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arms to defend him there; and all Europe to oust him。
While the French nation and army were swearing fidelity
round the eagles in the Champ de Mars; four mighty
European hosts were getting in motion for the great
chasse a l'aigle; and one of these was a British army; of
which two heroes of ours; Captain Dobbin and Captain
Osborne; formed a portion。
The news of Napoleon's escape and landing was
received by the gallant th with a fiery delight and
enthusiasm; which everybody can understand who knows
that famous corps。 From the colonel to the smallest
drummer in the regiment; all were filled with hope and
ambition and patriotic fury; and thanked the French Emperor
as for a personal kindness in coming to disturb the peace
of Europe。 Now was the time the th had so long
panted for; to show their comrades in arms that they
could fight as well as the Peninsular veterans; and that
all the pluck and valour of the th had not been killed
by the West Indies and the yellow fever。 Stubble and
Spooney looked to get their companies without purchase。
Before the end of the campaign (which she resolved
to share); Mrs。 Major O'Dowd hoped to write
herself Mrs。 Colonel O'Dowd; C。B。 Our two friends
(Dobbin and Osborne) were quite as much excited as the
rest: and each in his wayMr。 Dobbin very quietly; Mr。
Osborne very loudly and energeticallywas bent upon
doing his duty; and gaining his share of honour and
distinction。
The agitation thrilling through the country and army
in consequence of this news was so great; that private
matters were little heeded: and hence probably George
Osborne; just gazetted to his company; busy with preparations
for the march; which must come inevitably; and
panting for further promotionwas not so much affected
by other incidents which would have interested him at a
more quiet period。 He was not; it must be confessed;
very much cast down by good old Mr。 Sedley's catastrophe。
He tried his new uniform; which became him
very handsomely; on the day when the first meeting of
the creditors of the unfortunate gentleman took place。
His father told him of the wicked; rascally; shameful
conduct of the bankrupt; reminded him of what he had
said about Amelia; and that their connection was broken
off for ever; and gave him that evening a good sum of
money to pay for the new clothes and epaulets in which
he looked so well。 Money was always useful to this free…
handed young fellow; and he took it without many words。
The bills were up in the Sedley house; where he had
passed so many; many happy hours。 He could see
them as he walked from home that night (to the Old
Slaughters'; where he put up when in town) shining white
in the moon。 That comfortable home was shut; then; upon
Amelia and her parents: where had they taken refuge?
The thought of their ruin affected him not a little。 He
was very melancholy that night in the coffee…room at
the Slaughters'; and drank a good deal; as his comrades
remarked there。
Dobbin came in presently; cautioned him about the
drink; which he only took; he said; because he was
deuced low; but when his friend began to put to him
clumsy inquiries; and asked him for news in a significant
manner; Osborne declined entering into conversation with
him; avowing; however; that he was devilish disturbed
and unhappy。
Three days afterwards; Dobbin found Osborne in his
room at the barrackshis head on the table; a number
of papers about; the young Captain evidently in a state
of great despondency。 〃Sheshe's sent me back some
things I gave hersome damned trinkets。 Look here!〃
There was a little packet directed in the well…known hand
to Captain George Osborne; and some things lying about
a ring; a silver knife he had bought; as a boy; for her
at a fair; a gold chain; and a locket with hair in it。 〃It's
all over;〃 said he; with a groan of sickening remorse。
〃Look; Will; you may read it if you like。〃
There was a little letter of a few lines; to which he
pointed; which said:
My papa has ordered me to return to you these
presents; which you made in happier days to me; and I
am to write to you for the last time。 I think; I know you
feel as much as I do the blow which has come upon us。
It is I that absolve you from an engagement which is
impossible in our present misery。 I am sure you had no
share in it; or in the cruel suspicions of Mr。 Osborne;
which are the hardest of all our griefs to bear。 Farewell。
Farewell。 I pray God to strengthen me to bear this and
other calamities; and to bless you always。 A。
I shall often play upon the pianoyour piano。 It was
