第 4 节
作者:指点迷津      更新:2021-02-19 18:31      字数:5073
  〃And if he would; you would marry him; let his soul be what it may?〃
  〃I love him;〃 answered Christina。  〃I cannot help it。〃
  Old Nicholas sat alone before the dying fire。  Is it the soul or the
  body that is the real man?  The answer was not so simple as he had
  thought it。
  〃Christina loved Jan〃so Nicholas mumbled to the dying fire〃when he
  had the soul of Jan。  She loves him still; though he has the soul of
  Nicholas Snyders。  When I asked her if she could love me; it was
  terror I read in her eyes; though Jan's soul is now in me; she divined
  it。  It must be the body that is the real Jan; the real Nicholas。  If
  the soul of Christina entered into the body of Dame Toelast; should I
  turn from Christina; from her golden hair; her fathomless eyes; her
  asking lips; to desire the shrivelled carcass of Dame Toelast?  No; I
  should still shudder at the thought of her。  Yet when I had the soul
  of Nicholas Snyders; I did not loathe her; while Christina was naught
  to me。  It must be with the soul that we love; else Jan would still
  love Christina and I should be Miser Nick。  Yet here am I loving
  Christina; using Nicholas Snyders' brain and gold to thwart Nicholas
  Snyders' every scheme; doing everything that I know will make him mad
  when he comes back into his own body; while Jan cares no longer for
  Christina; would marry Dame Toelast for her broad lands; her many
  mills。  Clearly it is the soul that is the real man。  Then ought I not
  to be glad; thinking I am going back into my own body; knowing that I
  shall wed Christina?  But I am not glad; I am very miserable。  I shall
  not go with Jan's soul; I feel it; my own soul will come back to me。
  I shall be again the hard; cruel; mean old man I was before; only now
  I shall be poor and helpless。  The folks will laugh at me; and I shall
  curse them; powerless to do them evil。  Even Dame Toelast will not
  want me when she learns all。  And yet I must do this thing。  So long
  as Jan's soul is in me; I love Christina better than myself。  I must
  do this for her sake。  I love herI cannot help it。〃
  Old Nicholas rose; took from the place; where a month before he had
  hidden it; the silver flask of cunning workmanship。
  〃Just two more glassfuls left;〃 mused Nicholas; as he gently shook the
  flask against his ear。  He laid it on the desk before him; then opened
  once again the old green ledger; for there still remained work to be
  done。
  He woke Christina early。  〃Take these letters; Christina;〃 he
  commanded。  〃When you have delivered them all; but not before; go to
  Jan; tell him I am waiting here to see him on a matter of business。〃
  He kissed her and seemed loth to let her go。
  〃I shall only be a little while;〃 smiled Christina。
  〃All partings take but a little while;〃 he answered。
  Old Nicholas had foreseen the trouble he would have。  Jan was content;
  had no desire to be again a sentimental young fool; eager to saddle
  himself with a penniless wife。  Jan had other dreams。
  〃Drink; man; drink!〃 cried Nicholas impatiently; 〃before I am tempted
  to change my mind。  Christina; provided you marry her; is the richest
  bride in Zandam。  There is the deed; read it; and read quickly。〃
  Then Jan consented; and the two men drank。  And there passed a breath
  between them as before; and Jan with his hands covered his eyes a
  moment。
  It was a pity; perhaps; that he did so; for in that moment Nicholas
  snatched at the deed that lay beside Jan on the desk。  The next
  instant it was blazing in the fire。
  〃Not so poor as you thought!〃 came the croaking voice of Nicholas。
  〃Not so poor as you thought!  I can build again; I can build again!〃
  And the creature; laughing hideously; danced with its withered arms
  spread out before the blaze; lest Jan should seek to rescue
  Christina's burning dowry before it was destroyed。
  Jan did not tell Christina。  In spite of all Jan could say; she would
  go back。  Nicholas Snyders drove her from the door with curses。  She
  could not understand。  The only thing clear was that Jan had come back
  to her。
  〃'Twas a strange madness that seized upon me;〃 Jan explained。  〃Let
  the good sea breezes bring us health。〃
  So from the deck of Jan's ship they watched old Zandam till it
  vanished into air。
  Christina cried a little at the thought of never seeing it again; but
  Jan comforted her and later new faces hid the old。
  And old Nicholas married Dame Toelast; but; happily; lived to do evil
  only for a few years longer。
  Long after; Jan told Christina the whole story; but it sounded very
  improbable; and Christinathough; of course; she did not say sodid
  not quite believe it; but thought Jan was trying to explain away that
  strange month of his life during which he had wooed Dame Toelast。  Yet
  it certainly was strange that Nicholas; for the same short month; had
  been so different from his usual self。
  〃Perhaps;〃 thought Christina; 〃if I had not told him I loved Jan; he
  would not have gone back to his old ways。  Poor old gentleman!  No
  doubt it was despair。〃
  End