第 14 节
作者:套牢      更新:2021-02-20 04:08      字数:9321
  then there are the Lascars; poor devils。  Nobody ever takes their part。〃
  〃How did you come across them?〃 she asked。  〃The articles; I mean。 Did Flo give them to you?〃
  〃No;〃 he answered。  〃Just chance。  Caught sight of your photo。〃
  〃Tell me;〃 she said。  〃If it had been the photo of a woman with a bony throat and a beaky nose would you have read them?〃
  He thought a moment。  〃Guess not;〃 he answered。  〃You're just as bad;〃 he continued。  〃Isn't it the pale…faced young clergyman with the wavy hair and the beautiful voice that you all flock to hear? No getting away from nature。  But it wasn't only that。〃  He hesitated。
  〃I want to know;〃 she said。
  〃You looked so young;〃 he answered。  〃I had always had the idea that it was up to the old people to put the world to rightsthat all I had to do was to look after myself。  It came to me suddenly while you were talking to meI mean while I was reading you:  that if you were worrying yourself about it; I'd got to come in; too that it would be mean of me not to。  It wasn't like being preached to。  It was somebody calling for help。〃
  Instinctively she held out her hand and he grasped it。
  Flossie came up at the same instant。  She wanted to introduce him to Miss Lavery; who had just arrived。
  〃Hullo!〃 she said。  〃Are you two concluding a bargain?〃
  〃Yes;〃 said Joan。  〃We are founding the League of Youth。  You've got to be in it。  We are going to establish branches all round the world。〃
  Flossie's young man was whisked away。  Joan; who had seated herself in a small chair; was alone for a few minutes。
  Miss Tolley had chanced upon a Human Document; with the help of which she was hopeful of starting a 〃Press Controversy〃 concerning the morality; or otherwise; of 〃Running Waters。〃  The secretary stood just behind her; taking notes。  They had drifted quite close。 Joan could not help overhearing。
  〃It always seemed to me immoral; the marriage ceremony;〃 the Human Document was explaining。  She was a thin; sallow woman; with an untidy head and restless eyes that seemed to be always seeking something to look at and never finding it。  〃How can we pledge the future?  To bind oneself to live with a man when perhaps we have ceased to care for him; it's hideous。〃
  Miss Tolley murmured agreement。
  〃Our love was beautiful;〃 continued the Human Document; eager; apparently; to relate her experience for the common good; 〃just because it was a free gift。  We were not fettered to one another。 At any moment either of us could have walked out of the house。  The idea never occurred to us; not for yearsfive; to be exact。〃
  The secretary; at a sign from Miss Tolley; made a memorandum of it。
  〃And then did your feelings towards him change suddenly?〃 questioned Miss Tolley。
  〃No;〃 explained the Human Document; in the same quick; even tones; 〃so far as I was concerned; I was not conscious of any alteration in my own attitude。  But he felt the need of more solitudefor his development。  We parted quite good friends。〃
  〃Oh;〃 said Miss Tolley。  〃And were there any children?〃
  〃Only two;〃 answered the Human Document; 〃both girls。〃
  〃What has become of them?〃 persisted Miss Tolley。
  The Human Document looked offended。  〃You do not think I would have permitted any power on earth to separate them from me; do you?〃 she answered。  〃I said to him; 'They are mine; mine。  Where I go; they go。  Where I stay; they stay。'  He saw the justice of my argument。〃
  〃And they are with you now?〃 concluded Miss Tolley。
  〃You must come and see them;〃 the Human Document insisted。  〃Such dear; magnetic creatures。  I superintend their entire education myself。  We have a cottage in Surrey。  It's rather a tight fit。 You see; there are seven of us now。  But the three girls can easily turn in together for a night; Abner will be delighted。〃
  〃Abner is your second?〃 suggested Miss Tolley。
  〃My third;〃 the Human Document corrected her。  〃After Eustace; I married Ivanoff。  I say 'married' because I regard it as the holiest form of marriage。  He had to return to his own country。 There was a political movement on foot。  He felt it his duty to go。 I want you particularly to meet the boy。  He will interest you。〃
  Miss Tolley appeared to be getting muddled。  〃Whose boy?〃 she demanded。
  〃Ivanoff's;〃 explained the Human Document。  〃He was our only child。〃
