第 139 节
作者:左思右想      更新:2021-02-19 19:48      字数:9322
  it。  He chuckled and swore to himself behind the sheet。
  At last he flung it down and; scowling at his daughter;
  as his wont was; went out of the room into his study
  adjoining; from whence he presently returned with a
  key。  He flung it to Miss Osborne。
  〃Get the room over minehis room that wasready;〃
  he said。  〃Yes; sir;〃 his daughter replied in a tremble。
  It was George's room。  It had not been opened for more
  than ten years。  Some of his clothes; papers; handkerchiefs;
  whips and caps; fishing…rods and sporting gear;
  were still there。  An Army list of 1814; with his name
  written on the cover; a little dictionary he was wont to
  use in writing; and the Bible his mother had given him;
  were on the mantelpiece; with a pair of spurs and a
  dried inkstand covered with the dust of ten years。  Ah!
  since that ink was wet; what days and people had passed
  away!  The writing…book; still on the table; was blotted
  with his hand。
  Miss Osborne was much affected when she first
  entered this room with the servants under her。  She sank
  quite pale on the little bed。  〃This is blessed news; m'am
  indeed; m'am;〃 the housekeeper said; 〃and the good
  old times is returning; m'am。  The dear little feller; to be
  sure; m'am; how happy he will be!  But some folks in
  May Fair; m'am; will owe him a grudge; m'am〃; and
  she clicked back the bolt which held the window…sash
  and let the air into the chamber。
  〃You had better send that woman some money;〃 Mr。
  Osborne said; before he went out。  〃She shan't want for
  nothing。  Send her a hundred pound。〃
  〃And I'll go and see her to…morrow?〃 Miss Osborne
  asked。
  〃That's your look out。  She don't come in here; mind。
  No; by ; not for all the money in London。  But she
  mustn't want now。  So look out; and get things right。〃 With
  which brief speeches Mr。 Osborne took leave of his
  daughter and went on his accustomed way into the City。
  〃Here; Papa; is some money;〃 Amelia said that
  night; kissing the old man; her father; and putting a bill
  for a hundred pounds into his hands。  〃Andand; Mamma;
  don't be harsh with Georgy。  Hehe is not going to stop
  with us long。〃 She could say nothing more; and walked
  away silently to her room。  Let us close it upon her
  prayers and her sorrow。  I think we had best speak little
  about so much love and grief。
  Miss Osborne came the next day; according to the
  promise contained in her note; and saw Amelia。  The
  meeting between them was friendly。  A look and a few words
  from Miss Osborne showed the poor widow that; with
  regard to this woman at least; there need be no fear
  lest she should take the first place in her son's affection。
  She was cold; sensible; not unkind。  The mother had
  not been so well pleased; perhaps; had the rival been
  better looking; younger; more affectionate; warmer…
  hearted。  Miss Osborne; on the other hand; thought of old
  times and memories and could not but be touched with
  the poor mother's pitiful situation。  She was conquered;
  and laying down her arms; as it were; she humbly
  submitted。  That day they arranged together the
  preliminaries of the treaty of capitulation。
  George was kept from school the next day; and saw
  his aunt。  Amelia left them alone together and went to
  her room。  She was trying the separationas that poor
  gentle Lady Jane Grey felt the edge of the axe that was
  to come down and sever her slender life。  Days were
  passed in parleys; visits; preparations。  The widow broke
  the matter to Georgy with great caution; she looked to
  see him very much affected by the intelligence。  He was
  rather elated than otherwise; and the poor woman
  turned sadly away。  He bragged about the news that day
  to the boys at school; told them how he was going to
  live with his grandpapa his father's father; not the one
  who comes here sometimes; and that he would be very
  rich; and have a carriage; and a pony; and go to a much
  finer school; and when he was rich he would buy Leader's
  pencil…case and pay the tart…woman。  The boy was the
  image of his father; as his fond mother thought。
  Indeed I have no heart; on account of our dear
  Amelia's sake; to go through the story of George's last
  days at home。
  At last the day came; the carriage drove up; the little
  humble packets containing tokens of love and remembrance
  were ready and disposed in the hall long since
  George was in his new suit; for which the tailor had
  come previously to measure him。  He had sprung up with
  the sun and put on the new clothes; his mother hearing
  him from the room close by; in which she had been
  lying; in speechless grief and watching。  Days before she
