第 13 节
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负债赌博 更新:2021-02-20 04:16 字数:9322
inal comments。 In these writers he appeared to find nothing but error and absurdity; and his notes were introduced for no other end than to point out groundless principles and false conclusions。 。 。 。 。 The style of these remarks was already familiar to me。 I saw nothing new in them; or different from the strain of those speculations with which Ludlow was accustomed to indulge himself in conversation with me。
After having turned over the leaves of the printed volumes; I at length lighted on a small book of maps; from which; of course; I could reasonably expect no information; on that point about which I was most curious。 It was an atlas; in which the maps had been drawn by the pen。 None of them contained any thing remarkable; so far as I; who was indeed a smatterer in geography; was able to perceive; till I came to the end; when I noticed a map; whose prototype I was wholly unacquainted with。 It was drawn on a pretty large scale; representing two islands; which bore some faint resemblance; in their relative proportions; at least; to Great Britain and Ireland。 In shape they were widely different; but as to size there was no scale by which to measure them。 From the great number of subdivisions; and from signs; which apparently represented towns and cities; I was allowed to infer; that the country was at least as extensive as the British isles。 This map was apparently unfinished; for it had no names inscribed upon it。
I have just said; my geographical knowledge was imperfect。 Though I had not enough to draw the outlines of any country by memory; I had still sufficient to recognize what I had before seen; and to discover that none of the larger islands in our globe resembled the one before me。 Having such and so strong motives to curiosity; you may easily imagine my sensations on surveying this map。 Suspecting; as I did; that many of Ludlow's intimations alluded to a country well known to him; though unknown to others; I was; of course; inclined to suppose that this country was now before me。
In search of some clue to this mystery; I carefully inspected the other maps in this collection。 In a map of the eastern hemisphere I soon observed the outlines of islands; which; though on a scale greatly diminished; were plainly similar to that of the land above described。
It is well known that the people of Europe are strangers to very nearly one half of the surface of the globe。* From the south pole up to the equator; it is only the small space occupied by southern Africa and by South America with which we are acquainted。 There is a vast extent; sufficient to receive a continent as large as North America; which our ignorance has filled only with water。 In Ludlow's maps nothing was still to be seen; in these regions; but water; except in that spot where the transverse parallels of the southern tropic and the 150th degree east longitude intersect each other。 On this spot were Ludlow's islands placed; though without any name or inscription whatever。
I needed not to be told that this spot had never been explored by any European voyager; who had published his adventures。 What authority had Ludlow for fixing a habitable land in this spot? and why did he give us nothing but the courses of shores and rivers; and the scite of towns and villages; without a name?
As soon as Ludlow had set out upon his proposed journey of a fortnight; I unlocked his closet; and continued rummaging among these books and maps till night。 By that time I had turned over every book and almost every leaf in this small collection; and did not open the closet again till near the end of that period。 Meanwhile I had many reflections upon this remarkable circumstance。 Could Ludlow have intended that I should see this atlas? It was the only book that could be styled a manuscript on these shelves; and it was placed beneath several others; in a situation far from being obvious and forward to the eye or the hand。 Was it an oversight in him to leave it in my way; or could he have intended to lead my curiosity and knowledge a little farther onward by this accidental disclosure? In either case how was I to regulate my future deportment toward him? Was I to speak and act as if this atlas had escaped my attention or not? I had already; after my first examination of it; placed the volume exactly where I found it。 On every supposition I thought this was the safest way; and unlocked the closet a second time; to see that all was precisely in the original order。 。 。 。 。 How was I dismayed and confounded on inspecting the shelves to perceive that the atlas was gone。 This was a theft; which; from the closet being under lock and key; and the key always in my own pocket; and which; from the very nature of the thing stolen; could not be imputed to any of the domestics。 After a few moments a suspicion occurred; which was soon changed intO certainty by applying to the housekeeper; who told me that Ludlow had returned; apparently in much haste; the evening of the day on which he had set out upon his journey; and just after I had left the house; that he had gone into the room where this closet of books was; and; after a few minutes' stay; came out again and went away。 She told me also; that he had made general enquiries after me; to which she had answered; that she had not seen me during the day; and supposed that I had spent the whole of it abroad。 From this account it was plain; that Ludlow had returned for no other purpose but to remove this book out of my reach。 But if he had a double key to this door; what should hinder his having access; by the same means; to every other locked up place in the house?
This suggestion made me start with terror。 Of so obvious a means for possessing a knowledge of every thing under his roof; I had never been till this moment aware。 Such is the infatuation which lays our most secret thoughts open to the world's scrutiny。 We are frequently in most danger when we deem ourselves most safe; and our fortress is taken sometimes through a point; whose weakness nothing; it should seem; but the blindest stupidity could overlook。
My terrors; indeed; quickly subsided when I came to recollect that there was nothing in any closet or cabinet of mine which could possibly throw light upon subjects which I desired to keep in the dark。 The more carefully I inspected my own drawers; and the more I reflected on the character of Ludlow; as I had known it; the less reason did there appear in my suspicions; but I drew a lesson of caution from this circumstance; which contributed to my future safety。
From this incident I could not but infer Ludlow's unwillingness to let me so far into his geographical secret; as well as the certainty of that suspicion; which had very early been suggested to my thoughts; that Ludlow's plans of civilization had been carried into practice in some unvisited corner of the world。 It was strange; however; that he should betray himself by such an inadvertency。 One who talked so confidently of his own powers; to unveil any secret of mine; and; at the same time; to conceal his own transactions; had surely committed an unpardonable error in leaving this important document in my way。 My reverence; indeed; for Ludlow was such; that I sometimes entertained the notion that this seeming oversight was; in truth; a regular contrivance to supply me with a knowledge; of which; when I came maturely to reflect; it was impossible for me to make any ill use。 There is no use in relating what would not be believed; and should I publish to the world the existence of islands in the space allotted by Ludlow's maps to these ~incognitae~; what would the world answer? That whether the space described was sea or land was of no importance。 That the moral and political condition of its inhabitants was the only topic worthy of rational curiosity。 Since I had gained no information upon this point; since I had nothing to disclose but vain and fantastic surmises; I might as well be ignorant of every thing。 Thus; from secretly condemning Ludlow's imprudence; I gradually passed to admiration of his policy。 This discovery had no other effect than to stimulate my curiosity; to keep up my zeal to prosecute the journey I had commenced under his auspices。
I had hitherto formed a resolution to stop where I was in Ludlow's confidence: to wait till the success should be ascertained of my projects with respect to Mrs。 Benington; before I made any new advance in the perilous and mysterious road into which he had led my steps。 But; before this tedious fortnight had elapsed; I was grown extremely impatient for an interview; and had nearly resolved to undertake whatever obligation he should lay upon me。
This obligation was indeed a heavy one; since it included the confession of my vocal powers。 In itself the confession was little。 To possess this faculty was neither laudable nor culpable; nor had it been exercised in a way which I should be very much ashamed to acknowledge。 It had led me into many insincerities and artifices; which; though not justifiable by any creed; was entitled to some excuse; on the score of youthful ardour and temerity。 The true difficulty in the way of these confessions was the not having made them already。 Ludlow had lon