第 4 节
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指点迷津 更新:2021-02-19 18:31 字数:5073
〃And if he would; you would marry him; let his soul be what it may?〃
〃I love him;〃 answered Christina。 〃I cannot help it。〃
Old Nicholas sat alone before the dying fire。 Is it the soul or the
body that is the real man? The answer was not so simple as he had
thought it。
〃Christina loved Jan〃so Nicholas mumbled to the dying fire〃when he
had the soul of Jan。 She loves him still; though he has the soul of
Nicholas Snyders。 When I asked her if she could love me; it was
terror I read in her eyes; though Jan's soul is now in me; she divined
it。 It must be the body that is the real Jan; the real Nicholas。 If
the soul of Christina entered into the body of Dame Toelast; should I
turn from Christina; from her golden hair; her fathomless eyes; her
asking lips; to desire the shrivelled carcass of Dame Toelast? No; I
should still shudder at the thought of her。 Yet when I had the soul
of Nicholas Snyders; I did not loathe her; while Christina was naught
to me。 It must be with the soul that we love; else Jan would still
love Christina and I should be Miser Nick。 Yet here am I loving
Christina; using Nicholas Snyders' brain and gold to thwart Nicholas
Snyders' every scheme; doing everything that I know will make him mad
when he comes back into his own body; while Jan cares no longer for
Christina; would marry Dame Toelast for her broad lands; her many
mills。 Clearly it is the soul that is the real man。 Then ought I not
to be glad; thinking I am going back into my own body; knowing that I
shall wed Christina? But I am not glad; I am very miserable。 I shall
not go with Jan's soul; I feel it; my own soul will come back to me。
I shall be again the hard; cruel; mean old man I was before; only now
I shall be poor and helpless。 The folks will laugh at me; and I shall
curse them; powerless to do them evil。 Even Dame Toelast will not
want me when she learns all。 And yet I must do this thing。 So long
as Jan's soul is in me; I love Christina better than myself。 I must
do this for her sake。 I love herI cannot help it。〃
Old Nicholas rose; took from the place; where a month before he had
hidden it; the silver flask of cunning workmanship。
〃Just two more glassfuls left;〃 mused Nicholas; as he gently shook the
flask against his ear。 He laid it on the desk before him; then opened
once again the old green ledger; for there still remained work to be
done。
He woke Christina early。 〃Take these letters; Christina;〃 he
commanded。 〃When you have delivered them all; but not before; go to
Jan; tell him I am waiting here to see him on a matter of business。〃
He kissed her and seemed loth to let her go。
〃I shall only be a little while;〃 smiled Christina。
〃All partings take but a little while;〃 he answered。
Old Nicholas had foreseen the trouble he would have。 Jan was content;
had no desire to be again a sentimental young fool; eager to saddle
himself with a penniless wife。 Jan had other dreams。
〃Drink; man; drink!〃 cried Nicholas impatiently; 〃before I am tempted
to change my mind。 Christina; provided you marry her; is the richest
bride in Zandam。 There is the deed; read it; and read quickly。〃
Then Jan consented; and the two men drank。 And there passed a breath
between them as before; and Jan with his hands covered his eyes a
moment。
It was a pity; perhaps; that he did so; for in that moment Nicholas
snatched at the deed that lay beside Jan on the desk。 The next
instant it was blazing in the fire。
〃Not so poor as you thought!〃 came the croaking voice of Nicholas。
〃Not so poor as you thought! I can build again; I can build again!〃
And the creature; laughing hideously; danced with its withered arms
spread out before the blaze; lest Jan should seek to rescue
Christina's burning dowry before it was destroyed。
Jan did not tell Christina。 In spite of all Jan could say; she would
go back。 Nicholas Snyders drove her from the door with curses。 She
could not understand。 The only thing clear was that Jan had come back
to her。
〃'Twas a strange madness that seized upon me;〃 Jan explained。 〃Let
the good sea breezes bring us health。〃
So from the deck of Jan's ship they watched old Zandam till it
vanished into air。
Christina cried a little at the thought of never seeing it again; but
Jan comforted her and later new faces hid the old。
And old Nicholas married Dame Toelast; but; happily; lived to do evil
only for a few years longer。
Long after; Jan told Christina the whole story; but it sounded very
improbable; and Christinathough; of course; she did not say sodid
not quite believe it; but thought Jan was trying to explain away that
strange month of his life during which he had wooed Dame Toelast。 Yet
it certainly was strange that Nicholas; for the same short month; had
been so different from his usual self。
〃Perhaps;〃 thought Christina; 〃if I had not told him I loved Jan; he
would not have gone back to his old ways。 Poor old gentleman! No
doubt it was despair。〃
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