第 39 节
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you think I have no heart? Have you all loved me; and
been so kind to the poor orphandesertedgirl; and
am I to feel nothing? O my friends! O my benefactors!
may not my love; my life; my duty; try to repay the
confidence you have shown me? Do you grudge me even
gratitude; Miss Crawley? It is too muchmy heart is
too full〃; and she sank down in a chair so pathetically;
that most of the audience present were perfectly melted
with her sadness。
〃Whether you marry me or not; you're a good little
girl; Becky; and I'm your vriend; mind;〃 said Sir Pitt; and
putting on his crape…bound hat; he walked awaygreatly
to Rebecca's relief; for it was evident that her secret
was unrevealed to Miss Crawley; and she had the
advantage of a brief reprieve。
Putting her handkerchief to her eyes; and nodding
away honest Briggs; who would have followed her
upstairs; she went up to her apartment; while Briggs and
Miss Crawley; in a high state of excitement; remained
to discuss the strange event; and Firkin; not less moved;
dived down into the kitchen regions; and talked of it
with all the male and female company there。 And so
impressed was Mrs。 Firkin with the news; that she thought
proper to write off by that very night's post; 〃with her
humble duty to Mrs。 Bute Crawley and the family at the
Rectory; and Sir Pitt has been and proposed for to marry
Miss Sharp; wherein she has refused him; to the wonder
of all。〃
The two ladies in the dining…room (where worthy
Miss Briggs was delighted to be admitted once more to
confidential conversation with her patroness) wondered
to their hearts' content at Sir Pitt's offer; and Rebecca's
refusal; Briggs very acutely suggesting that there must
have been some obstacle in the shape of a previous
attachment; otherwise no young woman in her senses would
ever have refused so advantageous a proposal。
〃You would have accepted it yourself; wouldn't you;
Briggs?〃 Miss Crawley said; kindly。
〃Would it not be a privilege to be Miss Crawley's
sister?〃 Briggs replied; with meek evasion。
〃Well; Becky would have made a good Lady Crawley;
after all;〃 Miss Crawley remarked (who was mollified by
the girl's refusal; and very liberal and generous now there
was no call for her sacrifices)。 〃She has brains in plenty
(much more wit in her little finger than you have; my
poor dear Briggs; in all your head)。 Her manners are
excellent; now I have formed her。 She is a Montmorency;
Briggs; and blood is something; though I despise it for
my part; and she would have held her own amongst those
pompous stupid Hampshire people much better than that
unfortunate ironmonger's daughter。〃
Briggs coincided as usual; and the 〃previous attachment〃
was then discussed in conjectures。 〃You poor
friendless creatures are always having some foolish
tendre;〃 Miss Crawley said。 〃You yourself; you know;
were in love with a writing…master (don't cry; Briggs
you're always crying; and it won't bring him to life again);
and I suppose this unfortunate Becky has been silly
and sentimental toosome apothecary; or house…steward;
or painter; or young curate; or something of that sort。〃
〃Poor thing! poor thing!〃 says Briggs (who was thinking
of twenty…four years back; and that hectic young
writing…master whose lock of yellow hair; and whose
letters; beautiful in their illegibility; she cherished in
her old desk upstairs)。 〃Poor thing; poor thing!〃 says
Briggs。 Once more she was a fresh…cheeked lass of eighteen;
she was at evening church; and the hectic writing…master
and she were quavering out of the same psalm…book。
〃After such conduct on Rebecca's part;〃 Miss Crawley
said enthusiastically; 〃our family should do something。
Find out who is the objet; Briggs。 I'll set him up in a
shop; or order my portrait of him; you know; or speak
to my cousin; the Bishopand I'll doter Becky; and
we'll have a wedding; Briggs; and you shall make the
breakfast; and be a bridesmaid。〃
Briggs declared that it would be delightful; and vowed
that her dear Miss Crawley was always kind and generous;
and went up to Rebecca's bedroom to console her
and prattle about the offer; and the refusal; and the
cause thereof; and to hint at the generous intentions of
Miss Crawley; and to find out who was the gentleman
that had the mastery of Miss Sharp's heart。
Rebecca was very kind; very affectionate and affected
responded to Briggs's offer of tenderness with grateful
fervourowned there was a secret attachmenta
delicious mysterywhat a pity Miss Briggs had not
remained half a minute longer at the keyhole! Rebecca
might; perhaps; have told more: but five minutes after
Miss Briggs's arrival in Rebecca's apartment; Miss Crawley
actually made her appearance therean unheard…of
honourher impatience had overcome her; she could not
wait for the tardy operations of her ambassadress: so
she came in person; and ordered Briggs out of the room。
And expressing her approval of Rebecca's conduct; she
asked particulars of the interview; and the previous
transactions which had brought about the astonishing
offer of Sir Pitt。
Rebecca said she had long had some notion of the
partiality with which Sir Pitt honoured her (for he was
in the habit of making his feelings known in a very frank
and unreserved manner) but; not to mention private
reasons with which she would not for the present trouble
Miss Crawley; Sir Pitt's age; station; and habits were
such as to render a marriage quite impossible; and
could a woman with any feeling of self…respect and any
decency listen to proposals at such a moment; when
the funeral of the lover's deceased wife had not actually
taken place?
