第 55 节
作者:孤悟      更新:2021-02-19 21:16      字数:9321
  orders which he disregardedhe was so anxious about youhe
  should have obeyed; and now; mayhap; he feels that his disobedience
  may have been thethe innocent cause of much misery to others; that
  is; no doubt; the reason why he is so sad。  The letter from his friend
  will cheer him; you will see。〃
  〃Do you really think so; madame?〃 murmured Jeanne; in whose
  tear…stained eyes the indomitable hopefulness of youth was already
  striving to shine。
  〃I am sure of it;〃 assented Marguerite。
  And for the moment she was absolutely sincere。  The phantom had
  entirely vanished。  She would even; had he dared to re…appear;
  have mocked and derided him for his futile attempt at turning the
  sorrow in her heart to a veritable hell of bitterness。
  CHAPTER XXXIII
  LITTLE MOTHER
  The two women; both so young still; but each of them with a mark
  of sorrow already indelibly graven in her heart; were clinging to
  one another; bound together by the strong bond of sympathy。  And
  but for the sadness of it all it were difficult to conjure up a
  more beautiful picture than that which they presented as they
  stood side by side; Marguerite; tall and stately as an exquisite
  lily; with the crown of her ardent hair and the glory of her deep
  blue eyes; and Jeanne Lange; dainty and delicate; with the brown
  curls and the child…like droop of the soft; moist lips。
  Thus Armand saw them when; a moment or two later; entered
  unannounced。  He had pushed open the door and looked on the two
  women silently for a second or two; on the girl whom he loved so
  dearly; for whose sake he had committed the great; the unpardonable
  sin which would send him forever henceforth; Cain…like; a wanderer
  on the face of the earth; and the other; his sister; her whom a
  Judas act would condemn to lonely sorrow and widowhood。
  He could have cried out in an agony of remorse; and it was the
  groan of acute soul anguish which escaped his lips that drew
  Marguerite's attention to his presence。
  Even though many things that Jeanne Lange had said had prepared
  her for a change in her brother; she was immeasurably shocked by
  his appearance。  He had always been slim and rather below the
  average in height; but now his usually upright and trim figure
  seemed to have shrunken within itself; his clothes hung baggy on
  his shoulders; his hands appeared waxen and emaciated; but the
  greatest change was in his face; in the wide circles round the
  eyes; that spoke of wakeful nights; in the hollow cheeks; and the
  mouth that had wholly forgotten how to smile。
  Percy after a week's misery immured in a dark and miserable
  prison; deprived of food and rest; did not look such a physical
  wreck as did Armand St。 Just; who was free。
  Marguerite's heart reproached her for what she felt had been
  neglect; callousness on her part。  Mutely; within herself; she
  craved his forgiveness for the appearance of that phantom which
  should never have come forth from out that chaotic hell which had
  engendered it。
  〃Armand!〃 she cried。
  And the loving arms that had guided his baby footsteps long ago;
  the tender hands that had wiped his boyish tears; were stretched
  out with unalterable love toward him。
  〃I have a message for you; dear;〃 she said gently〃a letter from
  him。  Mademoiselle Jeanne allowed me to wait here for you until
  you came。〃
  Silently; like a little shy mouse; Jeanne had slipped out of the
  room。  Her pure love for Armand had ennobled every one of her
  thoughts; and her innate kindliness and refinement had already
  suggested that brother and sister would wish to be alone。  At the
  door she had turned and met Armand's look。  That look had
  satisfied her; she felt that in it she had read the expression of
  his love; and to it she had responded with a glance that spoke of
  hope for a future meeting。
  As soon as the door had closed on Jeanne Lange; Armand; with an
  impulse that refused to be checked; threw himself into his
  sister's arms。  The present; with all its sorrows; its remorse and
  its shame; had sunk away; only the past remainedthe unforgettable
  past; when Marguerite was 〃little mother〃the soother; the comforter;
  the healer; the ever…willing receptacle wherein he had been wont to
  pour the burden of his childish griefs; of his boyish escapades。
  Conscious that she could not know everythingnot yet; at any
  ratehe gave himself over to the rapture of this pure embrace;
  the last time; mayhap; that those fond arms would close round him
  in unmixed tenderness; the last time that those fond lips would
  murmur words of affection and of comfort。
