第 13 节
作者:谁与争疯      更新:2021-02-19 00:36      字数:9322
  make on me。 The dream that comes to me just before waking up generally
  means something to me。 To dream of snakes has always been a
  bad omen to me。 When I first started out smashing; while in Wichita
  jail; I dreamed of two enormous snakes; one on one side of a road; the
  other on the other; one raised to strike me; the other made no move。 I
  was impressed that the one that was the most venomous and in the attitude
  of striking me with its fangs was the Republican party; and this
  has been my deadly foe。
  I will here relate a vision I had。 One cold night in March; 1889; I
  heard a groan across the hall。 It was about three o'clock in the morning。
  I found the sufferer to be an old gentleman who was having very severe
  cramps; so I went down to the kitchen to make a mustard plaster。 The
  hotel was a number of frame buildings; one having twenty…one rooms; and
  about five or six cottages around the main building。 We carried no insurance;
  and so many would say we had a 〃firetrap〃 there。 We had a mortgage
  on the place; and I was kept in terror constantly for fear of fire; and
  would often spring out of bed at night in my sleep; expecting to see a fire。
  I lit a candle; went down stairs through several dark halls。 Then
  I went upstairs again and gave the old man the plaster; afterwards returned
  to the kitchen; thinking probably I left the candle burning。 Things
  were all dark; but when I started up the stairs; there seemed to be
  a light shining behind me; which would come and go in flashes; as I
  ascended。 I looked everywhere to see where it came from; but discovered
  it to be an; unnatural manifestation; for I could not see to step nor
  move by it。 It followed me until I got to my room door。 It did not alarm
  me。 I felt the sweet; peaceful presence of God; I prayed to him and I
  could think of no reason for having this blessing from God; except that
  I had gotten up in the cold to relieve this suffering man。 I stood by my
  bed for a short time praying to God; and thanking him for his goodness to
  me。 I thought Mr。 Nation was asleep; but he afterwards told me that he
  heard me whispering。 I slept until late; and when I did go down to breakfast;
  Mr。 Nation and Alex; my son…in…law; were at the table。 I told them
  I had a warning last night; and if I had a Daniel or Joseph they could
  interpret a vision I had。 The peculiar vision of the light was repeated to
  them; but they paid very little attention to it; being very busy I thought
  no more of it that day。
  Just about three o'clock the next morning; I was awakened by the cry
  of fire。 Charlien screamed from the next room: 〃Mamma; the town is on
  fire。〃 I ran out and the whole heavens seemed to be on fire。 It had originated
  in a drugstore and was sweeping towards the hotel。 I immediately
  ran upstairs and began to pray。 I told God 〃There wasn't a dishonest dollar
  so; far as I knew in the house; and that He told me 〃to call on Him in
  a day of trouble;〃 and said; 〃this is my day of trouble; and begged He
  would hear me。 Many of the guests passed by; some of them with baggage
  in their hands and some still dressing。 I prayed until I seemed to get
  an answer of security。 One lady; Mrs。 Moore; the wife of a physician;
  who had boarded with me a long time; had a very elegant set of furniture;
  and she called to me several times to take my things out of the hotel。 She
  had two colored men moving her furniture I heard her say to several persons:
  〃That woman has lost her mind。〃 All the boarders had their trunks
  out and everyone was saying to me: 〃Why don't you try to save your
  furniture?〃 I would take hold of some things to take out; but it seemed
  something would intimate ; 〃Let it be。〃 I walked down the street and Mr。
  Blakely; one of the men who was killed in the Jaybird and Peckerwood battle
  in Richmond said: 〃Are you insured?〃
  I said: 〃Yes; up there;〃 pointing to Heaven。
  All fear was gone; and now in the time of almost certain danger I
  was confident of deliverance; when before I had been nervous; in time when
  all was secure。 At last the cry came in: 〃You are saved。〃 I went in the
  hotel office; sat down by the stove and Alex; my son…in…law; was by me。 I
  said to him: 〃Oh; Alex; my vision!〃 He looked almost paralyzed; for
  I had told him it was a warning and all the circumstances。 From that
  day to this I have never had any fear of fire。
  ENTERTAINING ANGELS UNAWARES。
  One noon I was busy with the guests and waiting on the tables; and
  going to the kitchen I saw sitting on the wood…box a poor dejected looking
  creature; a man about twenty…four years of age。 He asked me if I had any
