第 31 节
作者:想聊      更新:2021-02-19 00:37      字数:9322
  within;    though    so   stormy    without。     I   may    pray   till  dawn    with   no
  knowledge how my prayer prospers; or I may be called to face a being that
  no human eye has ever seen and lived。            These things are hidden from us。〃
  〃You   are   wonderful;   and   it   is   heartening   to   meet   with   such   mighty
  faith;〃 replied Sir Walter。       〃You have no fear; no shadow of hesitation or
  doubt at the bottom of your mind?〃
  〃None。     Only an overmastering desire to obey the message that throbs
  in my heart。      I will be honest with you; for I recognize that many might
  doubt whether you were in the right to let me face this ordeal。                But I am
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  driven   by  an   overwhelming   mandate。         Did   I   fear;   or   feel   one tremor   of
  uncertainty; I would not proceed; for any wavering might be fatal and give
  me helpless into the power of this watchful spirit; but I am as certain of
  my duty as I am that salvation awaits the just man。
  〃I believe that I shall liberate this arrested being with cathartic prayer
  and cleansing petition to our common Maker。                And have I not the spirit of
  my     dead    boy   on   my    side?    Could      any   living   man;    however      well
  intentioned; watch with me and over me as he will?                  Fear nothing; go to
  your rest; and let all who would assist me do so on their; knees before they
  sleep。〃
  Even Masters echoed some of this fierce and absolute faith when he
  returned to the servants' hall。
  〃His eyes blaze;〃 he said。         〃He's about the most steadfast man ever I
  saw inside a pulpit; or out of it。        You feel if that man went to the window
  and told the rain to stop and the wind to go down; they would。                   No ghost
  that ever walked could best him anyway。               They asked me to talk and say
  what I felt; and I did; but words are powerless against such an iron will as
  he's got。
  〃I doubted first; and Sir Walter said he doubted likewise; but he's dead
  sure now; and what's good enough for him is good enough for us。 I'll bet
  Caunter; or any man; an even flyer that he's going to put the creature down
  and out and   come off without   a scratch himself。  I offered to sit up   with
  him; so did Sir Walter; but he wouldn't hear of it。             So all we've got to do
  is to turn in and say our prayers。           That's simple enough for God…fearing
  people; and we can't do no better than to obey orders。〃
  It  was    none   the   less  a  nervous    and   highly    strung   household     that
  presently   went   to   bed;   and   no   woman   slept   without   another   woman   to
  keep her company。         Sir Walter found himself worn out in mind and body。
  Mary made him take his bromide; and he slept without a dream; despite
  the   din   of   the   great   〃sou'…wester〃   and   the   distant;   solemn   crash   of   more
  than one great tree thrown upon the lap of mother earth at last。
  Before   he   retired;   however;   something   in   the   nature   of   a   procession
  had escorted the priest to his ordeal。           Mr。 May donned baretta; surplice;
  and stole; for; as he explained; he was to hold a religious service as sacred
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  and significant as any other rite。
  〃Lord send him no congregation then;〃 thought Masters。
  But; with Sir Walter and Mary; he followed the ministrant; and left him
  at the open door of the Grey Room。                The electric light shone steadily; but
  the   storm  seemed   to   beat   its   fists   at   the   windows;   and   the   leaded   panes
  shook      and   chattered。     With     no   bell   and   candle;    but   his  Bible    alone;
  Septimus May entered the room; having first made the sign of the Cross
  before him; then he turned and bade good…night to all。
  〃Be of good faith!〃 were the last words he spoke to them。
  Having done so he shut the door; and they heard his voice immediately
  uplifted in prayer。        They waited a little; and the sound roiled steadily on。
  Sir    Walter    then    bade   Masters      extinguish     all  the   lights   and   send    the
  household to bed; though the time was not more than ten o'clock。
  As for Masters; the glamour and appeal of those strenuous words at the
  dinner…table   had   now   passed;   and   presently;   as   he   prepared   to   retire;   he
  found   himself   far   less   confident   and   assured   than   his   recent   words   had
  implied。      He sank slowly from hope to fear; even pictured the worse; and
  asked   himself   what   would   follow   if   the   worst   happened。           He   believed
  that   it   might   mean   serious   disaster   for   Sir   Walter。    If   another   life   were
  sacrified     to  this   unknown      peril;   and   it  transpired    that   his  master    had
  sanctioned what   would amount   to suicide in the  eyes of   reason; then   he
  began to fear that grave trouble must result。                Already the burning words
  of Septimus May began to cool and sound unreal; and Masters suspected
  that;   if   they   were   repeated   in   other   ears;   which   had   not   heard   him   utter
  them; or seen the fervor of religious earnestness and reverence in which
  the  had   been   spoken;   this   feverish   business   of   exorcising   a   ghost   in   the
  twentieth century might only awake derision and receive neither credence
  nor   respect。     His   entire   concern   was   for   Sir   Walter;   not   Mr。   May。     He
  could not sleep; lighted a pipe; considered whether it was in his power to
  do   anything;   felt   a   sudden   impulse   to   take   certain   steps;   yet   hesitated   …
  from   no   fear   to   himself;   but   doubt   whether   action   might   not   endanger
  another。      Mary  did   not   sleep   either;   and   she   suffered   more;   for   she   had
  never   approved;   and   now   she   blamed   herself   not   a   little   for   her   weak
  opposition。       A thousand arguments occurred to her while she lay awake。
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  Then;     for   a  time;   she   forgot   present    tribulations;    and   her   own    grief
  overwhelmed   her;   as   it   was   wont   to   do   by  night。   For   while   the   events
  that had so swiftly followed each other since her husband's death banished
  him now and again; save from her subconscious mind; when alone he was
  swift   to   return   and   her   sorrow   made   many   a   night   sleepless。    She   was
  herself ill; but did not know it。         The reaction had yet to come; and could
  not be long delayed; for her nervous energy was worn out now。                     She wept
  and lived days with the dead; then the present returned to her mind; and
  she    fretted   and    prayed    …  for  Septimus      May     and   for  daylight。     She
  wondered       why    stormy     nights   were    always     the  longest。    She    heard   a
  thousand unfamiliar sounds; and presently leaped from her bed; put on a
  dressing…gown;   and   crept   out   into   the   house。  To   know   that   all   was   well
  with the watcher would hearten her。 But then her feet dragged before she
  had left the threshold of her own room; and she stood still and shuddered a
  little。   For    how    if  all  were    not  well?     How     if  his  voice    no   longer
  sounded?
  She    hesitated    to  make     the  experiment;      and   balanced     the  relief  of
  reassurance against the horror of silence。            She remembered a storm at sea;
  when through a long night; not lacking danger to a laboring steamer with
  weak engines; she had lain awake and felt her heart warm again when the
  watch shouted the hour。
  She set out; then; determined to know if all prospered with her father…
  in…law。     Nor   would   she   give   ear   to   misgiving   or   ask   herself   what   she
  would do if no voice were steadily uplifted in the Grey Room。
  The great wind seemed to play upon Chadlands like a harp。                     It roared
  and reverberated; now stilled a moment for another leap; now died away
  against   the   house;   yet   still   sounded   with   a   steady   shout   in   the   neighbor
  trees。    At   the   casements it tugged   and   rattled;   against them  it   flung   the
  rain fiercely。     Every bay and passage of the interior uttered its own voice;
  and    overhead     was    creaking    of  old   timbers;    rattling  of  old   slates;  and
  rustling of mortar fragments dislodged by sudde