第 27 节
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点绛唇 更新:2021-02-19 01:05 字数:9322
uite clearly he saw how absurd was the idea of making this girl his wifehe tall and she not much above the bend of his elbow; he conventional; and she the incarnation of passionate revolt against the restraints of class and form and custom which he not only conformed to but religiously believed in。 And she set stirring in him all kinds of vague; wild longings to run amuck socially and politicallylongings that; if indulged; would ruin him for any career worthy of the name。
He stood up。 ‘‘I must goI really must;'' he said; confusedly。
She laid her small; strong hand on his arma natural; friendly gesture with her; and giving no suggestion of familiarity。 Even as she was saying; ‘‘Pleaseonly a moment;'' he dropped back to the seat。
‘‘Wellwhat is it?'' he said abruptly; his gaze resolutely away from her face。
‘‘Victor was telling me this morning about his talk with you;'' she said in her rapid; energetic way。 ‘‘He was depressed because he had failed。 But I felt sure I feel surethat he hasn't。 In our talk the other day; Mr。 Hull; I got a clear idea of your character。 A woman understands better。 And I know that; after Victor told you the plain truth about the situation; you couldn't go on。''
David looked round rather wildly; swallowed hard several times; said hoarsely: ‘‘I won't; if you'll marry me。''
But for a slight change of expression or of color Davy would have thought she had not heardor perhaps that he had imagined he was uttering the words that forced themselves to his lips in spite of his efforts to suppress them。 For she went on in the same impetuous; friendly way:
‘‘It seemed to me that you have an instinct for the right that's unusual in men of your class。 At least; I think it's unusual。 I confess I've not known any man of your class except youand I know you very slightly。 It was I that persuaded Victor to go to you。 He believes that a man's class feeling controls him makes his moral sensecompels his actions。 But I thought you were an exceptionand he yielded after I urged him a while。''
‘‘I don't know WHAT I am;'' said Hull gloomily。 ‘‘I think I want to do right。 Butwhat is right? Not theoretical right; but the practical; workable thing?''
‘‘That's true;'' conceded Selma。 ‘‘We can't always be certain what's right。 But can't we always know what's wrong? And; Mr。 Hull; it is wrongaltogether wrongand YOU know it's wrongto lend your name and your influence and your reputation to that crowd。 They'd let you do a little goodwhy? To make their professions of reform seem plausible。 To fool the people into trusting them again。 And under cover of the little good you were showily doing; how much mischief they'd do! If you'll go back over the history of this townof any townof any countryyou'll find that most of the wicked thingsthe things that pile the burdens on the shoulders of the poorthe masses most of the wicked things have been done under cover of just such men as you; used as figureheads。''
‘‘But I want to build up a new partya party of honest men; honestly led;'' said Davy。
‘‘Led by your sort of young men? I mean young men of your class。
Led by young lawyers and merchants and young fellows living on inherited incomes? Don't you see that's impossible;'' cried Selma。 ‘‘They are all living off the labor of others。 Their whole idea of life is exploiting the massesis reaping where they have not sown or reaping not only what they've sown but also what others have sownfor they couldn't buy luxury and all the so…called refinements of life for themselves and their idle families merely with what they themselves could earn。 How can you build up a really HONEST party with such men? They may mean well。 They no doubt are honest; up to a certain point。 But they will side with their class; in every crisis。 And their class is the exploiting class。''
‘‘I don't agree with you;'' said Davy。 ‘‘You are not fair to us。''
‘‘How!'' demanded Selma。
‘‘I couldn't argue with you;'' replied Hull。 ‘‘All I'll say is that you've seen only the one sideonly the side of the working class。''
‘‘That toils without ceasingits men; its women; its children'' said the girl with heaving bosom and flashing eyes‘‘only to have most of what it earns filched away from it by your class to waste in foolish luxury!''
