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孤悟 更新:2021-02-19 21:16 字数:9321
orders which he disregardedhe was so anxious about youhe
should have obeyed; and now; mayhap; he feels that his disobedience
may have been thethe innocent cause of much misery to others; that
is; no doubt; the reason why he is so sad。 The letter from his friend
will cheer him; you will see。〃
〃Do you really think so; madame?〃 murmured Jeanne; in whose
tear…stained eyes the indomitable hopefulness of youth was already
striving to shine。
〃I am sure of it;〃 assented Marguerite。
And for the moment she was absolutely sincere。 The phantom had
entirely vanished。 She would even; had he dared to re…appear;
have mocked and derided him for his futile attempt at turning the
sorrow in her heart to a veritable hell of bitterness。
CHAPTER XXXIII
LITTLE MOTHER
The two women; both so young still; but each of them with a mark
of sorrow already indelibly graven in her heart; were clinging to
one another; bound together by the strong bond of sympathy。 And
but for the sadness of it all it were difficult to conjure up a
more beautiful picture than that which they presented as they
stood side by side; Marguerite; tall and stately as an exquisite
lily; with the crown of her ardent hair and the glory of her deep
blue eyes; and Jeanne Lange; dainty and delicate; with the brown
curls and the child…like droop of the soft; moist lips。
Thus Armand saw them when; a moment or two later; entered
unannounced。 He had pushed open the door and looked on the two
women silently for a second or two; on the girl whom he loved so
dearly; for whose sake he had committed the great; the unpardonable
sin which would send him forever henceforth; Cain…like; a wanderer
on the face of the earth; and the other; his sister; her whom a
Judas act would condemn to lonely sorrow and widowhood。
He could have cried out in an agony of remorse; and it was the
groan of acute soul anguish which escaped his lips that drew
Marguerite's attention to his presence。
Even though many things that Jeanne Lange had said had prepared
her for a change in her brother; she was immeasurably shocked by
his appearance。 He had always been slim and rather below the
average in height; but now his usually upright and trim figure
seemed to have shrunken within itself; his clothes hung baggy on
his shoulders; his hands appeared waxen and emaciated; but the
greatest change was in his face; in the wide circles round the
eyes; that spoke of wakeful nights; in the hollow cheeks; and the
mouth that had wholly forgotten how to smile。
Percy after a week's misery immured in a dark and miserable
prison; deprived of food and rest; did not look such a physical
wreck as did Armand St。 Just; who was free。
Marguerite's heart reproached her for what she felt had been
neglect; callousness on her part。 Mutely; within herself; she
craved his forgiveness for the appearance of that phantom which
should never have come forth from out that chaotic hell which had
engendered it。
〃Armand!〃 she cried。
And the loving arms that had guided his baby footsteps long ago;
the tender hands that had wiped his boyish tears; were stretched
out with unalterable love toward him。
〃I have a message for you; dear;〃 she said gently〃a letter from
him。 Mademoiselle Jeanne allowed me to wait here for you until
you came。〃
Silently; like a little shy mouse; Jeanne had slipped out of the
room。 Her pure love for Armand had ennobled every one of her
thoughts; and her innate kindliness and refinement had already
suggested that brother and sister would wish to be alone。 At the
door she had turned and met Armand's look。 That look had
satisfied her; she felt that in it she had read the expression of
his love; and to it she had responded with a glance that spoke of
hope for a future meeting。
As soon as the door had closed on Jeanne Lange; Armand; with an
impulse that refused to be checked; threw himself into his
sister's arms。 The present; with all its sorrows; its remorse and
its shame; had sunk away; only the past remainedthe unforgettable
past; when Marguerite was 〃little mother〃the soother; the comforter;
the healer; the ever…willing receptacle wherein he had been wont to
pour the burden of his childish griefs; of his boyish escapades。
Conscious that she could not know everythingnot yet; at any
ratehe gave himself over to the rapture of this pure embrace;
the last time; mayhap; that those fond arms would close round him
in unmixed tenderness; the last time that those fond lips would
murmur words of affection and of comfort。
