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作者:左思右想      更新:2021-02-19 19:48      字数:9322
  chaplain to the Right Honourable the Earl of Bareacres
  was spouting away as usual; a smart carriage drove up
  to the door decorated with the statue of Athene; and two
  gentlemen stepped out。  The young Masters Bangles rushed
  to the window with a vague notion that their father
  might have arrived from Bombay。  The great hulking
  scholar of three…and…twenty; who was crying secretly over a
  passage of Eutropius; flattened his neglected nose against
  the panes and looked at the drag; as the laquais de place
  sprang from the box and let out the persons in the carriage。
  〃It's a fat one and a thin one;〃 Mr。 Bluck said as a
  thundering knock came to the door。
  Everybody was interested; from the domestic chaplain
  himself; who hoped he saw the fathers of some future
  pupils; down to Master Georgy; glad of any pretext for
  laying his book down。
  The boy in the shabby livery with the faded copper
  buttons; who always thrust himself into the tight coat
  to open the door; came into the study and said; 〃Two
  gentlemen want to see Master Osborne。〃 The professor
  had had a trifling altercation in the morning with that
  young gentleman; owing to a difference about the
  introduction of crackers in school…time; but his face
  resumed its habitual expression of bland courtesy as he
  said; 〃Master Osborne; I give you full permission to go
  and see your carriage friendsto whom I beg you to
  convey the respectful compliments of myself and Mrs。
  Veal。〃
  Georgy went into the reception…room and saw two
  strangers; whom he looked at with his head up; in his
  usual haughty manner。  One was fat; with mustachios;
  and the other was lean and long; in a blue frock…coat;
  with a brown face and a grizzled head。
  〃My God; how like he is!〃 said the long gentleman
  with a start。  〃Can you guess who we are; George?〃
  The boy's face flushed up; as it did usually when he
  was moved; and his eyes brightened。  〃I don't know the
  other;〃 he said; 〃but I should think you must be Major
  Dobbin。〃
  Indeed it was our old friend。  His voice trembled
  with pleasure as he greeted the boy; and taking both the
  other's hands in his own; drew the lad to him。
  〃Your mother has talked to you about mehas
  she?〃 he said。
  〃That she has;〃 Georgy answered; 〃hundreds and
  hundreds of times。〃
  CHAPTER LVII
  Eothen
  It was one of the many causes for personal pride
  with which old Osborne chose to recreate himself
  that Sedley; his ancient rival; enemy; and benefactor;
  was in his last days so utterly defeated and humiliated
  as to be forced to accept pecuniary obligations at the
  hands of the man who had most injured and insulted
  him。  The successful man of the world cursed the old
  pauper and relieved him from time to time。  As he
  furnished George with money for his mother; he gave
  the boy to understand by hints; delivered in his brutal;
  coarse way; that George's maternal grandfather was
  but a wretched old bankrupt and dependant; and that
  John Sedley might thank the man to whom he already
  owed ever so much money for the aid which his generosity
  now chose to administer。  George carried the pompous
  supplies to his mother and the shattered old widower whom
  it was now the main business of her life to tend and
  comfort。  The little fellow patronized the feeble and
  disappointed old man。
  It may have shown a want of 〃proper pride〃 in
  Amelia that she chose to accept these money benefits at
  the hands of her father's enemy。  But proper pride and
  this poor lady had never had much acquaintance together。
  A disposition naturally simple and demanding protection;
  a long course of poverty and humility; of daily privations;
  and hard words; of kind offices and no returns; had been
  her lot ever since womanhood almost; or since her
  luckless marriage with George Osborne。  You who see your
  betters bearing up under this shame every day; meekly
  suffering under the slights of fortune; gentle and unpitied;
  poor; and rather despised for their poverty; do you ever
  step down from your prosperity and wash the feet of
  these poor wearied beggars? The very thought of them is
  odious and low。  〃There must be classesthere must be
  rich and poor;〃 Dives says; smacking his claret (it is
  well if he even sends the broken meat out to Lazarus
  sitting under the window)。  Very true; but think how
  mysterious and often unaccountable it isthat lottery
  of life which gives to this man the purple and fine linen
  and sends to the other rags for garments and dogs for
  comforters。
  So I must own that; without much repining; on the
  contrary with something akin to gratitude; Amelia took the
