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  written in the same situation。
  “I felt myself;” she added; “to be as solemnly engaged to him; as
  if the strictest legal covenant had bound us to each other。”
  “I can believe it;” said Elinor; “but unfortunately he did not feel
  the same。”
  “He did feel the same; Elinor—for weeks and weeks he felt it。 I
  know he did。 Whatever may have changed him now; (and nothing
  but the blackest art employed against me can have done it); I was
  once as dear to him as my own soul could wish。 This lock of hair;
  which now he can so readily give up; was begged of me   with  the
  most earnest supplication。 Had you seen his look; his manner; had
  you   heard    his  voice   at   that   moment!    Have   you   forgot   the  last
  evening   of   our   being   together   at   Barton?   The   morning   that   we
  parted too! When he told me that it might be many weeks before
  we met again—his distress—can I ever forget his distress?” For a
  moment or two she could say no more; but when this emotion had
  passed away; she added; in a firmer tone;
  “Elinor; I have been cruelly used; but not by Willoughby。”
  “Dearest   Marianne;   who   but   himself?   By   whom   can   he   have
  been instigated?”
  “By all the world; rather than by his own heart。 I could rather
  believe    every   creature    of  my   acquaintance      leagued    together   to
  ruin   me   in   his   opinion;   than   believe   his   nature   capable   of   such
  cruelty。 This woman of whom he writes—whoever she be—or any
  one;   in   short;   but   your   own   dear   self;   mama;   and   Edward;   may
  have been so barbarous to bely me。 Beyond you three; is   there   a
  creature in the world whom I would not rather suspect of evil than
  Willoughby; whose heart I know so well?”
  Elinor     would    not  contend;    and   only   replied;   “Whoever      may
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  have been so detestably your enemy; let them be cheated of their
  malignant       triumph;    my    dear   sister;   by  seeing    how    nobly    the
  consciousness        of   your    own    innocence       and    good    intentions
  supports your spirits。 It is a reasonable and laudable pride which
  resists such malevolence。”
  “No; no;” cried Marianne; “misery such as mine has no pride。 I
  care not who knows that I am wretched。 The triumph of seeing me
  so  may be   open   to  all   the  world。   Elinor;   Elinor;   they   who   suffer
  little  may    be   proud    and   independent       as  they   like—may      resist
  insult;   or  return   mortification—but  I cannot。   I   must   feel—I   must
  be wretched—and they are welcome to enjoy the consciousness of
  it that can。”
  “But for my mother’s sake and mine—”
  “I would do more than for my own。 But to appear happy when I
  am so miserable—Oh! who can require it?”
  Again   they   were   both   silent。   Elinor   was   employed   in   walking
  thoughtfully from the fire to the window; from the window to the
  fire;   without    knowing     that   she   received    warmth      from   one;   or
  discerning objects through the other; and Marianne; seated at the
  foot   of   the   bed;   with   her   head   leaning   against   one   of   its   posts;
  again     took   up   Willoughby’s      letter;  and;   after  shuddering      over
  every sentence; exclaimed—
  “It   is  too  much!    Oh;   Willoughby;      Willoughby;     could    this  be
  yours! Cruel; cruel—nothing can acquit  you。   Elinor; nothing  can。
  Whatever he might have heard against me—ought he not to have
  suspended his belief? ought he not to have   told   me   of  it;   to  have
  given     me    the   power     of  clearing    myself?     ‘The   lock    of  hair;
  (repeating it from the letter;) which you so obligingly bestowed on
  me’—That   is      unpardonable。   Willoughby;         where   was     your   heart
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  when   you  wrote  those  words?  Oh;   barbarously  insolent!—Elinor;
  can he be justified?”
  “No; Marianne; in no possible way。”
  “And     yet  this  woman—who         knows     what   her   art  may    have
  been?—how long it may have been premeditated; and how deeply
  contrived by  her!—Who  is   she?—Who  can she  be?—Whom   did   I
  ever   hear   him   talk   of   as   young   and   attractive   among   his   female
  acquaintance?—Oh!           no  one;   no   one—he     talked    to  me   only   of
  myself。”
  Another   pause   ensued;   Marianne   was   greatly   agitated;   and   it
  ended thus。
  “Elinor; I must go home。 I must go and comfort mama。 Can not
  we be gone to…morrow?”
  “To…morrow; Marianne!”
  “Yes;   why   should   I   stay   here?   I   came   only   for   Willoughby’s
  sake—and now who cares for me? Who regards me?”
  “It would be impossible to go to…morrow。 We owe Mrs。 Jennings
  much more than civility; and civility of the commonest kind must
  prevent such a hasty removal as that。”
  “Well then; another day or two; perhaps; but I cannot stay here
  long;   I   cannot   stay   to   endure   the   questions   and   remarks   of   all
  these   people。    The   Middletons   and      Palmers—how   am        I   to   bear
  their pity? The pity of such a woman as Lady Middleton! Oh; what
  would he say to that!”
  Elinor advised her to lie down again; and for a moment she did
  so; but no attitude could give her ease; and in restless pain of mind
  and   body   she   moved   from   one   posture   to   another;   till   growing
  more and more hysterical; her sister could with difficulty keep her
  on    the   bed   at  all;  and   for   some    time   was    fearful   of  being
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  constrained to call for assistance。 Some lavender drops; however;
  which she was at length persuaded to take; were of use; and from
  that   time   till   Mrs。   Jennings   returned;   she   continued   on   the   bed
  quiet and motionless。
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  CHAPTER VIII
  rs。   Jennings   came   immediately   to   their   room   on   her
  return;    and    without   waiting    to  have   her   request    of
  M
  admittance answered; opened the door and walked in
  with a look of real concern。
  “How     do   you   do   my   dear?”—said       she   in  a  voice   of  great
  compassion       to  Marianne;      who    turned    away    her   face   without
  attempting to answer。
  “How     is  she;  Miss   Dashwood?—Poor           thing!   she   looks   very
  bad。—No wonder。 Ay; it is but too true。 He is to be married very
  soon—a good…for…nothing fellow! I have no patience with him。 Mrs。
  Taylor   told   me   of   it   half   an   hour   ago;   and   she   was   told   it   by   a
  particular friend of Miss Grey herself; else I am sure I should not
  have   believed   it;   and   I   was   almost   ready   to   sink   as   it   was。   Well;
  said I; all I can say is; that if this be true; he has used a young lady
  of my acquaintance abominably ill; and I wish with all my soul his
  wife may plague his heart out。 And so I shall always say; my dear;
  you may depend on it。 I have no notion of men’s going on in this
  way; and if ever I meet him again; I will give him such a dressing
  as he has not had this many a day。 But there   is   one comfort;   my
  dear   Miss   Marianne;   he   is   not   the   only   young   man   in   the   world
  worth     having;   and    with   your   pretty   face  you   will  never    want
  admirers。 Well; poor thing! I won’t disturb her any longer; for she
  had   better   have   her   cry   out   at   once   and  have   done   with。  The
  Parrys and Sandersons luckily are coming tonight you know; and
  that will amuse her。”
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