第 4 节
作者:左思右想      更新:2021-02-19 19:45      字数:9322
  Crisp; except under her own eyes on the two occasions
  when she had met him at tea。
  By the side of many tall and bouncing young ladies in
  the establishment; Rebecca Sharp looked like a child。  But
  she had the dismal precocity of poverty。  Many a dun had
  she talked to; and turned away from her father's door;
  many a tradesman had she coaxed and wheedled into
  good…humour; and into the granting of one meal more。
  She sate commonly with her father; who was very proud
  of her wit; and heard the talk of many of his wild
  companionsoften but ill…suited for a girl to hear。  But she
  never had been a girl; she said; she had been a woman
  since she was eight years old。  Oh; why did Miss Pinkerton
  let such a dangerous bird into her cage?
  The fact is; the old lady believed Rebecca to be the
  meekest creature in the world; so admirably; on the
  occasions when her father brought her to Chiswick; used
  Rebecca to perform the part of the ingenue; and only a
  year before the arrangement by which Rebecca had been
  admitted into her house; and when Rebecca was sixteen
  years old; Miss Pinkerton majestically; and with a little
  speech; made her a present of a dollwhich was; by
  the way; the confiscated property of Miss Swindle;
  discovered surreptitiously nursing it in school…hours。  How
  the father and daughter laughed as they trudged home
  together after the evening party (it was on the occasion of
  the speeches; when all the professors were invited) and
  how Miss Pinkerton would have raged had she seen the
  caricature of herself which the little mimic; Rebecca;
  managed to make out of her doll。  Becky used to go
  through dialogues with it; it formed the delight of
  Newman Street; Gerrard Street; and the Artists' quarter:
  and the young painters; when they came to take their gin…
  and…water with their lazy; dissolute; clever; jovial senior;
  used regularly to ask Rebecca if Miss Pinkerton was at
  home: she was as well known to them; poor soul! as
  Mr。 Lawrence or President West。  Once Rebecca had the
  honour to pass a few days at Chiswick; after which she
  brought back Jemima; and erected another doll as Miss
  Jemmy: for though that honest creature had made and
  given her jelly and cake enough for three children; and
  a seven…shilling piece at parting; the girl's sense of
  ridicule was far stronger than her gratitude; and she
  sacrificed Miss Jemmy quite as pitilessly as her sister。
  The catastrophe came; and she was brought to the
  Mall as to her home。  The rigid formality of the place
  suffocated her: the prayers and the meals; the lessons
  and the walks; which were arranged with a conventual
  regularity; oppressed her almost beyond endurance; and
  she looked back to the freedom and the beggary of the
  old studio in Soho with so much regret; that everybody;
  herself included; fancied she was consumed with grief
  for her father。  She had a little room in the garret; where
  the maids heard her walking and sobbing at night; but it
  was with rage; and not with grief。  She had not been much
  of a dissembler; until now her loneliness taught her to
  feign。  She had never mingled in the society of women:
  her father; reprobate as he was; was a man of talent; his
  conversation was a thousand times more agreeable to her
  than the talk of such of her own sex as she now encountered。
  The pompous vanity of the old schoolmistress; the foolish
  good…humour of her sister; the silly chat and scandal of the
  elder girls; and the frigid correctness of the governesses
  equally annoyed her; and she had no soft
  maternal heart; this unlucky girl; otherwise the prattle
  and talk of the younger children; with whose care she
  was chiefly intrusted; might have soothed and interested
  her; but she lived among them two years; and not one
  was sorry that she went away。  The gentle tender…
  hearted Amelia Sedley was the only person to whom she
  could attach herself in the least; and who could help
  attaching herself to Amelia?
