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左思右想 更新:2021-02-20 04:44 字数:9320
going home! She was shaking with a nervous chill when
the music ceased; and the superintendent arose; and
coming down to the front of the flower…decked platform;
opened a Bible and began to read。 Elnora did not know
what he was reading; and she felt that she did not care。
Wildly she was racking her brain to decide whether she
should sit still when the others left the room or follow;
and ask some one where the Freshmen went first。
In the midst of the struggle one sentence fell on her ear。
〃Hide me under the shadow of Thy wings。〃
Elnora began to pray frantically。 〃Hide me; O God;
hide me; under the shadow of Thy wings。〃
Again and again she implored that prayer; and before
she realized what was coming; every one had arisen and
the room was emptying rapidly。 Elnora hurried after the
nearest girl and in the press at the door touched her
sleeve timidly。
〃Will you please tell me where the Freshmen go?〃 she
asked huskily。
The girl gave her one surprised glance; and drew away。
〃Same place as the fresh women;〃 she answered; and
those nearest her laughed。
Elnora stopped praying suddenly and the colour crept
into her face。 〃I'll wager you are the first person I meet
when I find it;〃 she said and stopped short。 〃Not that!
Oh; I must not do that!〃 she thought in dismay。 〃Make an
enemy the first thing I do。 Oh; not that!〃
She followed with her eyes as the young people separated
in the hall; some climbing stairs; some disappearing
down side halls; some entering adjoining doors。 She saw
the girl overtake the brown…eyed boy and speak to him。
He glanced back at Elnora with a scowl on his face。
Then she stood alone in the hall。
Presently a door opened and a young woman came out
and entered another room。 Elnora waited until she
returned; and hurried to her。 〃Would you tell me where
the Freshmen are?〃 she panted。
〃Straight down the hall; three doors to your left;〃
was the answer; as the girl passed。
〃One minute please; oh please;〃 begged Elnora:
〃Should I knock or just open the door?〃
〃Go in and take a seat;〃 replied the teacher。
〃What if there aren't any seats?〃 gasped Elnora。
〃Classrooms are never half…filled; there will be plenty;〃
was the answer。
Elnora removed her hat。 There was no place to put
it; so she carried it in her hand。 She looked infinitely
better without it。 After several efforts she at last opened
the door and stepping inside faced a smaller and more
concentrated battery of eyes。
〃The superintendent sent me。 He thinks I belong
here;〃 she said to the professor in charge of the class;
but she never before heard the voice with which she spoke。
As she stood waiting; the girl of the hall passed
on her way to the blackboard; and suppressed laughter
told Elnora that her thrust had been repeated。
〃Be seated;〃 said the professor; and then because he
saw Elnora was desperately embarrassed he proceeded
to lend her a book and to ask her if she had studied algebra。
She said she had a little; but not the same book they were using。
He asked her if she felt that she could do the work they were
beginning; and she said she did。
That was how it happened; that three minutes after
entering the room she was told to take her place beside the
girl who had gone last to the board; and whose flushed face
and angry eyes avoided meeting Elnora's。 Being compelled
to concentrate on her proposition she forgot herself。
When the professor asked that all pupils sign their work
she firmly wrote 〃Elnora Comstock〃 under her demonstration。
Then she took her seat and waited with white lips and
trembling limbs; as one after another professor called
the names on the board; while their owners arose and
explained their propositions; or 〃flunked〃 if they had
not found a correct solution。 She was so eager to catch
their forms of expression and prepare herself for her
recitation; that she never looked from the work on the
board; until clearly and distinctly; 〃Elnora Comstock;〃
called the professor。
The dazed girl stared at the board。 One tiny curl
added to the top of the first curve of the m in her name;
had transformed it from a good old English patronymic
that any girl might bear proudly; to Cornstock。
Elnora sat speechless。 When and how did it happen?
She could feel the wave of smothered laughter in the air
around her。 A rush of anger turned her face scarlet and
her soul sick。 The voice of the professor addressed her directly。
〃This proposition seems to be beautifully demonstrated;
Miss Cornstalk;〃 he said。 〃Surely; you can tell us how
you did it。〃
That word of praise saved her。 She could do good work。
They might wear their pretty clothes; have their friends
and make life a greater misery than it ever before
had been for her; but not one of them should do better
work or be more womanly。 That lay with her。 She was
tall; straight; and handsome as she arose。
〃Of course I can explain my work;〃 she said in natural tones。
〃What I can't explain is how I happened to be so stupid
as to make a mistake in writing my own name。 I must
have been a little nervous。 Please excuse me。〃
She went to the board; swept off the signature with one
stroke;then rewrote it plainly。 〃My name is Comstock;〃
she said distinctly。 She returned to her seat and following the
formula used by the others made her first high school recitation。
As Elnora resumed her seat Professor Henley looked at
her steadily。 〃It puzzles me;〃 he said deliberately;
how you can write as beautiful a demonstration; and explain
it as clearly as ever has been done in any of my classes and
still be so disturbed as to make a mistake in your own name。
Are you very sure you did that yourself; Miss Comstock?〃
〃It is impossible that any one else should have done it;〃
answered Elnora。
〃I am very glad you think so;〃 said the professor。
〃Being Freshmen; all of you are strangers to me。
I should dislike to begin the year with you feeling there
was one among you small enough to do a trick like that。
The next proposition; please。〃
When the hour had gone the class filed back to the study
room and Elnora followed in desperation; because she did
not know where else to go。 She could not study as she had
no books; and when the class again left the room to go to
another professor for the next recitation; she went also。
At least they could put her out if she did not belong there。
Noon came at last; and she kept with the others until they
dispersed on the sidewalk。 She was so abnormally self…
conscious she fancied all the hundreds of that laughing;
throng saw and jested at her。 When she passed the
brown…eyed boy walking with the girl of her encounter;
she knew; for she heard him say: 〃Did you really let that
gawky piece of calico get ahead of you?〃 The answer
was indistinct。
Elnora hurried from the city。 She intended to get her
lunch; eat it in the shade of the first tree; and then decide
whether she would go back or go home。 She knelt on the
bridge and reached for her box; but it was so very light that
she was prepared for the fact that it was empty; before
opening it。 There was one thing for which to be thankful。
The boy or tramp who had seen her hide it; had left the napkin。
She would not have to face her mother and account for
its loss。 She put it in her pocket; and threw the box
into the ditch。 Then she sat on the bridge and tried
to think; but her brain was confused。
〃Perhaps the worst is over;〃 she said at last。 〃I will
go back。 What would mother say to me if I came home now?〃
So she returned to the high school; followed some other
pupils to the coat room; hung her hat; and found her way
to the study where she had been in the morning。 Twice
that afternoon; with aching head and empty stomach; she
faced strange professors; in different branches。 Once she
escaped notice; the second time the worst happened。 She was
asked a question she could not answer。
〃Have you not decided on your course; and secured your books?〃
inquired the professor。
〃I have decided on my course;〃 replied Elnora; 〃I
do not know where to ask for my books。〃
〃Ask?〃 the professor was bewildered。
〃I understood the books were furnished;〃 faltered Elnora。
〃Only to those bringing an order from the township
trustee;〃 replied the Professor。
〃No! Oh no!〃 cried Elnora。 〃I will have them to…
morrow;〃 and gripped her desk for support for she knew
that was not true。 Four books; ranging perhaps at a
dollar and a half apiece; would her mother buy them?
Of course she would notcould not。
Did not Elnora know the story of old。 There was
enough land; but no one to do clearing and farm。 Tax on
all those acres; recently the new gravel road tax added;
the expense of living and only the work of two women to