第 4 节
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左思右想 更新:2021-02-19 19:45 字数:9322
Crisp; except under her own eyes on the two occasions
when she had met him at tea。
By the side of many tall and bouncing young ladies in
the establishment; Rebecca Sharp looked like a child。 But
she had the dismal precocity of poverty。 Many a dun had
she talked to; and turned away from her father's door;
many a tradesman had she coaxed and wheedled into
good…humour; and into the granting of one meal more。
She sate commonly with her father; who was very proud
of her wit; and heard the talk of many of his wild
companionsoften but ill…suited for a girl to hear。 But she
never had been a girl; she said; she had been a woman
since she was eight years old。 Oh; why did Miss Pinkerton
let such a dangerous bird into her cage?
The fact is; the old lady believed Rebecca to be the
meekest creature in the world; so admirably; on the
occasions when her father brought her to Chiswick; used
Rebecca to perform the part of the ingenue; and only a
year before the arrangement by which Rebecca had been
admitted into her house; and when Rebecca was sixteen
years old; Miss Pinkerton majestically; and with a little
speech; made her a present of a dollwhich was; by
the way; the confiscated property of Miss Swindle;
discovered surreptitiously nursing it in school…hours。 How
the father and daughter laughed as they trudged home
together after the evening party (it was on the occasion of
the speeches; when all the professors were invited) and
how Miss Pinkerton would have raged had she seen the
caricature of herself which the little mimic; Rebecca;
managed to make out of her doll。 Becky used to go
through dialogues with it; it formed the delight of
Newman Street; Gerrard Street; and the Artists' quarter:
and the young painters; when they came to take their gin…
and…water with their lazy; dissolute; clever; jovial senior;
used regularly to ask Rebecca if Miss Pinkerton was at
home: she was as well known to them; poor soul! as
Mr。 Lawrence or President West。 Once Rebecca had the
honour to pass a few days at Chiswick; after which she
brought back Jemima; and erected another doll as Miss
Jemmy: for though that honest creature had made and
given her jelly and cake enough for three children; and
a seven…shilling piece at parting; the girl's sense of
ridicule was far stronger than her gratitude; and she
sacrificed Miss Jemmy quite as pitilessly as her sister。
The catastrophe came; and she was brought to the
Mall as to her home。 The rigid formality of the place
suffocated her: the prayers and the meals; the lessons
and the walks; which were arranged with a conventual
regularity; oppressed her almost beyond endurance; and
she looked back to the freedom and the beggary of the
old studio in Soho with so much regret; that everybody;
herself included; fancied she was consumed with grief
for her father。 She had a little room in the garret; where
the maids heard her walking and sobbing at night; but it
was with rage; and not with grief。 She had not been much
of a dissembler; until now her loneliness taught her to
feign。 She had never mingled in the society of women:
her father; reprobate as he was; was a man of talent; his
conversation was a thousand times more agreeable to her
than the talk of such of her own sex as she now encountered。
The pompous vanity of the old schoolmistress; the foolish
good…humour of her sister; the silly chat and scandal of the
elder girls; and the frigid correctness of the governesses
equally annoyed her; and she had no soft
maternal heart; this unlucky girl; otherwise the prattle
and talk of the younger children; with whose care she
was chiefly intrusted; might have soothed and interested
her; but she lived among them two years; and not one
was sorry that she went away。 The gentle tender…
hearted Amelia Sedley was the only person to whom she
could attach herself in the least; and who could help
attaching herself to Amelia?
