第 37 节
作者:左思右想      更新:2021-02-20 04:45      字数:9321
  did not know how they originated。  She had thought all
  of them came from cases spun on trees or against walls
  or boards。  She had seen only enough to know that there
  were such things; as a flash of white told her that an ermine
  was on her premises; or a sharp 〃buzzzzz〃 warned her
  of a rattler。
  So it was from creatures like that Elnora had secured
  her school money。  In one sickening sweep there rushed
  into the heart of the woman a full realization of the
  width of the gulf that separated her from her child。
  Lately many things had pointed toward it; none more plainly
  than when Elnora; like a reincarnation of her father; had
  stood fearlessly before a large city audience and played
  with even greater skill than he; on what Mrs。 Comstock
  felt very certain was his violin。  But that little crawling
  creature of earth; crushed by her before its splendid yellow
  and lavender wings could spread and carry it into the
  mystery of night; had performed a miracle。
  〃We are nearer strangers to each other than we are with
  any of the neighbours;〃 she muttered。
  So one of the Almighty's most delicate and beautiful
  creations was sacrificed without fulfilling the law; yet
  none of its species ever served so glorious a cause; for
  at last Mrs。 Comstock's inner vision had cleared。  She went
  through the cabin mechanically。  Every few minutes
  she glanced toward the back walk to see if Elnora
  were coming。  She knew arrangements had been made with
  Margaret to go to the city some time that day; so she
  grew more nervous and uneasy every moment。  She was
  haunted by the fear that the blow might discolour
  Elnora's cheek; that she would tell Margaret。  She went
  down the back walk; looking intently in all directions;
  left the garden and followed the swamp path。  Her step
  was noiseless on the soft; black earth; and soon she
  came close enough to see Elnora。  Mrs。 Comstock stood
  looking at the girl in troubled uncertainty。  Not knowing
  what to say; at last she turned and went back to the cabin。
  Noon came and she prepared dinner; calling; as she
  always did; when Elnora was in the garden; but she got
  no response; and the girl did not come。  A little after
  one o'clock Margaret stopped at the gate。
  〃Elnora has changed her mind。  She is not going;〃
  called Mrs。 Comstock。
  She felt that she hated Margaret as she hitched her
  horse and came up the walk instead of driving on。
  〃You must be mistaken;〃 said Margaret。  〃I was
  going on purpose for her。  She asked me to take her。
  I had no errand。  Where is she?〃
  〃I will call her;〃 said Mrs。 Comstock。
  She followed the path again; and this time found Elnora
  sitting on the log。  Her face was swollen and discoloured;
  and her eyes red with crying。  She paid no attention
  to her mother。
  〃Mag Sinton is here;〃 said Mrs。 Comstock harshly。
  〃I told her you had changed your mind; but she said
  you asked her to go with you; and she had nothing to
  go for herself。〃
  Elnora arose; recklessly waded through the deep swamp
  grasses and so reached the path ahead of her mother。
  Mrs。 Comstock followed as far as the garden; but she
  could not enter the cabin。  She busied herself among
  the vegetables; barely looking up when the back…door
  screen slammed noisily。  Margaret Sinton approached
  colourless; her eyes so angry that Mrs。 Comstock shrank back。
  〃What's the matter with Elnora's face?〃 demanded Margaret。
  Mrs。 Comstock made no reply。
  〃You struck her; did you?〃
  〃I thought you wasn't blind!〃
  〃I have been; for twenty long years now; Kate Comstock;〃
  said Margaret Sinton; 〃but my eyes are open at last。
  What I see is that I've done you no good and Elnora a
  big wrong。  I had an idea that it would kill you to know;
  but I guess you are tough enough to stand anything。
  Kill or cure; you get it now!〃
  〃What are you frothing about?〃 coolly asked Mrs。 Comstock。
  〃You!〃 cried Margaret。  〃You!  The woman who doesn't
  pretend to love her only child。  Who lets her grow to
  a woman; as you have let Elnora; and can't be satisfied
  with every sort of neglect; but must add abuse yet;
  and all for a fool idea about a man who wasn't worth
  his salt!〃
  Mrs。 Comstock picked up a hoe。
  〃Go right on!〃 she said。  〃Empty yourself。  It's the
  last thing you'll ever do!〃
  〃Then I'll make a tidy job of it;〃 said Margaret。
  〃You'll not touch me。  You'll stand there and hear
