own
  account; I mean?〃
  〃I have spoken to her on both accounts; and I know from her own
  lips that I am right。〃
  Trefusis uttered a low whistle。
  〃It is not the first time I have had the evidence of my senses in
  the matter;〃 said Erskine significantly。 〃 Pray think of it
  seriously; Trefusis。 Forgive my telling you frankly that nothing
  but your own utter want of feeling could excuse you for the way
  in which you have acted towards her。〃
  Trefusis smiled。 〃Forgive me in turn for my inquisitiveness;〃 he
  said。 〃What does she say to your suit?〃
  Erskine hesitated; showing by his manner that he thought Trefusis
  had no right to ask the question。 〃She says nothing;〃 he
  answered。
  〃Hm!〃 said Trefusis。 〃Well; you may rely on me as to the train。
  There is my hand upon it。〃
  〃Thank you;〃 said Erskine fervently。 They shook hands and parted;
  Trefusis walking away with a grin suggestive of anything but good
  faith。
  CHAPTER XVII
  Gertrude; unaware of the extent to which she had already betrayed
  her disappointment; believed that anxiety for her father's
  health; which she alleged as the motive of her sudden departure;
  was an excuse plausible enough to blind her friends to her
  overpowering reluctance to speak to Agatha or endure her
  presence; to her fierce shrinking from the sort of pity usually
  accorded to a jilted woman; and; above all; to her dread of
  meeting Trefusis。 She had for some time past thought of him as an
  upright and perfect man deeply interested in her。 Yet;
  comparatively liberal as her education had been; she had no idea
  of any interest of man in woman existing apart from a desire to
  marry。 He had; in his serious moments; striven to make her
  sensible of the baseness he saw in her worldliness; flattering
  her by his apparent convictionwhich she sharedthat she was
  capable of a higher life。 Almost in the same breath; a strain of
  gallantry which was incorrigible in him; and to which his humor
  and his tenderness to women whom he liked gave variety and charm;
  would supervene upon his seriousness with a rapidity which her
  far less flexible temperament could not follow。 Hence she;
  thinking him still in earnest when he had swerved into florid
  romance; had been dangerously misled。 He had no conscientious
  scruples in his love…making; because he was unaccustomed to
  consider himself as likely to inspire love in women; and Gertrude
  did not know that her beauty gave to an hour spent alone with her
  a transient charm which few men of imagination and address could
  resist。 She; who had lived in the marriage market since she had
  left school; looked upon love…making as the most serious business
  of life。 To him it was only a pleasant sort of trifling; enhanced
  by a dash of sadness in the reflection that it meant so little。
  Of the ceremonies attending her departure; the one that cost her
  most was the kiss she felt bound to offer Agatha。 She had been
  jealous of her at college; where she had esteemed herself the
  better bred of the two; but that opinion had hardly consoled her
  for Agatha's superior quickness of wit; dexterity of hand;
  audacity; aptness of resource; capacity for forming or following
  intricate associations of ideas; and consequent power to dazzle
  others。 Her jealousy of these qualities was now barbed by the
  knowledge that they were much nearer akin than her own to those
  of Trefusis。 It mattered little to her how she appeared to
  herself in comparison with Agatha。 But it mattered the whole
  world (she thought) that she must appear to Trefusis so slow;
  stiff; cold; and studied; and that she had no means to make him
  understand that she was not really so。 For she would not admit
  the justice of impressions made by what she did not intend to do;
  however habitually she did it。 She had a theory that she was not
  herself; but what she would have liked to be。 As to the one
  quality in which she had always felt superior to Agatha; and
  which she called 〃 good breeding;〃 Trefusis had so far destroyed
  her conceit in that; that she was beginning to doubt whether it
  was not her cardinal defect。
  She could not bring herself to utter a word as she embraced her
  schoolfellow; and Agatha was tongue…tied too。 But there was much
  remorseful tenderness in the feelings that choked them。 Their
  silence would have been awkward but for the loquacity of Jane;
  who talked enough for all three。 Sir Charles was without; in the
  trap; waiting to drive Gertrude to the station。 Erskine
  intercepted her in the hall as she passed out; told her that he
  should be desolate when she was gone; and begged her to remember
  him; a simple petition which moved her a little; and caused her
  to note that his dark eyes had a pleading eloquence which she had
  observed before in the kangaroos at the Zoological Society's
  gardens。
  On the way to the train Sir Charles worried the horse in order to
  be excused from conversation on the sore subject of his guest's
  sudden departure。 He had made a few remarks on the skittishness
  of young ponies; and on the weather; and that was all until they
  reached the station; a pretty building standing in the open
  country; with a view of the river from the platform。 There were
  two flies waiting; two porters; a bookstall; and a refreshment
  room with a neglected beauty pining behind the bar。 Sir Charles
  waited in the booking office to purchase a ticket for Gertrude;
  who went through to the platform。 The first person she saw there
  was Trefusis; close beside her。
  〃I am going to town by this train; Gertrude;〃 he said quickly。
  〃Let me take charge of you。 I have something to say; for I hear
  that some mischief has been made between us which must be stopped
  at once。 You〃
  Just then Sir Charles came out; and stood amazed to see them in
  conversation。
  〃It happens that I am going by this train;〃 said Trefusis。 〃I
  will see after Miss Lindsay。〃
  〃Miss Lindsay has her maid with her;〃 said Sir Charles; almost
  stammering; and looking at Gertrude; whose expression was
  inscrutable。
  〃We can get into the Pullman car;〃 said Trefusis。 〃There we shall
  be as private as in a corner of a crowded drawing…room。 I may
  travel with you; may I not?〃 he said; seeing Sir Charles's
  disturbed look; and turning to her for express permission。
  She felt that to deny him would be to throw away her last chance
  of happiness。 Nevertheless she resolved to do it; though she
  should die of grief on the way to London。 As she raised her head
  to forbid him the more emphatically; she met his gaze; which was
  grave and expectant。 For an instant she lost her presence of
  mind; and in that instant said; 〃 Yes。 I shall be very glad。〃
  〃Well; if that is the case;〃 said Sir Charles; in the tone of one
  whose sympathy had been alienated by an unpardonable outrage; 〃
  there can be no use in my waiting。 I leave you in the hands of
  Mr。 Trefusis。 Good…bye; Miss Lindsay。〃
  Gertrude winced。 Unkindness from a man usually kind proved hard
  to bear at parting。 She was offering him her hand in silence when
  Trefusis said:
  〃Wait and see us off。 If we chance to be killed on the
  journeywhich is always probable on an English railwayyou will
  reproach yourself afterwards if you do not see the last of us。
  Here is the train; it will not delay you a minute。 Tell Erskine
  that you saw me here; that I have not forgotten my promise; and
  that he may rely on me。 Get in at this end; Miss Lindsay。〃
  〃My maid;〃 said Gertrude hesitating; for she had not intended to
  travel so expensively。 〃She〃
  〃She comes with us to take care of me; I have tickets for
  everybody;〃 said Trefusis; handing the woman in。
  〃But〃
  〃Take your seats; please;〃 said the guard。 〃Going by the train;
  sir?〃
  〃Good…bye; Sir Charles。 Give my love to Lady Brandon; and Agatha;
  and the dear children; and thanks so much for a very pleasant〃
  Here the train moved