第 16 节
作者:想聊      更新:2021-02-19 00:37      字数:9322
  〃Yes; uncle。〃
  〃I want him to be buried with us here。         I should not suppose his father
  will object。〃
  〃Not likely。    Mary would wish it so。〃
  〃It was so typical of Mary to think of Septimus May before everybody。
  She put her own feelings from her that she might soften the blow for him。〃
  〃She would。〃
  〃Are you equal to telling the clergyman at the station that his son is
  dead; or can't you trust yourself to do it?〃
  〃I expect he'll know it well enough; but I'll tell him everything there is
  to tell。   I remember long ago; after the wedding; that he was interested in
  haunted rooms; and said he believed in such things on Scriptural grounds。〃
  Sir Walter took pause at this statement。
  〃That is news to me。        Supposing he … However; we need not trouble
  ourselves with him yet。        He will; of course; be as deeply concerned to get
  to the bottom of this as I am; though we must not interfere; or make the
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  inquiry harder for Hardcastle than he is bound to find it。〃
  〃Certainly     nobody     must   interfere。   I   only   hope   we    can  get   Peter
  Hardcastle。〃
  〃Tell them to call me when Mr。 May arrives; and not sooner。                   I'll see
  Mary; then lie down for an hour or two。〃
  〃You feel all right?      Should you care to see Mannering?〃
  〃I am right enough。        Say 'Good…bye' to Vane and Miles Handford for
  me。    They may have to return here presently。             One can't tell who may be
  wanted; and who may not be。            I don't know … these things are outside my
  experience; but they had better both leave you their directions。〃
  〃I'll ask them。〃
  Sir Walter visited his daughter; and changed his mind about sleeping。
  She was passing through an hour of unspeakable horror。 The dark temple
  of   realization had   opened   for   her   and she   was   treading   its dreary  aisles。
  Henceforth for long days … she told herself for ever … sorrow and sense of
  unutterable loss must be her companions and share her waking hours。
  They stopped together alone till the dusk came down and Mannering
  returned。     He stayed but a few minutes; and presently they heard his car
  start again; while that containing the departing guests and Henry Lennox
  immediately followed it。
  In   due   course   Septimus   May  returned   to   Chadlands   with   him。      The
  clergyman   had   heard   of   his   son's   end;   and   went   immediately   to   see   the
  dead man。       There Mary joined him; and witnessed his self…control under
  very    shattering    grief。   He     was    thin;  clean…shaven…a      grey   man    with
  smouldering eyes and an expression of endurance。                 A fanatic in faith; by
  virtue   of   certain   asperities   of   mind   and   a   critical   temperament;   he   had
  never made friends; won his parish into close ties; nor advanced the cause
  of his religion as he had yearned to do。            With the zeal of a reformer; he
  had entered the ministry in youth; but while commanding respect for his
  own rule of conduct and the example he set his little flock; their affection
  he   never   won。   The   people   feared   him;   and   dreaded   his   stern   criticism。
  Once certain spirits; smarting under pulpit censure; had sought to be rid of
  him;    but   no  grounds     existed   on  which    they   could    eject  the  reverend
  gentleman or challenge his status。           He remained; therefore; as many like
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  him remain; embedded in his parish and unknown beyond it。                      He was a
  poor   student   of   human   nature   and   life   had   dimmed   his   old   ambitions;
  soured his hopes; but it had not clouded his faith。 With a passionate fervor
  he believed all that he tried to teach; and held that an almighty; all loving
  and   all   merciful   God   controlled   every  destiny;   ordered   existence   for   the
  greatest and least; and allowed nothing to happen upon earth that was not
  the best that could happen for the immortal beings He had created in His
  own image。       Upon this assurance fell the greatest; almost the only; blow
  that   life  could   deal   Septimus   May。   He  was   stricken suddenly;   fearfully
  with his unutterable loss; but his agony turned into prayer while he knelt
  beside his son。      He prayed with a fiery intensity and a resonant vibration
  of voice that scorched rather than comforted the woman who knelt beside
  him。     The fervor of the man's   emotion and the depth of his   conviction;
  running like a torrent through the narrow channels of his understanding;
  were     destined   presently    to  complicate     a   situation   sufficiently   painful
  without intervention; for a time swiftly came when Septimus May forced
  his   beliefs   upon   Chadlands   and   opposed   them   to   the   opinions   of   other
  people as deeply concerned as himself to explain the death of his son。
  Mr。 May; learning that most of the house party could not depart until
  the following morning; absented himself from dinner; indeed; he spent his
  time almost entirely with his boy; and when night came kept vigil beside
  him。    Something of the strange possession of his mind already appeared;
  in curious hints that puzzled Sir Walter; but it was not until after the post…
  mortem      examination      and    inquest    that  his   extraordinary     views    were
  elaborated。
  Millicent Fayre…Michell and her uncle were the first to depart on the
  following day。       The girl harbored a grievance。
  〃Surely Mary might have seen me a moment to say 'Good…bye;'〃 she
  said。    〃It's   a  very   dreadful   thing;   hut  we've   been   so   sympathetic     and
  understanding       about   it  that  I  think  they   ought   to  feel  rather   grateful。
  They might realize how trying it is for us; too。            And to let me go without
  even seeing her … she saw Mrs。 Travers over and over again。〃
  〃Do     not   mind。      Grief     makes     people    selfish;〃   declared     Felix。
  〃Probably we should not have acted so。               I think we should have hidden
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  our sufferings and faced our duty; but perhaps we are exceptional。                   I dare
  say Mrs。 May will write and express regret and gratitude later。                  We must
  allow for her youth and sorrow。〃
  Mr。    Fayre…Michell       rather   prided    himself    on   the   charity    of  this
  conclusion。
  When Mr。 and Mrs。 Travers departed; Sir Walter bade them farewell。
  The   lady   wept;   and   her   tears   fell   on   his   hand   as   he   held   it。 She   was
  hysterical。
  〃For Heaven's sake don't let Mary be haunted by that dreadful priest;〃
  she said。     〃There is something terrible about him。             He has no bowels of
  compassion。       I tried to console him for the loss of his son; and he turned
  upon me as if I were weak…minded。〃
  〃I had to tell him he was being rude and forgetting that he spoke to a
  lady;〃   said   Ernest   Travers。    〃One   makes   every   allowance   for   a   father's
  sufferings; but they should not take the form of abrupt and harsh speech to
  a sympathetic fellow…creature … nay; to anyone; let alone a woman。                      His
  sacred calling ought to …〃
  〃A  man's   profession   cannot   alter   his   manners;   my   dear   Ernest;   they
  come from defects of temperament; no doubt。                 May must not be judged。
  His faith would move mountains。〃
  〃So   would   mine;〃   said   Ernest   Travers;   〃and   so   would   yours;  Walter。
  But it is perfectly possible to be a Christian and a gentleman。                  To imply
  that our faith was weak because we expressed ordinary human emotions
  and pitied him unfeignedly for the loss of his only child …〃
  〃Good…bye;       good…bye;     my    dear   friends;〃   answered      the  other。    〃I
  cannot   say   how   I   esteem   your   kindly   offices   in   this   affliction。   May   we
  meet again presently。        God bless and keep you both。〃
  The     post…mortem      examination       revealed    no   physical    reason     why
  Thomas May should have ceased to breathe。                  Neither did the subsequent
  investigations   of   a   Government   analytical   chemist   throw   any   light   upon
  the sailor's sudden death。        No cause existed; and therefore none could be
  reported at the inquest held a day later。
  The coroner's jury brought in a verdict rarely heard; but none dis