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measuring lengths of worsted for her rug; to see any thing at all;
and calmly continuing her talk; as soon as Marianne disappeared;
she said;
“Upon my word; I never saw a young woman so desperately in
love in my life! My girls were nothing to her; and yet they used to
be foolish enough; but as for Miss Marianne; she is quite an
altered creature。 I hope; from the bottom of my heart; he won’t
keep her waiting much longer; for it is quite grievous to see her
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look so ill and forlorn。 Pray; when are they to be married?”
Elinor; though never less disposed to speak than at that
moment; obliged herself to answer such an attack as this; and;
therefore; trying to smile; replied; “And have you really; Ma’am;
talked yourself into a persuasion of my sister’s being engaged to
Mr。 Willoughby? I thought it had been only a joke; but so serious a
question seems to imply more; and I must beg; therefore; that you
will not deceive yourself any longer。 I do assure you that nothing
would surprise me more than to hear of their being going to be
married。”
“For shame; for shame; Miss Dashwood! how can you talk so?
Don’t we all know that it must be a match; that they were over
head and ears in love with each other from the first moment they
met? Did not I see them together in Devonshire every day; and all
day long; and did not I know that your sister came to town with
me on purpose to buy wedding clothes? Come; come; this won’t
do。 Because you are so sly about it yourself; you think nobody else
has any senses; but it is no such thing; I can tell you; for it has
been known all over town this ever so long。 I tell every body of it
and so does Charlotte。”
“Indeed; Ma’am;” said Elinor; very seriously; “you are
mistaken。 Indeed; you are doing a very unkind thing in spreading
the report; and you will find that you have; though you will not
believe me now。”
Mrs。 Jennings laughed again; but Elinor had not spirits to say
more; and eager at all events to know what Willoughby had
written; hurried away to their room; where; on opening the door;
she saw Marianne stretched on the bed; almost choked by grief;
one letter in her hand; and two or three others laying by her。
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Elinor drew near; but without saying a word; and seating herself
on the bed; took her hand; kissed her affectionately several times;
and then gave way to a burst of tears; which at first was scarcely
less violent than Marianne’s。 The latter; though unable to speak;
seemed to feel all the tenderness of this behaviour; and after some
time thus spent in joint affliction; she put all the letters into
Elinor’s hands; and then covering her face with her handkerchief;
almost screamed with agony。 Elinor; who knew that such grief;
shocking as it was to witness it; must have its course; watched by
her till this excess of suffering had somewhat spent itself; and then
turning eagerly to Willoughby’s letter; read as follows:
Bond…street; January。
My Dear Madam;
I have just had the honour of receiving your letter; for which I
beg to return my sincere acknowledgments。 I am much concerned
to find there was anything in my behaviour last night that did not
meet your approbation; and though I am quite at a loss to discover
in what point I could be so unfortunate as to offend you; I entreat
your forgiveness of what I can assure you to have been perfectly
unintentional。 I shall never reflect on my former acquaintance
with your family in Devonshire without the most grateful pleasure;
and flatter myself it will not be broken by any mistake or
misapprehension of my actions。 My esteem for your whole family
is very sincere; but if I have been so unfortunate as to give rise to a
belief of more than I felt; or meant to express; I shall reproach
myself for not having been more guarded in my professions of that
esteem。 That I should ever have meant more you will allow to be
impossible; when you understand that my affections have been
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long engaged elsewhere; and it will not be many weeks; I believe;
before this engagement is fulfilled。 It is with great regret that I
obey your commands in returning the letters with which I have
been honoured from you; and the lock of hair; which you so
obligingly bestowed on me。
I am; dear Madam;
Your most obedient humble servant;
JOHN WILLOUGHBY。
With what indignation such a letter as this must be read by
Miss Dashwood; may be imagined。 Though aware; before she
began it; that it must bring a confession of his inconstancy; and
confirm their separation for ever; she was not aware that such
language could be suffered to announce it; nor could she have
supposed Willoughby capable of departing so far from the
appearance of every honourable and delicate feeling—so far from
the common decorum of a gentleman; as to send a letter so
impudently cruel: a letter which; instead of bringing with his
desire of a release any professions of regret; acknowledged no
breach of faith; denied all peculiar affection whatever—a letter of
which every line was an insult; and which proclaimed its writer to
be deep in hardened villainy。
She paused over it for some time with indignant astonishment;
then read it again and again; but every perusal only served to
increase her abhorrence of the man; and so bitter were her
feelings against him; that she dared not trust herself to speak; lest
she might wound Marianne still deeper by treating their
disengagement; not as a loss to her of any possible good but as an
escape from the worst and most irremediable of all evils; a
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connection; for life; with an unprincipled man; as a deliverance the
most real; a blessing the most important。
In her earnest meditations on the contents of the letter; on the
depravity of that mind which could dictate it; and probably; on the
very different mind of a very different person; who had no other
connection whatever with the affair than what her heart gave him
with every thing that passed; Elinor forgot the immediate distress
of her sister; forgot that she had three letters on her lap yet
unread; and so entirely forgot how long she had been in the room;
that when on hearing a carriage drive up to the door; she went to
the window to see who could be coming so unreasonably early; she
was all astonishment to perceive Mrs。 Jennings’s chariot; which
she knew had not been ordered till one。 Determined not to quit
Marianne; though hopeless of contributing; at present; to her ease;
she hurried away to excuse herself from attending Mrs。 Jennings;
on account of her sister being indisposed。 Mrs。 Jennings; with a
thoroughly good…humoured concern for its cause; admitted the
excuse most readily; and Elinor; after seeing her safe off; returned
to Marianne; whom she found attempting to rise from the bed; and
whom she reached just in time to prevent her from falling