第 18 节
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  returned; with a letter wholly reserved as to its quality; but full of a
  poetic gratitude for my wish to contribute to the Fortnightly。  Then I
  heard that a certain Mr。 Lucas was about to start a magazine; and I
  offered the poem to him。  The kindest letter of acceptance followed me to
  America; and I counted upon fame and fortune as usual; when the news of
  Mr。 Lucas's death came。  I will not poorly joke an effect from my poem in
  the fact; but the fact remains。  By this time I was a writer in the
  office of the 'Nation' newspaper; and after I left this place to be Mr。
  Fields's assistant on the Atlantic; I sent my poem to the Nation; where
  it was printed at last。  In such scant measure as my verses have pleased
  it has found rather unusual favor; and I need not say that its
  misfortunes endeared it to its author。
  But all this is rather far away from my first meeting with Stedman in
  Washington。  Of course I liked him; and I thought him very handsome and
  fine; with a full beard cut in the fashion he has always worn it; and
  with poet's eyes lighting an aquiline profile。  Afterwards; when I saw
  him afoot; I found him of a worldly splendor in dress; and envied him;
  as much as I could envy him anything; the New York tailor whose art had
  clothed him: I had a New York tailor too; but with a difference。  He had
  a worldly dash along with his supermundane gifts; which took me almost as
  much; and all the more because I could see that he valued himself nothing
  upon it。  He was all for literature; and for literary men as the
  superiors of every one。  I must have opened my heart to him a good deal;
  for when I told him how the newspaper I had written for from Canada and
  New England had ceased to print my letters; he said; 〃Think of a man like
  sitting in judgment on a man like you!〃 I thought of it; and was avenged
  if not comforted; and at any rate I liked Stedman's standing up so
  stiffly for the honor of a craft that is rather too limp in some of its
  votaries。
  I suppose it was he who introduced me to the Stoddards; whom I met in New
  York just before I sailed; and who were then in the glow of their early
  fame as poets。  They knew about my poor beginnings; and they were very;
  very good to me。  Stoddard went with me to Franklin Square; and gave the
  sanction of his presence to the ineffectual offer of my poem there。
  But what I relished most was the long talks I had with them both about
  authorship in all its phases; and the exchange of delight in this poem
  and that; this novel and that; with gay; wilful runs away to make some
  wholly irrelevant joke; or fire puns into the air at no mark whatever。
  Stoddard had then a fame; with the sweetness of personal affection in it;
  from the lyrics and the odes that will perhaps best keep him known; and
  Mrs。 Stoddard was beginning to make her distinct and special quality felt
  in the magazines; in verse and fiction。  In both it seems to me that she
  has failed of the recognition which her work merits。  Her tales and
  novels have in them a foretaste of realism; which was too strange for the
  palate of their day; and is now too familiar; perhaps。  It is a peculiar
  fate; and would form the scheme of a pretty study in the history of
  literature。  But in whatever she did she left the stamp of a talent like
  no other; and of a personality disdainful of literary environment。  In a
  time when most of us had to write like Tennyson; or Longfellow; or
  Browning; she never would write like any one but herself。
  I remember very well the lodging over a corner of Fourth Avenue and some
  downtown street where I visited these winning and gifted people; and
  tasted the pleasure of their racy talk; and the hospitality of their
  good…will toward all literature; which certainly did not leave me out。
  We sat before their grate in the chill of the last October days; and they
  set each other on to one wild flight of wit after another; and again I
  bathed my delighted spirit in the atmosphere of a realm where for the
  time at least no
  〃rumor of oppression or defeat;
  Of unsuccessful or successful war;〃
  could penetrate。  I liked the Stoddards because they were frankly not of
  that Bohemia which I disliked so much; and thought it of no promise or
  validity; and because I was fond of their poetry and found them in it。
  I liked the absolutely literary keeping of their lives。  He had then;
  and for long after; a place in the Custom house; but he was no more of
  that than Lamb was of India House。  He belonged to that better world
  where there is no interest but letters; and which was as much like heaven
  for me as anything I could think of。
  The meetings with the Stoddards repeated themselves when I came back to
  sail from New York; early in November。  Mixed up with the cordial
  pleasure of them in my memory is a sense of the cold and wet outdoors;
  and the misery of being in those infamous New York streets; then as for
  long afterwards the squalidest in the world。  The last night I saw my
  friends they told me of the tragedy which had just happened at the camp
  in the City Hall Park。  Fitz James O'Brien; the brilliant young Irishman
  who had dazzled us with his story of 〃The Diamond Lens;〃 and frozen our
  blood with his ingenious tale of a ghost〃What was It〃a ghost that
  could be felt and heard; but not seenhad enlisted for the war; and
  risen to be an officer with the swift process of the first days of it。
  In that camp he had just then shot and killed a man for some infraction
  of discipline; and it was uncertain what the end would be。  He was
  acquitted; however; and it is known how he afterwards died of lockjaw
  from a wound received in battle。
  VI。
  Before this last visit in New York there was a second visit to Boston;
  which I need not dwell upon; because it was chiefly a revival of the
  impressions of the first。  Again I saw the Fieldses in their home; again
  the Autocrat in his; and Lowell now beneath his own roof; beside the
  study fire where I was so often to sit with him in coming years。  At
  dinner (which we had at two o'clock) the talk turned upon my appointment;
  and he said of me to his wife: 〃Think of his having got Stillman's place!
  We ought to put poison in his wine;〃 and he told me of the wish the
  painter had to go to Venice and follow up Ruskin's work there in a book
  of his own。  But he would not let me feel very guilty; and I will not
  pretend that I had any personal regret for my good fortune。
  The place was given me perhaps because I had not nearly so many other
  gifts as he who lost it; and who was at once artist; critic; journalist;
  traveller; and eminently each。  I met him afterwards in Rome; which the
  powers bestowed upon him instead of Venice; and he forgave me; though I
  do not know whether he forgave the powers。  We walked far and long over
  the Campagna; and I felt the charm of a most uncommon mind in talk which
  came out richest and fullest in the presence of the wild nature which he
  loved and knew so much better than most other men。  I think that the book
  he would have written about Venice is forever to be regretted; and I do
  not at all console myself for its loss with the book I have written
  myself。
  At Lowell's table that day they spoke of what sort of winter I should
  find in Venice; and he inclined to the belief that I should want a fire
  there。  On his study hearth a very brisk one burned when we went back to
  it; and kept out the chill of a cold easterly storm。  We looked through
  one of the windows at the rain; and he said he could remember standing
  and looking out of that window at such a storm when he was a child; for
  he was born in that house; and his life had kept coming back to it。  He
  died in it; at last。
  In a lifting of the rain he walked with me down to the village; as he
  always called the denser part of the town about Harvard Square; and saw
  me aboard a horse…car for Boston。  Before we parted he gave me two
  charges: to open my mouth when I began to speak Italian; and to think
  well of women。  He said that our race spoke its own tongue with its teeth
  shut; and so failed to master the languages that wanted freer utterance。
  As to women; he said there were unworthy ones; but a good woman was the
  best thing in the world; and a man was always the better for honoring
  women。
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