第 13 节
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指环王 更新:2021-02-19 21:13 字数:9322
set little face all the color he had missed。 Partially relieved by
her unconcern; and yet mortified that he had only provoked her
sense of the ludicrous; he tried to laugh also。
〃Then; to be quite plain;〃 said Louise; wiping her now humid eyes;
〃you want me to understand that you really didn't pay sufficient
attention to hear correctly! Thank you; that's a pretty English
compliment; I suppose。〃
〃I dare say you wouldn't call it 'philandering'?〃
〃I certainly shouldn't; for I don't know what 'philandering'
means。〃
Mainwaring could not reply; with Richelieu; 〃You ought to know〃;
nor did he dare explain what he thought it meant; and how he knew
it。 Louise; however; innocently solved the difficulty。
〃There's a country song I've heard Minty sing;〃 she said。 〃It
runs
Come; Philander; let us be a…marchin';
Every one for his true love a…sarchin'
Choose your true love now or never。 。 。 。
Have you been listening to her also?〃
〃No;〃 said Mainwaring; with a sudden incomprehensible; but utterly
irrepressible; resolution; 〃but I'M 'a…marchin';' you know; and
perhaps I must 'choose my true love now or never。' Will you help
me; Miss Macy?〃
He drew gently near her。 He had become quite white; but also
very manly; and it struck her; more deeply; thoroughly; and
conscientiously sincere than any man who had before addressed her。
She moved slightly away; as if to rest herself by laying both hands
upon the back of the chair。
〃Where do you expect to begin your 'sarchin''?〃 she said; leaning
on the chair and tilting it before her; 〃or are you as vague as
usual as to locality? Is it at some 'Mr。 Johnson' or 'Mr。 Pico;'
or〃
〃Here;〃 he interrupted boldly。
〃I really think you ought to first tell my cousin that you are
going away to…morrow;〃 she said; with a faint smile。 〃It's such
short notice。 She's just in there。〃 She nodded her pretty head;
without raising her eyes; towards the hall。
〃But it may not be so soon;〃 said Mainwaring。
〃Oh; then the 'sarchin'' is not so important?〃 said Louise; raising
her head; and looking towards the hall with some uneasy but
indefinable feminine instinct。
She was right; the sitting…room door opened; and Mrs。 Bradley made
her smiling appearance。
〃Mr。 Mainwaring was just looking for you;〃 said Louise; for the
first time raising her eyes to him。 〃He's not only sent off Mr。
Richardson; but he's going away himself to…morrow。〃
Mrs。 Bradley looked from the one to the other in mute wonder。
Mainwaring cast an imploring glance at Louise; which had the
desired effect。 Much more seriously; and in a quaint; business…
like way; the young girl took it upon herself to explain to Mrs。
Bradley that Richardson had brought the invalid some important news
that would; unfortunately; not only shorten his stay in America;
but even compel him to leave The Lookout sooner than he expected;
perhaps to…morrow。 Mainwaring thanked her with his eyes; and then
turned to Mrs。 Bradley。
〃Whether I go to…morrow or next day;〃 he said with simple and
earnest directness; 〃I intend; you know; to see you soon again;
either here or in my own home in England。 I do not know;〃 he added
with marked gravity; 〃that I have succeeded in convincing you that
I have made your family already well known to my people; and that〃
he fixed his eyes with a meaning look on Louise〃no matter when;
or in what way; you come to them; your place is made ready for you。
You may not like them; you know: the governor is getting to be an
old manperhaps too old for young Americansbut THEY will like
YOU; and you must put up with that。 My mother and sisters know
Miss Macy as well as I do; and will make her one of the family。〃
The conscientious earnestness with which these apparent
conventionalities were uttered; and some occult quality of quiet
conviction in the young man's manner; brought a pleasant sparkle to
the eyes of Mrs。 Bradley and Louise。
〃But;〃 said Mrs。 Bradley; gayly; 〃our going to England is quite
beyond our present wildest dreams; nothing but a windfall; an
unexpected rise in timber; or even the tabooed hotel speculation;
could make it possible。〃
〃But I shall take the liberty of trying to present it to Mr。
Bradley tonight in some practical way that may convince even his
critical judgment;〃 said Mainwaring; still seriously。 〃It will
be;〃 he added more lightly; 〃the famous testimonial of my cure
