第 3 节
作者:击水三千      更新:2021-02-19 01:13      字数:9322
  choose;〃 said Mark Ambient。  〃My dear little boy; will you go with me
  or will you stay with your mother?〃
  〃Oh it's a shame!〃 cried the vicar's lady with increased hilarity。
  〃Papa; I don't think I can choose;〃 the child answered; making his
  voice very low and confidential。  〃But I've been a great deal with
  mamma to…day;〃 he then added。
  〃And very little with papa!  My dear fellow; I think you HAVE
  chosen!〃  On which Mark Ambient walked off with his son; accompanied
  by re…echoing but inarticulate comments from my fellow…visitor。
  His wife had seated herself again; and her fixed eyes; bent on the
  ground; expressed for a few moments so much mute agitation that
  anything I could think of to say would be but a false note。  Yet she
  none the less quickly recovered herself; to express the sufficiently
  civil hope that I didn't mind having had to walk from the station。  I
  reassured her on this point; and she went on:  〃We've got a thing
  that might have gone for you; but my husband wouldn't order it。〃
  After which and another longish pause; broken only by my plea that
  the pleasure of a walk with our friend would have been quite what I
  would have chosen; she found for reply:  〃I believe the Americans
  walk very little。〃
  〃Yes; we always run;〃 I laughingly allowed。
  She looked at me seriously; yet with an absence in her pretty eyes。
  〃I suppose your distances are so great。〃
  〃Yes; but we break our marches!  I can't tell you the pleasure to me
  of finding myself here;〃 I added。  〃I've the greatest admiration for
  Mr。 Ambient。〃
  〃He'll like that。  He likes being admired。〃
  〃He must have a very happy life; then。  He has many worshippers。〃
  〃Oh yes; I've seen some of them;〃 she dropped; looking away; very far
  from me; rather as if such a vision were before her at the moment。
  It seemed to indicate; her tone; that the sight was scarcely
  edifying; and I guessed her quickly enough to be in no great
  intellectual sympathy with the author of 〃Beltraffio。〃  I thought the
  fact strange; but somehow; in the glow of my own enthusiasm; didn't
  think it important it only made me wish rather to emphasise that
  homage。
  〃For me; you know;〃 I returneddoubtless with a due suffisance
  〃he's quite the greatest of living writers。〃
  〃Of course I can't judge。  Of course he's very clever;〃 she said with
  a patient cheer。
  〃He's nothing less than supreme; Mrs。 Ambient!  There are pages in
  each of his books of a perfection classing them with the greatest
  things。  Accordingly for me to see him in this familiar way; in his
  habit as he lives; and apparently to find the man as delightful as
  the artistwell; I can't tell you how much too good to be true it
  seems and how great a privilege I think it。〃  I knew I was gushing;
  but I couldn't help it; and what I said was a good deal less than
  what I felt。  I was by no means sure I should dare to say even so
  much as this to the master himself; and there was a kind of rapture
  in speaking it out to his wife which was not affected by the fact
  that; as a wife; she appeared peculiar。  She listened to me with her
  face grave again and her lips a little compressed; listened as if in
  no doubt; of course; that her husband was remarkable; but as if at
  the same time she had heard it frequently enough and couldn't treat
  it as stirring news。  There was even in her manner a suggestion that
  I was so young as to expose myself to being called forwardan
  imputation and a word I had always loathed; as well as a hinted
  reminder that people usually got over their early extravagance。  〃I
  assure you that for me this is a red…letter day;〃 I added。
  She didn't take this up; but after a pause; looking round her; said
  abruptly and a trifle dryly:  〃We're very much afraid about the fruit
  this year。〃
  My eyes wandered to the mossy mottled garden…walls; where plum…trees
  and pears; flattened and fastened upon the rusty bricks; looked like
  crucified figures with many arms。  〃Doesn't it promise well?〃
  〃No; the trees look very dull。  We had such late frosts。〃
  Then there was another pause。  She addressed her attention to the
  opposite end of the grounds; kept it for her husband's return with
  the child。  〃Is Mr。 Ambient fond of gardening?〃 it occurred to me to
  ask; irresistibly impelled as I felt myself; moreover; to bring the
  conversation constantly back to him。
  〃He's very fond of plums;〃 said his wife。
  〃Ah well; then; I hope your crop will be better than you fear。  It's
  a lovely old place;〃 I continued。  〃The whole impression's that of
  certain places he has described。  Your house is like one of his
