第 5 节
作者:希望之舟      更新:2021-02-19 20:52      字数:9321
  And would have killed Charlie; who was a big boy;
  Fifteen years old; except for his Mother。
  Nevertheless the story clung to me。
  But the man who married me; a widower of thirty…five;
  Was a newcomer and never heard it
  OTill two years after we were married。
  Then he considered himself cheated;
  And the village agreed that I was not really a virgin。
  Well; he deserted me; and I died
  The following winter。
  Louise Smith
  HERBERT broke our engagement of eight years
  When Annabelle returned to the village From the
  Seminary; ah me!
  If I had let my love for him alone
  It might have grown into a beautiful sorrow
  Who knows?  filling my life with healing fragrance。
  But I tortured it; I poisoned it
  I blinded its eyes; and it became hatred
  Deadly ivy instead of clematis。
  And my soul fell from its support
  Its tendrils tangled in decay。
  Do not let the will play gardener to your soul
  Unless you are sure
  It is wiser than your soul's nature。
  Herbert Marshall
  ALL your sorrow; Louise; and hatred of me
  Sprang from your delusion that it was wantonness
  Of spirit and contempt of your soul's rights
  Which made me turn to Annabelle and forsake you。
  You really grew to hate me for love of me;
  Because I was your soul's happiness;
  Formed and tempered
  To solve your life for you; and would not。
  But you were my misery。
  If you had been
  My happiness would I not have clung to you?
  This is life's sorrow:
  That one can be happy only where two are;
  And that our hearts are drawn to stars
  Which want us not。
  George Gray
  I HAVE studied many times
  The marble which was chiseled for me
  A boat with a furled sail at rest in a harbor。
  In truth it pictures not my destination
  But my life。
  For love was offered me and I shrank from its disillusionment;
  Sorrow knocked at my door; but I was afraid;
  Ambition called to me; but I dreaded the chances。
  Yet all the while I hungered for meaning in my life。
  And now I know that we must lift the sail
  And catch the winds of destiny
  Wherever they drive the boat。
  To put meaning in one's life may end in madness;
  But life without meaning is the torture
  Of restlessness and vague desire
  It is a boat longing for the sea and yet afraid。
  Hon。 Henry Bennett
  IT never came into my mind
  Until I was ready to die
  That Jenny had loved me to death; with malice of heart。
  For I was seventy; she was thirtyfive;
  And I wore myself to a shadow trying to husband
  Jenny; rosy Jenny full of the ardor of life。
  For all my wisdom and grace of mind
  Gave her no delight at all; in very truth;
  But ever and anon she spoke of the giant strength
  Of Willard Shafer; and of his wonderful feat
  Of lifting a traction engine out of the ditch
  One time at Georgie Kirby's。
  So Jenny inherited my fortune and married Willard
  That mount of brawn! That clownish soul!
  Griffy the Cooper
  THE cooper should know about tubs。
  But I learned about life as well;
  And you who loiter around these graves
  Think you know life。
  You think your eye sweeps about a wide horizon; perhaps;
  In truth you are only looking around the interior of your tub。
  You cannot lift yourself to its rim
  And see the outer world of things;
  And at the same time see yourself。
  You are submerged in the tub of yourself
  Taboos and rules and appearances;
  Are the staves of your tub。
  Break them and dispel the witchcraft
  Of thinking your tub is life
  And that you know life。
  A。 D。 Blood
  IF YOU in the village think that my work was a good one;
  Who closed the saloons and stopped all playing at cards;
  And haled old Daisy Fraser before Justice Arnett;
  In many a crusade to purge the people of sin;
  Why do you let the milliner's daughter Dora;
  And the worthless son of Benjamin Pantier
  Nightly make my grave their unholy pillow?
