第 30 节
作者:理性的思索      更新:2021-02-20 04:31      字数:9322
  too; was a matter of no importance。  Seth himself was of no
  importance; neither was he。  There was but one important person in
  the whole world; and she was strolling along the bluff path at that
  moment。  Therefore he left his seat on the bench; hurried down the
  slope to the inner end of the cove; noting absently that the tide of
  the previous night must have been unusually high; climbed to the
  bungalow; turned the corner; and walked slowly in the direction of
  the trim figure in the blue suit; which was walking; even more
  slowly; just ahead of him。
  It may be gathered that John Brown's feelings concerning the
  opposite sex had changed。  They had; and he had changed in other
  ways; also。  How much of a change had taken place he did not himself
  realize; until this very afternoon。  He did not realize it even then
  until; after he and the girl in blue had met; and the customary
  expressions of surprise at their casual meeting had been exchanged;
  the young lady seated herself on a dune overlooking the tumbling sea
  and observed thoughtfully:
  〃I shall miss all this〃with a wave of her hand toward the waves
  〃next week; when I am back again in the city。〃
  Brown's cap was in his hand as she began to speak。  After she had
  finished he stooped to pick up the cap; which had fallen to the
  ground。
  〃You are going awaynext week?〃 he said slowly。
  〃We are going to…morrow。  I shall remain in Boston for a few days。
  Then I shall visit a friend in the Berkshires。  After that I may
  join my brother in Europe; I'm not sure as to that。〃
  〃To…morrow?〃
  〃Yes!〃
  There was another one of those embarrassing intervals of silence
  which of late seemed to occur so often in their conversation。  Miss
  Graham; as usual; was the first to speak。
  〃Mr。 Brown;〃 she began。  The substitute assistant interrupted her。
  〃Please don't call me that;〃 he blurted involuntarily。  〃Itoh;
  confound it; it isn't my name!〃
  She should have been very much surprised。  He expected her to be。
  Instead she answered quite calmly。
  〃I know it;〃 she said。
  〃You DO?〃
  〃Yes。  You are 'Russ' Brooks; aren't you?〃
  Russell Brooks; alias John Brown; dropped his cap again; but did not
  pick it up。  He swallowed hard。
  〃How on earth did you know that?〃 he asked as soon as he could say
  anything。
  〃Oh; it was simple enough。  I didn't really know; I only guessed。
  You weren't a real lightkeeper; that was plain。  And you weren't
  used to washing dishes or doing houseworkthat;〃 with the
  irrepressible curl of the corners of her lips; 〃was just as plain。
  When you told me that fib about meeting my brother here last summer
  I was sure you had met him somewhere; probably at college。  So in my
  next letter to him I described you as well as I could; mentioned
  that you were as good or a better swimmer than he; and asked for
  particulars。  He answered that the only fellow he could think of who
  fitted your description was 'Russ' BrooksRussell; I supposeof
  New York; though what Russ Brooks was doing as lightkeeper's
  assistant at Eastboro Twin…Lights he DIDN'T know。  Neither did I。
  But then; THAT was not my business。〃
  The substitute assistant did not answer: he could not; on such short
  notice。
  〃So;〃 continued the girl; 〃I felt almost as if I had known you for a
  long time。  You and Horace were such good friends at college; and he
  had often told me of you。  I was very glad to meet you in real life;
  especially here; where I had no one but Mrs。 Bascom to talk to; Mr。
  Atkins; by reason of his aversion to my unfortunate sex; being
  barred。〃
  Mr。 Brown'sor Mr。 Brooks'next speech harked back to her previous
  one。
  〃I'll tell you while I'm here;〃 he began。
  〃You needn't; unless you wish;〃 she said。  〃I have no right to
  know〃adding; with characteristic femininity; 〃though I'm dying
  to。〃
  〃But I want you to know。  As I told Atkins when I first came; I
  haven't murdered anyone and I haven't stolen anything。  I'm not a
  crook running from justice。  I'm just a plain idiot who fell
  overboard from a steamer and〃bitterly〃hadn't the good luck to
  drown。〃
  She made no comment; and he began his story; telling it much as he
  had told it to the lightkeeper。
  〃There!〃 he said in conclusion; 〃that's the whole fool business。
  That's why I'm here。  No need to ask what you think of it; I
  suppose。〃
  She was silent; gazing at the breakers。  He drew his own conclusions
  from her silence。
  〃I see;〃 he said。  〃Well; I admit it。  I'm a low down chump。  Still;
  if I had it to do over again; I should do pretty much the same。  A
  few things differently; but in general the very same。〃
