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  Edward!—But   now   there   is   one   good   thing;   we   shall   be   able   to
  meet; and meet pretty often; for Lady Middleton’s delighted with
  Mrs。 Dashwood; so we shall be a good deal in Harley…street; I dare
  say;   and   Edward   spends       half   his  time   with   his  sister—besides;
  Lady     Middleton       and   Mrs。    Ferrars     will  visit  now;—and        Mrs。
  Ferrars and your sister were both so good to say more than once;
  they  should   always  be   glad  to  see   me。—They   are   such   charming
  women!—I am sure if ever you tell your sister what I think of her;
  you cannot speak too high。”
  But Elinor would not give her any encouragement to hope that
  she should tell her sister。 Lucy continued。
  “I am sure I   should   have   seen   it in a   moment; if  Mrs。   Ferrars
  had took a dislike to me。 If she had only made me a formal curtsey;
  for instance; without saying a word; and never after had took any
  notice of me; and never looked at me in a pleasant way—you know
  what I mean—if I had been treated in that forbidding sort of way; I
  should have gave it all up in despair。 I could not have stood it。 For
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  where she does dislike; I know it is most violent。”
  Elinor     was    prevented      from    making      any    reply   to   this  civil
  triumph;       by    the    door’s    being     thrown      open;     the    servant’s
  announcing Mr。 Ferrars; and Edward’s immediately walking in。
  It  was   a   very  awkward  moment;   and   the   countenance   of   each
  shewed   that   it   was   so。   They   all   looked   exceedingly   foolish;   and
  Edward seemed to have as great an inclination to walk out of the
  room again; as to advance farther into it。 The very circumstance;
  in its unpleasantest form; which they would each have been most
  anxious   to   avoid;     had    fallen   on  them。—They   were          not   only   all
  three   together;   but   were   together   without   the   relief   of   any   other
  person。   The   ladies   recovered   themselves   first。   It   was   not   Lucy’s
  business   to   put   herself   forward;   and   the   appearance   of   secrecy
  must      still  be    kept    up。   She     could    therefore      only   look    her
  tenderness; and after slightly addressing him; said no more。
  But Elinor had more to do; and so anxious was she; for his sake
  and her own; to do it well; that she forced herself; after a moment’s
  recollection;   to   welcome   him;   with   a   look   and   manner   that   were
  almost easy; and almost open; and another struggle; another effort
  still   improved   them。   She   would   not   allow   the   presence   of   Lucy;
  nor  the   consciousness   of  some   injustice   towards   herself;   to   deter
  her from saying that she was happy to see him; and that she had
  very  much  regretted   being  from   home;   when   he  called   before   in
  Berkeley…street。        She   would     not   be  frightened      from   paying     him
  those attentions which; as a friend and almost a relation; were his
  due;   by   the   observant   eyes   of   Lucy;   though   she   soon   perceived
  them to be narrowly watching her。
  Her   manners   gave   some   re…assurance   to   Edward;   and   he   had
  courage enough to sit down; but his embarrassment still exceeded
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  that    of   the   ladies   in   a  proportion;      which     the   case    rendered
  reasonable;   though  his   sex  might  make   it   rare;   for   his   heart   had
  not the indifference of Lucy’s; nor could his conscience have quite
  the ease of Elinor’s。
  Lucy;   with   a    demure     and   settled   air;   seemed   determined         to
  make no contribution to the comfort of the others; and would not
  say a word; and almost every thing that was said; proceeded from
  Elinor; who was obliged to volunteer all the information about her
  mother’s health; their coming to town; &c。 which Edward ought to
  have inquired about; but never did。
  Her   exertions   did   not   stop   here;   for   she   soon   afterwards   felt
  herself so heroically disposed as   to  determine;  under pretence   of
  fetching   Marianne;        to   leave   the  others    by   themselves;      and   she
  really did it; and that in the handsomest manner; for she loitered
  away   several   minutes   on   the   landing…place;   with   the   most   high…
  minded   fortitude;   before   she   went   to   her   sister。   When   that   was
  once   done;   however;   it   was   time   for   the   raptures   of   Edward   to
  cease;     for  Marianne’s       joy   hurried     her   into   the   drawing…room
  immediately。   Her   pleasure   in   seeing   him   was   like   every   other   of
  her   feelings;   strong   in   itself;   and   strongly   spoken。   She   met   him
  with a hand that would be   taken; and   a  voice   that  expressed   the
  affection of a sister。
  “Dear      Edward!”       she    cried;    “this   is   a   moment       of   great
  happiness!—This would almost make amends for every thing!”
  Edward tried to return her kindness as it deserved; but before
  such   witnesses   he   dared   not   say   half   what   he   really   felt。   Again
  they all sat down; and for a moment or two all were silent; while
  Marianne        was     looking     with    the    most    speaking       tenderness;
  sometimes   at   Edward   and   sometimes   at   Elinor;   regretting   only
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  that    their   delight   in  each    other   should     be  checked     by   Lucy’s
  unwelcome presence。 Edward was the first to speak; and it was to
  notice   Marianne’s   altered   looks;   and   express   his   fear   of   her   not
  finding London agree with her。
  “Oh! don’t think of me!” she replied with spirited earnestness;
  though her eyes were filled with tears as she spoke; “don’t think of
  my   health。   Elinor   is   well;   you   see。   That   must   be   enough   for   us
  both。”
  This remark was not calculated to make Edward or Elinor more
  easy;   nor   to   conciliate   the   good   will   of   Lucy;   who   looked   up   at
  Marianne with no very benignant expression。
  “Do   you   like   London?”   said   Edward;   willing   to   say   any   thing
  that might introduce another subject。
  “Not   at   all。   I   expected   much   pleasure   in   it;   but   I   have   found
  none。 The sight of you; Edward; is the only comfort it has afforded;
  and thank Heaven! you are what you always were!”
  She paused—no one spoke。
  “I   think;    Elinor;”    she   presently     added;     “we    must     employ
  Edward   to  take care   of  us in   our  return   to  Barton。   In   a   week   or
  two; I suppose; we shall be going; and; I trust; Edward will not be
  very unwilling to accept the charge。”
  Poor   Edward       muttered     something;      but   what    it  was;  nobody
  knew; not even himself。 But Marianne; who saw his agitation; and
  could   easily   trace   it   to   whatever   cause   best   pleased   herself;   was
  perfectly satisfied; and soon talked of something else。
  “We spent such a   day;   Edward;   in   Harley…street  yesterday!  So
  dull; so wretchedly dull!—But  I   have   much  to  say  to  you  on   that
  head; which cannot be said now。”
  And with this admirable discretion did she defer the assurance
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  of her finding their mutual relatives more disagreeable than ever;
  and  of  her  being  particularly  disgusted   with  his   mother;   till   they
  were more in private。
  “But    why   were    you   not   there;  Edward?—Why          did   you   not
  come?”
  “I was engaged elsewhere。”
  “Engaged!   But   what   was   that;   when   such   friends   were   to   be
  met?”
  “Perhaps;     Miss    Marianne;”     cried   Lucy;   eager    to  take  some
  revenge      on   her;   “you    think   young     men     never    stand    upon
  engagements; if they have no mind to keep them; little as well as
  great。”
  Elinor was very angry; but Marianne seemed entirely insensible
  of the sting; for she calmly replied;