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  she   was   always   a   very   handsome   young   lady—and   she   seemed
  vastly contented。”
  Mrs。 Dashwood could think of no other  question; and   Thomas
  and    the   table…cloth;    now    alike   needless;    were    soon   afterwards
  dismissed。 Marianne had already sent to say;   that  she   should   eat
  nothing      more。    Mrs。    Dashwood’s       and    Elinor’s    appetites     were
  equally  lost;   and   Margaret  might  think   herself  very   well   off;   that
  with     so   much      uneasiness       as   both    her    sisters    had    lately
  experienced; so much reason as they had often had to be careless
  of   their   meals;   she   had   never    been    obliged    to  go  without     her
  dinner before。
  When      the   dessert    and   the   wine    were    arranged;     and    Mrs。
  Dashwood and Elinor were left by themselves; they remained long
  together      in  a   similarity    of   thoughtfulness       and    silence。   Mrs。
  Dashwood feared to hazard any remark; and ventured not to offer
  consolation。      She   now    found    that   she   had   erred    in  relying    on
  Elinor’s representation of herself; and justly concluded that every
  thing had been expressly softened  at  the   time;   to  spare   her  from
  an increase of unhappiness; suffering as she then had suffered for
  Marianne。 She found that she had been misled by the careful; the
  considerate   attention   of   her   daughter;   to   think   the   attachment;
  which once she   had   so  well   understood; much  slighter  in   reality;
  than she had been wont to believe; or than it was now proved   to
  be。   She   feared   that   under   this   persuasion   she   had   been   unjust;
  inattentive;   nay;   almost   unkind;   to   her   Elinor;—that   Marianne’s
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  affliction; because   more acknowledged; more   immediately   before
  her; had too much engrossed her tenderness; and led her away to
  forget that in Elinor she might have a daughter suffering almost as
  much; certainly with less self…provocation; and greater fortitude。
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  CHAPTER XII
  linor now found the difference between the expectation of
  an   unpleasant   event;   however   certain   the   mind   may   be
  E
  told   to   consider   it;   and   certainty   itself。   She   now   found;
  that   in   spite   of   herself;   she   had   always   admitted   a   hope;   while
  Edward   remained single;   that  something  would   occur   to   prevent
  his    marrying     Lucy;     that   some    resolution     of  his   own;    some
  mediation       of  friends;    or   some     more    eligible   opportunity       of
  establishment for the lady; would arise   to  assist  the   happiness   of
  all。 But he was now married; and she condemned her heart for the
  lurking     flattery;   which    so   much     heightened      the   pain    of  the
  intelligence。
  That   he   should   be   married   soon;   before   (as   she   imagined)   he
  could     be  in   orders;   and    consequently      before    he   could    be  in
  possession of the living; surprised her a little at first。 But she soon
  saw how likely it was that Lucy; in her self…provident care; in her
  haste   to   secure   him;   should   overlook   every   thing   but   the   risk   of
  delay。   They   were   married;   married   in   town;   and   now   hastening
  down   to  her  uncle’s。 What  had  Edward  felt  on being  within   four
  miles   from   Barton;   on   seeing   her   mother’s   servant;   on   hearing
  Lucy’s message!
  They     would    soon;    she   supposed;     be   settled   at   Delaford。—
  Delaford;—that place in which  so much  conspired   to  give  her  an
  interest; which she wished to be acquainted with; and yet desired
  to avoid。 She saw them in an instant in their parsonage…house; saw
  in Lucy; the active; contriving manager; uniting at once a desire of
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  smart   appearance   with   the   utmost   frugality;   and   ashamed   to   be
  suspected   of     half   her   economical     practices;—pursuing   her   own
  interest in every thought; courting the favour of Colonel Brandon;
  of   Mrs。   Jennings;   and   of   every   wealthy   friend。   In   Edward—she
  knew  not   what   she   saw;   nor   what   she   wished   to   see;—happy   or
  unhappy;—nothing   pleased   her;   she   turned   away   her   head   from
  every sketch of him。
  Elinor   flattered   herself   that   some   one   of   their   connections   in
  London       would   write    to   them   to  announce      the   event;   and    give
  farther particulars;—but day after day passed off; and brought no
  letter;   no  tidings。   Though  uncertain   that  any  one   were   to   blame;
  she found fault with every absent friend。 They were all thoughtless
  or indolent。
  “When      do   you   write    to  Colonel    Brandon;      ma’am?”      was    an
  inquiry   which   sprung   from   the   impatience   of   her   mind   to   have
  something going on。
  “I   wrote   to  him;   my   love;   last   week;   and   rather   expect   to   see;
  than to hear from him again。 I earnestly pressed his coming to us;
  and should not be surprised to see him walk in today or tomorrow;
  or any day。”
  This    was   gaining     something;     something       to  look   forward     to。
  Colonel Brandon must have some information to give。
  Scarcely had she so determined it; when the figure of a man on
  horseback drew her eyes to the window。 He stopt at their gate。 It
  was a gentleman; it was Colonel Brandon himself。 Now she could
  hear more; and she trembled in expectation of it。 But—it was not
  Colonel      Brandon—neither           his   air—nor      his    height。    Were     it
  possible;  she   must  say  it must  be   Edward。   She   looked   again。   He
  had     just   dismounted;—she           could    not    be   mistaken;—it       was
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  Edward。   She   moved   away   and          sat   down。   “He    comes     from   Mr。
  Pratt’s   purposely   to   see   us。   I  will   be   calm;   I  will   be   mistress   of
  myself。”
  In a moment she perceived that the others were likewise aware
  of the mistake。 She saw her mother and Marianne change colour;
  saw   them   look   at   herself;   and   whisper   a   few   sentences   to   each
  other。 She would have given the world to be able to speak—and to
  make      them    understand      that   she   hoped    no   coolness;    no   slight;
  would      appear     in   their   behaviour      to   him;—but       she    had    no
  utterance; and was obliged to leave all to their own discretion。
  Not  a   syllable  passed  aloud。   They  all   waited   in   silence   for   the
  appearance   of   their   visitor。   His   footsteps   were   heard   along   the
  gravel path; in a moment he was in the passage; and in another he
  was before them。
  His   countenance; as   he   entered   the   room;   was   not   too   happy;
  even for Elinor。 His complexion was white with agitation; and he
  looked as if fearful of his reception; and conscious that he merited
  no kind one。 Mrs。 Dashwood; however; conforming; as she trusted;
  to   the   wishes   of   that   daughter;   by   whom   she   then   meant   in   the
  warmth of her heart to be guided in every thing; met with a look of
  forced complacency; gave him her hand; and wished him joy。
  He     coloured;     and    stammered       out    an   unintelligible      reply。
  Elinor’s lips had moved with her mother’s; and; when the moment
  of   action   was   over;   she   wished   that   she   had   shaken   hands   with
  him too。 But it was then too late; and with a countenance meaning
  to be open; she sat down again and talked of the weather。
  Marianne   had   retreated   as   much   as   possible   out   of   sight;   to
  conceal her distress; and Margaret; understanding some part; but
  not   the   whole    of   the  case;   thought    it  incumbent      on   her   to  be
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