第 37 节
作者:指点迷津      更新:2021-02-20 05:05      字数:9322
  Seriously; of course; it was commonplace enough。〃
  Agatha stopped and faced him。 〃What do you mean by what you said
  just now? You said that I was the immediate cause of the tragedy;
  and you say that you were talking of Henrietta'sof Henrietta。 I
  had nothing to do with her illness。〃
  Trefusis looked at her as if considering whether he would go any
  further。 Then; watching her with the curiosity of a vivisector;
  he said: 〃Strange to say; Agatha;〃 (she shrank proudly at the
  word); 〃Henrietta might have been alive now but for you。 I am
  very glad she is not; so you need not reproach yourself on my
  account。 She died of a journey she made to Lyvern in great
  excitement and distress; and in intensely cold weather。 You
  caused her to make that journey by writing her a letter which
  made her jealous。〃
  〃Do you mean to accuse me〃
  〃No; stop!〃 he said hastily; the vivisecting spirit in him
  exorcised by her shaking voice; 〃I accuse you of nothing。 Why do
  you not speak honestly to me when you are at your ease? If you
  confess your real thoughts only under torture; who can resist the
  temptation to torture you? One must charge you with homicide to
  make you speak of anything but orchids。〃
  But Agatha had drawn the new inference from the old facts; and
  would not be talked out of repudiating it。 〃It was not my fault;〃
  she said。 〃It was yoursaltogether yours。〃
  〃Altogether;〃 he assented; relieved to find her indignant instead
  of remorseful。
  She was not to be soothed by a verbal acquiescence。 〃Your
  behavior was most unmanly; and I told you so; and you could not
  deny it。 You pretended that youYou pretended to have
  feelingsYou tried to make me believe that Oh; I am a fool to
  talk to you; you know perfectly well what I mean。〃
  〃Perfectly。 I tried to make you believe that I was in love with
  you。 How do you know I was not?〃
  She disdained to answer; but as he waited calmly she said; 〃You
  had no right to be。〃
  〃That does not prove that I was not。 Come; Agatha; you pretended
  to like me when you did not care two straws about me。 You
  confessed as much in that fatal letter; which I have somewhere at
  home。 It has a great rent right across it; and the mark of her
  heel; she must have stamped on it in her rage; poor girl! So that
  I can show your own hand for the very deception you accused
  mewithout proofof having practiced on you。〃
  〃You are clever; and can twist things。 What pleasure does it give
  you to make me miserable?〃
  〃Ha!〃 he exclaimed; in an abrupt; sardonic laugh。 〃I don't know;
  you bewitch me; I think。〃
  Agatha made no reply; but walked on quickly to the end of the
  conservatory; where the others were waiting for them。
  〃Where have you been; and what have you been doing all this
  time?〃 said Jane; as Trefusis came up; hurrying after Agatha。 〃I
  don't know what you call it; but I call it perfectly
  disgraceful!〃
  Sir Charles reddened at his wife's bad taste; and Trefusis
  replied gravely: 〃We have been admiring the orchids; and talking
  about them。 Miss Wylie takes an interest in them。〃
  CHAPTER XIII
  One morning Gertrude got a letter from her father:
  〃My Dear Gerty: I have just received a bill for L110 from Madame
  Smith for your dresses。 May I ask you how long this sort of thing
  is to go on? I need not tell you that I have not the means to
  support you in such extravagance。 I am; as you know; always
  anxious that you should go about in a style worthy of your
  position; but unless you can manage without calling on me to pay
  away hundreds of pounds every season to Madame Smith; you had
  better give up society and stay at home。 I positively cannot
  afford it。 As far as I can see; going into society has not done
  you much good。 I had to raise L500 last month on Franklands; and
  it is too bad if I must raise more to pay your dressmaker。 You
  might at least employ some civil person; or one whose charges are
  moderate。 Madame Smith tells me that she will not wait any
  longer; and charges L50 for a single dress。 I hope you fully
  understand that there must be an end to this。
  〃I hear from your mother that young Erskine is with you at
  Brandon's。 I do not think much of him。 He is not well off; nor
  likely to get on; as he has taken to poetry and so forth。 I am
  told also that a man named Trefusis visits at the Beeches a good
  deal now。 He must be a fool; for he contested the last Birmingham
  election; and came out at the foot of the poll with thirty…two
  votes through calling himself a Social Democrat or some such
  foreign rubbish; instead of saying out like a man that he was a
  Radical。 I suppose the name stuck in his throat; for his mother
