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作者:南方网      更新:2021-02-19 19:56      字数:9250
  and exultation to listen to again and again。—I have known myself
  to    be   divided     from    Edward      for   ever;   without     hearing     one
  circumstance   that   could   make   me   less   desire   the   connection。—
  Nothing has proved him unworthy; nor has anything declared him
  indifferent to me。—I have had to contend against the unkindness
  of his sister; and the insolence of his mother; and have suffered the
  punishment of an attachment; without enjoying  its advantages。—
  And all this has been going on   at a   time;   when;   as   you  know  too
  well; it has not been my  only  unhappiness。—If  you  can   think me
  capable      of  ever   feeling—surely       you   may    suppose     that   I  have
  suffered now。 The composure of mind with which I have brought
  myself   at   present   to   consider   the   matter;   the   consolation   that   I
  have   been   willing  to  admit;   have   been   the   effect   of   constant   and
  painful exertion;—they did not spring up of themselves;—they did
  not occur to relieve my spirits at first。—No; Marianne。—Then; if I
  had not been bound   to  silence;   perhaps nothing  could   have kept
  me   entirely—not   even   what   I   owed   to   my   dearest   friends—from
  openly shewing that I was very unhappy。”—
  Marianne was quite subdued。—
  “Oh!   Elinor;”   she   cried;   “you   have   made   me   hate   myself   for
  ever。—How  barbarous   have  I   been   to   you!—you;   who   have   been
  my only comfort; who have borne with me in all my misery;   who
  have seemed to be only suffering for me!—Is this my gratitude?—
  Is this the only return I can make you?—Because your merit cries
  out upon myself; I have been trying to do it away。”
  The    tenderest     caresses     followed    this  confession。     In   such   a
  frame     of  mind    as  she   was   now    in;  Elinor    had   no  difficulty   in
  obtaining   from   her   whatever   promise   she   required;   and   at   her
  request; Marianne engaged never to speak of the affair to any one
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  with   the   least   appearance   of   bitterness;—to   meet   Lucy   without
  betraying the smallest increase of dislike to her;—and even to see
  Edward   himself;   if   chance   should   bring   them   together;   without
  any     diminution       of   her   usual     cordiality。—These         were    great
  concessions;—but   where   Marianne   felt   that   she   had   injured;   no
  reparation could be too much for her to make。
  She performed her promise of being discreet; to admiration。—
  She attended to all that Mrs。 Jennings had to say upon the subject;
  with   an   unchanging   complexion;   dissented   from   her   in   nothing;
  and was heard three times to say; “Yes; ma’am。”—She listened to
  her   praise   of   Lucy   with   only   moving   from   one   chair   to   another;
  and when Mrs。 Jennings talked   of  Edward’s affection;  it  cost  her
  only   a   spasm   in   her   throat。—Such  advances   towards   heroism   in
  her sister; made Elinor feel equal to any thing herself。
  The   next   morning   brought   a   farther   trial   of   it;   in   a   visit   from
  their brother; who came with a most serious aspect to talk over the
  dreadful affair; and bring them news of his wife。
  “You  have   heard;   I   suppose;”  said   he   with  great  solemnity;   as
  soon   as   he  was seated;  “of  the  very  shocking  discovery  that  took
  place under our roof yesterday。”
  They all looked their assent; it seemed too awful a moment for
  speech。
  “Your     sister;”   he   continued;     “has    suffered    dreadfully。     Mrs。
  Ferrars     too—in   short   it   has   been   a   scene    of  such   complicated
  distress—but I will hope that the storm may be weathered without
  our    being   any    of  us  quite    overcome。     Poor    Fanny!     she   was   in
  hysterics     all  yesterday。     But   I  would    not   alarm    you   too   much。
  Donavan says there is nothing materially to be apprehended; her
  constitution is a good one; and her resolution equal to any thing。
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  She has borne it all; with the fortitude  of  an angel!  She  says   she
  never shall think well of anybody again; and one cannot wonder at
  it; after being so deceived!—meeting with such ingratitude; where
  so much kindness had been shewn; so much confidence had been
  placed! It was quite out of the benevolence of her heart; that she
  had asked these young women to her house;   merely  because she
  thought      they   deserved      some    attention;    were     harmless;     well…
  behaved   girls;   and   would   be   pleasant   companions;   for   otherwise
  we both wished very much to have invited you and Marianne to be
  with us; while your kind friend there; was attending her daughter。
  And now to be so rewarded! ‘I wish; with all my heart;’ says poor
  Fanny   in   her   affectionate   way;   ‘that   we   had   asked   your   sisters
  instead of them。’”
  Here he stopped to be thanked; which being done; he went on。
  “What poor Mrs。 Ferrars suffered; when first Fanny broke it to
  her; is not to be described。 While she with the truest affection had
  been   planning   a   most   eligible   connection   for   him;   was   it   to   be
  supposed that he could be all the time secretly engaged to another
  person!—such a suspicion could  never  have   entered   her  head!  If
  she suspected any prepossession elsewhere; it could not be in that
  quarter。 ‘There; to be sure;’ said she; ‘I might have thought myself
  safe。’ She was quite in an agony。 We consulted together; however;
  as to what should be done; and at last she determined to send for
  Edward。 He came。 But I am sorry to relate what ensued。 All that
  Mrs。 Ferrars could say to make him put an end to the engagement;
  assisted     too  as  you    may    well  suppose     by   my   arguments;      and
  Fanny’s   entreaties;   was   of   no   avail。   Duty;   affection;   every   thing
  was     disregarded。      I  never     thought     Edward      so   stubborn;     so
  unfeeling before。 His mother explained to him her liberal designs;
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  in case of his marrying Miss Morton; told him she would settle on
  him the Norfolk estate; which; clear of land…tax; brings in   a   good
  thousand   a…year;   offered   even;   when   matters   grew   desperate;   to
  make      it  twelve   hundred;     and    in  opposition     to  this;  if  he  still
  persisted   in   this   low   connection;   represented   to   him   the   certain
  penury that must attend the match。 His own two thousand pounds
  she   protested   should   be   his   all;   she   would   never   see   him   again;
  and     so   far   would    she    be   from    affording     him    the   smallest
  assistance; that if he were to enter into any profession with a view
  of   better   support;   she   would   do  all   in   her   power   to   prevent   him
  advancing in it。”
  Here Marianne; in an ecstasy of indignation; clapped her hands
  together; and cried; “Gracious God! can this be possible!”
  “Well may you wonder; Marianne;” replied her brother; “at the
  obstinacy      which     could    resist  such    arguments       as  these。    Your
  exclamation is very natural。”
  Marianne       was    going    to   retort;   but    she   remembered         her
  promises; and forbore。
  “All this; however;” he continued; “was urged in vain。 Edward
  said very little; but what he did say;   was  in  the   most  determined
  manner。       Nothing      should     prevail     on    him    to   give    up    his
  engagement。 He would stand to it; cost him what it might。”
  “Then;” cried Mrs。 Jennings with blunt sincerity; no longer able
  to be silent; “he has acted like an honest man! I beg your pardon;
  Mr。    Dashwood;       but   if  he  had    done    otherwise;     I  should    have
  thought him a rascal。 I have some little concern in the business; as
  well as yourself; for Lucy Steele is my cousin; and I believe there is
  not a better kind of girl in the world; nor one who more deserves a
  good husband。”
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