第 60 节
作者:左思右想      更新:2021-02-20 04:45      字数:9322
  all tired。  I think I must have been waiting in the
  hope that you would come。  I want no one's version
  of this but yours。  Tell me the straight of the
  thing; Phil。〃
  Philip told all he knew; while his father sat in deep thought。
  〃On my life I can't see any occasion for such a display of
  temper; Phil。  It passed all bounds of reason and breeding。
  Can't you think of anything more?〃
  〃I cannot!〃
  〃Polly says every one expected you to carry the moth
  you caught to Edith。  Why didn't you?〃
  〃She screams if a thing of that kind comes near her。
  She never has taken the slightest interest in them。  I was
  in a big hurry。  I didn't want to miss one minute of my
  dance with her。  The moth was not so uncommon; but by
  a combination of bad luck it had become the rarest in
  America for a friend of mine; who is making a collection to
  pay college expenses。  For an instant last June the series
  was completed; when a woman's uncontrolled temper ruined
  this specimen and the search for it began over。  A few
  days later a pair was secured; and again the money was
  in sight for several hours。  Then an accident wrecked
  one…fourth of the collection。  I helped replace those
  last June; all but this Yellow Emperor which we could
  not secure; and we haven't been able to find; buy or
  trade for one since。  So my friend was compelled to teach
  this past winter instead of going to college。  When that
  moth came flying in there to…night; it seemed to me like fate。
  All I thought of was; that to secure it would complete the
  collection and secure the money。  So I caught the Emperor and
  started it to Elnora。  I declare to you that I was not out of
  the pavilion over three minutes at a liberal estimate。  If I
  only had thought to speak to the orchestra!  I was sure I
  would be back before enough couples gathered and formed
  for the dance。〃
  The eyes of the father were very bright。
  〃The friend for whom you wanted the moth is a girl?〃
  he asked indifferently; as he ran the book leaves through
  his fingers。
  〃The girl of whom I wrote you last summer; and told
  you about in the fall。  I helped her all the time I was away。〃
  〃Did Edith know of her?〃
  〃I tried many times to tell her; to interest her; but she
  was so indifferent that it was insulting。  She would not
  hear me。〃
  〃We are neither one in any condition to sleep。  Why don't
  you begin at the first and tell me about this girl?
  To think of other matters for a time may clear our vision
  for a sane solution of this。  Who is she; just what is she
  doing; and what is she like?  You know I was reared among
  those Limberlost people; I can understand readily。
  What is her name and where does she live?〃
  Philip gave a man's version of the previous summer;
  while his father played with the book industriously。
  〃You are very sure as to her refinement and education?〃
  〃In almost two months' daily association; could a man
  be mistaken?  She can far and away surpass Polly; Edith;
  or any girl of our set on any common; high school; or
  supplementary branch; and you know high schools have
  French; German; and physics now。  Besides; she is a
  graduate of two other institutions。  All her life she has
  been in the school of Hard Knocks。  She has the biggest;
  tenderest; most human heart I ever knew in a girl。  She has
  known life in its most cruel phases; and instead of
  hardening her; it has set her trying to save other
  people suffering。  Then this nature position of which
  I told you; she graduated in the School of the Woods;
  before she secured that。  The Bird Woman; whose work you
  know; helped her there。  Elnora knows more interesting
  things in a minute than any other girl I ever met knew in
  an hour; provided you are a person who cares to understand
  plant and animal life。〃
  The book leaves slid rapidly through his fingers as
  the father drawled:  〃What sort of looking girl is she?〃
  〃Tall as Edith; a little heavier; pink; even complexion;
  wide open blue…gray eyes with heavy black brows; and
  lashes so long they touch her cheeks。  She has a rope
  of waving; shining hair that makes a real crown on her
  head; and it appears almost red in the light。  She is as
  handsome as any fair woman I ever saw; but she doesn't
  know it。  Every time any one pays her a compliment;
  her mother; who is a caution; discovers that; for some
  reason; the girl is a fright; so she has no appreciation of
  her looks。〃
  〃And you were in daily association two months with
  a girl like that!  How about it; Phil?〃
  〃If you mean; did I trifle with her; no!〃 cried Philip hotly。
  〃I told her the second time I met her all about Edith。
  Almost every day I wrote to Edith in her presence。
  Elnora gathered violets and made a fancy basket to put
  them in for Edith's birthday。  I started to err in
  too open admiration for Elnora; but her mother brought
  me up with a whirl I never forgot。  Fifty times a day
  in the swamps and forests Elnora made a perfect picture;
  but I neither looked nor said anything。  I never met
  any girl so downright noble in bearing and actions。
  I never hated anything as I hated leaving her; for we were
  dear friends; like two wholly congenial men。  Her mother
  was almost always with us。  She knew how much I admired
  Elnora; but so long as I concealed it from the girl;
  the mother did not care。〃
  〃Yet you left such a girl and came back whole…hearted
  to Edith Carr!〃
  〃Surely!  You know how it has been with me about
  Edith all my life。〃
  〃Yet the girl you picture is far her superior to an
  unprejudiced person; when thinking what a man would
  require in a wife to be happy。〃
  〃I never have thought what I would ‘require' to be happy!
