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作者:南方网      更新:2021-02-19 19:55      字数:9230
  up every prospect of more without a sigh。 I have been always used
  to   a   very   small   income;   and   could   struggle   with   any   poverty   for
  him; but I love him too well to be the selfish means of robbing him;
  perhaps;   of   all   that   his   mother   might   give   him   if   he   married   to
  please her。 We must wait; it may be for many years。 With almost
  every other man   in   the   world; it  would be   an   alarming  prospect;
  but Edward’s affection and constancy nothing can deprive me of I
  know。”
  “That     conviction      must    be   every    thing    to  you;    and    he   is
  undoubtedly supported by the same trust in your’s。 If the strength
  of your reciprocal attachment had failed; as between many people;
  and   under   many   circumstances   it   naturally   would   during   a   four
  years’     engagement;       your    situation     would     have    been    pitiable
  indeed。”
  Lucy   here   looked   up;   but   Elinor   was   careful   in   guarding   her
  countenance   from   every   expression   that   could   give   her   words   a
  suspicious tendency。
  “Edward’s love for me;” said Lucy; “has been pretty well put to
  the    test;  by   our   long;   very   long    absence     since   we    were    first
  engaged;      and    it  has  stood    the   trial  so  well;   that   I  should    be
  unpardonable to doubt it now。 I can safely say that  he   has never
  gave me one moment’s alarm on that account from the first。”
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  Elinor hardly knew whether to smile or sigh at this assertion。
  Lucy went on。 “I am rather of a jealous temper too by  nature;
  and  from   our  different  situations   in   life;   from   his   being   so  much
  more   in   the   world   than   me;   and   our   continual   separation;   I   was
  enough  inclined   for   suspicion;   to   have   found   out   the   truth   in   an
  instant; if there had been the slightest alteration in his behaviour
  to   me   when   we   met;   or   any   lowness   of   spirits   that   I   could   not
  account for; or if he had talked more of one lady than another; or
  seemed in any  respect  less   happy  at   Longstaple   than   he   used   to
  be。 I do not mean to say that I am particularly observant or quick…
  sighted   in   general;   but   in   such   a   case   I   am   sure   I   could   not   be
  deceived。”
  “All   this;”   thought   Elinor;   “is   very   pretty;   but   it   can   impose
  upon neither of us。”
  “But what;” said she after a short silence; “are your views?  or
  have you none but that of waiting for Mrs。 Ferrars’s death; which
  is a melancholy and shocking extremity?—Is her son determined
  to submit to this; and to all the   tediousness   of  the   many  years   of
  suspense in which it may involve you; rather than run the risk of
  her displeasure for a while by owning the truth?”
  “If  we   could be   certain   that  it   would   be   only   for   a   while!   But
  Mrs。 Ferrars is a very headstrong proud woman; and in her first fit
  of anger upon hearing it;   would   very  likely  secure   every  thing  to
  Robert; and the idea of that; for Edward’s sake; frightens away all
  my inclination for hasty measures。”
  “And      for   your    own    sake    too;   or   you    are    carrying     your
  disinterestedness beyond reason。”
  Lucy looked at Elinor again; and was silent。
  “Do you know Mr。 Robert Ferrars?” asked Elinor。
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  “Not at all—I never saw him; but I fancy he is   very  unlike   his
  brother—silly and a great coxcomb。”
  “A great coxcomb!” repeated Miss Steele; whose ear had caught
  those   words   by  a   sudden   pause   in   Marianne’s   music。—“Oh;   they
  are talking of their favourite beaux; I dare say。”
  “No sister;” cried Lucy; “you are mistaken there; our favourite
  beaux are not great coxcombs。”
  “I   can   answer   for   it   that   Miss   Dashwood’s   is   not;”   said   Mrs。
  Jennings;      laughing      heartily;   “for   he   is  one    of  the   modestest;
  prettiest  behaved   young   men   I   ever   saw;   but  as   for   Lucy;   she   is
  such a sly little creature; there is no finding out who she likes。”
  “Oh;” cried Miss Steele; looking significantly round at them; “I
  dare   say   Lucy’s   beau   is   quite   as   modest   and   pretty   behaved   as
  Miss Dashwood’s。”
  Elinor blushed in spite of herself。 Lucy bit her  lip;   and looked
  angrily  at   her   sister。   A   mutual   silence   took   place   for   some   time。
  Lucy   first   put   an   end    to  it   by  saying   in  a  lower    tone;   though
  Marianne was then giving them the powerful protection of a very
  magnificent concerto—
  “I   will   honestly   tell   you   of   one   scheme   which   has   lately   come
  into my head; for bringing matters to bear; indeed I am bound to
  let  you  into  the   secret;   for  you  are   a   party  concerned。   I   dare   say
  you have seen enough of Edward to know that he would prefer the
  church  to  every  other  profession;   now  my  plan   is  that   he   should
  take   orders   as   soon   as   he   can;   and   then   through   your   interest;
  which I am sure you would be kind enough to use out of friendship
  for him; and I hope out of some regard to me; your brother might
  be persuaded to give him Norland living; which I understand is a
  very good one; and the present incumbent not likely to live a great
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  while。 That would be enough for us to marry upon; and we might
  trust to time and chance for the rest。”
  “I should always be happy;” replied Elinor; “to show any mark
  of   my   esteem    and   friendship    for  Mr。   Ferrars;    but  do   not  you
  perceive that my interest on such an occasion would be perfectly
  unnecessary? He is brother to Mrs。 John Dashwood—that must be
  recommendation enough to her husband。”
  “But     Mrs。   John    Dashwood       would     not   much     approve      of
  Edward’s going into orders。”
  “Then I rather suspect that my interest would do very little。”
  They     were    again   silent   for  many    minutes。     At  length    Lucy
  exclaimed with a deep sigh;
  “I  believe   it   would   be  the  wisest   way   to  put   an  end   to  the
  business at once by dissolving the engagement。 We seem so beset
  with    difficulties   on  every   side;   that  though    it  would    make    us
  miserable   for   a   time;   we   should   be   happier   perhaps   in   the   end。
  But you will not give me your advice; Miss Dashwood?”
  “No;”    answered     Elinor;   with   a  smile;   which    concealed     very
  agitated feelings; “on such a subject I certainly will not。 You know
  very well that my opinion would have no weight with you; unless it
  were on the side of your wishes。”
  “Indeed you wrong me;” replied Lucy; with great solemnity; “I
  know nobody of whose judgment I think so highly as I do of yours;
  and I do really believe; that if you was to say to me; ‘I advise you
  by   all   means   to   put   an  end  to   your  engagement      with   Edward
  Ferrars; it will be more for the happiness of both of you;’ I should
  resolve upon doing it immediately。”
  Elinor blushed for the insincerity of Edward’s future wife; and
  replied;    “This   compliment       would    effectually   frighten    me   from
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  giving any opinion on the  subject  had   I   formed   one。   It  raises my
  influence   much   too   high;       the   power     of  dividing    two    people    so
  tenderly attached is too much for an indifferent person。”
  “’Tis   because   you   are   an   indifferent   person;”   said   Lucy;   with
  some   pique;   and   laying   a   particular   stress   on   those   words;   “that
  your judgment might justly have such weight with me。 If you could
  be supposed to be biased in any respect by your own feelings; your
  opinion would not be worth having。”
  Elinor   thought   it   wisest   to   make   no   answer   to   this;   lest   they
  might   provoke   each   other   to   an   unsuitable   increase