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  brother。”
  What   felt   Elinor   at   that   moment?   Astonishment;            that   would
  have     been    as  painful    as   it  was   strong;   had    not   an   immediate
  disbelief of the assertion attended it。 She turned towards Lucy in
  silent amazement; unable to divine the reason or object of such a
  declaration; and though her complexion varied; she stood firm in
  incredulity; and felt in no danger of an hysterical fit; or a swoon。
  “You   may  well  be surprised;”   continued   Lucy;   “for  to   be   sure
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  you   could   have   had   no   idea   of   it   before;   for   I   dare   say   he  never
  dropped       the  smallest    hint   of  it  to  you   or  any    of  your   family;
  because   it  was  always   meant  to be   a   great secret;   and   I am   sure
  has been faithfully kept so by me to this hour。 Not a soul of all my
  relations know of it but Anne; and I never should have mentioned
  it   to   you;   if   I   had   not   felt   the   greatest   dependence   in   the   world
  upon your secrecy; and I really thought my behaviour in asking so
  many   questions        about   Mrs。    Ferrars    must    seem    so  odd;   that   it
  ought   to   be   explained。   And   I   do   not   think   Mr。   Ferrars     can   be
  displeased; when he knows I have trusted you; because I know he
  has the highest opinion in the world of all your family; and looks
  upon   yourself   and   the   other   Miss   Dashwoods   quite   as   his   own
  sisters。”—She paused。
  Elinor for a few moments remained silent。 Her astonishment at
  what   she   heard   was   at   first   too   great   for   words;   but   at   length
  forcing   herself   to   speak;   and   to   speak   cautiously;   she   said;   with
  calmness of manner; which tolerably  well  concealed   her  surprise
  and     solicitude—“May         I   ask   if  your    engagement        is   of  long
  standing?”
  “We have been engaged these four years。”
  “Four years!”
  “Yes。”
  Elinor; though greatly shocked; still felt unable to believe it。
  “I did not know;” said she; “that you were even acquainted till
  the other day。”
  “Our   acquaintance;   however;   is   of   many   years   date。         He   was
  under my uncle’s care; you know; a considerable while。”
  “Your uncle!”
  “Yes; Mr。 Pratt。 Did you never hear him talk of Mr。 Pratt?”
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  “I  think   I  have;”    replied   Elinor;   with   an   exertion    of  spirits;
  which increased with her increase of emotion。
  “He   was   four   years   with   my   uncle;   who   lives   at   Longstaple;
  near Plymouth。 It was there our acquaintance begun; for my sister
  and   me   was   often   staying   with   my   uncle;   and   it   was   there   our
  engagement        was    formed;    though     not  till  a  year   after  he   had
  quitted as a pupil; but he was almost always with us afterwards。 I
  was   very  unwilling  to   enter   into   it;   as   you   may   imagine;   without
  the    knowledge      and   approbation      of  his  mother;     but   I  was   too
  young; and loved him too well; to be so prudent as I ought to have
  been。—Though          you    do   not   know     him    so   well   as  me;    Miss
  Dashwood; you must have seen enough of him to be sensible he is
  very capable of making a woman sincerely attached to him。”
  “Certainly;”   answered   Elinor;   without  knowing   what   she   said;
  but after a moment’s reflection; she added; with revived security of
  Edward’s       honour     and   love;   and   her   companion’s       falsehood—
  “Engaged       to  Mr。   Edward      Ferrars!—I     confess    myself    so  totally
  surprised at what you tell me; that really—I beg your pardon; but
  surely there must be some mistake of person or name。 We cannot
  mean the same Mr。 Ferrars。”
  “We   can   mean   no   other;”   cried   Lucy;     smiling。   “Mr。    Edward
  Ferrars; the eldest son of Mrs。 Ferrars; of Park…street; and brother
  of your sister…in…law; Mrs。 John Dashwood; is the person   I mean;
  you must allow that I am not likely to be deceived as to the name
  of the man on who all my happiness depends。”
  “It is strange;” replied Elinor; in a most painful perplexity; “that
  I should never have heard him even mention your name。”
  “No; considering our situation; it was not strange。 Our first care
  has been to keep the matter secret。—You knew nothing of me; or
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  my   family;     and;   therefore;    there    could   be   no  occasion     for  ever
  mentioning   my   name   to   you;   and   as   he   was   always   particularly
  afraid of his sister’s suspecting any thing; that was reason enough
  for his not mentioning it。”
  She was   silent。—Elinor’s  security  sunk; but  her  self…command
  did not sink with it。
  “Four years you have been engaged;” said she with a firm voice。
  “Yes; and heaven knows how much longer we may have to wait。
  Poor Edward! It puts him quite out of heart。” Then taking a small
  miniature from her pocket; she added; “To prevent the possibility
  of mistake; be  so  good   as   to  look at  this   face。   It  does   not  do  him
  justice; to be sure; but yet I think you cannot be deceived as to the
  person it was drew for。—I have had it above these three years。”
  She put it into her hands as she spoke; and when Elinor saw the
  painting; whatever other doubts her fear of a too hasty decision; or
  her wish of detecting falsehood might suffer to linger in her mind;
  she   could   have   none   of   its   being   Edward’s   face。   She   returned   it
  almost instantly; acknowledging the likeness。
  “I   have   never   been   able;”     continued      Lucy;   “to   give  him   my
  picture in return; which I am very much vexed at; for he has been
  always so anxious to get it! But I am determined to  set  for  it  the
  very first opportunity。”
  “You  are   quite   in   the   right;”   replied   Elinor   calmly。   They   then
  proceeded a few paces in silence。 Lucy spoke first。
  “I   am   sure;”   said   she;   “I   have   no   doubt   in   the   world   of   your
  faithfully   keeping   this      secret;   because     you   must    know    of  what
  importance   it   is   to   us;   not   to   have   it   reach   his   mother;   for   she
  would never approve of it; I dare say。 I shall have no fortune; and I
  fancy she is an exceeding proud woman。”
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  “I certainly did not seek your confidence;” said Elinor; “but you
  do me no more than justice in imagining that I may be depended
  on。 Your secret is safe with me; but pardon me if I express some
  surprise   at   so   unnecessary   a   communication。   You   must   at   least
  have   felt   that   my   being   acquainted   with   it   could   not   add   to   its
  safety。”
  As    she   said   this;   she   looked     earnestly     at  Lucy;    hoping     to
  discover something in her countenance; perhaps the falsehood of
  the    greatest     part   of   what    she    had    been    saying;     but   Lucy’s
  countenance suffered no change。
  “I was afraid you would think I was taking a great liberty with
  you;” said she; “in telling you all this。 I have not known you long to
  be   sure;   personally   at   least;   but   I   have   known   you   and   all   your
  family by description a great while; and as soon as I saw you; I felt
  almost as if you was an   old acquaintance。   Besides   in   the   present
  case; I   really  thought  some   explanation   was   due   to   you   after   my
  making   such   particular   inquiries   about   Edward’s   mother;   and   I
  am so unfortunate; that I have not a creature whose advice I can
  ask。   Anne   is   the   only   person   that   knows   of   it;   and   she   has   no
  judgment at all; indeed; she does me a great deal more harm than
  good; for I am in constant fear of her betraying me。 She does not
  know how to hold her tongue; as you must perceive; and I am sure
  I   was    in   the   greatest    fright   in   the   world     t’other   day;    when
  Edward’s   name