第 72 节
作者:左思右想      更新:2021-02-20 04:45      字数:9322
  couch and soon; warmly covered; Edith sped out over the
  water in search of peace。
  Hour after hour the boat ran up and down the shore。
  The moon arose and the night air grew very chilly。
  Henderson put on an overcoat and piled more covers on Edith。
  〃You must take me home;〃 she said at last。  〃The folks
  will be uneasy。〃
  He was compelled to take her to the cottage with the
  battle still raging。  He went back early the next morning;
  but already she had wandered out over the island。
  Instinctively Henderson felt that the shore would attract her。
  There was something in the tumult of rough little Huron's
  waves that called to him。  It was there he found her;
  crouching so close the water the foam was dampening her skirts。
  〃May I stay?〃 he asked。
  〃I have been hoping you would come;〃 she answered。
  〃It's bad enough when you are here; but it is a little easier
  than bearing it alone。〃
  〃Thank God for that!〃 said Henderson sitting beside
  her。  〃Shall I talk to you?〃
  She shook her head。  So they sat by the hour。  At last
  she spoke:  〃Of course; you know there is something I
  have got to do; Hart!〃
  〃You have not!〃 cried Henderson; violently。
  〃That's all nonsense!  Give me just one word
  of permission。  That is all that is required of you。〃
  〃‘Required?'  You grant; then; that there is something ‘required?'〃
  〃One word。  Nothing more。〃
  〃Did you ever know one word could be so big; so black;
  so desperately bitter?  Oh; Hart!〃
  〃No。〃
  〃But you know it now; Hart!〃
  〃Yes。〃
  〃And still you say that it is ‘required?'〃
  Henderson suffered unspeakably。  At last he said:  〃If you
  had seen and heard him; Edith; you; too; would feel that
  it is ‘required。'  Remember〃
  〃No!  No!  No!〃 she cried。  〃Don't ask me to remember even
  the least of my pride and folly。  Let me forget!〃
  She sat silent for a long time。
  〃Will you go with me?〃 she whispered。
  〃Of course。〃
  At last she arose。
  〃I might as well give up and have it over;〃 she faltered。
  That was the first time in her life that Edith Carr ever
  had proposed to give up anything she wanted。
  〃Help me; Hart!〃
  Henderson started around the beach assisting her all he could。
  Finally he stopped。
  〃Edith; there is no sense in this!  You are too tired to go。
  You know you can trust me。  You wait in any of these lovely
  places and send me。  You will be safe; and I'll run。
  One word is all that is necessary。〃
  〃But I've got to say that word myself; Hart!〃
  〃Then write it; and let me carry it。  The message is not
  going to prove who went to the office and sent it。〃
  〃That is quite true;〃 she said; dropping wearily; but she
  made no movement to take the pen and paper he offered。
  〃Hart; you write it;〃 she said at last。
  Henderson turned away his face。  He gripped the pen;
  while his breath sucked between his dry teeth。
  〃Certainly!〃 he said when he could speak。  〃Mackinac;
  August 27; 1908。  Philip Ammon; Lake Shore Hospital; Chicago。〃
  He paused with suspended pen and glanced at Edith。  Her white
  lips were working; but no sound came。  〃Miss Comstock is with
  the Terence O'Mores; on Mackinac Island;〃 prompted Henderson。
  Edith nodded。
  〃Signed; Henderson;〃 continued the big man。
  Edith shook her head。
  〃Say; ‘She is well and happy;' and sign; Edith Carr!〃
  she panted。
  〃Not on your life!〃 flashed Henderson。
  〃For the love of mercy; Hart; don't make this any harder!
