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event really was; though she earnestly tried to drive away the
notion of its being possible to end otherwise at last; than in the
marriage of Edward and Lucy。 What Mrs。 Ferrars would say and
do; though there could not be a doubt of its nature; she was
anxious to hear; and still more anxious to know how Edward
would conduct himself。 For him she felt much compassion;—for
Lucy very little—and it cost her some pains to procure that little;—
for the rest of the party none at all。
As Mrs。 Jennings could talk on no other subject; Elinor soon
saw the necessity of preparing Marianne for its discussion。 No
time was to be lost in undeceiving her; in making her acquainted
with the real truth; and in endeavouring to bring her to hear it
talked of by others; without betraying that she felt any uneasiness
for her sister; or any resentment against Edward。
Elinor’s office was a painful one。—She was going to remove
what she really believed to be her sister’s chief consolation;—to
give such particulars of Edward as she feared would ruin him for
ever in her good opinion;—and to make Marianne; by a
resemblance in their situations; which to her fancy would seem
strong; feel all her own disappointment over again。 But
unwelcome as such a task must be; it was necessary to be done;
and Elinor therefore hastened to perform it。
She was very far from wishing to dwell on her own feelings; or
to represent herself as suffering much; any otherwise than as the
self…command she had practised since her first knowledge of
Edward’s engagement; might suggest a hint of what was
practicable to Marianne。 Her narration was clear and simple; and
though it could not be given without emotion; it was not
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accompanied by violent agitation; nor impetuous grief。—That
belonged rather to the hearer; for Marianne listened with horror;
and cried excessively。 Elinor was to be the comforter of others in
her own distresses; no less than in theirs; and all the comfort that
could be given by assurances of her own composure of mind; and a
very earnest vindication of Edward from every charge but of
imprudence; was readily offered。
But Marianne for some time would give credit to neither。
Edward seemed a second Willoughby; and acknowledging as
Elinor did; that she had loved him most sincerely; could she feel
less than herself! As for Lucy Steele; she considered her so totally
unamiable; so absolutely incapable of attaching a sensible man;
that she could not be persuaded at first to believe; and afterwards
to pardon; any former affection of Edward for her。 She would not
even admit it to have been natural; and Elinor left her to be
convinced that it was so; by that which only could convince her; a
better knowledge of mankind。
Her first communication had reached no farther than to state
the fact of the engagement; and the length of time it had existed。—
Marianne’s feelings had then broken in; and put an end to all
regularity of detail; and for some time all that could be done was to
soothe her distress; lessen her alarms; and combat her
resentment。 The first question on her side; which led to farther
particulars; was;
“How long has this been known to you; Elinor? has he written
to you?”
“I have known it these four months。 When Lucy first came to
Barton Park last November; she told me in confidence of her
engagement。”
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At these words; Marianne’s eyes expressed the astonishment
which her lips could not utter。 After a pause of wonder; she
exclaimed—
“Four months!—Have you known of this four months?”
Elinor confirmed it。
“What!—while attending me in all my misery; has this been on
your heart?—And I have reproached you for being happy!”—
“It was not fit that you should then know how much I was the
reverse!”
“Four months!”—cried Marianne again。—“So calm!—so
cheerful!—how have you been supported?”—
“By feeling that I was doing my duty。—My promise to Lucy;
obliged me to be secret。 I owed it to her; therefore; to avoid giving
any hint of the truth; and I owed it to my family and friends; not to
create in them a solicitude about me; which it could not be in my
power to satisfy。”
Marianne seemed much struck。
“I have very often wished to undeceive yourself and my
mother;” added Elinor; “and once or twice I have attempted it;—
but without betraying my trust; I never could have convinced
you。”
“Four months!—and yet you loved him!”—
“Yes。 But I did not love only him;—and while the comfort of
others was dear to me; I was glad to spare them from knowing how
much I felt。 Now; I can think and speak of it with little emotion。 I
would not have you suffer on my account; for I assure you I no
longer suffer materially myself。 I have many things to support me。
I am not conscious of having provoked the disappointment by any
imprudence of my own; I have borne it as much as possible
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without spreading it farther。 I acquit Edward of essential
misconduct。 I wish him very happy; and I am so sure of his always
doing his duty; that though now he may harbour some regret; in
the end he must become so。 Lucy does not want sense; and that is
the foundation on which every thing good may be built。—And
after all; Marianne; after all that is bewitching in the idea of a
single and constant attachment; and all that can be said of one’s
happiness depending entirely on any particular person; it is not
meant—it is not fit—it is not possible that it should be so。—
Edward will marry Lucy; he will marry a woman superior in
person and understanding to half her sex; and time and habit will
teach him to forget that he ever thought another superior to
her。”—
“If such is your way of thinking;” said Marianne; “if the loss of
what is most valued is so easily to be made up by something else;
your resolution; your self…command; are; perhaps; a little less to be
wondered at。—They are brought more within my
comprehension。”
“I understand you。—You do not suppose that I have ever felt
much。—For four months; Marianne; I have had all this hanging on
my mind; without being at liberty to speak of it to a single
creature; knowing that it would make you and my mother most
unhappy whenever it were explained to you; yet unable to prepare
you for it in the least。—It was told me;—it was in a manner forced
on me by the very person herself; whose prior engagement ruined
all my prospects; and told me; as I thought; with triumph。—This
person’s suspicions; therefore; I have had to oppose; by
endeavouring to appear indifferent where I have been most deeply
interested;—and it has not been only once;—I have had her hopes
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and exultation to listen to again and again。—I have known myself
to be divided from Edward for ever; without hearing one
circumstance that