To…morrow those same lips would; perhaps; curse the traitor; and
the small hand be raised in wrath; pointing an avenging finger on
the Judas。
〃Little mother;〃 he whispered; babbling like a child; 〃it is good
to see you again。〃
〃And I have brought you a message from Percy;〃 she said; 〃a letter
which he begged me to give you as soon as maybe。〃
〃You have seen him?〃 he asked。
She nodded silently; unable to speak。 Not now; not when her
nerves were strung to breaking pitch; would she trust herself to
speak of that awful yesterday。 She groped in the folds of her
gown and took the packet which Percy had given her for Armand。 It
felt quite bulky in her hand。
〃There is quite a good deal there for you to read; dear;〃 she
said。 〃Percy begged me to give you this; and then to let you read
it when you were alone。〃
She pressed the packet into his hand。 Armand's face was ashen
pale。 He clung to her with strange; nervous tenacity; the paper
which he held in one hand seemed to Sear his fingers as with a
branding…iron。
〃I will slip away now;〃 she said; for strangely enough since
Percy's message had been in Armand's hands she was once again
conscious of that awful feeling of iciness round her heart; a
sense of numbness that paralysed her very thoughts。
〃You will make my excuses to Mademoiselle Lange;〃 she said; trying
to smile。 〃When you have read; you will wish to see her alone。〃
Gently she disengaged herself from Armand's grasp and made for the
door。 He appeared dazed; staring down at that paper which was
scorching his fingers。 Only when her hand was on the latch did he
seem to realise that she was going。
〃Little mother;〃 came involuntarily to his lips。
She came straight back to him and took both his wrists in her
small hands。 She was taller than he; and his head was slightly
bent forward。 Thus she towered over him; loving but strong; her
great; earnest eyes searching his soul。
〃When shall I see you again; little mother?〃 he asked。
〃Read your letter; dear;〃 she replied; 〃and when you have read it;
if you care to impart its contents to me; come to…night to my
lodgings; Quai de la Ferraille; above the saddler's shop。 But if
there is aught in it that you do not wish me to know; then do not
come; I shall understand。 Good…bye; dear。〃
She took his head between her two cold hands; and as it was still
bowed she placed a tender kiss; as of a long farewell; upon his
hair。
Then she went out of the room。
CHAPTER XXXIV
THE LETTER
Armand sat in the armchair in front of the fire。 His head rested
against one hand; in the other he held the letter written by the
friend whom he had betrayed。
Twice he had read it now; and already was every word of that
minute; clear writing graven upon the innermost fibres of his
body; upon the most secret cells of his brain。
Armand; I know。 I knew even before Chauvelin came to me; and
stood there hoping to gloat over the soul…agony a man who finds
that he has been betrayed by his dearest friend。 But that dd
reprobate did not get that satisfaction; for I was prepared。 Not
only do I know; Armand; but I UNDERSTAND。 I; who do not know what
love is; have realised how small a thing is honour; loyalty; or
friendship when weighed in the balance of a loved one's need。
To save Jeanne you sold me to Heron and his crowd。 We are men;
Armand; and the word forgiveness has only been spoken once these
past two thousand years; and then it was spoken by Divine lips。
But Marguerite loves you; and mayhap soon you will be all that is
left her to love on this earth。 Because of this she must never
know 。。。。 As for you; Armandwell; God help you! But meseems
that the hell which you are enduring now is ten thousand times
worse than mine。 I have heard your furtive footsteps in the
corridor outside the grated window of this cell; and would not
then have exchanged my hell for yours。 Therefore; Armand; and
because Marguerite loves you; I would wish to turn to you in the
hour that I need help。 I am in a tight corner; but the hour may
come when a comrade's hand might mean life to me。 I have thought
of you; Armand partly because having taken more than my life; your
own belongs to me; and partly because the plan which I have in my
mind will carry with it grave risks for the man who stands by me。
I swore once that never would I risk a comrade's life to save mine
own; but matters are so different now 。。。 we are both in hell;
Armand; and I in striving to get out of mine will be showing you a
way out of yours。
Will you retake possession of your lodgings in the Rue de la Croix
Blanche? I should always know then where