  It is the least I can do; and it takes every ounce of
  strength in me to do it。〃
  〃Will you wait for me here?〃 he asked。
  She nodded; and; pulling his hat lower over his eyes;
  Henderson ran around the shore。  In less than an hour he
  was back。  He helped her a little farther to where the
  Devil's Kitchen lay cut into the rocks; it furnished places
  to rest; and cool water。  Before long his man came with
  the boat。  From it they spread blankets on the sand for
  her; and made chafing…dish tea。  She tried to refuse it;
  but the fragrance overcame her for she drank ravenously。
  Then Henderson cooked several dishes and spread an
  appetizing lunch。  She was young; strong; and almost
  famished for food。  She was forced to eat。  That made
  her feel much better。  Then Henderson helped her into the
  boat and ran it through shady coves of the shore; where
  there were refreshing breezes。  When she fell asleep the
  girl did not know; but the man did。  Sadly in need of rest
  himself; he ran that boat for five hours through quiet bays;
  away from noisy parties; and where the shade was cool
  and deep。  When she awoke he took her home; and as they
  went she knew that she had been mistaken。  She would
  not die。  Her heart was not even broken。  She had suffered
  horribly; she would suffer more; but eventually the pain
  must wear out。  Into her head crept a few lines of an
  old opera:
  〃Hearts do not break; they sting and ache;
  For old love's sake; but do not die;
  As witnesseth the living I。〃
  That evening they were sailing down the Straits before
  a stiff breeze and Henderson was busy with the tiller when
  she said to him:  〃Hart; I want you to do something more
  for me。〃
  〃You have only to tell me;〃 he said。
  〃Have I only to tell you; Hart?〃 she asked softly。
  〃Haven't you learned that yet; Edith?〃
  〃I want you to go away。〃
  〃Very well;〃 he said quietly; but his face whitened visibly。
  〃You say that as if you had been expecting it。〃
  〃I have。  I knew from the beginning that when this
  was over you would dislike me for having seen you suffer。
  I have grown my Gethsemane in a full realization of what
  was coming; but I could not leave you; Edith; so long as it
  seemed to me that I was serving you。  Does it make any
  difference to you where I go?〃
  〃I want you where you will be loved; and good care
  taken of you。〃
  〃Thank you!〃 said Henderson; smiling grimly。  〃Have you
  any idea where such a spot might be found?〃
  〃It should be with your sister at Los Angeles。  She always
  has seemed very fond of you。〃
  〃That is quite true;〃 said Henderson; his eyes brightening
  a little。  〃I will go to her。  When shall I start?〃
  〃At once。〃
  Henderson began to tack for the landing; but his hands
  shook until he scarcely could manage the boat。  Edith Carr
  sat watching him indifferently; but her heart was
  throbbing painfully。  〃Why is there so much suffering in
  the world?〃 she kept whispering to herself。  Inside her
  door Henderson took her by the shoulders almost roughly。
  〃For how long is this; Edith; and how are you going to
  say good…bye to me?〃
  She raised tired; pain…filled eyes to his。
  〃I don't know for how long it is;〃 she said。  〃It seems
  now as if it had been a slow eternity。  I wish to my soul
  that God would be merciful to me and make something
  ‘snap' in my heart; as there did in Phil's; that would give
  me rest。  I don't know for how long; but I'm perfectly
  shameless with you; Hart。  If peace ever comes and I want
  you; I won't wait for you to find it out yourself; I'll cable;
  Marconigraph; anything。  As for how I say good…bye; any
  way you please; I don't care in the least what happens to me。〃
  Henderson studied her intently。
  〃In that case; we will shake hands;〃 he said。  〃Good…bye; Edith。
  Don't forget that every hour I am thinking of you and hoping
  all good things will come to you soon。〃
  CHAPTER XXV
  WHEREIN PHILIP FINDS ELNORA;
  AND EDITH CARR OFFERS A YELLOW EMPEROR
  Oh; I need my own violin;〃 cried Elnora。  〃This one
  may be a thousand times more expensive; and much older
  than mine; but it wasn't inspired and taught to sing
  by a man who knew how。  It doesn't know ‘beans;' as
  mother would say; about the Limberlost。〃
  The guests in the O'More music…room laughed appreciatively。
  〃Why don't you write your mother to come for a visit
  and bring yours?〃 suggested Freckles。
  〃I did that three days ago;〃 acknowledged Elnora。
  〃I am half expecting her on the noon boat。  That is
  one reason why this violin grows worse every minute。
  There is nothing at all the matter with me。〃
  〃Splendid!〃 cried the Angel。  〃I've begged and begged
  her to do it。  I know how anxious these mothers become。
  When did you send?  What made you?  Why didn't you
  tell me?〃
  〃‘When?' Three days ago。  ‘What made me?'  You。 ‘Why didn't
  I tell you?'  Because I can't be sure in the least that she
  will come。  Mother is the most individual person。  She never
  does what every one expects she will。
  She may not come; and I didn't want you to be disappointed。〃
  〃How did I make you?〃 asked the Angel。
  〃Loving Alice。  It made me realize that if you cared for
  your girl like that; with Mr。 O'More and three other
  children; possibly my mother; with no one; might like to
  see me。  I know I want to see her