第 12 节
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指环王 更新:2021-02-19 21:05 字数:9322
of itself; and is easily alleviated by fresh interests; and
already; in the letter to Frank Scott; there are two words of hope:
his friends in London; his love for his profession。 The last might
have saved him; for he was ere long to pass into a new sphere;
where all his faculties were to be tried and exercised; and his
life to be filled with interest and effort。 But it was not left to
engineering: another and more influential aim was to be set before
him。 He must; in any case; have fallen in love; in any case; his
love would have ruled his life; and the question of choice was; for
the descendant of two such families; a thing of paramount
importance。 Innocent of the world; fiery; generous; devoted as he
was; the son of the wild Jacksons and the facile Jenkins might have
been led far astray。 By one of those partialities that fill men at
once with gratitude and wonder; his choosing was directed well。 Or
are we to say that by a man's choice in marriage; as by a crucial
merit; he deserves his fortune? One thing at least reason may
discern: that a man but partly chooses; he also partly forms; his
help…mate; and he must in part deserve her; or the treasure is but
won for a moment to be lost。 Fleeming chanced if you will (and
indeed all these opportunities are as 'random as blind man's buff')
upon a wife who was worthy of him; but he had the wit to know it;
the courage to wait and labour for his prize; and the tenderness
and chivalry that are required to keep such prizes precious。 Upon
this point he has himself written well; as usual with fervent
optimism; but as usual (in his own phrase) with a truth sticking in
his head。
'Love;' he wrote; 'is not an intuition of the person most suitable
to us; most required by us; of the person with whom life flowers
and bears fruit。 If this were so; the chances of our meeting that
person would be small indeed; our intuition would often fail; the
blindness of love would then be fatal as it is proverbial。 No;
love works differently; and in its blindness lies its strength。
Man and woman; each strongly desires to be loved; each opens to the
other that heart of ideal aspirations which they have often hid
till then; each; thus knowing the ideal of the other; tries to
fulfil that ideal; each partially succeeds。 The greater the love;
the greater the success; the nobler the idea of each; the more
durable; the more beautiful the effect。 Meanwhile the blindness of
each to the other's defects enables the transformation to proceed
'unobserved;' so that when the veil is withdrawn (if it ever is;
and this I do not know) neither knows that any change has occurred
in the person whom they loved。 Do not fear; therefore。 I do not
tell you that your friend will not change; but as I am sure that
her choice cannot be that of a man with a base ideal; so I am sure
the change will be a safe and a good one。 Do not fear that
anything you love will vanish; he must love it too。'
Among other introductions in London; Fleeming had presented a
letter from Mrs。 Gaskell to the Alfred Austins。 This was a family
certain to interest a thoughtful young man。 Alfred; the youngest
and least known of the Austins; had been a beautiful golden…haired
child; petted and kept out of the way of both sport and study by a
partial mother。 Bred an attorney; he had (like both his brothers)
changed his way of life; and was called to the bar when past
thirty。 A Commission of Enquiry into the state of the poor in
Dorsetshire gave him an opportunity of proving his true talents;
and he was appointed a Poor Law Inspector; first at Worcester; next
at Manchester; where he had to deal with the potato famine and the
Irish immigration of the 'forties; and finally in London; where he
again distinguished himself during an epidemic of cholera。 He was
then advanced to the Permanent Secretaryship of Her Majesty's
Office of Works and Public Buildings; a position which he filled
with perfect competence; but with an extreme of modesty; and on his
retirement; in 1868; he was made a Companion of the Bath。 While
apprentice to a Norwich attorney; Alfred Austin was a frequent
visitor in the house of Mr。 Barron; a rallying place in those days
of intellectual society。 Edward Barron; the son of a rich saddler
or leather merchant in the Borough; was a man typical of the time。
When he was a child; he had once been patted on the head in his
father's shop by no less a man than Samuel Johnson; as the Doctor
went round the Borough canvassing for Mr。 Thrale; and the child was
true to this early consecration。 'A life of lettered ease spent in
provincial retirement;' it is thus that the biographer of that
remarkable man; William Taylor; announces his subject; and the
phrase is equally descriptive of the life of Edward Barron。 The
pair were close friends; 'W。 T。 and a pipe render everything
agreeable;' writes Barron in his diary in 1823; and in 1833; after
Barron had moved to London and Taylor had tasted the first public
failure of his powers; the latter wrote: 'To my ever dearest Mr。
Barron say; if you please; that I miss him more than I regret him …
that I acquiesce in his retirement from Norwich; because I could
ill brook his observation of my increasing debility of mind。' This
chosen companion of William Taylor must himself have been no
ordinary man; and he was the friend besides of Borrow; whom I find
him helping in his Latin。 But he had no desire for popular
distinction; lived privately; married a daughter of Dr。 Enfield of
Enfield's SPEAKER; and devoted his time to the education of his
family; in a deliberate and scholarly fashion; and with certain
traits of stoicism; that would surprise a modern。 From these
children we must single out his youngest daughter; Eliza; who
learned under his care to be a sound Latin; an elegant Grecian; and
to suppress emotion without outward sign after the manner of the
Godwin school。 This was the more notable; as the girl really
derived from the Enfields; whose high…flown romantic temper; I wish
I could find space to illustrate。 She was but seven years old;
when Alfred Austin remarked and fell in love with her; and the
union thus early prepared was singularly full。 Where the husband
and wife differed; and they did so on momentous subjects; they
differed with perfect temper and content; and in the conduct of
life; and in depth and durability of love; they were at one。 Each
full of high spirits; each practised something of the same
repression: no sharp word was uttered in their house。 The same
point of honour ruled them; a guest was sacred and stood within the
pale from criticism。 It was a house; besides; of unusual
intellectual tension。 Mrs。 Austin remembered; in the early days of
the marriage; the three brothers; John; Charles; and Alfred;
marching to and fro; each with his hands behind his back; and
'reasoning high' till morning; and how; like Dr。 Johnson; they
would cheer their speculations with as many as fifteen cups of tea。
And though; before the date of Fleeming's visit; the brothers were
separated; Charles long ago retired from the world at Brandeston;
and John already near his end in the 'rambling old house' at
Weybridge; Alfred Austin and his wife were still a centre of much
intellectual society; and still; as indeed they remained until the
last; youthfully alert in mind。 There was but one child of the
marriage; Anne; and she was herself something new for the eyes of
the young visitor; brought up; as she had been; like her mother
before her; to the standard of a man's acquirements。 Only one art
had she been denied; she must not learn the violin … the thought
was too monstrous even for the Austins; and indeed it would seem as
if that tide of reform which we may date from the days of Mary
Wollstonecraft had in some degree even receded; for though Miss
Austin was suffered to learn Greek; the accomplishment was kept
secret like a piece of guilt。 But whether this stealth was caused
by a backward movement in public thought since the time of Edward
Barron; or by the change from enlightened Norwich to barbarian
London; I have no means of judging。
When Fleeming presented his letter; he fell in love at first sight
with Mrs。 Austin and the life; and atmosphere of the house。 There
was in the society of the Austins; outward; stoical conformers to
the world; something gravely suggestive of essential eccentricity;
something unpretentiously breathing of intellectual effort; that
could not fail to hit the fancy of this hot…brained boy。 The
unbroken enamel of courtesy; the self…restraint; the dignified
kindness of these married folk; had besides a particular attraction
for their visitor。 He could not but compare what he saw; with what
he knew of his mother and himself。 Whatever virt