  crumbs that her father…in…law let drop now and then;
  and with them fed her own parent。  Directly she understood
  it to be her duty; it was this young woman's nature
  (ladies; she is but thirty still; and we choose to call her
  a young woman even at that age) it was; I say; her
  nature to sacrifice herself and to fling all that she had at
  the feet of the beloved object。  During what long thankless
  nights had she worked out her fingers for little Georgy
  whilst at home with her; what buffets; scorns; privations;
  poverties had she endured for father and mother!  And
  in the midst of all these solitary resignations and unseen
  sacrifices; she did not respect herself any more than the
  world respected her; but I believe thought in her heart
  that she was a poor…spirited; despicable little creature;
  whose luck in life was only too good for her merits。  O
  you poor women!  O you poor secret martyrs and victims;
  whose life is a torture; who are stretched on racks in
  your bedrooms; and who lay your heads down on the
  block daily at the drawing…room table; every man who
  watches your pains; or peers into those dark places where
  the torture is administered to you; must pity youand
  and thank God that he has a beard。  I recollect seeing;
  years ago; at the prisons for idiots and madmen at
  Bicetre; near Paris; a poor wretch bent down under
  the bondage of his imprisonment and his personal
  infirmity; to whom one of our party gave a halfpenny worth
  of snuff in a cornet or 〃screw〃 of paper。  The kindness
  was too much for the poor epileptic creature。  He cried
  in an anguish of delight and gratitude:  if anybody gave
  you and me a thousand a year; or saved our lives; we
  could not be so affected。  And so; if you properly tyrannize
  over a woman; you will find a h'p'orth of kindness act
  upon her and bring tears into her eyes; as though you
  were an angel benefiting her。
  Some such boons as these were the best which Fortune
  allotted to poor little Amelia。  Her life; begun not
  unprosperously; had come down to thisto a mean prison
  and a long; ignoble bondage。  Little George visited her
  captivity sometimes and consoled it with feeble gleams
  of encouragement。  Russell Square was the boundary of
  her prison:  she might walk thither occasionally; but was
  always back to sleep in her cell at night; to perform
  cheerless duties; to watch by thankless sick…beds; to
  suffer the harassment and tyranny of querulous
  disappointed old age。  How many thousands of people are
  there; women for the most part; who are doomed to endure
  this long slavery?who are hospital nurses without
  wagessisters of Charity; if you like; without the
  romance and the sentiment of sacrificewho strive; fast;
  watch; and suffer; unpitied; and fade away ignobly and
  unknown。
  The hidden and awful Wisdom which apportions the
  destinies of mankind is pleased so to humiliate and cast
  down the tender; good; and wise; and to set up the selfish;
  the foolish; or the wicked。  Oh; be humble; my brother;
  in your prosperity!  Be gentle with those who are less
  lucky; if not more deserving。  Think; what right have you
  to be scornful; whose virtue is a deficiency of temptation;
  whose success may be a chance; whose rank may be
  an ancestor's accident; whose prosperity is very likely
  a satire。
  They buried Amelia's mother in the churchyard at
  Brompton; upon just such a rainy; dark day as Amelia
  recollected when first she had been there to marry George。
  Her little boy sat by her side in pompous new sables。
  She remembered the old pew…woman and clerk。  Her
  thoughts were away in other times as the parson read。
  But that she held George's hand in her own; perhaps she
  would have liked to change places with。。。。  Then; as
  usual; she felt ashamed of her selfish thoughts and prayed
  inwardly to be strengthened to do her duty。
  So she determined with all her might and strength to
  try and make her old father happy。  She slaved; toiled;
  patched; and mended; sang and played backgammon; read
  out the newspaper; cooked dishes; for old Sedley; walked
  him out sedulously into Kensington Gardens or the Brompton
  Lanes; listened to his stories with untiring smiles and
  affectionate hypocrisy; or sat musing by his side and
  communing with her own thoughts and reminiscences;
  as the old man; feeble and querulous; sunned himself on
  the garden benches and prattled about his wrongs or his
  sorrows。  What sad; unsatisfactory thoughts those of the
  widow were!  The children running up and down the
  slopes and broad paths in the gardens reminded her of
  George; who was taken from her; the first George was
  taken from her; her selfish; guilty love; in both instances;
  had been rebuked and bitterly ch