  had been making preparations for the end; purchasing
  little stores for the boy's use; marking his books and
  linen; talking with him and preparing him for the change
  fondly fancying that he needed preparation。
  So that he had change; what cared he? He was longing
  for it。  By a thousand eager declarations as to what
  he would do; when he went to live with his grandfather;
  he had shown the poor widow how little the idea of
  parting had cast him down。  〃He would come and see
  his mamma often on the pony;〃 he said。  〃He would
  come and fetch her in the carriage; they would drive
  in the park; and she should have everything she wanted。〃
  The poor mother was fain to content herself with these
  selfish demonstrations of attachment; and tried to
  convince herself how sincerely her son loved her。  He must
  love her。  All children were so:  a little anxious for novelty;
  andno; not selfish; but self…willed。  Her child must
  have his enjoyments and ambition in the world。  She
  herself; by her own selfishness and imprudent love for him
  had denied him his just rights and pleasures hitherto。
  I know few things more affecting than that timorous
  debasement and self…humiliation of a woman。  How she
  owns that it is she and not the man who is guilty; how
  she takes all the faults on her side; how she courts in a
  manner punishment for the wrongs which she has not
  committed and persists in shielding the real culprit!  It
  is those who injure women who get the most kindness
  from themthey are born timid and tyrants and
  maltreat those who are humblest before them。
  So poor Amelia had been getting ready in silent misery
  for her son's departure; and had passed many and many
  a long solitary hour in making preparations for the end。
  George stood by his mother; watching her arrangements
  without the least concern。  Tears had fallen into his boxes;
  passages had been scored in his favourite books; old toys;
  relics; treasures had been hoarded away for him; and
  packed with strange neatness and careand of all these
  things the boy took no note。  The child goes away smiling
  as the mother breaks her heart。  By heavens it is pitiful;
  the bootless love of women for children in Vanity Fair。
  A few days are past; and the great event of Amelia's
  life is consummated。  No angel has intervened。  The child
  is sacrificed and offered up to fate; and the widow is
  quite alone。
  The boy comes to see her often; to be sure。  He rides
  on a pony with a coachman behind him; to the delight
  of his old grandfather; Sedley; who walks proudly down
  the lane by his side。  She sees him; but he is not her boy
  any more。  Why; he rides to see the boys at the little
  school; too; and to show off before them his new wealth
  and splendour。  In two days he has adopted a slightly
  imperious air and patronizing manner。  He was born to
  command; his mother thinks; as his father was before
  him。
  It is fine weather now。  Of evenings on the days when
  he does not come; she takes a long walk into London
  yes; as far as Russell Square; and rests on the stone
  by the railing of the garden opposite Mr。 Osborne's house。
  It is so pleasant and cool。  She can look up and see the
  drawing…room windows illuminated; and; at about nine
  o'clock; the chamber in the upper story where Georgy
  sleeps。  She knowshe has told her。  She prays there
  as the light goes out; prays with an humble heart;
  and walks home shrinking and silent。  She is very tired
  when she comes home。  Perhaps she will sleep the better
  for that long weary walk; and she may dream about
  Georgy。
  One Sunday she happened to be walking in Russell
  Square; at some distance from Mr。 Osborne's house (she
  could see it from a distance though) when all the bells
  of Sabbath were ringing; and George and his aunt came
  out to go to church; a little sweep asked for charity;
  and the footman; who carried the books; tried to drive
  him away; but Georgy stopped and gave him money。  May
  God's blessing be on the boy!  Emmy ran round the square
  and; coming up to the sweep; gave him her mite too。
  All the bells of Sabbath were ringing; and she followed
  them until she came to the Foundling Church; into which
  she went。  There she sat in a place whence she could
  see the head of the boy under his father's tombstone。
  Many hundred fresh children's voices rose up there and
  sang hymns to the Father Beneficent; and little George's
  soul thrilled with delight at the burst of glorious
  psalmody。  His mother could not see him for awhile;
  through the mist that dimmed her eyes。
  CHAPTER LI
  In Which a Charade Is Acted Which May or May
  Not Puzzle the Reader
  After Becky's appearance at my Lord Steyne's private
  and select parties