第 11 节
作者:指点迷津      更新:2021-02-20 05:05      字数:9322
  simple acknowledgment of this offence against the college and its
  rules。〃
  〃I do not care that for Mrs。 Miller;〃 said Agatha; snapping her
  fingers。 〃And you are not half so good as I thought。〃
  〃Agatha;〃 said Mr。 Jansenius; 〃I desire you to hold your tongue。〃
  Agatha drew a deep breath; sat down resignedly; and said: 〃There!
  I have done。 I have lost my temper; so now we have all lost our
  tempers。〃
  〃You have no right to lose your temper; Miss;〃 said Mr。
  Jansenius; following up a fancied advantage。
  〃I am the youngest; and the least to blame;〃 she replied。 〃There
  is nothing further to be said; Mr。 Jansenius;〃 said Miss Wilson;
  determinedly。 〃I am sorry that Miss Wylie has chosen to break
  with us。〃
  〃But I have not chosen to break with you; and I think it very
  hard that I am to be sent away。 Nobody here has the least quarrel
  with me except you and Mrs。 Miller。 Mrs。 Miller is annoyed
  because she mistook me for her cat; as if that was my fault! And
  really; Miss Wilson; I don't know why you are so angry。 All the
  girls will think I have done something infamous if I am expelled。
  I ought to be let stay until the end of the term; and as to the
  Recthe fault book; you told me most particularly when I first
  came that I might write in it or not just as I pleased; and that
  you never dictated or interfered with what was written。 And yet
  the very first time I write a word you disapprove of; you expel
  me。 Nobody will ever believe now that the entries are voluntary。〃
  Miss Wilson's conscience; already smitten by the coarseness and
  absence of moral force in the echo of her own 〃You are
  impertinent;〃 from the mouth of Mr。 Jansenius; took fresh alarm。
  〃The fault book;〃 she said; 〃is for the purpose of recording
  self…reproach alone; and is not a vehicle for accusations against
  others。〃
  〃I am quite sure that neither Jane nor Gertrude nor I reproached
  ourselves in the least for going downstairs as we did; and yet
  you did not blame us for entering that。 Besides; the book
  represented moral forceat least you always said so; and when
  you gave up moral force; I thought an entry should be made of
  that。 Of course I was in a rage at the time; hut when I came to
  myself I thought I had done right; and I think so still; though
  it would perhaps have been better to have passed it over。〃
  〃Why do you say that I gave up moral force?〃
  〃Telling people to leave the room is not moral force。 Calling
  them impertinent is not moral force。〃
  〃You think then that I am bound to listen patiently to whatever
  you choose to say to me; however unbecoming it may be from one in
  your position to one in mine ?〃
  〃But I said nothing unbecoming;〃 said Agatha。 Then; breaking off
  restlessly; and smiling again; she said: 〃Oh; don't let us argue。
  I am very sorry; and very troublesome; and very fond of you and
  of the college; and I won't come back next term unless you like。〃
  〃Agatha;〃 said Miss Wilson; shaken; 〃these expressions of regard
  cost you so little; and when they have effected their purpose;
  are so soon forgotten by you; that they have ceased to satisfy
  me。 I am very reluctant to insist on your leaving us at once。 But
  as your uncle has told you; you are old and sensible enough to
  know the difference between order and disorder。 Hitherto you have
  been on the side of disorder; an element which was hardly known
  here until you came; as Mrs。 Trefusis can tell you。 Nevertheless;
  if you will promise to be more careful in future; I will waive
  all past cause of complaint; and at the end of the term I shall
  be able to judge as to your continuing among us。〃
  Agatha rose; beaming。 〃Dear Miss Wilson;〃 she said; 〃you are so
  good! I promise; of course。 I will go and tell mamma。〃
  Before they could add a word she had turned with a pirouette to
  the door; and fled; presenting herself a moment later in the
  drawing…room to the three ladies; whom she surveyed with a
  whimsical smile in silence。
  〃Well?〃 said Mrs。 Jansenius peremptorily。
  〃Well; dear?〃 said Mrs。 Trefusis; caressingly。
  Mrs。 Wylie stifled a sob and looked imploringly at her daughter。
  〃I had no end of trouble in bringing them to reason;〃 said
  Agatha; after a provoking pause。 〃They behaved like children; and
  I was like an angel。 I am to stay; of course。〃
  〃Blessings on you; my darling;〃 faltered Mrs。 Wylie; attempting a
  kiss; which Agatha dexterously evaded。
  〃I have promised to be very good; and studious; and quiet; and
  decorous in future。 Do you remember my castanet song; Hetty?
