第 170 节
作者:左思右想      更新:2021-02-19 19:48      字数:9322
  〃I am a poor blighted; disappointed old fellow; and have
  made an utter failure through life。  I was not endowed
  either with brains or with good fortune; and confess
  that I have committed a hundred mistakes and blunders。
  I own to having forgotten my duty many a time。  I can't
  pay what I owe。  On my last bed I lie utterly helpless
  and humble; and I pray forgiveness for my weakness and
  throw myself; with a contrite heart; at the feet of the
  Divine Mercy。〃 Which of these two speeches; think
  you; would be the best oration for your own funeral?
  Old Sedley made the last; and in that humble frame of
  mind; and holding by the hand of his daughter; life and
  disappointment and vanity sank away from under him。
  〃You see;〃 said old Osborne to George; 〃what comes
  of merit; and industry; and judicious speculations; and
  that。  Look at me and my banker's account。  Look at your
  poor Grandfather Sedley and his failure。  And yet he was
  a better man than I was; this day twenty yearsa better
  man; I should say; by ten thousand pound。〃
  Beyond these people and Mr。 Clapp's family; who
  came over from Brompton to pay a visit of condolence;
  not a single soul alive ever cared a penny piece about
  old John Sedley; or remembered the existence of such a
  person。
  When old Osborne first heard from his friend Colonel
  Buckler (as little Georgy had already informed us) how
  distinguished an officer Major Dobbin was; he exhibited
  a great deal of scornful incredulity and expressed his
  surprise how ever such a feller as that should possess
  either brains or reputation。  But he heard of the Major's
  fame from various members of his society。  Sir William
  Dobbin had a great opinion of his son and narrated
  many stories illustrative of the Major's learning; valour;
  and estimation in the world's opinion。  Finally; his name
  appeared in the lists of one or two great parties of the
  nobility; and this circumstance had a prodigious effect
  upon the old aristocrat of Russell Square。
  The Major's position; as guardian to Georgy; whose
  possession had been ceded to his grandfather; rendered
  some meetings between the two gentlemen inevitable;
  and it was in one of these that old Osborne; a keen man
  of business; looking into the Major's accounts with his
  ward and the boy's mother; got a hint; which staggered
  him very much; and at once pained and pleased him;
  that it was out of William Dobbin's own pocket that a
  part of the fund had been supplied upon which the
  poor widow and the child had subsisted。
  When pressed upon the point; Dobbin; who could not
  tell lies; blushed and stammered a good deal and finally
  confessed。  〃The marriage;〃 he said (at which his
  interlocutor's face grew dark) 〃was very much my doing。  I
  thought my poor friend had gone so far that retreat from
  his engagement would have been dishonour to him and
  death to Mrs。 Osborne; and I could do no less; when she
  was left without resources; than give what money I could
  spare to maintain her。〃
  〃Major D。;〃 Mr。 Osborne said; looking hard at him and
  turning very red too〃you did me a great injury; but
  give me leave to tell you; sir; you are an honest feller。
  There's my hand; sir; though I little thought that my
  flesh and blood was living on you〃 and the pair shook
  hands; with great confusion on Major Dobbin's part; thus
  found out in his act of charitable hypocrisy。
  He strove to soften the old man and reconcile him
  towards his son's memory。  〃He was such a noble fellow;〃
  he said; 〃that all of us loved him; and would have done
  anything for him。  I; as a young man in those days; was
  flattered beyond measure by his preference for me; and
  was more pleased to be seen in his company than in
  that of the Commander…in…Chief。  I never saw his equal
  for pluck and daring and all the qualities of a soldier〃;
  and Dobbin told the old father as many stories as he
  could remember regarding the gallantry and achievements
  of his son。  〃And Georgy is so like him;〃 the
  Major added。
  〃He's so like him that he makes me tremble sometimes;〃
  the grandfather said。
  On one or two evenings the Major came to dine with
  Mr。 Osborne (it was during the time of the sickness of
  Mr。 Sedley); and as the two sat together in the evening
  after dinner; all their talk was about the departed hero。
  The father boasted about him according to his wont;
  glorifying himself in recounting his son's feats and
  gallantry; but his mood was at any rate better and more
  charitable than that in which he had been disposed until
  now to regard the poor fellow; and the Christian heart of
  the kind Major was pleased at these symptoms of
  returning peace and good…will。  On the second evening old
  Osborne called Dobbin William; just as he used to do at
  the time when Dobbin and George were boys together;
  and the honest gentleman was pleased by that mark of
  reconciliation 。
  On the next day at breakfast; when Miss Osborne;
  with the asperity of her age and character; ventured to
  make some remark reflecting slightingly upon the Major's
  appearance or behaviourthe master of the house
  interrupted her。  〃You'd have been glad enough to git him
  for yourself; Miss O。  But them grapes are sour。  Ha!  ha!
