第 24 节
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点绛唇 更新:2021-02-19 21:09 字数:9322
We can sometimes; by so living that those who differ from us in opinion respecting any thing can find no fault with us or our creed; influence them to a just consideration of our views; and perhaps persuade them unconsciously to adopt our way of thinking。 And just so it is; I think; with prejudice。 There is a certain dignity in enduring it which always evokes praise from those who indulge it; and also often discovers to them their error and its injustice。
Knowing that it would be unpleasant to my junior to have to ask my permission to do this or that; and not wishing to subject him to more mortification than was possible; I gave him all the latitude I could; telling him to use his own discretion; and that he need not ask my permission for any thing unless he chose。
This simple act; forgotten almost as soon as done; was in an exceedingly short time known to every cadet throughout the camp; and I had the indescribable pleasure; some days after; of knowing that by it I had been raised many degrees in the estimation of the corps。 Nor did this knowledge remain in camp。 It was spread all over the Point。 The act was talked of and praised by the cadets wherever they went; and their conversations were repeated to me many times by different persons。
When on guard again I was the junior; and of course subject to the orders of the senior。 He came to me voluntarily; and in almost my own words gave me exactly the same privileges I had given my junior; who was a chum of my present senior。 In view of the ostracism and isolation to which I had been subjected; it was expected that I would be severe; and use my authority to retaliate。 When; however; I did a more Christian act; did to others as I would have them do to me; and not as they had sometimes done; I gave cause for a similar act of good…will; which was in a degree beyond all expectation accorded me。
Indeed; while we are all prone to err; we are also very apt to do to others as they really do to us。 If they treat us well; we treat them well; if badly; we treat them so also。 I believe such to be in accordance with our nature; and if we do not always do so our failure is due to some influence apart from our better reason; if we do not treat them well; or our first impulse if we do。 If now; on the contrary; I had been severe and unnecessarily imperious because of my power; I should in all probability have been treated likewise; and would have fallen and not have risen in the estimation of the cadets。
It has often occurred to me that the terms 〃prejudice of race; of color;〃 etc。; were misnomers; and for this reason。 As soon as I show that I have some good qualities; do some act of kindness in spite of insult; my color is forgotten and I am well treated。 Again; I have observed that colored men of character and intellectual ability have been treated as men should be by all; whether friends or enemies; that is to say; no prejudice of color or race has ever been manifested。
I have been so treated by men I knew to beto use a political term〃vile democrats。〃 Unfortunately a bad temper; precipitation; stubbornness; and like qualities; all due to non…education; are too often attributes of colored men and women。 These characteristics lower the race in the estimation of the whites; and produce; I think; what we call prejudice。 In fact I believe prejudice is due solely to non…education and its effects in one or perhaps both races。
Prejudice ofwell; any word that will express these several characteristics would be better; as it would be nearer the truth。
There is; of course; a very large class of ignorant and partially cultured whites whose conceptions can find no other reason for prejudice than that of color。 I doubt very much whether they are prejudiced on that account as it is。 I rather think they are so because they know others are for some reason; and so cringing are they in their weakness that they follow like so many trained curs。 This is the class we in the South are accustomed to call the 〃poor white trash;〃 and speaking of them generally I can neglect them in this discussion of my treatment; and without material error。
In camp at night the duties of the officers of the guard are discharged part of the night by the senior and the other part by the junior officer。 As soon as it was nightto revert to the subject of this article my junior came to me and asked how I wished to divide the night tour。
〃Just suit yourself。 If you have any reason for wanting a particular part of the night; I shall be pleased to have you take it。〃
He chose the latter half of the night; and asked me to wake him at a specified time。 After this he discovered a reason for taking the first half; and coming to me said:
〃If it makes no difference to you I will take the first half of the night。〃
〃As you like;〃 was my reply。
〃You 'pile in' then; and I'll wake you in time;〃 was his reply。
Observe the familiarity in this rejoinder。
The guard was turned out and inspected by the officer of the day at about 12。20 P。M。 After the inspection I retired; and was awakened between 1 and 2 P。M。 by my junior; who then retired for the night。
The officer in charge turned out and inspected the guard between 2 and 3 p。m。
Several of the cadets were reported to me by the corporals for violating regulations。 The reports were duly recorded in the guard report for the day。 I myself reported but one cadet; and his offence was 〃Absence from tattoo roll…call of guard。〃
These reports were put in under my signature; though not at all made by me; as also was another of a very grave nature。
It seemsfor I didn't know the initial circumstances of the casethat a citizen visiting at West Point asked a cadet if he could see a friend of his who was a member of the corps。 The cadet at once sought out the corporal then on duty; and asked him to go to camp and turn out this friend。 The corporal did not go。 The cadet who requested him to do so reported the fact to the officer of the day。 The latter came at once to me and directed me; as officer of the guard; to order him to go and turn out the cadet; and to see that he did it。 I did as ordered。 The corporal replied; 〃I have turned him out。〃 As the cadet did not make his appearance the officer of the day himself went into camp; brought him out to his citizen friend; and then ordered me in positive terms to report the corporal for gross disobedience of orders。 I communicated to him the corporal's reply; and received a repetition of his order。 I obeyed it; entering on my guard report the following:
〃; disobedience of orders; not turning out a cadet for citizen when ordered to do so by the officer of the guard。〃
The commandant sent for me; and learned from me all the circumstances of the case as far as I knew them。 He made similar requirements of the corporal himself。
Connected with this case is another; which; I think; should be recorded; to show how some have been disposed to act and think concerning myself。 At the dinner table; and on the very day this affair above mentioned occurred; a cadet asked another if he had heard about; mentioning the name of the cadet corporal。
〃No; I haven't;〃 he replied; 〃what's the matter with him?〃
〃Why; the officer of the day ordered him reported for disobedience of orders; and served him right too。〃
〃What was it? Whose orders did he disobey?〃
〃Some cit wanted to see a cadet and asked Cif he could do so。 Casked; who was then on duty; to go to camp and turn him out。 He didn't do it; but went off and began talking with some ladies。 The officer of the day directed the senior officer of the guard to order him to go。 He did order him to go and replied; 〃I have turned him out;〃 and didn't go。 The officer of the day then turned him out; and ordered him to be reported for disobedience of orders; and I say served him right。〃
〃I don't see it;〃 was the reply。
〃Don' t see it? Why's relief was on post; and it was his duty to attend to all such calls during his tour; and besides; I think ordinary politeness would have been sufficient to make him go。〃
〃Well; I can sympathize with him anyhow。〃
〃Sympathize with him! How so?〃
〃Because he's on guard to…day。〃 What an excellent reason! 〃Because he's on guard to…day;〃 or; in other words; because I was in command of the guard。
He then went on to speak of the injustice of the report; the malice and spirit of retaliation shown in giving it; and hoped that the report would not be the cause of any punishment。 And all this because the report was under my signature。
When the corporal replied to me that he had turned out the cadet; I considered it a satisfactory answer; supposing the cadet's non…appearance was due to delay in arranging his toilet。 I had no intention of reporting him; and did so only in obedience to positive orders。 There surely was nothing malicious or retaliatory in that; and to condemn me for discharging the first of all military dutiesviz。; obedience of ordersis but to prove the narrowness of the intellect and the baseness of the character which are vaunted as so far superior to those of the 〃negro cadet;〃 and which condemn him and his actions for no other reason than that they are his。 How could it be otherwise than that he be isolated and persecuted when s