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作者:幽雨      更新:2021-02-19 18:04      字数:9320
  〃I can write a lot quicker than Lin;〃 said Billy; upon arriving。 〃He was
  fussing at that away late by the fire in camp; an' waked me up crawling in
  our bed。 An' then he had to finish it next night when he went over to the
  cabin for my clothes。〃
  〃You   don't   say!〃   said   Jessamine。 And   Billy   suffered   her   to   kiss   him
  again。
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  When      not  otherwise     occupied     Jessamine     took   the  letter  out   of  its
  locked box and read it; or looked at it。 Thus the first days had gone finely
  at   Separ;   the   weather   being   beautiful   and   Billy   much   out…of…doors。   But
  sometimes   the   weather   changes   in   Wyoming;   and   now   it   was   that   Miss
  Jessamine learned the talents of childhood。
  Soon   after   breakfast   this   stormy   morning   Billy   observed   the   twelve
  pages   being   taken   out   of   their   box;   and   spoke   from   his   sudden   brain。
  〃Honey Wiggin says Lin's losing his grip about girls;〃 he remarked。 〃He
  says you couldn't 'a' downed him onced。 You'd 'a' had to marry him。 Honey
  says Lin ain't worked it like he done in old times。〃
  〃Now I shouldn't wonder if he was right;〃 said Jessamine; buoyantly。
  〃And      that being the case; I'm going to set to work at your things till it
  clears; and then we'll go for our ride。〃
  〃Yes;〃 said Billy。 When does a man get too old to marry?〃
  〃I'm only a girl; you see。 I don't know。〃
  〃Yes。 Honey said he wouldn't 'a' thought Lin was that old。 But I guess
  he must be thirty。〃
  〃Old!〃 exclaimed Jessamine。 And she looked at a photograph upon her
  table。
  〃But Lin ain't been married very much;〃 pursued Billy。 〃Mother's the
  only one they speak of。 You don't have to stay married always; do you?〃
  〃It's better to;〃 said Jessamine。
  〃Ah; I don't think so;〃 said Billy; with disparagement。 〃You ought to
  see   mother   and   father。  I   wish   you   would   leave   Lin   marry   you;   though;〃
  said the boy; coming to her with an impulse of affection。 〃Why won't you
  if he don't mind?〃
  She continued to parry him; but this was not a very smooth start for
  eight   in   the   morning。   Moments   of   lull   there   were;   when   the   telegraph
  called her to the front room; and Billy's young mind shifted to   inquiries
  about the cipher alphabet。 And she gained at least an hour teaching him to
  read various words by the sound。 At dinner; too; he was refreshingly silent。
  But such silences are unsafe; and the weather was still bad。 Four o'clock
  found them much where they had been at eight。
  〃Please tell   me   why  you won't   leave   Lin   marry  you。〃   He   was   at the
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  window; kicking the wall。
  〃That's nine times since dinner;〃 she replied; with tireless good humor。
  〃Now if you ask me twelve〃
  〃You'll tell?〃 said the boy; swiftly。
  She   broke   into   a   laugh。   〃No。   I'll   go   riding   and   you'll   stay   at   home。
  When   I   was   little   and   would   ask   things   beyond   me;   they   only   gave   me
  three times。〃
  〃I've got two more; anyway。 Ha…ha!〃
  〃Better save 'em up; though。〃
  〃What did they do to you? Ah; I don't want to go a…riding。 It's nasty all
  over。〃 He stared out at the day against which Separ's doors had been tight
  closed since morning。 Eight hours of furious wind had raised the dust like
  a   sea。   〃I   wish   the   old   train   would   come;〃   observed   Billy;   continuing   to
  kick the wall。 〃I wish I was going somewheres。〃 Smoky; level; and hot; the
  south wind leapt into Separ across five hundred unbroken miles。 The plain
  was blanketed in a tawny eclipse。 Each minute the near buildings became
  invisible in a turbulent herd of clouds。 Above this travelling blur of the soil
  the top of the water…tank alone rose bulging into the clear sun。 The sand
  spirals   would   lick   like   flames   along   the   bulk   of   the   lofty   tub;   and   soar
  skyward。 It was not shipping season。 The freight…cars stood idle in a long
  line。   No   cattle   huddled   in   the   corrals。   No   strangers   moved   in   town。   No
