第 98 节
作者:左思右想      更新:2021-02-19 19:47      字数:9321
  her niece; more fond and terrified every day。  Peace to
  thee; kind and selfish; vain and generous old heathen!
  We shall see thee no more。  Let us hope that Lady Jane
  supported her kindly; and led her with gentle hand out
  of the busy struggle of Vanity Fair。
  CHAPTER XXXV
  Widow and Mother
  The news of the great fights of Quatre Bras and Waterloo
  reached England at the same time。  The Gazette first
  published the result of the two battles; at which glorious
  intelligence all England thrilled with triumph and fear。
  Particulars then followed; and after the announcement of
  the victories came the list of the wounded and the slain。
  Who can tell the dread with which that catalogue was
  opened and read!  Fancy; at every village and homestead
  almost through the three kingdoms; the great news
  coming of the battles in Flanders; and the feelings of
  exultation and gratitude; bereavement and sickening dismay;
  when the lists of the regimental losses were gone through;
  and it became known whether the dear friend and relative
  had escaped or fallen。  Anybody who will take the trouble
  of looking back to a file of the newspapers of the
  time; must; even now; feel at second…hand this breathless
  pause of expectation。  The lists of casualties are carried
  on from day to day:  you stop in the midst as in a story
  which is to be continued in our next。  Think what the
  feelings must have been as those papers followed each
  other fresh from the press; and if such an interest could
  be felt in our country; and about a battle where but
  twenty thousand of our people were engaged; think of
  the condition of Europe for twenty years before; where
  people were fighting; not by thousands; but by millions;
  each one of whom as he struck his enemy wounded
  horribly some other innocent heart far away。
  The news which that famous Gazette brought to the
  Osbornes gave a dreadful shock to the family and its chief。
  The girls indulged unrestrained in their grief。  The
  gloom…stricken old father was still more borne down by his fate
  and sorrow。  He strove to think that a judgment was on
  the boy for his disobedience。  He dared not own that the
  severity of the sentence frightened him; and that its
  fulfilment had come too soon upon his curses。  Sometimes a
  shuddering terror struck him; as if he had been the author
  of the doom which he had called down on his son。  There
  was a chance before of reconciliation。  The boy's wife
  might have died; or he might have come back and said;
  Father I have sinned。  But there was no hope now。  He
  stood on the other side of the gulf impassable; haunting
  his parent with sad eyes。  He remembered them once
  before so in a fever; when every one thought the lad was
  dying; and he lay on his bed speechless; and gazing with a
  dreadful gloom。  Good God! how the father clung to the
  doctor then; and with what a sickening anxiety he
  followed him:  what a weight of grief was off his mind when;
  after the crisis of the fever; the lad recovered; and looked
  at his father once more with eyes that recognised him。
  But now there was no help or cure; or chance of
  reconcilement:  above all; there were no humble words to
  soothe vanity outraged and furious; or bring to its natural
  flow the poisoned; angry blood。  And it is hard to say
  which pang it was that tore the proud father's heart most
  keenlythat his son should have gone out of the reach
  of his forgiveness; or that the apology which his own
  pride expected should have escaped him。
  Whatever his sensations might have been; however; the
  stem old man would have no confidant。  He never
  mentioned his son's name to his daughters; but ordered the
  elder to place all the females of the establishment in
  mourning; and desired that the male servants should be
  similarly attired in deep black。  All parties and entertainments;
  of course; were to be put off。  No communications
  were made to his future son…in…law; whose marriage…day
  had been fixed:  but there was enough in Mr。 Osborne's
  appearance to prevent Mr。 Bullock from making any
  inquiries; or in any way pressing forward that ceremony。
  He and the ladies whispered about it under their voices
  in the drawing…room sometimes; whither the father never
  came。  He remained constantly in his own study; the
  whole front part of the house being closed until some
  time after the completion of the general mourning。
  About three weeks after the 18th of June; Mr。
  Osborne's acquaintance; Sir William Dobbin; called at Mr。
  Osborne's house in Russell Square; with a very pale and
  agitated face; and insisted upon seeing that gentleman。
  Ushered into his room; and after a few words; which
  neither the speaker nor the host understood; the former
  produced from an inclosure a letter sealed with a large
  red seal。  〃My son; Major Dobbin;〃 the Alderman said;
  with some hesitation; 〃despatched me a letter by an
  officer of the th; who arrived in town to…day。  My son's
  letter contains one for you; Osborne。〃 The Alderman
  placed the letter on the table; and Osborne stared at him
  for a moment or two in silence。  His looks frightened the
  ambassador; who after looking guiltily for a little time at
  the grief…stricken man; hurried away without another
  word。
  The letter was in George's well…known bold handwriting。
  It was that one which he had written before daybreak
  on the 16th of June; and just before he took leave
  of Amelia。  The great red seal was emblazoned with the
  sham coat of arms which Osborne had assumed from
  the Peerage; with 〃Pax in bello〃 for a motto; that of the
  ducal house with which the vain old man tried to fancy
  himself connected。  The hand that signed it would never
  hold pen or sword more。  The very seal that sealed it
  had been robbed from George's dead body as it lay on the
  field of battle。  The father knew nothing of this; but sat and
  looked at the letter in terrified vacancy。  He almost fell
  when he went to open it。
  Have you ever had a difference with a dear friend?