  tinware to mend。 I told him; 〃No; but you can have your dinner。〃
  He said。 〃I don't want any。〃 He looked the picture of dispair。
  I said: 〃Don't go until I can speak to you。〃
  When I had time I told him I wanted some one to wash dishes。 He
  consented to stay; and I felt at that time I must care for that poor creature
  or he would die。 He stayed with us three years and proved to be a
  jewel。 All the rest of my help was colored; and generally speaking; white
  and colored help do not assimilate; but they all had profound respect for
  Smith。 He soon owned his horse and did the draying for the hotel。 Then
  he got to be a clerk; and bought pecans for the northern market。 All his
  family had died from consumption; and he was traveling for his health。
  He left us for Pierce's Sanitarium; Buffalo; N。 Y。; and stayed there some
  time for treatment。 He ran a little booth by the Niagara Bridge; and soon
  accumulated quite a little sum。 He became a Christian and married。 I
  often got letters from him expressing so much gratitude。 He was an
  infidel when he first came; and he said it was my influence that made him
  a Christian。
  I often had the Orthodox Jews to stop with me。 They ate nothing
  that contained lard; their food was mackerel; eggs; bread and coffee。 The
  rates were two dollars a day; but I charged them only one dollar; and
  allowed them to pay their bills with something that was in their 〃pack。〃
  My other guests would often regard them with almost scorn; but when
  they were at their meals I would wait on them myself; showing them this
  preference; for I could not but respect their sacrifice for the sake of
  their religion。 I have always treated the Jews with great respect。 Our
  Savior was a Jew and said: 〃Salvation is of the Jews。〃 They are a monument
  to the truth of the Scriptures; a people without a country; and
  though they are wanderers upon the face of the earth; they retain their
  characteristics more than any other people have ever done。 If an Italian;
  German or Frenchman comes to America; in a hundred years he becomes
  thoroughly an American; losing the peculiarities of his descent。 But
  wherever a Jew goes no matter how long be stays he remains a Jew。
  This can be said of no other people on earth。
  I know by experience that the Jews are tricksters; but they have
  almost been forced into their cupidity in getting money; yet the greatest
  promise of deliverance in the Bible is for that nation。 The foundation
  stones of heaven and the pearly gates are named for the twelve tribes。 No
  Christian should scorn a Jew。
  One day I was driving down the street of Richmond in a buggy; and
  Mr。 Blakely the merchant I dealt so much with; and also a member of
  the Methodist church; stopped me; saying that he had something to say
  to me: ;
  〃Your friends are becoming very uneasy about the state of your mind。
  You are thinking too much on religious subjects; and they asked me to
  warn you。〃 This gave me a blessed assurance; and I laughed very heartily;
  saying:
  〃Your words are indeed a blessing to me; for if I have a religion
  that the world understands; it is not a religion of the Bible。〃
  I was naturally ambitious and was very fond of nice furniture; china
  and dainty things; but I have lost all taste for these; and stopped making
  fashionable calls; for I have seen the vanity and wickedness in fashionable
  society and costly dressing。 I educated myself to look at things as I
  thought God would; and this change came about after that transaction
  between my soul and God; at the Methodist church; which I know was the
  〃Baptism of the Holy Ghost;〃 but did not know then what it was。 I had
  been born in the Christian church; and was taught that only the Apostles
  had received that gift。 I never knew what to call this experience until
  three years after when I went to Kansas; and had it explained to me by
  the Free Methodists; and where God gave me a witness that it was true。
  We had quite a drought in Texas; everything was parched and burning
  up; and great concern was felt by all。 Charlien said to me one day:
  〃Mamma why don't you pray for rain?〃
  I was so struck with the idea that I went to the church that night and
  proposed that we pray for rain。 So four ladies were elected to appoint
  a special meeting。 The minister's wife; Mrs。 Todd; Mrs。 Blakely and myself
  were the four。 We met and we said the first thing is to agree。 The
  minister's wife began to cry and said:
  〃I have read of so many thunderbolts lately; that I am almost afraid
  to pray;〃 and Mrs。 Blakely repeated the same; but I told the women this
  was doubting God in the beginning。
  〃 'If you ask for bread; will He give