第 39 节
作者:指点迷津      更新:2021-02-20 05:05      字数:9321
  amiable under the influence of hemlock than under that of the
  social system which has made her so unhappy。〃
  〃Well!〃 exclaimed Gertrude; outraged。 Then; after a pause; 〃I was
  under the impression that I had accepted the escort of a
  gentleman。〃 Then; after another pause; Trefusis being quite
  undisturbed; 〃How do you know that I am unhappy?〃
  〃By a certain defect in your countenance; which lacks the
  crowning beauty of happiness; and a certain defect in your voice
  which will never disappear until you learn to love or pity those
  to whom you speak。〃
  〃You are wrong;〃 said Gertrude; with calm disdain。 〃You do not
  understand me in the least。 I am particularly attached to my
  friends。〃
  〃Then I have never seen you in their company。〃
  〃You are still wrong。〃
  〃Then how can you speak as you do; look as you do; act as you
  do?〃
  〃What do you mean? HOW do I look and act?〃
  〃Like one of the railings of Belgrave Square; cursed with
  consciousness of itself; fears of the judgment of the other
  railings; and doubts of their fitness to stand in the same row
  with it。 You are cold; mistrustful; cruel to nervous or clumsy
  people; and more afraid of the criticisms of those with whom you
  dance and dine than of your conscience。 All of which prevents you
  from looking like an angel。〃
  〃Thank you。 Do you consider paying compliments the perfection of
  gentlemanly behavior?〃
  〃Have I been paying you many? That last remark of mine was not
  meant as one。 On my honor; the angels will not disappoint me if
  they are no lovelier than you should be if you had that look in
  your face and that tone in your voice I spoke of just now。 It can
  hardly displease you to hear that。 If I were particularly
  handsome myself; I should like to be told so。〃
  〃I am sorry I cannot tell you so。〃
  〃Oh! Ha! ha! What a retort; Miss Lindsay! You are not sorry
  either; you are rather glad。〃
  Gertrude knew it; and was angry with herself; not because her
  retort was false; but because she thought it unladylike。 〃You
  have no right to annoy me;〃 she exclaimed; in spite of herself。
  〃None whatever;〃 he said; humbly。 〃 If I have done so; forgive me
  before we part。 I will go no further with you; Max will give the
  alarm if you faint in the avenue; which I don't think you are
  likely to do; as you have forgotten all about the hemlock。〃
  〃Oh; how maddening!〃 she cried。 〃I have left my basket behind。〃
  〃Never mind; I will find it and have it filled and sent to you。〃
  〃Thank you。 I am sorry to trouble you。〃
  〃Not at all。 I hope you do not want the hemlock to help you to
  get rid of the burden of life。〃
  〃Nonsense。 I want it for my father; who uses it for medicine。〃
  〃I will bring it myself to…morrow。 Is that soon enough?〃
  〃Quite。 I am in no hurry。 Thank you; Mr。 Trefusis。 Good…bye。〃
  She gave him her hand; and even smiled a little; and then hurried
  away。 He stood watching her as she passed along the avenue under
  the beeches。 Once; when she came into a band of sunlight at a gap
  in the trees; she made so pretty a figure in her spring dress of
  violet and white that his eyes kindled as he gazed。 He took out
  his note…book; and entered her name and the date; with a brief
  memorandum。
  〃I have thawed her;〃 he said to himself as he put up his book。
  〃She shall learn a lesson or two to hand on to her children
  before I have done with her。 A trifle underbred; too; or she
  would not insist so much on her breeding。 Henrietta used to wear
  a dress like that。 I am glad to see that there is no danger of
  her taking to me personally。〃
  He turned away; and saw a crone passing; bending beneath a bundle
  of sticks。 He eyed it curiously; and she scowled at him and
  hurried on。
  〃Hallo;〃 he said。
  She continued for a few steps; but her courage failed her and she
  stopped。
  〃You are Mrs。 Hickling; I think?〃
  〃Yes; please your worship。〃
  〃You are the woman who carried away an old wooden gate that lay
  on Sir Charles Brandon's land last winter and used it for
  firewood。 You were imprisoned for seven days for it。〃
  〃You may send me there again if you like;〃 she retorted; in a
  cracked voice; as she turned at bay。 〃But the Lord will make me
  even with you some day。 Cursed be them that oppress the poor and
  needy; it is one of the seven deadly sins。〃
  〃Those green laths on your back are the remainder of my garden
  gate;〃 he said。 〃You took the first half last Saturday。 Next time
  you want fuel come to the house and ask for coals; and let my
  gates alone。 I suppose you can enjoy a fire without stealing the
  combustibles。 Stow
  256 pay me for my gate by telling me something I want to know。〃
  〃And a kind gentleman too; sir; blessings。〃
  〃What is the hemlock good for?〃
  〃The hemlock; kind gentleman? For the evil; sir; to be sure。〃
  〃Scrofulous ulcers!〃 he exclaimed; recoiling。 〃The father of that
  beautiful girl!〃 He turned homeward; and trudged along with his
  head bent; muttering; 〃All rotten to the bone。 Oh; civilization!