  The happiness the superior advantages of the young
  women round about her; gave Rebecca inexpressible
  pangs of envy。  〃What airs that girl gives herself; because
  she is an Earl's grand…daughter;〃 she said of one。  〃How
  they cringe and bow to that Creole; because of her
  hundred thousand pounds!  I am a thousand times cleverer
  and more charming than that creature; for all her wealth。
  I am as well bred as the Earl's grand…daughter; for all her
  fine pedigree; and yet every one passes me by here。  And
  yet; when I was at my father's; did not the men give up
  their gayest balls and parties in order to pass the evening
  with me?〃 She determined at any rate to get free from
  the prison in which she found herself; and now began to
  act for herself; and for the first time to make connected
  plans for the future。
  She took advantage; therefore; of the means of study
  the place offered her; and as she was already a musician
  and a good linguist; she speedily went through the little
  course of study which was considered necessary for ladies
  in those days。  Her music she practised incessantly; and
  one day; when the girls were out; and she had remained
  at home; she was overheard to play a piece so well that
  Minerva thought; wisely; she could spare herself the
  expense of a master for the juniors; and intimated to Miss
  Sharp that she was to instruct them in music for the
  future。
  The girl refused; and for the first time; and to the
  astonishment of the majestic mistress of the school。  〃I
  am here to speak French with the children;〃 Rebecca
  said abruptly; 〃not to teach them music; and save money
  for you。  Give me money; and I will teach them。〃
  Minerva was obliged to yield; and; of course; disliked
  her from that day。  〃For five…and…thirty years;〃 she said;
  and with great justice; 〃I never have seen the individual
  who has dared in my own house to question my
  authority。  I have nourished a viper in my bosom。〃
  〃A vipera fiddlestick;〃 said Miss Sharp to the old
  lady; almost fainting with astonishment。  〃You took me
  because I was useful。  There is no question of gratitude
  between us。  I hate this place; and want to leave it。  I
  will do nothing here but what I am obliged to do。〃
  It was in vain that the old lady asked her if she was
  aware she was speaking to Miss Pinkerton?  Rebecca
  laughed in her face; with a horrid sarcastic demoniacal
  laughter; that almost sent the schoolmistress into fits。
  〃Give me a sum of money;〃 said the girl; 〃and get rid
  of meor; if you like better; get me a good place as
  governess in a nobleman's familyyou can do so if you
  please。〃  And in their further disputes she always returned
  to this point; 〃Get me a situationwe hate each other;
  and I am ready to go。〃
  Worthy Miss Pinkerton; although she had a Roman
  nose and a turban; and was as tall as a grenadier; and
  had been up to this time an irresistible princess; had no
  will or strength like that of her little apprentice; and in
  vain did battle against her; and tried to overawe her。
  Attempting once to scold her in public; Rebecca hit upon
  the before…mentioned plan of answering her in French;
  which quite routed the old woman。  In order to maintain
  authority in her school; it became necessary to remove
  this rebel; this monster; this serpent; this firebrand; and
  hearing about this time that Sir Pitt Crawley's family
  was in want of a governess; she actually recommended
  Miss Sharp for the situation; firebrand and serpent as
  she was。  〃I cannot; certainly;〃 she said; 〃find fault with
  Miss Sharp's conduct; except to myself; and must allow
  that her talents and accomplishments are of a high order。
  As far as the head goes; at least; she does credit to the
  educational system pursued at my establishment。''
  And so the schoolmistress reconciled the recommendation
  to her conscience; and the indentures were cancelled;
  and the apprentice was free。  The battle here described
  in a few lines; of course; lasted for some months。  And
  as Miss Sedley; being now in her seventeenth year; was
  about to leave school; and had a friendship for Miss
  Sharp (〃'tis the only point in Amelia's behaviour;〃 said
  Minerva; 〃which has not been satisfactory to her
  mistress〃); Miss Sharp was invited by her friend to
  pass a week with her at home; before she entered
  upon her duties as governess in a private family。
  Thus the world began for these two young ladies。  For
  Amelia it was quite a new; fresh; brilliant world; with
  all the bloom upon it。  It was not quite a new one for
  Rebecca(indeed; if the truth must be told with respect
  to the Crisp affair; the tart…woman hinted to somebody;
  who took an affidavit of the fact to somebody else; that
  there was a great deal more than was made public
  regarding Mr。 Crisp and Miss Sharp; and that his letter
  was in answer to another letter)。  But who can tell you
  the real truth of the matter? At all events; if Rebecca
  was not beginning the world; she was beginning it over
  again。
  By the time the young ladies reached Kensington turnpike;
  Amelia had not forgotten her companions; but had
  dried her tears; and had blushed very much and been
  delighted at a young officer of the Life Guards; who spied
  her as he was riding by; and said; 〃A dem fine gal;
  egad!〃 and before the carriage arrived in Russell Square;
  a great deal of conversation ha