  the truth at last; and because I dare face you and tell
  it; you will know in your soul it is truth。  When Robert
  Comstock shaved that quagmire out there so close he
  went in; he wanted to keep you from knowing where he
  was coming from。  He'd been to see Elvira Carney。
  They had plans to go to a dance that night〃
  〃Close your lips!〃 said Mrs。 Comstock in a voice of
  deadly quiet。
  〃You know I wouldn't dare open them if I wasn't
  telling you the truth。  I can prove what I say。  I was
  coming from Reeds。  It was hot in the woods and I
  stopped at Carney's as I passed for a drink。
  Elvira's bedridden old mother heard me; and she was so
  crazy for some one to talk with; I stepped in a minute。
  I saw Robert come down the path。  Elvira saw him; too; so
  she ran out of the house to head him off。  It looked funny;
  and I just deliberately moved where I could see and hear。
  He brought her his violin; and told her to get ready and
  meet him in the woods with it that night; and they would
  go to a dance。  She took it and hid it in the loft to the
  well…house and promised she'd go。〃
  〃Are you done?〃 demanded Mrs。 Comstock。
  〃No。  I am going to tell you the whole story。  You don't
  spare Elnora anything。  I shan't spare you。  I hadn't
  been here that day; but I can tell you just how he was
  dressed; which way he went and every word they said;
  though they thought I was busy with her mother
  and wouldn't notice them。  Put down your hoe; Kate。
  I went to Elvira; told her what I knew and made her give
  me Comstock's violin for Elnora over three years ago。
  She's been playing it ever since。  I won't see her
  slighted and abused another day on account of a man
  who would have broken your heart if he had lived。
  Six months more would have showed you what everybody
  else knew。  He was one of those men who couldn't trust
  himself; and so no woman was safe with him。  Now; will
  you drop grieving over him; and do Elnora justice?〃
  Mrs。 Comstock grasped the hoe tighter and turning she
  went down the walk; and started across the woods to the
  home of Elvira Carney。  With averted head she passed
  the pool; steadily pursuing her way。  Elvira Carney;
  hanging towels across the back fence; saw her coming
  and went toward the gate to meet her。  Twenty years
  she had dreaded that visit。  Since Margaret Sinton
  had compelled her to produce the violin she had hidden
  so long; because she was afraid to destroy it; she had
  come closer expectation than dread。  The wages of sin
  are the hardest debts on earth to pay; and they are always
  collected at inconvenient times and unexpected places。
  Mrs。 Comstock's face and hair were so white; that her
  dark eyes seemed burned into their setting。  Silently she
  stared at the woman before her a long time。
  〃I might have saved myself the trouble of coming;〃
  she said at last; 〃I see you are guilty as sin!〃
  〃What has Mag Sinton been telling you?〃 panted the
  miserable woman; gripping the fence。
  〃The truth!〃 answered Mrs。 Comstock succinctly。
  〃Guilt is in every line of your face; in your eyes; all over
  your wretched body。  If I'd taken a good look at you
  any time in all these past years; no doubt I could have
  seen it just as plain as I can now。  No woman or man
  can do what you've done; and not get a mark set on them
  for every one to read。〃
  〃Mercy!〃 gasped weak little Elvira Carney。  〃Have mercy!〃
  〃Mercy?〃 scoffed Mrs。 Comstock。  〃Mercy!  That's a
  nice word from you!  How much mercy did you have
  on me?  Where's the mercy that sent Comstock to the
  slime of the bottomless quagmire; and left me to see it;
  and then struggle on in agony all these years?
  How about the mercy of letting me neglect my baby all
  the days of her life?  Mercy!  Do you really dare use
  the word to me?〃
  〃If you  knew what I've suffered!〃
  〃Suffered?〃 jeered Mrs。 Comstock。  〃That's interesting。
  And pray; what have you suffered?〃
  〃All the neighbours have suspected and been down
  on me。  I ain't had a friend。  I've always felt guilty
  of his death!  I've seen him go down a thousand times;
  plain as ever you did。  Many's the night I've stood on the
  other bank of that pool and listened to you; and I tried
  to throw myself in to keep from hearing you; but I
  didn't dare。  I knew God would send me to burn forever;
  but I'd better done it; for now; He has set the burning
  on my body; and every hour it is slowly eating the life
  out of me。 The doctor says it's a cancer〃
  Mrs。 Comstock exhaled