which I promised you。〃
〃And you will find Mr。 Bradley so sceptical that you will be
obliged to defer your going;〃 said Mrs。 Bradley; triumphantly。
〃Come; Louise; we must not forget that we have still Mr。
Mainwaring's present comfort to look after; that Minty has basely
deserted us; and that we ourselves must see that the last days of
our guest beneath our roof are not remembered for their privation。〃
She led Louise away with a half…mischievous suggestion of maternal
propriety; and left Mainwaring once more alone on the veranda。
He had done it! Certainly she must have understood his meaning;
and there was nothing left for him to do but to acquaint Bradley
with his intentions to…night; and press her for a final answer in
the morning。 There would be no indelicacy then in asking her for
an interview more free from interruption than this public veranda。
Without conceit; he did not doubt what the answer would be。 His
indecision; his sudden resolution to leave her; had been all based
upon the uncertainty of HIS own feelings; the propriety of HIS
declaration; the possibility of some previous experience of hers
that might compromise HIM。 Convinced by her unembarrassed manner
of her innocence; or rather satisfied of her indifference to
Richardson's gossip; he had been hurried by his feelings into an
unexpected avowal。 Brought up in the perfect security of his own
social position; and familiarly consciouswithout vanityof its
importance and power in such a situation; he believed; without
undervaluing Louise's charms or independence; that he had no one
else than himself to consult。 Even the slight uneasiness that
still pursued him was more due to his habitual conscientiousness of
his own intention than to any fear that she would not fully respond
to it。 Indeed; with his conservative ideas of proper feminine
self…restraint; Louise's calm passivity and undemonstrative
attitude were a proof of her superiority; had she blushed overmuch;
cried; or thrown herself into his arms; he would have doubted the
wisdom of so easy a selection。 It was true he had known her
scarcely three weeks; if he chose to be content with that; his own
accessible record of three centuries should be sufficient for her;
and condone any irregularity。
Nevertheless; as an hour slipped away and Louise did not make her
appearance; either on the veranda or in the little sitting…room off
the hall; Mainwaring became more uneasy as to the incompleteness of
their interview。 Perhaps a faint suspicion of the inadequacy of
her response began to trouble him; but he still fatuously regarded
it rather as owing to his own hurried and unfinished declaration。
It was true that he hadn't said half what he intended to say; it
was true that she might have misunderstood it as the conventional
gallantry of the situation; asterrible thought!the light banter
of the habitual love…making American; to which she had been
accustomed; perhaps even now she relegated him to the level of
Greyson; and this accounted for her singular impassivenessan
impassiveness that certainly was singular now he reflected upon it
that might have been even contempt。 The last thought pricked his
deep conscientiousness; he walked hurriedly up and down the
veranda; and then; suddenly re…entering his room; took up a sheet
of note…paper; and began to write to her:
〃Can you grant me a few moments' interview alone? I cannot bear
you should think that what I was trying to tell you when we were
interrupted was prompted by anything but the deepest sincerity and
conviction; or that I am willing it should be passed over lightly
by you or be forgotten。 Pray give me a chance of proving it; by
saying you will see me。 F。 M。〃
But how should he convey this to her? His delicacy revolted
against handing it to her behind Mrs。 Bradley's back; or the
prestidigitation of slipping it into her lap or under her plate
before them at luncheon; he thought for an instant of the Chinaman;
but gentlemenexcept in that 〃mirror of nature〃 the stageusually
hesitate to suborn other people's servants; or entrust a woman's
secret to her inferiors。 He remembered that Louise's room was at
the farther end of the house; and its low window gave upon the
veranda; and was guarded at night by a film of white and blue
curtains that were parted during the day; to allow a triangular
revelation of a pale blue and white draped interior。 Mainwaring
refle