The happinessthe superior advantages of the young
women round about her; gave Rebecca inexpressible
pangs of envy。 〃What airs that girl gives herself; because
she is an Earl's grand…daughter;〃 she said of one。 〃How
they cringe and bow to that Creole; because of her
hundred thousand pounds! I am a thousand times cleverer
and more charming than that creature; for all her wealth。
I am as well bred as the Earl's grand…daughter; for all her
fine pedigree; and yet every one passes me by here。 And
yet; when I was at my father's; did not the men give up
their gayest balls and parties in order to pass the evening
with me?〃 She determined at any rate to get free from
the prison in which she found herself; and now began to
act for herself; and for the first time to make connected
plans for the future。
She took advantage; therefore; of the means of study
the place offered her; and as she was already a musician
and a good linguist; she speedily went through the little
course of study which was considered necessary for ladies
in those days。 Her music she practised incessantly; and
one day; when the girls were out; and she had remained
at home; she was overheard to play a piece so well that
Minerva thought; wisely; she could spare herself the
expense of a master for the juniors; and intimated to Miss
Sharp that she was to instruct them in music for the
future。
The girl refused; and for the first time; and to the
astonishment of the majestic mistress of the school。 〃I
am here to speak French with the children;〃 Rebecca
said abruptly; 〃not to teach them music; and save money
for you。 Give me money; and I will teach them。〃
Minerva was obliged to yield; and; of course; disliked
her from that day。 〃For five…and…thirty years;〃 she said;
and with great justice; 〃I never have seen the individual
who has dared in my own house to question my
authority。 I have nourished a viper in my bosom。〃
〃A vipera fiddlestick;〃 said Miss Sharp to the old
lady; almost fainting with astonishment。 〃You took me
because I was useful。 There is no question of gratitude
between us。 I hate this place; and want to leave it。 I
will do nothing here but what I am obliged to do。〃
It was in vain that the old lady asked her if she was
aware she was speaking to Miss Pinkerton? Rebecca
laughed in her face; with a horrid sarcastic demoniacal
laughter; that almost sent the schoolmistress into fits。
〃Give me a sum of money;〃 said the girl; 〃and get rid
of meor; if you like better; get me a good place as
governess in a nobleman's familyyou can do so if you
please。〃 And in their further disputes she always returned
to this point; 〃Get me a situationwe hate each other;
and I am ready to go。〃
Worthy Miss Pinkerton; although she had a Roman
nose and a turban; and was as tall as a grenadier; and
had been up to this time an irresistible princess; had no
will or strength like that of her little apprentice; and in
vain did battle against her; and tried to overawe her。
Attempting once to scold her in public; Rebecca hit upon
the before…mentioned plan of answering her in French;
which quite routed the old woman。 In order to maintain
authority in her school; it became necessary to remove
this rebel; this monster; this serpent; this firebrand; and
hearing about this time that Sir Pitt Crawley's family
was in want of a governess; she actually recommended
Miss Sharp for the situation; firebrand and serpent as
she was。 〃I cannot; certainly;〃 she said; 〃find fault with
Miss Sharp's conduct; except to myself; and must allow
that her talents and accomplishments are of a high order。
As far as the head goes; at least; she does credit to the
educational system pursued at my establishment。''
And so the schoolmistress reconciled the recommendation
to her conscience; and the indentures were cancelled;
and the apprentice was free。 The battle here described
in a few lines; of course; lasted for some months。 And
as Miss Sedley; being now in her seventeenth year; was
about to leave school; and had a friendship for Miss
Sharp (〃'tis the only point in Amelia's behaviour;〃 said
Minerva; 〃which has not been satisfactory to her
mistress〃); Miss Sharp was invited by her friend to
pass a week with her at home; before she entered
upon her duties as governess in a private family。
Thus the world began for these two young ladies。 For
Amelia it was quite a new; fresh; brilliant world; with
all the bloom upon it。 It was not quite a new one for
Rebecca(indeed; if the truth must be told with respect
to the Crisp affair; the tart…woman hinted to somebody;
who took an affidavit of the fact to somebody else; that
there was a great deal more than was made public
regarding Mr。 Crisp and Miss Sharp; and that his letter
was in answer to another letter)。 But who can tell you
the real truth of the matter? At all events; if Rebecca
was not beginning the world; she was beginning it over
again。
By the time the young ladies reached Kensington turnpike;
Amelia had not forgotten her companions; but had
dried her tears; and had blushed very much and been
delighted at a young officer of the Life Guards; who spied
her as he was riding by; and said; 〃A dem fine gal;
egad!〃 and before the carriage arrived in Russell Square;
a great deal of conversation ha