  was one of the Howards of Breconcastle; so he has good blood in
  him; though his father was nobody。 I wish he had your bills to
  pay; he could buy and sell me ten times over; after all my
  twenty…five years' service。
  〃As I am thinking of getting something done to the house; I had
  rather you did not come back this month; if you can possibly hold
  on at Brandon's。 Remember me to him; and give our kind regards to
  his wife。 I should be obliged if you would gather some hemlock
  leaves and send them to me。 I want them for my ointment; the
  stuff the chemists sell is no good。 Your mother's eyes are bad
  again; and your brother Berkeley has been gambling; and seems to
  think I ought to pay his debts for him。 I am greatly worried over
  it all; and I hope that; until you have settled yourself; you
  will be more reasonable; and not run these everlasting bills upon
  me。 You are enjoying yourself out of reach of all the
  unpleasantness; but it bears hardly upon
  〃Your affectionate father;                   〃C。B。 LINDSAY。〃
  A faint sketch of the lines Time intended to engrave on
  Gertrude's brow appeared there as she read the letter; but she
  hastened to give the admiral's kind regards to her host and
  hostess; and discussed her mother's health feelingly with them。
  After breakfast she went to the library; and wrote her reply:
  〃BRANDON BEECHES;   〃Tuesday。
  〃Dear Papa: Considering that it is more than three years since
  you paid Madame Smith last; and that then her bill; which
  included my court dress; was only L150; I cannot see how I could
  possibly have been more economical; unless you expect me to go in
  rags。 I am sorry that Madame Smith has asked for the money at
  such an inconvenient time; but when I begged you to pay her
  something in March last year you told me to keep her quiet by
  giving her a good order。 I am not surprised at her not being very
  civil; as she has plenty of tradesmen's daughters among her
  customers who pay her more than L300 a year for their dresses。 I
  am wearing a skirt at present which I got two years ago。
  〃Sir Charles is going to town on Thursday; he will bring you the
  hemlock。 Tell mamma that there is an old woman here who knows
  some wonderful cure for sore eyes。 She will not tell what the
  ingredients are; but it cures everyone; and there is no use in
  giving an oculist two guineas for telling us that reading in bed
  is bad for the eyes; when we know perfectly well that mamma will
  not give up doing it。 If you pay Berkeley's debts; do not forget
  that he owes me L3。
  〃Another schoolfellow of mine is staying here now; and I think
  that Mr。 Trefusis will have the pleasure of paying her bills some
  day。 He is a great pet of Lady Brandon's。 Sir Charles was angry
  at first because she invited him here; and we were al1 surprised
  at it。 The man has a bad reputation; and headed a mob that threw
  down the walls of the park; and we hardly thought he would be
  cool enough to come after that。 But he does not seem to care
  whether we want him or not; and he comes when he likes。 As he
  talks cleverly; we find him a godsend in this dull place。 It is
  really not such a paradise as you seem to think; but you need not
  be afraid of my returning any sooner than I can help。
  〃Your affectionate daughter;     〃Gertrude Lindsay。
  When Gertrude had closed this letter; and torn up her father's;
  she thought little more about either。 They might have made her
  unhappy had they found her happy; but as hopeless discontent was
  her normal state; and enjoyment but a rare accident;
  recriminatory passages with her father only put her into a bad
  humor; and did not in the least disappoint or humiliate her。
  For the sake of exercise; she resolved to carry her letter to the
  village post office and return along the Riverside Road; whereby
  she had seen hemlock growing。 She took care to go out unobserved;
  lest Agatha should volunteer to walk with her; or Jane declare
  her intention of driving to the post office in the afternoon; and
  sulk for the rest of the day unless the trip to the village were
  postponed until then。 She took with her; as a protection against
  tramps; a big St。 Bernard dog named Max。 This animal; which was
  young and enthusiastic; had taken a strong fancy to her; and had
  expressed it frankly and boisterously; and she; whose affections
  had been starved in her home and in society; had encouraged him
  with more kindness than she had ever shown to any human being。
  In the village; having posted her letter; she turned towards a
  lane that led to the Riverside Road。 Max; unaware of her reason
  for choosing the longest way home;