  〃'Tra! lalala; la! la! la! Tra! lalala; la! la! la! Tra!
  lalalalalalalalalalala!'〃
  And she danced about the room; snapping her fingers instead of
  castanets。
  〃Don't be so reckless and wicked; my love;〃 said Mrs。 Wylie。 〃You
  will break your poor mother's heart。〃
  Miss Wilson and Mr。 Jansenius entered just then; and Agatha
  became motionless and gazed abstractedly at a vase of flowers。
  Miss Wilson invited her visitors to join the tennis players。 Mr。
  Jansenius looked sternly and disappointedly at Agatha; who
  elevated her left eyebrow and depressed her right simultaneously;
  but he; shaking his head to signify that he was not to be
  conciliated by facial feats; however difficult or contrary to
  nature; went out with Miss Wilson; followed by Mrs。 Jansenius and
  Mrs。 Wylie。
  〃How is your Hubby?〃 said Agatha then; brusquely; to Henrietta。
  Mrs。 Trefusis's eyes filled with tears so quickly that; as she
  bent her head to hide them; they fell; sprinkling Agatha's hand。
  〃This is such a dear old place;〃 she began。 〃The associations of
  my girlhood〃
  〃What is the matter between you and Hubby?〃 demanded Agatha;
  interrupting her。 〃You had better tell me; or I will ask him when
  I meet him。〃
  〃I was about to tell you; only you did not give me time。〃
  〃That is a most awful cram;〃 said Agatha。 〃But no matter。 Go on。〃
  Henrietta hesitated。 Her dignity as a married woman; and the
  reality of her grief; revolted against the shallow acuteness of
  the schoolgirl。 But she found herself no better able to resist
  Agatha's domineering than she had been in her childhood; and much
  more desirous of obtaining her sympathy。 Besides; she had already
  learnt to tell the story herself rather than leave its narration
  to others; whose accounts did not; she felt; put her case in the
  proper light。 So she told Agatha of her marriage; her wild love
  for her husband; his wild love for her; and his mysterious
  disappearance without leaving word or sign behind him。 She did
  not mention the letter。
  〃Have you had him searched for?〃 said Agatha; repressing an
  inclination to laugh。
  〃But where? Had I the remotest clue; I would follow him barefoot
  to the end of the world。〃
  〃I think you ought to search all the riversyou would have to do
  that barefoot。 He must have fallen in somewhere; or fallen down
  some place。〃
  〃No; no。 Do you think I should be here if I thought his life in
  danger? I have reasonsI know that he is only gone away。〃
  〃Oh; indeed! He took his portmanteau with him; did he? Perhaps he
  has gone to Paris to buy you something nice and give you a
  pleasant surprise。〃
  〃No;〃 said Henrietta dejectedly。 〃He knew that I wanted nothing。〃
  〃Then I suppose he got tired of you and ran away。〃
  Henrietta's peculiar scarlet blush flowed rapidly over her cheeks
  as she flung Agatha's arm away; exclaiming; 〃How dare you say so!
  You have no heart。 He adored me。〃
  〃Bosh!〃 said Agatha。 〃People always grow tired of one another。 I
  grow tired of myself whenever I am left alone for ten minutes;
  and I am certain that I am fonder of myself than anyone can be of
  another person。〃
  〃I know you are;〃 said Henrietta; pained and spiteful。 〃You have
  always been particularly fond of yourself。〃
  〃Very likely he resembles me in that respect。 In that case he
  will grow tired of himself and come back; and you will both coo
  like turtle doves until he runs away again。 Ugh! Serve you right
  for getting married。 I wonder how people can be so mad as to do
  it; with the example of their married acquaintances all warning
  them against it。〃
  〃You don't know what it is to love;〃 said Henrietta; plaintively;
  and yet patronizingly。 〃Besides; we were not like other couples。〃
  〃So it seems。 But never mind; take my word for it; he will return
  to you as soon as he has had enough of his own company。 Don't
  worry thinking about him; but come and have a game at lawn
  tennis。〃
  During this conversation they had left the drawing…room and made
  a detour through the grounds。 They were now approaching the
  tennis courts by a path which wound between two laurel hedges
  through the shrubbery。 Meanwhile; Smilash; waiting on the guests
  in his white apron and gloves (which he had positively refused to
  take off; alleging that he was a common man; with common hands
  such as born ladies and gentlemen could not be expected to take
  meat and drink from); had behaved himself irreproachably until
  the arrival of Miss Wilson and her visitors; which occurred as he
  was returning to the table with an empty tray; moving so swiftly
  that he nearly came into collision with Mrs。 Jansenius。 Instead
  of apologizing; he changed countenance; hastily held up the tray
  like a shield before his face; and began to walk ba