  To…morrow those same lips would; perhaps; curse the traitor; and
  the small hand be raised in wrath; pointing an avenging finger on
  the Judas。
  〃Little mother;〃 he whispered; babbling like a child; 〃it is good
  to see you again。〃
  〃And I have brought you a message from Percy;〃 she said; 〃a letter
  which he begged me to give you as soon as maybe。〃
  〃You have seen him?〃 he asked。
  She nodded silently; unable to speak。  Not now; not when her
  nerves were strung to breaking pitch; would she trust herself to
  speak of that awful yesterday。  She groped in the folds of her
  gown and took the packet which Percy had given her for Armand。  It
  felt quite bulky in her hand。
  〃There is quite a good deal there for you to read; dear;〃 she
  said。  〃Percy begged me to give you this; and then to let you read
  it when you were alone。〃
  She pressed the packet into his hand。  Armand's face was ashen
  pale。  He clung to her with strange; nervous tenacity; the paper
  which he held in one hand seemed to Sear his fingers as with a
  branding…iron。
  〃I will slip away now;〃 she said; for strangely enough since
  Percy's message had been in Armand's hands she was once again
  conscious of that awful feeling of iciness round her heart; a
  sense of numbness that paralysed her very thoughts。
  〃You will make my excuses to Mademoiselle Lange;〃 she said; trying
  to smile。  〃When you have read; you will wish to see her alone。〃
  Gently she disengaged herself from Armand's grasp and made for the
  door。  He appeared dazed; staring down at that paper which was
  scorching his fingers。  Only when her hand was on the latch did he
  seem to realise that she was going。
  〃Little mother;〃 came involuntarily to his lips。
  She came straight back to him and took both his wrists in her
  small hands。  She was taller than he; and his head was slightly
  bent forward。  Thus she towered over him; loving but strong; her
  great; earnest eyes searching his soul。
  〃When shall I see you again; little mother?〃 he asked。
  〃Read your letter; dear;〃 she replied; 〃and when you have read it;
  if you care to impart its contents to me; come to…night to my
  lodgings; Quai de la Ferraille; above the saddler's shop。  But if
  there is aught in it that you do not wish me to know; then do not
  come; I shall understand。 Good…bye; dear。〃
  She took his head between her two cold hands; and as it was still
  bowed she placed a tender kiss; as of a long farewell; upon his
  hair。
  Then she went out of the room。
  CHAPTER XXXIV
  THE LETTER
  Armand sat in the armchair in front of the fire。  His head rested
  against one hand; in the other he held the letter written by the
  friend whom he had betrayed。
  Twice he had read it now; and already was every word of that
  minute; clear writing graven upon the innermost fibres of his
  body; upon the most secret cells of his brain。
  Armand; I know。  I knew even before Chauvelin came to me; and
  stood there hoping to gloat over the soul…agony a man who finds
  that he has been betrayed by his dearest friend。 But that dd
  reprobate did not get that satisfaction; for I was prepared。  Not
  only do I know; Armand; but I UNDERSTAND。  I; who do not know what
  love is; have realised how small a thing is honour; loyalty; or
  friendship when weighed in the balance of a loved one's need。
  To save Jeanne you sold me to Heron and his crowd。 We are men;
  Armand; and the word forgiveness has only been spoken once these
  past two thousand years; and then it was spoken by Divine lips。
  But Marguerite loves you; and mayhap soon you will be all that is
  left her to love on this earth。  Because of this she must never
  know 。。。。  As for you; Armandwell; God help you!  But meseems
  that the hell which you are enduring now is ten thousand times
  worse than mine。  I have heard your furtive footsteps in the
  corridor outside the grated window of this cell; and would not
  then have exchanged my hell for yours。  Therefore; Armand; and
  because Marguerite loves you; I would wish to turn to you in the
  hour that I need help。  I am in a tight corner; but the hour may
  come when a comrade's hand might mean life to me。  I have thought
  of you; Armand partly because having taken more than my life; your
  own belongs to me; and partly because the plan which I have in my
  mind will carry with it grave risks for the man who stands by me。
  I swore once that never would I risk a comrade's life to save mine
  own; but matters are so different now 。。。 we are both in hell;
  Armand; and I in striving to get out of mine will be showing you a
  way out of yours。
  Will you retake possession of your lodgings in the Rue de la Croix
  Blanche?  I should always know then where