  civilization! civilization!〃
  CHAPTER XIV
  〃What has come over Gertrude?〃 said Agatha one day to Lady
  Brandon。
  〃Why? Is anything the matter with her?〃
  〃I don't know; she has not been the same since she poisoned
  herself。 And why did she not tell about it? But for Trefusis we
  should never have known。〃
  〃Gertrude always made secrets of things。〃
  〃She was in a vile temper for two days after; and now she is
  quite changed。 She falls into long reveries; and does not hear a
  word of what is going on around。 Then she starts into life again;
  and begs your pardon with the greatest sweetness for not catching
  what you have said。〃
  〃I hate her when she is polite; it is not natural to her。 As to
  her going to sleep; that is the effect of the hemlock。 We know a
  man who took a spoonful of strychnine in a bath; and he never was
  the same afterwards。〃
  〃I think she is making up her mind to encourage Erskine;〃 said
  Agatha。 〃When I came here he hardly dared speak to herat least;
  she always snubbed him。 Now she lets him talk as much as he
  likes; and actually sends him on messages and allows him to carry
  things for her。〃
  〃Yes。 I never saw anybody like Gertrude in my life。 In London; if
  men were attentive to her; she sat on them for being officious;
  and if they let her alone she was angry at being neglected。
  Erskine is quite good enough for her; I think。〃
  Here Erskine appeared at the door and looked round the room。
  〃She's not here;〃 said Jane。
  〃I am seeking Sir Charles;〃 he said; withdrawing somewhat
  stiffly。
  〃What a lie!〃 said Jane; discomfited by his reception of her
  jest。 〃He was talking to Sir Charles ten minutes ago in the
  billiard room。 Men are such conceited fools!〃
  Agatha had strolled to the window; and was looking discontentedly
  at the prospect; as she had often done at school when alone; and
  sometimes did now in society。 The door opened again; and Sir
  Charles appeared。 He; too; looked round; but when his roving
  glance reached Agatha; it cast anchor; and he came in。
  〃Are you busy just now; Miss Wylie?〃 he asked。
  〃Yes;〃 said Jane hastily。 〃She is going to write a letter for
  me。〃
  〃Really; Jane;〃 he said; 〃I think you are old enough to write
  your letters without troubling Miss Wylie。〃
  〃When I do write my own letters you always find fault with them;〃
  she retorted。
  〃I thought perhaps you might have leisure to try over a duet with
  me;〃 he said; turning to Agatha。
  〃Certainly;〃 she replied; hoping to smooth matters by humoring
  him。 〃The letter will do any time before post hour。〃
  Jane reddened; and said shortly; 〃I will write it myself; if you
  will not。〃
  Sir Charles quite lost his temper。 〃How can you be so damnably
  rude?〃 he said; turning upon his wife。 〃What objection have you
  to my singing duets with Miss Wylie?〃
  〃Nice language that!〃 said Jane。 〃I never said I objected; and
  you have no right to drag her away to the piano just when she is
  going to write a letter for me。〃
  〃I do not wish Miss Wylie to do anything except what pleases her
  best。 It seems to me that writing letters to your tradespeople
  cannot be a very pleasant occupation。〃
  〃Pray don't mind me;〃 said Agatha。 〃It is not the least trouble
  to me。 I used to write all Jane's letters for her at school。
  Suppose I write the letter first; and then we can have the duet。
  You will not mind waiting five minutes?〃
  〃I can wait as long as you please; of course。 But it seems such
  an absurd abuse of your good nature that I cannot help protest!〃
  〃Oh; let it wait!〃 exclaimed Jane。 〃Such a ridiculous fuss to
  make about asking Agatha to write a letter; just because you
  happen to want her to play you your duets! I am certain she is
  heartily sick and tired of them。〃
  Agatha; to escape the altercation; went to the library and wrote
  the letter。 When she returned to the drawing…room; she found no
  one there; but Sir Charles came in presently。
  〃I am so sorry; Miss Wylie;〃 he said; as he opened the piano for
  her; 〃that you should be incommoded because my wife is silly
  enough to be jealous。〃
  〃Jealous!〃
  〃Of course。 Idiocy!〃
  〃Oh; you are mistaken;〃 said Agatha; incredulously。 〃How could
  she possibly be jealous of me?〃
  〃She is jealous of everybody and everything;〃 he replied