  I only thought whether I could make Edith happy。  I have
  been an idiot!  What I've borne you'll never know!
  To…night is only one of many outbursts like that;
  in varying and lesser degrees。〃
  〃Phil; I love you; when you say you have thought
  only of Edith!  I happen to know that it is true。
  You are my only son; and I have had a right to watch
  you closely。  I believe you utterly。  Any one who cares
  for you as I do; and has had my years of experience in
  this world over yours; knows that in some ways; to…night
  would be a blessed release; if you could take it; but
  you cannot!  Go to bed now; and rest。  To…morrow; go back
  to her and fix it up。〃
  〃You heard what I said when I left her!  I said it because
  something in my heart died a minute before that; and
  I realized that it was my love for Edith Carr。  Never again
  will I voluntarily face such a scene。  If she can act
  like that at a ball; before hundreds; over a thing of which
  I thought nothing at all; she would go into actual physical
  fits and spasms; over some of the household crises I've
  seen the mater meet with a smile。  Sir; it is truth that
  I have thought only of her up to the present。  Now; I
  will admit I am thinking about myself。  Father; did you
  see her?  Life is too short; and it can be too sweet; to
  throw it away in a battle with an unrestrained woman。
  I am no fighterwhere a girl is concerned; anyway。
  I respect and love her or I do nothing。  Never again is
  either respect or love possible between me and Edith Carr。
  Whenever I think of her in the future; I will see her as
  she was to…night。  But I can't face the crowd just yet。
  Could you spare me a few days?〃
  〃It is only ten days until you were to go north for the
  summer; go now。〃
  〃I don't want to go north。  I don't want to meet people
  I know。  There; the story would precede me。  I do not
  need pitying glances or rough condolences。  I wonder if
  I could not hide at Uncle Ed's in Wisconsin for awhile?〃
  The book closed suddenly。  The father leaned across
  the table and looked into the son's eyes。
  〃Phil; are you sure of what you just have said?〃
  〃Perfectly sure!〃
  〃Do you think you are in any condition to decide to…night?〃
  〃Death cannot return to life; father。  My love for
  Edith Carr is dead。  I hope never to see her again。〃
  〃If I thought you could be certain so soon!  But; come
  to think of it; you are very like me in many ways。  I am
  with you in this。  Public scenes and disgraces I would
  not endure。  It would be over with me; were I in your
  position; that I know。〃
  〃It is done for all time;〃 said Philip Ammon。  〃Let us
  not speak of it further。〃
  〃Then; Phil;〃 the father leaned closer and looked at the
  son tenderly; 〃Phil; why don't you go to the Limberlost?〃
  〃Father!〃
  〃Why not?  No one can comfort a hurt heart like a
  tender woman; and; Phil; have you ever stopped to think
  that you may have a duty in the Limberlost; if you
  are free?  I don't know!  I only suggest it。  But; for a
  country schoolgirl; unaccustomed to men; two months
  with a man like you might well awaken feelings of which
  you do not think。  Because you were safe…guarded is no
  sign the girl was。  She mig