  How his letters; written in the period of love and
  confidence; sicken and rebuke you!  What a dreary mourning
  it is to dwell upon those vehement protests of dead
  affection!  What lying epitaphs they make over the corpse of
  love!  What dark; cruel comments upon Life and Vanities!
  Most of us have got or written drawers full of them。
  They are closet…skeletons which we keep and shun。
  Osborne trembled long before the letter from his dead
  son。
  The poor boy's letter did not say much。  He had been
  too proud to acknowledge the tenderness which his heart
  felt。  He only said; that on the eve of a great battle; he
  wished to bid his father farewell; and solemnly to implore
  his good offices for the wifeit might be for the child
  whom he left behind him。  He owned with contrition that
  his irregularities and his extravagance had already wasted
  a large part of his mother's little fortune。  He thanked his
  father for his former generous conduct; and he promised
  him that if he fell on the field or survived it; he would
  act in a manner worthy of the name of George Osborne。
  His English habit; pride; awkwardness perhaps; had
  prevented him from saying more。  His father could not
  see the kiss George had placed on the superscription of
  his letter。  Mr。 Osborne dropped it with the bitterest;
  deadliest pang of balked affection and revenge。  His son
  was still beloved and unforgiven。
  About two months afterwards; however; as the young
  ladies of the family went to church with their father; they
  remarked how he took a different seat from that which
  he usually occupied when he chose to attend divine
  worship; and that from his cushion opposite; he looked up at
  the wall over their heads。  This caused the young women
  likewise to gaze in the direction towards which their
  father's gloomy eyes pointed:  and they saw an elaborate
  monument upon the wall; where Britannia was represented
  weeping over an urn; and a broken sword and a
  couchant lion indicated that the piece of sculpture had
  been erected in honour of a deceased warrior。  The
  sculptors of those days had stocks of such funereal
  emblems in hand; as you may see still on the walls of St。
  Paul's; which are covered with hundreds of these
  braggart heathen allegories。  There was a constant demand
  for them during the first fifteen years of the present
  century。
  Under the memorial in question were emblazoned the
  well…known and pompous Osborne arms; and the
  inscription said; that the monument was 〃Sacred to the
  memory of George Osborne; Junior; Esq。; late a Captain
  in his Majesty's th regiment of foot; who fell on the
  18th of June; 1815; aged 28 years; while fighting for his
  king and country in the glorious victory of Waterloo。
  Dulce et decorum est pro patria mori。〃
  The sight of that stone agitated the nerves of the
  sisters so much; that Miss Maria was compelled to leave
  the church。  The congregation made way respectfully for
  those sobbing girls clothed in deep black; and pitied the
  stern old father seated opposite the memorial of the dead
  soldier。  〃Will he forgive Mrs。 George?〃 the girls said to
  themselves as soon as their ebullition of grief was over。
  Much conversation passed too among the acquaintances
  of the Osborne family; who knew of the rupture between
  the son and father caused by the