‘‘And whose fault is that?'' pleaded Hull。
‘‘The fault of my class;'' replied she。 ‘‘Their ignorance; their stupidityyes; and their foolish cunning that overreaches itself。 For they tolerate the abuses of the present system because each manat least; each man of the ones who think themselves ‘smart'imagines that the day is coming when he can escape from the working class and gain the ranks of the despoilers。''
‘‘And you ask ME to come into the party of those people!'' scoffed Davy。
‘‘Yes; Mr。 Hull;'' said sheand until then he had not appreciated how lovely her voice was。 ‘‘Yesthat is the party for youfor all honest; sincere men who want to have their own respect through and through。 To teach those peopleto lead them rightto be truthful and just with themthat is the life worth while。''
‘‘But they won't learn。 They won't be led right。 They are as ungrateful as they are foolish。 If they weren't; men like me trying to make a decent career wouldn't have to compromise with the Kellys and the Houses and their masters。 What are Kelly and House but leaders of your class? And they lead ten to Victor Dorn's one。 Why; any day Dorn's followers may turn on himand you know it。''
‘‘And what of that?'' cried Selma。 ‘‘He's not working to be their leader; but to do what he thinks is right; regardless of consequences。 Why is he a happy man; as happiness goes? Why has he gone on his way steadily all these years; never minding setbacks and failures and defeats and dangers? I needn't tell you why。''
‘‘No;'' said Hull; powerfully moved by her earnestness。 ‘‘I understand。''
‘‘The finest sentence that ever fell from human lips;'' Selma went on; ‘‘was ‘Father; forgive them; they know not what they do。' Forgive themforgive us all for when we go astray it is because we are in the dark。 And I want you to come with us; Mr。 Hull; and help to make it a little less dark。 At least; you will then be looking toward the lightand every one turned in that direction counts。''
After a long pause; Hull said:
‘‘Miss Gordon; may I ask you a very personal question?''
‘‘Yes;'' said she。
‘‘Are you in love with Victor Dorn?''
Selma laughed merrily。 ‘‘Jane Hastings had that same curiosity;'' said she。 ‘‘I'll answer you as I answered herthough she didn't ask me quite so directly。 No; I am not in love with him。 We are too busy to bother about those things。 We have too much to do to think about ourselves。''
‘‘Thenthere is no reason why I should not ask you to be my wifewhy I should not hopeand try?''
She looked at him with a peculiar smile。 ‘‘Yes; there is a very good reason。 I do not love you; and I shall not love you。 I shall not have time for that sort of thing。''
‘‘Don't you believe in love?''
‘‘I don't believe in much else;'' said she。 ‘‘Butnot the kind of love you offer me。''
‘‘How do you know?'' cried he。 ‘‘I have not told you yet how I feel toward you。 I have not''
‘‘Oh; yes; you have;'' interrupted she。 ‘‘This is the secondno; the third time you have seen me。 So; the love you offer me can only be of a kind it is not in the least flattering to a woman to inspire。 You needn't apologize;'' she went on; laughingly。 ‘‘I've no doubt you mean well。 You simply don't understand memy sort of woman。''
‘‘It's you that don't understand; Selma;'' cried he。 ‘‘You don't realize how wonderful you arehow much you reveal of yourself at once。 I was all but engaged to another woman when I saw you。 I've been fighting against my love for youfighting against the truth that suddenly came to me that you were the only woman I had ever seen who appealed to and aroused and made strong all that is brave and honest in me。 Selma; I need you。 I am not infatuated。
I am clearer… headed than I ever was in my life。 I need you。 You can make a man of me。''
She was regarding him with a friendly and even tender sympathy。 ‘‘I understand now;'' she said。 ‘‘I thought it was simply the ordinary outburst of passion。 But I see that it was the result of your struggle with yourself about which road to take in making a career。''
If she had not been absorbed in developing her theory she might have seen that Davy was not altogether satisfied with this analysis of his feelings。 But he deemed it wise to hold his peace。
‘‘You do need some onesome woman;'' she went on。 ‘‘And I am anxious to help you all I can。 I couldn't help you by marrying you。 To me marriage means'' She checked herself abruptly。 ‘‘No matter。 I can help you; I think; as a friend。 But if you wish to marry; you should take some one in your own class some one who's in sympathy with you。 Then you and she could work it out togethercould help each other。 You see; I don't need youand there's nothing in one… sided marriages。 。 。 。 No; you couldn't give me anything I need; so far as I can see。''
‘‘I believe that's true;'' said Davy miserably。
She reflected; then continued: ‘‘But there's Jane Hastings。