第 13 节
作者:想聊      更新:2021-02-19 00:37      字数:9322
  she asked   her to   dispatch the   telegram  as   quickly  as   possible。            Her   old
  nurse;   an   elderly   spinster;   to   whom   Mary   was   the   first   consideration   in
  existence; had brought her a cup of soup and some toast。                      It had seemed
  to Jane the right thing to do。
  Mary   thanked   her   and   drank   a   little。    She   passed   through   a   mental
  phase as of dreaming … a sensation familiar in sleep; but she knew that this
  was not a sleeping but a waking experience。                   She waited for her father;
  yet dreaded to hear him return。             She thought of human footsteps and the
  difference   between   them。         She   remembered   that   she   would   never   hear
  Tom's long stride again。
  It often broke into a run; she remembered; as he approached her; and
  she would often run toward him; too … to banish the space that separated
  them。     She blamed herself bitterly that she had decreed to sleep in her old
  nursery。     She had loved it so; and the small bed that had held her from
  childhood; yet; if she had slept with him; this might not have happened。
  〃To   think   that   only   a   wall   separated   us!〃   she   kept   saying   to   herself。
  〃And   I   sleeping   and   dreaming   of   him;   and   he   dying   only   a   few   yards
  away。〃
  Death     was    no   disaster    for   Tom;    so   the   doctor    had   said。    What
  worthless wisdom!          And perhaps not even wisdom。                Who knows what a
  disaster death may be?            And who would ever know what he had felt at
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  the   end;   or   what   his   mind   had   suffered   if   time   had   been   given   him   to
  understand that he was going to die?             She worked herself into agony; lost
  self…control at last and wept; with Jane Bond's arms round her。
  〃And I was so troubled; because I thought he had been called back to
  his ship!〃 she said。
  〃He's called to a better place than a ship; dear love;〃 sobbed Jane。
  After they left her; Sir Walter and Dr。 Mannering had entered the Grey
  Room for a moment and; standing there; spoke together。
  〃I have a strange consciousness that I am living over the past again;〃
  declared   the   physician。      〃Things   were   just   so   when   that   poor   woman;
  Nurse Forrester … you remember。〃
  〃Yes。     I felt the same when Caunter was breaking open the door。                     I
  faced the worst from the beginning; for the moment I heard what he had
  done;     I  somehow      knew     that  my    unfortunate     son…in…law     was   dead。    I
  directly   negatived   his   suggestion   last   night;   and   never   dreamed   that   he
  would have gone on with it when he knew my wish。〃
  〃Doubtless   he   did   not   realize   how   much   in   earnest   you   were   on   the
  subject。     This may well prove as impossible to understand as the nurse's
  death。     I   do   not   say   it   will;   but   I   suspect   it   will。 A  perfectly   healthy
  creature   cut   off   in   a   moment   and   nothing   to   show   us   why   …   absolutely
  nothing。〃
  〃A death without a cause … a negation of science surely?〃
  〃There is a cause; but I do not think this dreadful tragedy will reveal
  it;〃 answered the doctor。         〃I pray it may; however; for all our sakes;〃 he
  continued。      〃It is impossible to say how deeply I feel this for her; but also
  for you; and myself; too。         He was one of the best; a good sportsman and a
  good man。〃
  〃And   a   great   loss   to   the   Service;〃   added   Sir   Walter。   〃I   have   not
  considered all this means yet。          My thoughts are centred on Mary。〃
  〃You must   let   me spare   you   all   I can;   my  friend。      There   will be   an
  inquest;     of  course;    and    an  inquiry。     Also     a  post…mortem。       Shall     I
  communicate with Dr。 Mordred to…day; or would you prefer that somebody
  else …〃
  〃Somebody        else。    The    most    famous     man     you   know。     From      no
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  disrespect to   Dr。 Mordred;  or to   you; Mannering。             You understand that。
  But   I   should   like   an   independent   examination   by   some   great   authority;
  some   one   who   knew   nothing   of   the   former   case。     This   is   an   appalling
  thing to happen。       I don't know where to begin thinking。〃
  〃Do not put too great a strain upon yourself。              Leave it to those who
  will   come   to   the   matter   with   all   their   wits   and   without   your   personal
  sorrow。     An independent inquirer is certainly best; one who; as you say;
  knows nothing about the former case。''
  〃I don't know where to begin thinking;〃 repeated the other。                  〃Such a
  thing   upsets    one's   preconceived      opinions。    I   had   always    regarded    my
  aversion   to   this   room   as   a   human   weakness   …   a   thing   to   be   conquered。
  Look round you。         Would it be possible to imagine an apartment with less
  of evil suggestion?〃
  The   other   made   a   perfunctory   examination;   went   into   every   corner;
  tapped     the  walls   and   stared   at  the  ceiling。    The    clean   morning     light
  showed   its   intricate   pattern   of   interwoven   circles   converging   from   the
  walls to the centre; and so creating a sense of a lofty dome instead of a flat
  surface。     In the centre was a boss of a conventional lily flower opening its
  petals。
  〃The room should not be touched till after the inquest; I think。 Indeed;
  if I may advise; you will do well to leave it just as it is for the police to
  see。〃
  〃They will want to see it; I imagine?〃
  〃Unless you commumcate direct with Scotland Yard; ask for a special
  inquiry; and beg that the local men are not employed。                 There is reason in
  that; for it is quite certain that nobody here would be of any greater use to
  you than they were before。〃
  〃Act for me then; please。          Explain that money is no object; and ask
  them to send the most accomplished and experienced men in the service。
  But    they   are  only   concerned     with    crime。   This    may   be    outside   their
  scope。〃
  〃We cannot say as to that。           We cannot even assert that this is not   a
  crime。     We know nothing。〃
  〃A crime needs a criminal; Mannering。〃
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  〃That    is  so;   but  what    would    be   criminal;    if  human    agency     were
  responsible for it; might; nevertheless; be the work of forces to which the
  word criminal cannot be applied。〃
  Sir Walter stared at him。
  〃Is it possible you suggest a supernatural cause for this?〃
  The doctor shook his head。
  〃Emphatically not; though I am not a materialist; as you are aware。 My
  generation of practitioners has little difficulty in reconciling our creed with
  our cult; though few of the younger men are able to do so; I admit。                     But
  science     is  science;    and    not   for   a  moment      do    I  imagine     anything
  supernatural here。       I think; however; there are unconscious forces at work;
  and those responsible for setting those forces in action would be criminals
  without a doubt; if they knew what they were doing。                  The man who fires
  a rifle at an animal; if he hits and kills it; is the destroyer; though he may
  operate   from   half   a   mile   away。   On   the   other   hand;   the   agents   may   be
  unconscious of what they are doing。〃
  'There is no human being in this house for whom I would not answer。〃
  〃 I know it。      We beat the wind。         It will be time enough to consider
  presently。     Indeed; I should rather that you strove to relieve your mind of
  the   problem。   You   have   enough   to   do   without   that。      Leave   it   to   those
  professionally trained in such mysteries。             If a man is responsible for this
  atrocious thing;   then   it   should   be   within   the   reach of   man's   wits   to   find
  him。     We failed before; but this time no casual examination of this place;
  or the antecedents of your son…in…law's life; will serve the purpose。                    We
  must go to the bottom; or; rather; skilled minds; trained to do so; must go
  to   the   bottom。    They   will   approach   the   subject   from   a   different   angle。
  They   will   come   unprejudiced   and   unperturbed。          If   there   has   been   f