  〃What would you do differently?〃 she asked; still without looking at
  him。
  〃For one thing; I wouldn't run away。  I'd stay and face the music。
  Earn my living or starve。〃
  〃And now you're going to stay here?〃
  〃No longer than I can help。  If I get the appointment as assistant
  keeper I'll begin to save every cent I can。  Just as soon as I get
  enough to warrant risking it I'll head for Boston once more and
  begin the earning or starving process。  And;〃 with a snap of his
  jaws; 〃I don't intend to starve。〃
  〃You won't go back to your father?〃
  〃If he sees fit to beg my pardon and acknowledge that I was right
  not otherwise。  And he must do it of his own accord。  I told him
  that when I walked out of his office。  It was my contribution to our
  fond farewell。  His was that he would see me damned first。  Possibly
  he may。〃
  She smiled。
  〃You must have been a charming pair of pepper pots;〃 she observed。
  〃And the young ladywhat of her?〃
  〃She knows that I am fired; cut off even without the usual shilling。
  That will be quite sufficient for her; I think。〃
  〃How do you know it will?  How do you know she might not have been
  willing to wait while you earned that living you are so sure is
  coming?〃
  〃Wait?  She wait for me?  Ann Davidson wait for a man without a cent
  while he tried to earn a good many dollars?  Humph! you amuse me。〃
  〃Why not?  You didn't give her a chance。  You calmly took it for
  granted that she wanted only money and social position and you
  walked off and left her。  How do you know she wouldn't have liked
  you better for telling her just how you felt。  If a girl really
  cared for a man it seems to me that she would be willing to wait for
  him; years and years if it were necessary; provided that; during
  that time; he was trying his best for her。〃
  〃Butbutshe isn't that kind of a girl。〃
  〃How do you know?  You didn't put her to the test。  You owed her
  that。  It seems to me you owe it to her now。〃
  The answer to this was on his tongue。  It was ready behind his
  closed lips; eager to burst forth。  That he didn't love the Davidson
  girl; never had loved her。  That during the past month he had come
  to realize there was but one woman in the wide world for him。  And
  did that woman mean what she said about waiting yearsand years
  provided she cared?  And did she care?
  He didn't utter one word of this。  He wanted to; but it seemed so
  preposterous。  Such an idiotic; outrageous thing to ask。  Yet it is
  probable that he would have asked it if the young lady had given him
  the chance。  But she did not; after a sidelong glance at his face;
  she hurriedly rose from the rock and announced that she must be
  getting back to the house。
  〃I have some packing to do;〃 she explained; 〃and; besides; I think
  it is going to rain。〃
  〃But; Miss Graham; I〃
  A big drop of rain splashing upon his shoe confirmed the weather
  prophecy。  She began to walk briskly toward the bungalow; and he
  walked at her side。
  〃Another storm;〃 she said。  〃I should think the one we have just
  passed through was sufficient for a while。  I hope Mrs。 Bascom won't
  get wet。〃
  〃She has gone to the village; hasn't she?〃
  〃Yes。  She has received some message or otherI don't know how it
  camewhich sent her off in a hurry。  A livery carriage came for
  her。  She will be back before night。〃
  〃Atkins has gone; too。  He had some errands; I believe。  I can't
  make out what has come over him of late。  He has changed greatly。
  He used to be so jolly and good…humored; except when female
  picnickers came。  Now he is as solemn as an owl。  When he went away
  he scarcely spoke a word。  I thought he seemed to be in trouble; but
  when I asked him; he shut me up so promptly that I didn't press the
  matter。〃
  〃Did he?  That's odd。  Mrs。 Bascom seemed to be in trouble; too。  I
  thought she had been crying when she came out of her room to go to
  the carriage。  She denied it; but her eyes looked red。  What can be
  the matter?〃
  〃I don't know。〃
  〃Nor I。  Mr。erBrooks  Or shall I still call you 'Brown'?〃
  〃No。  Brown is dead; drowned。  Let him stay so。〃
  〃Very well。  Mr。 Brooks; has it occurred to you that your Mr。 Atkins
  is a peculiar character?  That he acts peculiarly?〃
  〃He has acted peculiarly ever since I knew him。  But to what
  particular peculiarity do you refer?〃
  〃His queer behavior。  Several times I have seen himI am almost
  sure it was hehiding or crouching behind the sand hills at the
  rear of our bungalow。〃
  〃You have?  Why; I〃
  He hesitated。  Before he could go on or she continue; the rain came
  in a deluge。  They reached the porch just in time。
  〃Well; I'm safe and reasona