第 3 节
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左思右想 更新:2021-02-20 04:44 字数:9322
the expense of living and only the work of two women to
meet all of it。 She was insane to think she could come to
the city to school。 Her mother had been right。 The girl
decided that if only she lived to reach home; she would
stay there and lead any sort of life to avoid more of
this torture。 Bad as what she wished to escape had been;
it was nothing like this。 She never could live down the
movement that went through the class when she inadvertently
revealed the fact that she had expected books to
be furnished。 Her mother would not secure them; that
settled the question。
But the end of misery is never in a hurry to come; before
the day was over the superintendent entered the room and
explained that pupils from the country were charged a
tuition of twenty dollars a year。 That really was the end。
Previously Elnora had canvassed a dozen methods for
securing the money for books; ranging all the way from
offering to wash the superintendent's dishes to breaking
into the bank。 This additional expense made her plans
so wildly impossible; there was nothing to do but hold up
her head until she was from sight。
Down the long corridor alone among hundreds; down the
long street alone among thousands; out into the country
she came at last。 Across the fence and field; along the old
trail once trodden by a boy's bitter agony; now stumbled a
white…faced girl; sick at heart。 She sat on a log and began
to sob in spite of her efforts at self…control。 At first it
wasphysical breakdown; later; thought came crowding。
Oh the shame; the mortification! Why had she not
known of the tuition? How did she happen to think that
in the city books were furnished? Perhaps it was because
she had read they were in several states。 But why did she
not know? Why did not her mother go with her? Other mothers
but when had her mother ever been or done anything at all
like other mothers? Because she never had been it was
useless to blame her now。 Elnora realized she should have
gone to town the week before; called on some one and
learned all these things herself。 She should have remembered
how her clothing would look; before she wore it in
public places。 Now she knew; and her dreams were over。
She must go home to feed chickens; calves; and pigs;
wear calico and coarse shoes; and with averted head;
pass a library all her life。 She sobbed again。
〃For pity's sake; honey; what's the matter?〃 asked the
voice of the nearest neighbour; Wesley Sinton; as he
seated himself beside Elnora。 〃There; there;〃 he continued;
smearing tears all over her face in an effort to dry them。
〃Was it as bad as that; now? Maggie has been just wild
over you all day。 She's got nervouser every minute。
She said we were foolish to let you go。 She said your
clothes were not right; you ought not to carry that tin
pail; and that they would laugh at you。 By gum; I see
they did!〃
〃Oh; Uncle Wesley;〃 sobbed the girl; 〃why didn't she
tell me? 〃
〃Well; you see; Elnora; she didn't like to。 You got
such a way of holding up your head; and going through
with things。 She thought some way that you'd make it;
till you got started; and then she begun to see a hundred
things we should have done。 I reckon you hadn't reached
that building before she remembered that your skirt
should have been pleated instead of gathered; your shoes
been low; and lighter for hot September weather; and a
new hat。 Were your clothes right; Elnora?〃
The girl broke into hysterical laughter。 〃Right!〃 she cried。
〃Right! Uncle Wesley; you should have seen me among them!
I was a picture! They'll never forget me。 No; they won't
get the chance; for they'll see me again to…morrow!