like you to send it。
Dobbin was very soft…hearted。 The sight of women
and children in pain always used to melt him。 The idea
of Amelia broken…hearted and lonely tore that good…
natured soul with anguish。 And he broke out into an
emotion; which anybody who likes may consider unmanly。
He swore that Amelia was an angel; to which Osborne
said aye with all his heart。 He; too; had been reviewing
the history of their livesand had seen her from her
childhood to her present age; so sweet; so innocent;
so charmingly simple; and artlessly fond and tender。
What a pang it was to lose all that: to have had it and
not prized it! A thousand homely scenes and recollections
crowded on himin which he always saw her good
and beautiful。 And for himself; he blushed with remorse
and shame; as the remembrance of his own selfishness
and indifference contrasted with that perfect purity。 For
a while; glory; war; everything was forgotten; and the
pair of friends talked about her only。
〃Where are they?〃 Osborne asked; after a long talk;
and a long pauseand; in truth; with no little shame at
thinking that he had taken no steps to follow her。 〃Where
are they? There's no address to the note。〃
Dobbin knew。 He had not merely sent the piano; but
had written a note to Mrs。 Sedley; and asked permission
to come and see herand he had seen her; and Amelia
too; yesterday; before he came down to Chatham; and;
what is more; he had brought that farewell letter and
packet which had so moved them。
The good…natured fellow had found Mrs。 Sedley only
too willing to receive him; and greatly agitated by the
arrival of the piano; which; as she conjectured; MUST have
come from George; and was a signal of amity on his
part。 Captain Dobbin did not correct this error of the
worthy lady; but listened to all her story of complaints
and misfortunes with great sympathycondoled with
her losses and privations; and agreed in reprehending the
cruel conduct of Mr。 Osborne towards his first benefactor。
When she had eased her overflowing bosom somewhat;
and poured forth many of her sorrows; he had the
courage to ask actually to see Amelia; who was above in
her room as usual; and whom her mother led trembling
downstairs。
Her appearance was so ghastly; and her look of despair
so pathetic; that honest William Dobbin was frightened
as he beheld it; and read the most fatal forebodings in
that pale fixed face。 After sitting in his company a minute
or two; she put the packet into his hand; and said;
〃Take this to Captain Osborne; if you please; andand I
hope he's quite welland it was very kind of you to
come and see usand we like our new house very much。
And II think I'll go upstairs; Mamma; for I'm not very
strong。〃 And with this; and a curtsey and a smile; the
poor child went her way。 The mother; as she led her up;
cast back looks of anguish towards Dobbin。 The good
fellow wanted no such appeal。 He loved her himself too
fondly for that。 Inexpressible grief; and pity; and terror
pursued him; and he came away as if he was a criminal
after seeing her。
When Osborne heard that his friend had found her;
he made hot and anxious inquiries regarding the poor
child。 How was she? How did she look? What did she
say? His comrade took his hand; and looked him in the
face。
〃George; she's dying;〃 William Dobbin saidand could
speak no more。
There was a buxom Irish servant…girl; who performed
all the duties of the little house where the Sedley family
had found refuge: and this girl had in vain; on many
previous days; striven to give Amelia aid or consolation。
Emmy was much too sad to answer; or even to be aware
of the attempts the other was making in her favour。
Four hours after the talk between Dobbin and Osborne;
this servant…maid came into Amelia's room; where she
sate as usual; brooding silently over her lettersher
little treasures。 The girl; smiling; and looking arch and
happy; made many trials to attract poor Emmy's
attention; who; however; took no heed of her。
〃Miss Emmy;〃 said the girl。
〃I'm coming;〃 Emmy said; not looking round。
〃There's a message;〃 the maid went on。 〃There's
somethingsomebodysure; here's a new letter for you
don't be reading them old ones any more。〃 And she gave
her a letter; which Emmy took; and read。
〃I must see you;〃 the letter said。 〃Dearest Emmy
dearest lovedearest wife; come to me。〃
George and her mother were outside; waiting until she
had read the letter。
CHAPTER XXX
〃The Girl I Left Behind Me〃
We do not claim to rank among the military novelists。
Our place is with the non…combatants。 When the decks
are cleared for action we go