  Dora Williams
  WHEN Reuben Pantier ran away and threw me
  I went to Springfield。 There I met a lush;
  Whose father just deceased left him a fortune。
  He married me when drunk。
  My life was wretched。
  A year passed and one day they found him dead。
  That made me rich。 I moved on to Chicago。
  After a time met Tyler Rountree; villain。
  I moved on to New York。 A gray…haired magnate
  Went mad about meso another fortune。
  He died one night right in my arms; you know。
  (I saw his purple face for years thereafter。 )
  There was almost a scandal。
  I moved on; This time to Paris。 I was now a woman;
  Insidious; subtle; versed in the world and rich。
  My sweet apartment near the Champs Elys?es
  Became a center for all sorts of people;
  Musicians; poets; dandies; artists; nobles;
  Where we spoke French and German; Italian; English。
  I wed Count Navigato; native of Cenoa。
  We went to Rome。 He poisoned me; I think。
  Now in the Campo Santo overlooking
  The sea where young Columbus dreamed new worlds;
  See what they chiseled: 〃Contessa Navigato
  Implora eterna quiete。〃
  Mrs。 Williams
  I WAS the milliner
  Talked about; lied about;
  Mother of Dora;
  Whose strange disappearance
  Was charged to her rearing。
  My eye quick to beauty
  Saw much beside ribbons
  And buckles and feathers
  And leghorns and felts;
  To set off sweet faces;
  And dark hair and gold。
  One thing I will tell you
  And one I will ask:
  The stealers of husbands
  Wear powder and trinkets;
  And fashionable hats。
  Wives; wear them yourselves。
  Hats may make divorces
  They also prevent them。
  Well now; let me ask you:
  If all of the children; born here in Spoon River
  Had been reared by the
  County; somewhere on a farm;
  And the fathers and mothers had been given their freedom
  To live and enjoy; change mates if they wished;
  Do you think that Spoon River
  Had been any the worse?
  William and Emily
  THERE is something about
  Death Like love itself!
  If with some one with whom you have known passion
  And the glow of youthful love;
  You also; after years of life
  Together; feel the sinking of the fire
  And thus fade away together;
  Gradually; faintly; delicately;
  As it were in each other's arms;
  Passing from the familiar room
  That is a power of unison between souls
  Like love itself!
  The Circuit Judge
  TAKE note; passers…by; of the sharp erosions
  Eaten in my head…stone by the wind and rain
  Almost as if an intangible Nemesis or hatred
  Were marking scores against me;
  But to destroy; and not preserve; my memory。
  I in life was the Circuit judge; a maker of notches;
  Deciding cases on the points the lawyers scored;
  Not on the right of the matter。
  O wind and rain; leave my head…stone alone
  For worse than the anger of the wronged;
  The curses of the poor;
  Was to lie speechless; yet with vision clear;
  Seeing that even Hod Putt; the murderer;
  Hanged by my sentence;
  Was innocent in soul compared with me。
  Blind Jack
  I HAD fiddled all day at the county fair。
  But driving home 〃Butch〃 Weldy and Jack McGuire;
  Who were roaring full; made me fiddle and fiddle
  To the song of Susie Skinner; while whipping the horses
  Till they ran away。 Blind as I was; I tried to get out
  As the carriage fell in the ditch;
  And was caught in the wheels and killed。
  There's a blind man here with a brow
  As big and white as a cloud。
  And all we fiddlers; from highest to lowest;
  Writers of music and tellers of stories
  Sit at his feet;
  And hear him sing of the fall of Troy。
  John Horace Burleson
  I WON the prize essay at school
  Here in the village;
  And published a novel before I was twenty…five。
  I went to the city for themes and to enrich my art;
  There married the banker's daughter;
  And later became president of the bank
  Always looking forward to some leisure
  To write an epic novel of the war。
  Meanwhile friend of the great; and lover of letters;
  And host to Matthew Arnold and to Emerson。
  An after dinner speaker; writing essays
  For local clubs。 At last brought here
  My boyhood home; you know
  Not even a little tablet in Chicago
  To keep my name alive。
  How great it is to write the single line:
  〃Roll on; thou deep and dark blue Ocean; roll!〃
  Nancy Knapp
  WELL; don't you see this was the way of it:
  We bought the farm with what he inherited;
  And his brothers and sisters accused him of poisoning
  His fathers mind against the rest of them。
  And we never had any peace with our treasure。
  The murrain took the cattle; and the crops failed。
  And lightning struck the granary。
  So we mortgaged the farm to keep going。
  And he grew silent and was worried all the time。
  Then some of the neighbors refused to speak to us;
  And took sides with his brothers and sisters。
  And I had no place to turn; as one may say to himself;
  At an earlier time in life;
  〃No matter; So and so is my friend; or I can shake this off
  With a little trip to Decatur。〃
  Then the dreadfulest smells infested the rooms。
  So I set fire to the beds and the old witch…house
  Went up in a roar of flame;
  As I danced in the yard with waving arms;
  While he wept like a freezing steer。
  Barry Holden
  THE very fall my sister Nancy Knapp
  Set fire to the house
  They were trying Dr。 Duval
  For the murder of Zora Clemens;
  And I sat in the court two weeks
  Listening to every witness。
  It was clear he had got her in a family
  And to let the child be born
  Would not do。
  Well; how about me with eight children;
  And one coming; and the farm
  Mortgaged to Thomas Rhodes?
  And when I got home that night;
  (After listening to the