  Flossie appeared; towing a white…haired; distinguished…looking man; a Mr。 Folk。  She introduced him and immediately disappeared。  Joan wished she had been left alone a little longer。  She would like to have heard more。  Especially was she curious concerning Abner; the lady's third。  Would the higher moral law compel him; likewise; to leave the poor lady saddled with another couple of children?  Or would she; on this occasion; get inor rather; get off; first? Her own fancy was to back Abner。  She did catch just one sentence before Miss Tolley; having obtained more food for reflection than perhaps she wanted; signalled to her secretary that the note…book might be closed。
  〃Woman's right to follow the dictates of her own heart; uncontrolled by any law;〃 the Human Document was insisting:  〃That is one of the first things we must fight for。〃
  Mr。 Folk was a well…known artist。  He lived in Paris。  〃You are wonderfully like your mother;〃 he told Joan。  〃In appearance; I mean;〃 he added。  〃I knew her when she was Miss Caxton。  I acted with her in America。〃
  Joan made a swift effort to hide her surprise。  She had never heard of her mother having been upon the stage。
  〃I did not know that you had been an actor;〃 she answered。
  〃I wasn't really;〃 explained Mr。 Folk。  〃I just walked and talked naturally。  It made rather a sensation at the time。  Your mother was a genius。  You have never thought of going on the stage yourself?〃
  〃No;〃 said Joan。  〃I don't think I've got what you call the artistic temperament。  I have never felt drawn towards anything of that sort。〃
  〃I wonder;〃 he said。  〃You could hardly be your mother's daughter without it。〃
  〃Tell me;〃 said Joan。  〃What was my mother like?  I can only remember her as more or less of an invalid。〃
  He did not reply to her question。  〃Master or Mistress Eminent Artist;〃 he said; 〃intends to retire from his or her particular stage; whatever it may be。  That paragraph ought always to be put among the obituary notices。〃
  〃What's your line?〃 he asked her。  〃I take it you have one by your being here。  Besides; I am sure you have。  I am an old fighter。  I can tell the young soldier。  What's your regiment?〃
  Joan laughed。  〃I'm a drummer boy;〃 she answered。  〃I beat my drum each week in a Sunday newspaper; hoping the lads will follow。〃
  〃You feel you must beat that drum;〃 he suggested。  〃Beat it louder and louder and louder till all the world shall hear it。〃
  〃Yes;〃 Joan agreed; 〃I think that does describe me。〃
  He nodded。  〃I thought you were an artist;〃 he said。  〃Don't let them ever take your drum away from you。  You'll go to pieces and get into mischief without it。〃
  〃I know an old actress;〃 he continued。  〃She's the mother of four。 They are all on the stage and they've all made their mark。  The youngest was born in her dressing…room; just after the curtain had fallen。  She was playing the Nurse to your mother's Juliet。  She is still the best Nurse that I know。  'Jack's always worrying me to chuck it and devote myself to the children;' she confided to me one evening; while she was waiting for her cue。  'But; as I tell him; I'm more helpful to them being with them half the day alive than all the day dead。'  That's an anecdote worth remembering; when your time comes。  If God gives woman a drum he doesn't mean man to take it away from her。  She hasn't got to be playing it for twenty…four hours a day。  I'd like you to have seen your mother's Cordelia。〃
  Flossie was tacking her way towards them。  Joan acted on impulse。 〃I wish you'd give me your address;〃 she said 〃where I could write to you。  Or perhaps you would not mind my coming and seeing you one day。  I would like you to tell me more about my mother。〃
  He gave her his address in Paris where he was returning almost immediately。
  〃Do come;〃 he said。  〃It will take me back thirty…three years。  I proposed to your mother on La Grande Terrasse at St。 Germain。  We will walk there。  I'm still a bachelor。〃  He laughed; and; kissing her hand; allowed himself to be hauled away by Flossie; in exchange for Mrs。 Phillips; for whom Miss Lavery had insisted on an invitation。
  Joan had met Mrs。 Phillips several times; and once; on the stairs; had stopped and spoken to her; but had never been introduced to her formally till now。
  〃We have been meaning to call on you so often;〃 panted Mrs。 Phillips。  The room was crowded and the exertion of squeezing her way through had winded the poor lady。  〃We take so much interest in your articles。  My husband〃 she paused for a second; before venturing upon the word; and the aitch came out somewhat over… aspirated〃reads them most religiously。  You must come and dine with us one evening。〃
  Joan answered that she would be very pleased。
  〃I will find out when Robert is free and run up and let you know;〃 she continued。  〃Of course; there are so many demands upon him; especially during this period of national crisis; that