〃Nonsense; my dear; you would never have refused
him had there not been some one else in the case;〃 Miss
Crawley said; coming to her point at once。 〃Tell me the
private reasons; what are the private reasons? There is
some one; who is it that has touched your heart?〃
Rebecca cast down her eyes; and owned there was。
〃You have guessed right; dear lady;〃 she said; with a
sweet simple faltering voice。 〃You wonder at one so
poor and friendless having an attachment; don't you?
I have never heard that poverty was any safeguard
against it。 I wish it were。〃
〃My poor dear child;〃 cried Miss Crawley; who was
always quite ready to be sentimental; 〃is our passion
unrequited; then? Are we pining in secret? Tell me all;
and let me console you。〃
〃I wish you could; dear Madam;〃 Rebecca said in the
same tearful tone。 〃Indeed; indeed; I need it。〃 And she
laid her head upon Miss Crawley's shoulder and wept
there so naturally that the old lady; surprised into
sympathy; embraced her with an almost maternal
kindness; uttered many soothing protests of regard and
affection for her; vowed that she loved her as a daughter;
and would do everything in her power to serve her。 〃And
now who is it; my dear? Is it that pretty Miss Sedley's
brother? You said something about an affair with him。
I'll ask him here; my dear。 And you shall have him:
indeed you shall。〃
〃Don't ask me now;〃 Rebecca said。 〃You shall know
all soon。 Indeed you shall。 Dear kind Miss Crawley
dear friend; may I say so?〃
〃That you may; my child;〃 the old lady replied; kissing
her。
〃I can't tell you now;〃 sobbed out Rebecca; 〃I am
very miserable。 But O! love me alwayspromise you will
love me always。〃 And in the midst of mutual tearsfor
the emotions of the younger woman had awakened the
sympathies of the elderthis promise was solemnly given
by Miss Crawley; who left her little protege; blessing
and admiring her as a dear; artless; tender…hearted;
affectionate; incomprehensible creature。
And now she was left alone to think over the sudden
and wonderful events of the day; and of what had been
and what might have been。 What think you were the
private feelings of Miss; no (begging her pardon) of
Mrs。 Rebecca? If; a few pages back; the present writer
claimed the privilege of peeping into Miss Amelia
Sedley's bedroom; and understanding with the omniscience
of the novelist all the gentle pains and passions which
were tossing upon that innocent pillow; why should he
not declare himself to be Rebecca's confidante too;
master of her secrets; and seal…keeper of that young
woman's conscience?
Well; then; in the first place; Rebecca gave way to
some very sincere and touching regrets that a piece of
marvellous good fortune should have been so near her;
and she actually obliged to decline it。 In this natural
emotion every properly regulated mind will certainly
share。 What good mother is there that would not
commiserate a penniless spinster; who might have been
my lady; and have shared four thousand a year? What
well…bred young person is there in all Vanity Fair; who
will not feel for a hard…working; ingenious; meritorious
girl; who gets such an honourable; advantageous; provoking
offer; just at the very moment when it is out of her
power to accept it? I am sure our friend Becky's
disappointment deserves and will command every
sympathy。
I remember one night being in the Fair myself; at an
evening party。 I observed old Miss Toady there also
present; single out for her special att