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  measuring lengths of worsted for her rug; to see any thing at all;
  and calmly continuing her talk; as soon as Marianne disappeared;
  she said;
  “Upon my word; I never saw a young woman so desperately in
  love in my life! My girls were nothing to her; and yet they used to
  be    foolish   enough;     but   as   for  Miss    Marianne;      she   is  quite    an
  altered   creature。   I   hope;   from   the   bottom   of   my   heart;   he   won’t
  keep   her  waiting  much longer;   for  it   is   quite   grievous   to   see   her
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  look so ill and forlorn。 Pray; when are they to be married?”
  Elinor;     though     never    less   disposed      to  speak     than    at   that
  moment;   obliged   herself   to   answer   such   an   attack   as   this;   and;
  therefore;   trying   to   smile;   replied;   “And   have   you   really;   Ma’am;
  talked   yourself  into  a   persuasion   of  my  sister’s   being   engaged   to
  Mr。 Willoughby? I thought it had been only a joke; but so serious a
  question seems to imply more; and I must beg; therefore; that you
  will not deceive yourself any longer。 I do assure you that nothing
  would   surprise   me   more   than   to   hear   of   their   being   going   to   be
  married。”
  “For shame; for shame; Miss Dashwood! how can you talk so?
  Don’t   we   all   know   that   it   must   be   a   match;   that   they   were   over
  head and ears in love with each other from the first moment they
  met? Did not I see them together in Devonshire every day; and all
  day long;   and did not  I   know  that  your  sister  came   to  town   with
  me   on   purpose   to   buy   wedding   clothes?   Come;   come;   this   won’t
  do。 Because you are so sly about it yourself; you think nobody else
  has   any   senses;   but   it   is   no  such   thing;   I   can   tell   you;   for   it   has
  been known all over town this ever so long。 I tell every body of it
  and so does Charlotte。”
  “Indeed;       Ma’am;”       said    Elinor;    very     seriously;     “you     are
  mistaken。 Indeed; you are doing a very unkind thing in spreading
  the   report;   and   you   will   find   that   you   have;   though   you   will   not
  believe me now。”
  Mrs。 Jennings laughed again; but Elinor had not  spirits   to  say
  more;     and    eager    at  all  events     to  know     what    Willoughby       had
  written; hurried away to their room; where; on opening the door;
  she   saw   Marianne   stretched   on   the   bed;   almost   choked   by   grief;
  one   letter   in   her   hand;   and   two   or   three   others   laying   by   her。
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  Elinor drew near; but without saying a word; and seating  herself
  on the bed; took her hand; kissed her affectionately several times;
  and then gave way to a burst of tears; which at first was scarcely
  less   violent  than   Marianne’s。  The   latter;   though  unable   to   speak;
  seemed to feel all the tenderness of this behaviour; and after some
  time    thus   spent    in  joint  affliction;   she   put   all  the  letters   into
  Elinor’s hands; and then covering her face with her handkerchief;
  almost   screamed   with   agony。   Elinor;   who   knew   that   such   grief;
  shocking as it was to witness it; must have its course; watched by
  her till this excess of suffering had somewhat spent itself; and then
  turning eagerly to Willoughby’s letter; read as follows:
  Bond…street; January。
  My Dear Madam;
  I have just had the honour of receiving your letter; for which I
  beg to return my sincere acknowledgments。 I am much concerned
  to find there was anything in my behaviour last night that did not
  meet your approbation; and though I am quite at a loss to discover
  in what point I could be so unfortunate as to offend you; I entreat
  your forgiveness of what I can assure   you  to  have   been   perfectly
  unintentional。   I     shall   never   reflect   on   my   former    acquaintance
  with your family in Devonshire without the most grateful pleasure;
  and     flatter  myself     it  will  not   be   broken     by   any   mistake     or
  misapprehension of my actions。 My esteem for your whole family
  is very sincere; but if I have been so unfortunate as to give rise to a
  belief   of   more   than   I   felt;   or   meant   to   express;   I   shall   reproach
  myself for not having been more guarded in my professions of that
  esteem。 That I should ever have meant more you will allow to be
  impossible;   when   you   understand   that   my   affections   have   been
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  long engaged elsewhere; and it will not be many weeks; I believe;
  before   this   engagement   is   fulfilled。   It   is   with   great   regret   that   I
  obey   your   commands   in   returning   the   letters   with   which   I   have
  been     honoured      from    you;   and   the   lock   of  hair;  which     you   so
  obligingly bestowed on me。
  I am; dear Madam;
  Your most obedient humble servant;
  JOHN WILLOUGHBY。
  With   what   indignation   such   a   letter   as   this   must   be   read   by
  Miss     Dashwood;       may    be  imagined。      Though     aware;     before   she
  began   it;   that   it   must  bring   a   confession   of   his   inconstancy;   and
  confirm   their   separation   for   ever;   she   was   not   aware   that   such
  language   could   be   suffered   to   announce   it;   nor   could   she   have
  supposed       Willoughby       capable     of   departing      so   far   from    the
  appearance of every honourable and delicate feeling—so far from
  the    common       decorum      of  a  gentleman;      as  to   send   a   letter  so
  impudently        cruel:  a  letter   which;    instead    of  bringing     with   his
  desire   of   a   release   any   professions     of  regret;   acknowledged   no
  breach of faith; denied all peculiar affection whatever—a letter of
  which every line was an insult; and which proclaimed its writer to
  be deep in hardened villainy。
  She paused over it for some time with indignant astonishment;
  then   read   it   again   and   again;   but   every   perusal   only   served   to
  increase      her   abhorrence      of  the   man;     and   so   bitter   were    her
  feelings against him; that she dared not trust herself to speak; lest
  she     might     wound      Marianne       still  deeper     by    treating     their
  disengagement; not as a loss to her of any possible good but as an
  escape      from    the   worst   and    most    irremediable       of  all  evils;  a
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  connection; for life; with an unprincipled man; as a deliverance the
  most real; a blessing the most important。
  In her earnest meditations on the contents of the letter; on the
  depravity of that mind which could dictate it; and probably; on the
  very different mind of  a   very  different person;   who  had   no  other
  connection whatever with the affair than what her heart gave him
  with every thing that passed; Elinor forgot the immediate distress
  of   her   sister;  forgot   that   she   had   three   letters   on   her  lap   yet
  unread; and so entirely forgot how long she had been in the room;
  that when on hearing a carriage drive up to the door; she went to
  the window to see who could be coming so unreasonably early; she
  was   all   astonishment   to   perceive   Mrs。   Jennings’s   chariot;   which
  she   knew   had   not   been   ordered   till   one。   Determined   not   to   quit
  Marianne; though hopeless of contributing; at present; to her ease;
  she hurried away to excuse herself from attending Mrs。 Jennings;
  on   account   of   her   sister  being   indisposed。   Mrs。   Jennings;   with   a
  thoroughly   good…humoured            concern     for   its  cause;  admitted     the
  excuse most readily; and Elinor; after seeing her safe off; returned
  to Marianne; whom she found attempting to rise from the bed; and
  whom she reached just in time to prevent her from falling