  pictures。〃
  She seemed a bit frigidly amused at my glow。  〃It's a pleasant little
  place。  There are hundreds like it。〃
  〃Oh it has his TONE;〃 I laughed; but sounding my epithet and
  insisting on my point the more sharply that my companion appeared to
  see in my appreciation of her simple establishment a mark of mean
  experience。
  It was clear I insisted too much。  〃His tone?〃 she repeated with a
  harder look at me and a slightly heightened colour。
  〃Surely he has a tone; Mrs。 Ambient。〃
  〃Oh yes; he has indeed!  But I don't in the least consider that I'm
  living in one of his books at all。  I shouldn't care for that in the
  least;〃 she went on with a smile that had in some degree the effect
  of converting her really sharp protest into an insincere joke。  〃I'm
  afraid I'm not very literary。  And I'm not artistic;〃 she stated。
  〃I'm very sure you're not ignorant; not stupid;〃 I ventured to reply;
  with the accompaniment of feeling immediately afterwards that I had
  been both familiar and patronising。  My only consolation was in the
  sense that she had begun it; had fairly dragged me into it。  She had
  thrust forward her limitations。
  〃Well; whatever I am I'm very different from my husband。  If you like
  him you won't like me。  You needn't say anything。  Your liking me
  isn't in the least necessary!〃
  〃Don't defy me!〃 I could but honourably make answer。
  She looked as if she hadn't heard me; which was the best thing she
  could do; and we sat some time without further speech。  Mrs。 Ambient
  had evidently the enviable English quality of being able to be mute
  without unrest。  But at last she spokeshe asked me if there seemed
  many people in town。  I gave her what satisfaction I could on this
  point; and we talked a little of London and of some of its
  characteristics at that time of the year。  At the end of this I came
  back irrepressibly to Mark。
  〃Doesn't he like to be there now?  I suppose he doesn't find the
  proper quiet for his work。  I should think his things had been
  written for the most part in a very still place。  They suggest a
  great stillness following on a kind of tumult。  Don't you think so?〃
  I laboured on。  〃I suppose London's a tremendous place to collect
  impressions; but a refuge like this; in the country; must be better
  for working them up。  Does he get many of his impressions in London;
  should you say?〃  I proceeded from point to point in this malign
  inquiry simply because my hostess; who probably thought me an odious
  chattering person; gave me time; for when I pausedI've not
  represented my pausesshe simply continued to let her eyes wander
  while her long fair fingers played with the medallion on her neck。
  When I stopped altogether; however; she was obliged to say something;
  and what she said was that she hadn't the least idea where her
  husband got his impressions。  This made me think her; for a moment;
  positively disagreeable; delicate and proper and rather
  aristocratically fine as she sat there。  But I must either have lost
  that view a moment later or been goaded by it to further aggression;
  for I remember asking her if our great man were in a good vein of
  work and when we might look for the appearance of the book on which
  he was engaged。  I've every reason now to know that she found me
  insufferable。
  She gave a strange small laugh as she said:  〃I'm afraid you think I
  know much more about my husband's work than I do。  I haven't the
  least idea what he's doing;〃 she then added in a slightly different;
  that is a more explanatory; tone and as if from a glimpse of the
  enormity of her confession。  〃I don't read what he writes。〃
  She didn't succeed; and wouldn't even had she tried much harder; in
  making this seem to me anything less than monstrous。  I stared at her
  and I think I blushed。  〃Don't you admire his genius?  Don't you
  admire 'Beltraffio'?〃
  She waited; and I wondered what she could possibly say。  She didn't
  speak; I could see; the first words that rose to her lips; she
  repeated what she had said a few minutes before。  〃Oh of course he's
  very clever!〃  And with this she got up; our two absentees had
  reappeared。
  CHAPTER II
  Mrs。 Ambient left me and went to meet them; she stopped and had a few
  words with her husband that I didn't hear and that ended in her
  taking the child by the hand and returning with him to the house。
  Her husband joined me in a moment; looking; I thought; the least bit
  conscious and constrained; and said that if I would come in with him
  he would show me my room。  In looking back upon these first moments
  of my visit I find it important to avoid the error of appearing to
  have at all full