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returned; with a letter wholly reserved as to its quality; but full of a
poetic gratitude for my wish to contribute to the Fortnightly。 Then I
heard that a certain Mr。 Lucas was about to start a magazine; and I
offered the poem to him。 The kindest letter of acceptance followed me to
America; and I counted upon fame and fortune as usual; when the news of
Mr。 Lucas's death came。 I will not poorly joke an effect from my poem in
the fact; but the fact remains。 By this time I was a writer in the
office of the 'Nation' newspaper; and after I left this place to be Mr。
Fields's assistant on the Atlantic; I sent my poem to the Nation; where
it was printed at last。 In such scant measure as my verses have pleased
it has found rather unusual favor; and I need not say that its
misfortunes endeared it to its author。
But all this is rather far away from my first meeting with Stedman in
Washington。 Of course I liked him; and I thought him very handsome and
fine; with a full beard cut in the fashion he has always worn it; and
with poet's eyes lighting an aquiline profile。 Afterwards; when I saw
him afoot; I found him of a worldly splendor in dress; and envied him;
as much as I could envy him anything; the New York tailor whose art had
clothed him: I had a New York tailor too; but with a difference。 He had
a worldly dash along with his supermundane gifts; which took me almost as
much; and all the more because I could see that he valued himself nothing
upon it。 He was all for literature; and for literary men as the
superiors of every one。 I must have opened my heart to him a good deal;
for when I told him how the newspaper I had written for from Canada and
New England had ceased to print my letters; he said; 〃Think of a man like
sitting in judgment on a man like you!〃 I thought of it; and was avenged
if not comforted; and at any rate I liked Stedman's standing up so
stiffly for the honor of a craft that is rather too limp in some of its
votaries。
I suppose it was he who introduced me to the Stoddards; whom I met in New
York just before I sailed; and who were then in the glow of their early
fame as poets。 They knew about my poor beginnings; and they were very;
very good to me。 Stoddard went with me to Franklin Square; and gave the
sanction of his presence to the ineffectual offer of my poem there。
But what I relished most was the long talks I had with them both about
authorship in all its phases; and the exchange of delight in this poem
and that; this novel and that; with gay; wilful runs away to make some
wholly irrelevant joke; or fire puns into the air at no mark whatever。
Stoddard had then a fame; with the sweetness of personal affection in it;
from the lyrics and the odes that will perhaps best keep him known; and
Mrs。 Stoddard was beginning to make her distinct and special quality felt
in the magazines; in verse and fiction。 In both it seems to me that she
has failed of the recognition which her work merits。 Her tales and
novels have in them a foretaste of realism; which was too strange for the
palate of their day; and is now too familiar; perhaps。 It is a peculiar
fate; and would form the scheme of a pretty study in the history of
literature。 But in whatever she did she left the stamp of a talent like
no other; and of a personality disdainful of literary environment。 In a
time when most of us had to write like Tennyson; or Longfellow; or
Browning; she never would write like any one but herself。
I remember very well the lodging over a corner of Fourth Avenue and some
downtown street where I visited these winning and gifted people; and
tasted the pleasure of their racy talk; and the hospitality of their
good…will toward all literature; which certainly did not leave me out。
We sat before their grate in the chill of the last October days; and they
set each other on to one wild flight of wit after another; and again I
bathed my delighted spirit in the atmosphere of a realm where for the
time at least no
〃rumor of oppression or defeat;
Of unsuccessful or successful war;〃
could penetrate。 I liked the Stoddards because they were frankly not of
that Bohemia which I disliked so much; and thought it of no promise or
validity; and because I was fond of their poetry and found them in it。
I liked the absolutely literary keeping of their lives。 He had then;
and for long after; a place in the Custom house; but he was no more of
that than Lamb was of India House。 He belonged to that better world
where there is no interest but letters; and which was as much like heaven
for me as anything I could think of。
The meetings with the Stoddards repeated themselves when I came back to
sail from New York; early in November。 Mixed up with the cordial
pleasure of them in my memory is a sense of the cold and wet outdoors;
and the misery of being in those infamous New York streets; then as for
long afterwards the squalidest in the world。 The last night I saw my
friends they told me of the tragedy which had just happened at the camp
in the City Hall Park。 Fitz James O'Brien; the brilliant young Irishman
who had dazzled us with his story of 〃The Diamond Lens;〃 and frozen our
blood with his ingenious tale of a ghost〃What was It〃a ghost that
could be felt and heard; but not seenhad enlisted for the war; and
risen to be an officer with the swift process of the first days of it。
In that camp he had just then shot and killed a man for some infraction
of discipline; and it was uncertain what the end would be。 He was
acquitted; however; and it is known how he afterwards died of lockjaw
from a wound received in battle。
VI。
Before this last visit in New York there was a second visit to Boston;
which I need not dwell upon; because it was chiefly a revival of the
impressions of the first。 Again I saw the Fieldses in their home; again
the Autocrat in his; and Lowell now beneath his own roof; beside the
study fire where I was so often to sit with him in coming years。 At
dinner (which we had at two o'clock) the talk turned upon my appointment;
and he said of me to his wife: 〃Think of his having got Stillman's place!
We ought to put poison in his wine;〃 and he told me of the wish the
painter had to go to Venice and follow up Ruskin's work there in a book
of his own。 But he would not let me feel very guilty; and I will not
pretend that I had any personal regret for my good fortune。
The place was given me perhaps because I had not nearly so many other
gifts as he who lost it; and who was at once artist; critic; journalist;
traveller; and eminently each。 I met him afterwards in Rome; which the
powers bestowed upon him instead of Venice; and he forgave me; though I
do not know whether he forgave the powers。 We walked far and long over
the Campagna; and I felt the charm of a most uncommon mind in talk which
came out richest and fullest in the presence of the wild nature which he
loved and knew so much better than most other men。 I think that the book
he would have written about Venice is forever to be regretted; and I do
not at all console myself for its loss with the book I have written
myself。
At Lowell's table that day they spoke of what sort of winter I should
find in Venice; and he inclined to the belief that I should want a fire
there。 On his study hearth a very brisk one burned when we went back to
it; and kept out the chill of a cold easterly storm。 We looked through
one of the windows at the rain; and he said he could remember standing
and looking out of that window at such a storm when he was a child; for
he was born in that house; and his life had kept coming back to it。 He
died in it; at last。
In a lifting of the rain he walked with me down to the village; as he
always called the denser part of the town about Harvard Square; and saw
me aboard a horse…car for Boston。 Before we parted he gave me two
charges: to open my mouth when I began to speak Italian; and to think
well of women。 He said that our race spoke its own tongue with its teeth
shut; and so failed to master the languages that wanted freer utterance。
As to women; he said there were unworthy ones; but a good woman was the
best thing in the world; and a man was always the better for honoring
women。
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