  Major William is a fine feller。〃
  〃That he is; Grandpapa;〃 said Georgy approvingly;
  and going up close to the old gentleman; he took a hold
  of his large grey whiskers; and laughed in his face
  good…humouredly; and kissed him。  And he told the story at
  night to his mother; who fully agreed with the boy。
  〃Indeed he is;〃 she said。  〃Your dear father always said so。
  He is one of the best and most upright of men。〃 Dobbin
  happened to drop in very soon after this conversation;
  which made Amelia blush perhaps; and the young
  scapegrace increased the confusion by telling Dobbin
  the other part of the story。  〃I say; Dob;〃 he said; 〃there's
  such an uncommon nice girl wants to marry you。  She's
  plenty of tin; she wears a front; and she scolds the
  servants from morning till night。〃 〃Who is it?〃 asked
  Dobbin。
  〃It's Aunt O。;〃 the boy answered。  〃Grandpapa said
  so。  And I say; Dob; how prime it would be to have you
  for my uncle。〃 Old Sedley's quavering voice from the
  next room at this moment weakly called for Amelia; and
  the laughing ended。
  That old Osborne's mind was changing was pretty clear。
  He asked George about his uncle sometimes; and laughed
  at the boy's imitation of the way in which Jos said
  〃God…bless…my…soul〃 and gobbled his soup。  Then he said;
  〃It's not respectful; sir; of you younkers to be imitating of
  your relations。  Miss O。; when you go out adriving
  to…day; leave my card upon Mr。 Sedley; do you hear?
  There's no quarrel betwigst me and him anyhow。〃
  The card was returned; and Jos and the Major were
  asked to dinnerto a dinner the most splendid and
  stupid that perhaps ever Mr。 Osborne gave; every inch
  of the family plate was exhibited; and the best company
  was asked。  Mr。 Sedley took down Miss O。  to dinner;
  and she was very gracious to him; whereas she
  hardly spoke to the Major; who sat apart from her; and
  by the side of Mr。 Osborne; very timid。  Jos said; with
  great solemnity; it was the best turtle soup he had ever
  tasted in his life; and asked Mr。 Osborne where he got his
  Madeira。
  〃It is some of Sedley's wine;〃 whispered the butler to
  his master。  〃I've had it a long time; and paid a good
  figure for it; too;〃 Mr。 Osborne said aloud to his guest;
  and then whispered to his right…hand neighbour how
  he had got it 〃at the old chap's sale。〃
  More than once he asked the Major aboutabout Mrs。
  George Osbornea theme on which the Major could be
  very eloquent when he chose。  He told Mr。 Osborne of
  her sufferingsof her passionate attachment to her
  husband; whose memory she worshipped stillof the tender
  and dutiful manner in which she had supported her
  parents; and given up her boy; when it seemed to her her
  duty to do so。  〃You don't know what she endured; sir;〃
  said honest Dobbin with a tremor in his voice; 〃and I
  hope and trust you will be reconciled to her。  If she
  took your son away from you; she gave hers to you;
  and however much you loved your George; depend on it;
  she loved hers ten times more。〃
  〃By God; you are a good feller; sir;〃 was all Mr。 Os…
  borne said。  It had never struck him that the widow would
  feel any pain at parting from the boy; or that his having
  a fine fortune could grieve her。  A reconciliation was
  announced as speedy and inevitable; and Amelia's heart
  already began to beat at the notion of the awful meeting
  with George's father。
  It was never; however; destined to take place。  Old
  Sedley's lingering illness and death supervened; after
  which a meeting was for some time impossible。  That
  catastrophe and other events may have worked upon Mr。
  Osborne。  He was much shaken of late; and aged; and his
  mind was working inwardly。  He had sent for his lawyers;
  and probably changed something in his will。  The medical
  man who looked in pronounced him shaky; agitated; and
  talked of a little blood and the seaside; but he took
  neither of these remedies。
  One day when he should have come down to breakfast;
  his servant missing him; went into his dressing…room
  and found him lying at the foot of the dressing…table in a
  fit。  Miss Osborne was apprised; the doctors were sen