〃Now that is what I call spunk; Elnora! Downright grit;〃
said Wesley Sinton。 〃Don't you let them laugh you out。
You've helped Margaret and me for years at harvest and
busy times; what you've earned must amount to quite a sum。
You can get yourself a good many clothes with it。〃
〃Don't mention clothes; Uncle Wesley;〃 sobbed Elnora;
〃I don't care now how I look。 If I don't go back all of them
will know it's because I am so poor I can't buy my books。〃
〃Oh; I don't know as you are so dratted poor;〃 said
Sinton meditatively。 〃There are three hundred acres
of good land; with fine timber as ever grew on it。〃
〃It takes all we can earn to pay the tax; and mother
wouldn't cut a tree for her life。〃
〃Well then; maybe; I'll be compelled to cut one for her;〃
suggested Sinton。 〃Anyway; stop tearing yourself to
pieces and tell me。 If it isn't clothes; what is it?〃
〃It's books and tuition。 Over twenty dollars in all。〃
〃Humph! First time I ever knew you to be stumped by
twenty dollars; Elnora;〃 said Sinton; patting her hand。
〃It's the first time you ever knew me to want money;〃
answered Elnora。 〃This is different from anything that ever
happened to me。 Oh; how can I get it; Uncle Wesley?〃
〃Drive to town with me in the morning and I'll draw it
from the bank for you。 I owe you every cent of it。〃
〃You know you don't owe me a penny; and I wouldn't
touch one from you; unless I really could earn it。
For anything that's past I owe you and Aunt Margaret for
all the home life and love I've ever known。 I know how
you work; and I'll not take your money。〃
〃Just a loan; Elnora; just a loan for a little while
until you can earn it。 You can be proud with all the
rest of the world; but there are no secrets between us;
are there; Elnora?〃
〃No;〃 said Elnora; 〃there are none。 You and Aunt
Margaret have given me all the love there has been
in my life。 That is the one reason above all others why
you shall not give me charity。 Hand me money because
you find me crying for it! This isn't the first time this
old trail has known tears and heartache。 All of us know
that story。 Freckles stuck to what he undertook and
won out。 I stick; too。 When Duncan moved away he
gave me all Freckles left in the swamp; and as I have
inherited his property maybe his luck will come with it。
I won't touch your money; but I'll win some way。 First; I'm
going home and try mother。 It's just possible I could
find second…hand books; and perhaps all the tuition need
not be paid at once。 Maybe they would accept it quarterly。
But oh; Uncle Wesley; you and Aunt Margaret keep on loving me!
I'm so lonely; and no one else cares!〃
Wesley Sinton's jaws met with a click。 He swallowed
hard on bitter words and changed what he would have
liked to say three times before it became articulate。
〃Elnora;〃 he said at last; 〃if it hadn't been for one
thing I'd have tried to take legal steps to make you
ours when you were three years old。 Maggie said then
it wasn't any use; but I've always held on。 You see;
I was the first man there; honey; and there are things
you see; that you can't ever make anybody else understand。
She loved him Elnora; she just made an idol of him。
There was that oozy green hole; with the thick
scum broke; and two or three big bubbles slowly rising
that were the breath of his body。 There she was in
spasms of agony; and beside her the great heavy log she'd
tried to throw him。 I can't ever forgive her for turning
against you; and spoiling your childhood as she has;
but I couldn't forgive anybody else for abusing her。
Maggie has got no mercy on her; but Maggie didn't see what
I did; and I've never tried to make it very clear to her。
It's been a little too plain for me ever since。 Whenever I
look at your mother's face; I see what she saw; so
I hold my tongue and say; in my heart; ‘Give her a mite
more time。' Some day it will come。 She does love you;
Elnora。 Everybody does; honey。 It's just that she's
feeling so much; she can't express herself。 You be a
patient girl and wait a little longer。 After all; she's
your mother; and you're all she's got; but a memory; and
it might do her good to let her know that she was fooled
in that。〃
〃It would kill her!〃 cried the girl swiftly。 〃Uncle Wesley;
it would kill her! What do you mean?〃
〃Nothing;〃 said Wesley Sinton soothingly。 〃Nothing; honey。
That was just one of them fool things a man says;
when he is trying his best to be wise。 You see;
she loved him mightily; and they'd been married only
a year; and what she was loving was what she thought
he was。 She hadn't really got acquainted with the man yet。
If it had been even one more year; she could have
borne it; and you'd have got justice。 Having been
a teacher she was better educated and smarter than
the rest of us; and so she was more sensitive like。
She can't understand she was loving a dream。 So I say
it might do her good if somebody that knew; could tell
her; but I swear to gracious; I never could。 I've heard
her out at the edge of that quagmire calling in them
wild spells of hers off and on for the last