  cow…ponies dozed in front of the saloon。 Their riders were distant in ranch
  and camp。 Human noise was extinct in Separ。 Beneath the thunder of the
  sultry blasts the place lay dead in its flapping shroud of dust。 〃Why won't
  you tell me?〃 droned Billy。 For some time he had been returning; like a
  mosquito brushed away。
  〃That's ten times;〃 said Jessamine; promptly。
  〃Oh; goodness! Pretty soon I'll not be glad I came。 I'm about twiced as
  less glad now。〃
  〃Well;〃   said   Jessamine;   〃there's   a   man   coming   to…day   to   mend   the
  government   telegraph…line   between   Drybone   and   McKinney。   Maybe   he
  would take you back as far as Box Elder; if you want to go very much。
  Shall I ask him?〃
  Billy was disappointed at this cordial seconding of his mood。 He did
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  not make a direct rejoinder。 〃I guess I'll go outside now;〃 said he; with a
  threat in his tone。
  She continued mending his stockings。 Finished ones lay rolled at one
  side of her chair; and upon the other were more waiting her attention。
  〃And   I'm   going   to   turn   back   hand…springs   on   top   of   all   the   freight…
  cars;〃 he stated; more loudly。
  She indulged again in merriment; laughing sweetly at him; and without
  restraint。
  〃And I'm sick of what you all keep a…saying to me!〃 he shouted。 〃Just
  as if I was a baby。〃
  〃Why; Billy; who ever said you were a baby?〃
  〃All of you do。 Honey; and Lin; and you; now; and everybody。 What
  makes you say 'that's nine times; Billy; oh; Billy; that's ten times;' if you
  don't mean I'm a baby? And you laugh me off; just like they do; and just
  like I was a regular baby。 You won't tell me〃
  〃Billy; listen。 Did nobody ever ask you something you did not want to
  tell them?〃
  〃That's    not   a  bit  the  same;    becausebecausebecause          I  treat  'em
  square and because it's not their business。 But every time I ask anybody
  'most anything; they say I'm not old enough to understand; and I'll be ten
  soon。   And   it   is   my   business   when   it's   about   the   kind   of   a   mother   I'm
  agoing   to   have。   Suppose   I   quit   acting   square;   an'   told   'em;   when   they
  bothered me; they weren't young enough to understand! Wish I had。 Guess
  I   will;   too;   and   watch   'em   step   around。〃   For   a   moment   his   mind   dwelt
  upon this; and he whistled a revengeful strain。
  〃Goodness;   Billy!〃   said   Jessamine;   at   the  sight   of   the  next   stocking。
  〃The whole heel is scorched off。〃
  He eyed the ruin with indifference。 〃Ah; that was last month when I
  and Lin shot the bear in the swamp willows。 He made me dry off my legs。
  Chuck it away。〃
  〃And spoil the pair? No; indeed!〃
  〃Mother always chucked 'em; an' father'd buy new ones till I skipped
  from home。 Lin kind o' mends 'em。〃
  〃Does he?〃 said Jessamine; softly。 And she looked at the photograph。
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  〃Yes。   What   made   you   write   him   for   to   let   me   come   and   bring   my
  stockin's and things?〃
  〃Don't you see; Billy; there is so little work at this station that I'd be
  looking out of the window all day just the pitiful way you do?〃
  〃Oh!〃   Billy   pondered。   〃And   so   I   said   to   Lin;〃   he   continued;   〃why
  didn't   he   send   down   his   own   clothes;   too;   an'   let   you   fix   'em   all。   And
  Honey Wiggin laughed right in his coffee…cup so it all sploshed out。 And
  the cook he asked me if mother used to mend Lin's clothes。 But I guess
  she chucked 'em like she always did father's and mine。 I was with father;
  you know; when mother was married to Lin that time。〃 He paused again;
  while   his   thoughts   and   fears   struggled。   〃But   Lin   says   I   needn't   ever   go
  back;〃 he went on; reasoning and confiding to her。 〃Lin don't like mother
  any   more;   I   guess。〃   His   pondering   grew   still   deeper;   and   he   looked   at
  Jessamine   for   some   while。   Then   his   face   wakened   with   a   new   theory。
  〃Don't Lin like you any more?〃 he inquired。
  〃Oh;〃 cried Jessamine; crimsoning; 〃yes! Why; he sent you to me!〃
  〃Well; he got hot in camp when I said that about sending his clothes to